| 30.4.03 |
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today was as sleepy as ever...
day din start off too well... got niao-ed by that minnie woman... haiz... not the first time lor... really dunnoe wad i did to deserve it... day went by... trying very hard not to fall asleep during lessons... tiring leh... seriously mentally exhausted... maybe its just stress lah... coz of the pending chem test... which i simply have to redeem myself from the yucky F i got the previous time... oni prb is that my whole of organic chem pretty much sucked... coz i copied every tutorial.... argh! will log off early tonite... have to do well ya know??? kinda betted with alwin lai... that i'll do better than him... or else have to treat him chicky rice... kinda in a bid to push myself... so... to save 2 bucks! i have to study hard! interviewed the J1s today... very fun... first time conducting interview... woohoo! did with 3 different teachers... liew... can see their style differs so much... proud of my intellectual questions... woohoo! but not bad lah... the JC1s... hope they'll do well.. went out to eat with council... sat at mac.... jiaen switched on his laptop... and the 7 of us just ate and watched o1 VCD... damn cool... just sat there laughing.. talking... crapping... think we're really great together... it felt damn good... feel bad for not eating dinner at home... but felt good to be with the councillors... doing the most mundane things... kk... really have to go study... nite! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:08 --Link to Post |
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Dear Sailors,
I have spoken to Todd Valdich of SSC strength and conditioning coach. He would like to meet up with you sailors on Saturday, 10 May, at 1000hrs for a brief and 1st gym session at KATC (Kallang Atheletes Training Centre) . Please be properly attired for gym work out. Training will be on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Minimum attendance is twice a week, as he reckons that our once a week PT on Saturday is not enough. Each of you will be given a training dairy to log your training schedule and workouts in the gym.Please let me know if you are able to attend this session. Thank you. Regards, AF this isnt good... twice a week for gym... water training during weekends... gosh... i really dunnoe how to manage... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:46 --Link to Post |
| 29.4.03 |
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was watching alias and smallville yesterdae...
while doing my physics' analogue electronics... *bleah* i mean the physics... smallville was superb with clark kent zooming everywhere... and alias was power puffed with her swift moves... caught this quote from her... which i think would be pretty useful when i do feel tired during training.. 'there is no better drug than adrenalin...' which i think is pretty true... when i'm planning with the high winds... i really dont feel the strain in the arms... its really pure adrenalin... just pumping thru you... really really very tired today... was practically trying hard not to sleep during the lectures and tutorials.. *pengz*... think me will go sleep early today... after i found all my chem notes... will start chem tmr liaoz... really have to pia... promised to be prepared to study with lala on thurs... klass project for the heroes of SARS going pretty well... nice to see the guys fussing over small details like where to staple and stuff.. cool to see them all helping out... esp when i just came back from a heated EC meeting... see them all sprawled on the floor... doing one thing or another... am going up to the podium tomorrow... to pin a ribbon for mrs tay... just hope she lets me do it... and that i dont poke her with it... andrew emailed us today... saying that the big shots of SSF wanna meet us on sat morning.. but thing is... few of us got test on sat... then how? i also dunnoe.. cant wait for sat too actually... for training with my ouxiang!!! so happie... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:46 --Link to Post |
| 28.4.03 |
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today's pretty crazy...
been acting totally out of character... really... just simply AA lor... dunno why also... maybe its the good mood that was carried over from the weekend training... which was soon dampened by the fatique and the mounting loads of work... pple ard me all working very hard liaoz... cass is like tutorials all the way now... and everyone else embarked on chem some way or another... and here i am... blogging away... trying to make this quick... i HAVE to blog... it's an addiction liaoz... but did quite alot of work liaoz lah... compared to last time... but this homework craze came at a crazy time... oni after more than a year... and when my schedule is killer than i start to pia... abit too late rite??? but i'm trying.. thats all i can say... walked to MRT with KT shi2 and shouwen after sch today... me had craving for ice cream mah... so me and sw bought some and sat to eat for awhile... uploaded some of the latest scandals and gossips... woohoo! was heng lor... after we went off... its started raining... hahha... so lucky.... or else will get ice cream float... really am looking forward to next training... hehhe... you know why lah... my ouxiang on the team leh.... of coz i more enthu and will work harder during training lah... even if hands cannot tahan anymore still must hold on... sunday was like dat lor... wind was strong... hands wanna break liaoz... but wh still pia-ing... so of coz i cannot give up... just continue... still cant carve a proper gybe... trying... but cant seem to maintain the speed in the board to complete the gybe... sam did a few really pretty ones... but fell in also... i din really fall in that day... coz wasnt doing things really properly also... wind so strong... fall in oni can uphaul... waste energy... but if i continue thinking this way... i'll never improve!!! so must ke fu... kanbate!!! think the earliest me can train is on sat after chem test lor... woohoo!!! can see my ouxiang... so happie!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:25 --Link to Post |
| 27.4.03 |
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realised something...
din really tell alot of pple abt my blog... so except for those who happened to surf in... the oni pple who know are those from my klass... well.. i think having a small audience is a good thing... haiz... aint attractive enough to rake in a high viewership... sour grapes laioz... muahahah... but really... coz you can then say things closer to heart... and not hold back... coz you know... that pple who are indeed reading this... is one of your best pals... and even those who surfed in and stayed on... really are pple who'll make good friends... so here i am... thanks guys... when i'm depressed or down... you never fail to flood me with your sweet SMSes... encouraging tags... and little pats-on-the-back in school... like [L]un who will catch me when i fall... PC who will sms me... lala who will siao with me over my little crushes... El Santo with his sometimes nice, sometimes horrid remarks... CK for offering to help me with work... and all the other pple who i forgot to mention... you guys rulz.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:45 --Link to Post |
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woohoo!
unlike yesterdae... training today was superb... winds were good... and alot of pple training with us today... so... we had andrew on his power boat... my team of five... then my idol on lili's sail... shuzhen on raceboard... adrian... and leeching coming to train with us... actually come to think of it... training really siong today... even wearn how commented to andrew... 'your kids very tough ah...' we HAVE to be lor... c'mon... see how he train us... machaam we no need sleep no need eat like dat... today kept sailing near wearn how... dunnoe becoz we equally lan4 or that me subconciously following him... but damn happie leh... managed to overtake him by loads... even though his muscles big big... but still lose me... but hey... he's a newbie... so actually... i'm pretty lan4 to be behind him in the first place... grr.... but today was good lah... was planning really fast... and doing a good port-side upwind... woohoo! think my configurations on that side was better... kept myself ahead of sam... so was ahead of the pack at one point of the time... until sam overtook me on the starboard... then was second... wearn how very farnie today... kept banging into pple... but he very nice leh... when we were washing up... he helped me de-rig my sail... and put back for me... aww... but he did it for all the slow pple lah... so its no big deal... but he's really nice rite??? so happie that he's going continue training with us... good to have a REAL gentleman on the team... he actually offered to give us a ride back... coz he drove... but in the end... me borrowed andrew's bike then cycled back to PFSSC... crazy leh... cycle 3.5km bare-footed... the pedal damn painful lor... somemore the guys shirtless... and WQ in her bikini... lucky i had my shirt on today... or else i would rather swim back man! so happie...so happie! got more pple on the team liaoz... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:00 --Link to Post |
| 26.4.03 |
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had BBQ with seniors after training today...
dont really like BBQs... coz i would almost inevitably end up at the pit... and stay there coz inconsiderate pple wont come and relieve me... haiz... but at least today i had andrew, shuzhen, looney for company at the pit... WQ was her usual socialising self... sam and SK only know how to eat... then the seniors think that the juniors must cook for them... grr... dont care... went on strike after a while... many pple were there today lah.. dr ben and dr ma from CGH... rachel and kerwan... heeyong... leeching... lili and gerald... andrew and wearn how... shuzhen... and my team of 5 lor... its pretty cool lah.. it'll be our last gathering there... since the place is going to torn down on monday... all of us moved out to different clubs liaoz... so i guess the oni place we'll be seeing each other is on the waters lor... heehee... i'll miss the shed... really.. although its our torture chamber with all the yucky strengthening exercises done there... it is a place of alot of memories... with everyone... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:38 --Link to Post |
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haiz...
terrible training day today... started off with PT... but ankle acted up... so stopped at abt 2 km and after 50 squats and 50 step ups... then walked to seasports... sucky... felt so lan4... the guys chiong-ing like dat... then WQ also pretty good... then i'm a freaking lame... haiz... but did strengthening over at our shed... 100 bench pulls...100 IFAP with legs on chair...100 sit-ups... where's the abs andrew promised me??? but the things that have to use arm power one i could only do in sets of 5... couldnt take it... arm really weak... esp since we're doin the same weights as the guys... cycled back to nsc on andrews bike... and the poor guy had to run... and the rest also... carrying booms...masts and batons... hahhaa... i was already pretty freaked by the extra high bike seat... so andrew ask me not to carry anything... sad... felt so useless... water training was even worse... ended up at the back of the pack... wearn how was on andrews boat... and the kept coming ard asking whether i need to rest coz of my ankle... feel so lan4!!! but said no... and carried on... until a certain point of time when i couldnt take it... wearn how used my sail... and tried sailing abt.... no wind... so he kinda did stupid things and ended up in the water alot of times... realised his hair pretty long... muahha... in the end... andrew went on my sail too... then wearn how brought me on a long ride in the power boat... shiok... but din talk to him much... not in my character to crap to pple i dun really know... esp my IDOL!!! but oh well... sam tore his sail AGAIN... did pretty badly today... coz no wind... then pump also no resistance... very xin ku... haiz... really feel lan4 to the core... andrew managed to catch up with sam... but once i took over the sail again... the distance was like almost 500 metres lor... *b|az faints... i'm that lousy... by the time we reached seasports already 5... the no wind... so put our stuff there... tmr then sail back... so 7 of us... andrew, wearnhow, WQ, SK, looney, sam and i... and two shortboards...two booms...two sails.... squeezed into the teeny boat... and went back NSC... crapped alot on the way... think me very bad... never call andrew Coach or anything like dat.. i call him ANDREW FOO... =P dont care... he must get my respect first then i'll respect him... oh yarh... wearn how used my sail on friday... and guess wat??? he broke two of my batons!!!! grr... argh.... changed all of my settings... =P but cant really blame him... first time on mistral... coz formular no need take out batons one... left my batons in the slot... stretched my sail leh... piangz the sail my laogong lor... like tat bully... how can? =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:03 --Link to Post |
| 25.4.03 |
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submitting this for the sch newsletter...
opinions anyone?? and does any one know the name of that bridge... coz seriously.. i dun... Windsurfing- Penang Swimming Club Centenary Regatta 2003 5th of March 2003 saw my team of six, including my coach, packing our bags for the annual windsurfing Regatta at the prestigious Penang club. It is my first overseas competition and as expected, the jitters came on as soon as we crossed the Penang Bridge, famed for its architecture. Racing conditions there were very much unlike that of Singapore. The winds were stronger, the waves were higher and the heat, almost unbearable. But the thing that was constantly at the back of our minds were the jellyfishes lurking beneath the green-blue sea. Long ones, short ones, in small, medium or large. The extreme conditions got the team morale pretty low, but as the cliché goes, ‘unity in adversity’, it did bring our team closer together. One occasion that really touched me was when we sat for dinner with Japanese and Korean windsurfers. Dinner was fine dining at a Chinese restaurant, but as all hungry windsurfers are, we adjourned for more carbo-loading at the nearby food center. Although there was a distinct language barrier, we managed to converse over unusual topics ranging from chopsticks to earthquakes and managed a few jokes as well. As the Regatta was a prelude to a much larger event, the Mistral Asian Windsurfing Championships, many chose not to take part in the former, to save their best for the championships. Despite that, my team raced along with former Asian Games medallists from Indonesia and Thailand, and other local windsurfers. It was a great experience and we came back to Singapore, with lessons learnt, friendships strengthened and our hands, erm, blistered. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:31 --Link to Post |
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just had a great shower...
hahaha... only have time to really scrub down on fridays when there's no homework due the next day... used the biore facial scrub... and a nice pH Labs grapfruit sugar scrub... which smells really nice... and the sugar will dissolve after awhile... so it's quite cool... but must wash properly lah.. or else ants will visit me at nite... *laugh now...its supposed to be farnie... washed hair with organics 'hair spa' with essential oil... and conditioned with vidal sasoon's conditioner... hair condition quite bad coz of frequent sun exposure and stuff... skin damn bad coz of oil in sunblock... argh! *blames widnsurfing* how convenient... but look at sam... he still has good skin...nice hair... grr.... not fair!!! $%&!*'&^$()%#)&)$!!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:11 --Link to Post |
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freaking tired today...
yesterdae slept early... so din do chem stuff... came to sch.... slept in the CR... think me drooled on myself... hope no one saw... muahhaha... day was pretty much of rushing ard... celebrated pinjin's b-dae... a farnie miscommunication got him two b-dae cakes from the klass... so we had a big choc cake... and a small mango cake... but dun think we mind... coz we finished every single morsel of it... morning assembly got me up in the podium today... kinda hesistant abt it... but mr lim kw said it was only rite to show the results of my absence... got nice congrats... but really... i din do THAT much to deserve it... just that i'm one of the very FEW windsurfers ard... esp in singapore... am pretty happie that i'm kinda picking myself up in terms of work... slowly doing wads expected of me and more... i feel good abt myself... and i hope this discipline can keep up... but i dont think it will for long... andrew kinda managed to get the sports council behind us... so soon... i'll be doing gym at least 2 weeknites a week... and on the water during the weekends... it sounds cool... but really is not... even though yesterdae training wasnt THAT tough... was feeling the after effects full force today... muscle aches and all.. found andrews elbow on forearm treatment esp useful... so was kinda doing it during lessons and all.. so its not so bad now... but the question of how i'm going to do my work remains... i hope i can manage... think i'll find a chance to speak to wearn how abt how he managed... its not easy to attain wat he has... which is what got me idolising him in the first place... even if he did not get those medals... not get straight As for exams... just amazing how he manages the stress and workload... impressive... if only i could be half as good... YH mentioned today that my CCA points would be sky high... considering i'm both in council and windsurfing as well.. its kinda true... but seriously... it's the only positive thing i'm getting after the long sleepless nites with my tutorials and proposals.... i'm trying hard... i am.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:45 --Link to Post |
| 24.4.03 |
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its been quite crazy actually...
2am for two consecutives nites... dad was flipping mad that i was still going for training... lucky i slept before the man u-real madrid thingy started... or else he'll really ban me from going to NSC... he was really nice today though... taking time off from work to send me to ECP... he din even eat his lunch... had to eat the awful fried rice at the NSC's canteen... which i couldnt swallow after PT one training... day in sch to day was pretty cool... PE was... did almost all of the 6 items in prep for napfa... except the shuttle run... did the 2.4 km in abt 13:56... which is pretty terrible... coz when i was just fresh from the dec torture camp... i was doing a 13:12... darn! i'm sliding at the wrong time... really need to get gold.. working on my jumps and everything else... coz i'm usually oni of bronze/silver calibre... but we're trying to get ourselves recognized as national... so a gold will do me good... *b|az prays again... only pray when i need things... how pragmatic... rushed over to NSC after the last NMR lecture... which happened to be the first i understood... so happie! uncle edwin saw me... and named me 'one of the regulars'... c'mon... tell that to andrew... i bet he thinks otherwise... sam tore his sail again... i think the way he's pumping his sail... he'll tear all the sails he use... pretty disappointed with my performance today... andrew made us train without the harness bar.... hcih meant that we have to hold on with our brute strength... of which i have none... in the end... hooked the bar back on... coz arms were cramping up liaoz... couldnt take it no more... felt very inferior to sam and WQ... tink me so lousy... =~( but happie things come after yucky things... wearn how's back from london!!! my idol...ya know??? woohoo! and he's going to start training with us really soon... he looks really different since i last saw him in penang... i think better ya??? tink lala's gonna poke me seeing how fickle i am... gushing over sam...wearnhow...and a few others... but it's just a passing phase.. it'll pass... oh yar... alot of pple cut hair liaoz.. JH shaved... yeehaun did a nice 'i-dunnoe-what-you-call-that' cut... andrew cutted his floppy hair... i tink he looks better now... i think YC cutted hair also... and aloOOOoot of girls in council also cut... inspired? nah... cant carry it off... dont have beautiful locks like these pple... =P mr lim kw was really nice today... helping me with the intersch reg... officially excusing me from afternoon PE... asking me to run faster... and stuff... he kinda scolded these 3 guys for ponning PE... very fiercely... then i looked for him... so scared he'll scream at me too... but he din... even smile smile joke joke... he's great... you know tat? ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:50 --Link to Post |
| 23.4.03 |
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pretty day...
...blue skies and all woohoo! day passed pretty fast... council GM very fast got everybody got their respective meetings... lucky elects' camp not meeting today... so was just sitting in for leadership comm's meeting... giving them ideas... then staying up late last nite boosted my morale lots... went to klass prepared... and not too stressed over ms goh looking over my shoulder and realising i've done nuts... had a good ride home with lala... crapped lotsa... and settled pinjin's prezzie liaoz... his b-dae's on friday... hope he'll like the stuff we got him... spent a long time contemplating... and choosing the gift... trying to get more pple to share the cost... coz we kinda got carried away.. mauahhahaha... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:41 --Link to Post |
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Dear all,
We have been given the green light to facilitate the gym at SSC. This means regular gym work out and attendance. We are finally getting some attention from Andrew Sanders. Dave Shepard will be coming down next weekend, Saturday for a phycology session. We will need to arange a time frame to slot us into this session. As all of you are free on Saturdays, please be early for the session. Time will be confirmed again. Fahma from SSC is keen to do a talk on nutrition basics. Probably on a week end too. Guys, you're in for some mental intake, so sleep well on the night before and look sharp! Regarding gym training, it will be 3 times weekly from 7pm till 10 pm. We can knock off about 9pm. We will need to approach the specialist in charge and talk to him regarding this workout. I will be arranging one of our weekday training days to allow us to meet up with him. AF *b|az shakes head... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:35 --Link to Post |
| 22.4.03 |
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today sucks big time...
its like suddenly this truck load of homework comes down upon you.... you just pengz lor... really... din wanna come online actually.... w/ all the homework and the mess my ad-hoc is in.... but really have to get this off my chest.... went for a jog... trying to vent everything... but it din work i guess... just got really boiled at the thought of everything... b4 pple start thinking me as a two headed freak who smile at you in sch... but bleah everything here... i must say i'm not.... i'm reflecting here and sometimes i do realise that my disaappointment is uncalled for... so i take everything back... to be fair to all... argh!!! just let me sleep it off... but brighter side of the day... shouwen was really nice today... coz there was a meeting in the CR today... all the chairs were pretty much taken up.... but i had to do something inside... coz of 20th SC interview... had to kneel on floor and use the table... but shouwen was nice enuff to give up his chair for me... thanx shouwen... din expect it.... but appreciated it alot... just hope i'll be able to get all the proposals mailed to mr lim by 8pm... we're supposed to meet him tomorrow... but everything's in a mess... esp my homework... borrowed siaowen's complex II to refer... she kinda ask me to make sure i understand before doing... i understand her intentions... but it kinda hit me the wrong way... i really needed help... my work is simply going monotone downhill... sometimes i wished i guess had more time on my hands.... yesterdae was knocked out at 0030.... couldnt survive longer than that... left alot of things undone... so i'm done for today.... slept abit in the bus... while reading proposals... just hope i can finish wad i need to.... am crumbling under the pressure... really... God help me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:26 --Link to Post |
| 21.4.03 |
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just concluded my online meeting....
phew... its quite difficult ya.... but its even more difficult to find time to meet in sch.... settled some stuff with the elects' camp pple... realised that it's pretty tough to be overall i/c... but actually its not that bad too... coz i dont need to write proposals... just liase with teacher and vet stuff.... think me abit soft with the deadlines... but bo pian... dont wanna stress them too much.... try to give them as much time as possible... thanx lenny... for the nice pat on the back... although it was a short msg... it was an affirmation of my work... you're doing good too... lets add oil together... elects' camp is in abt a month... just hope the SARS thing doesnt get worse and ruin it all for us... it already sabotaged some of our plans... working ard it is the most difficult part... add oil ad-hoc... we can do it.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:59 --Link to Post |
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as having a major identity crisis during AJ Radio this morning...
where me and gracie will play songs over the pA system for the sch... and do the usual DJ-ing stuff... i think in one morning... i called myself like countless names... 'i am... 1. stephanie...(then i realised i'm actually Sleepy in our morning show...) 2. dopey...(which is actually grace's character...) 3. stef...(which is really stupid...i just ruined all thats left of my reputation...) 4. sleepy...(finally...the right one...) but had a good time playing my favs from the that thing you do OST... i find it cool.... hope those in AJ did too... day was pretty quick actually... =P a round of lectures that i can never understand... interesting GP lesson.... where mr wee caught alvin staring at girls... double labs... then pon PE.... to go for enable lecture... actually pretty lucky to be in thre.... supposed to be for C/D graders oni... i'm a F... but teacher put me inside... so i'm glad... and grateful... finally understood std deviation... thanx merv... helped me lots... actually coz i really couldnt digest wads in there.... spend the bus ride home reading up on it... glad it was constructive.... though was pretty *bleah* at the couple standing right in front of me... dunnoe what sec sch... engaging in some really touchy stuff... eeks... you know wad i really admire? couples who can be with each other for ages already... yet still have the respect for each other not to step into each other boundaries... esp in public... i dunnoe how to explain... but it just embodies the true meaning of being together... to be there for someone... gosh... wad i am crapping??? better get going... need to bathe and come back for an online meeting.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:48 --Link to Post |
| 20.4.03 |
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lizard just moved in...
today saw a lizard on the wall... aint good... coz never seen one in this flat since we moved in more than 5 years ago... and its a small lizard... as the theory goes... got small one... means got big one... aint good... i kinda screamed... coz if there was anything i was really afraid of... its creepy crawlies on my skin... so the ants yesterdae really got my nerves... msg-ed andrew abt not going for training today... dad din want me to go... esp when he saw how much pain i was in yesterdae... but andrew din take it that well i guess... just replied with a 'ok, noted'... yesterdae's was a 'ok, rest well'... i dunnoe whether he understood or not... just hope he does... coz i'm really doing as much as i can... not planning to tell dad abt PE tomorrow.. if there was something i could do... it was not to miss PE at least... am already very unfit compared to the guys on the team... i dont wanna beat them... just wanna beat the steorotyping... lun saw the photo of me and sam... said sam was good-looking! woohoo! second vote of affirmation... hahah... why am i so happy??? he's saying sam good-looking... not me... muahaha... dunnoe... pretty out of sync... was reading the new paper yesterdae... thrashy paper ya... but their coverage on the 'other' side of war is pretty cool... yesterdae was this shoeshine boy working for a living.. seriously... when you hear a 10year old speak like that... u can see how difficult their lives are... its heart-wrenching... so read on... i think i almost teared... ohh.. i mean get the paper and read for yourself... i think i tear very easily... alot of things make me cry... let's try listing... sad movies...pain...bottled feelings...confrontations...self reflections...memories...stress...pressure... dont think i look it... the type who'd break down easily... and succumb to stuff like these... but i do... argh... sometimes i do hope i wont cry... that i would be able to control my emotions more effectively... that i would grow up and stop expecting the world to be perfect... that i would stop this blatant refusal to accept the real world... sometimes i really dunnoe... i make myself sound so faultless... when i am, in fact, a total failure... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:17 --Link to Post |
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Honeydew:
Sophisicated character. you have high tendency to develope crush on people. Do not always fall for them eventually. Leaving you with many loose mess to clear up. You are a sweet-talker. Attracting many people. As much as your sweet-talking is, your committment is as little. Potray yourself as Mr Goody and Girl Next Door very well. Inside of you is however, very wild. You do not accept changes easily and is a mysterious person. muahahaha... i think this is bad.... easily infatuated... ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:18 --Link to Post |
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Five For Fighting_-_Superman
I can’t stand to fly I’m not that naive I’m just out to find The better part of me I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane More than some pretty face beside a train It’s not easy to be me Wish that I could cry Fall upon my knees Find a way to lie About a home I’ll never see It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive Even Heroes have the right to bleed I may be disturbed…but won’t you conceed Even Heroes have the right to dream It’s not easy to be me Up, up and away…away from me It’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight I’m not crazy…or anything… I can’t stand to fly I’m not that naive Men weren’t meant to ride With clouds between their knees I’m only a man in a silly red sheet Digging for kryptonite on this one way street Only a man in a funny red sheet Looking for special things inside of me It’s not easy to be me. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:09 --Link to Post |
| 19.4.03 |
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http://www.freewebs.com/octoball/sam_and_i.jpg
sam and i... heheh... he was holding the camera... its kinda yucky coz so close... and i was having a breakout coz of the sunblock i had to use... or else peely skin would be much worse than this... sam looks good here ya??? i think so! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:59 --Link to Post |
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hey pple...
think i freaked some of you with the entry below... but i'm pretty fine now... under medication... and the pain din return... i hope it wont.. so thanks for your concern... =) just came back from dinner with family... had some nice peranakan fare... was pretty cheap for a restaurant... so we're pretty glad... had my fav papaya titek... a peppery stew with papayas, prawns and abit of salted fish.... really love it lots... i guess it kinda made my day... k k... have to get down to work liaoz.. got WITS stuff to do... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:47 --Link to Post |
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Rainy day today...
...but far from lovely been one crazy morning... stupid physics test which i worked so hard for... in the end... everything dunnoe... and din even finish the paper... then dunnoe why got a couple of ants crawling all over me during the test... grr... think me chose the wrong seat... end up itching all over... with or w/o ants... but after test was bad... had this sudden severe pain in the left abdomen... was freaking painful... couldnt even walk straight... grabbed my stuff from the CR... and made my way to my dad's car.. thinking that the pain will go away by the time i reach ECP... where i'll meet the rest for physical training... pain was terrible... really... was crouching in the car... crying... and writhing in pain... dad had to send me to the family doc... was pretty bad... you could see how he dunnoe wads wrong with me... coz apendicitis usually on the right... my pain is on the left... but unusual pple can have it on the left... am i? he poked me in the butt with pain killers... so i'm pretty much sane now... but he was talking abt all the possibilities... apendicitis... inflammation of the large intestines... etc etc... and said i might have to visit the A & E if the pain were to come back tonite... i pray not... really... when he was talking and pressing on my abdomen... i simply cried and cried... i think the pillow which they covered with the paper... in view of the SARS thing... was wet with my tears... was freaked... and still am... i dun wanna go to the hospital... much less go under the knife... *b|az prays hard... i dont wanna go hospital... sms-ed andrew that i'm not going for training already.. not very correct if i go then end up crouching there in pain... becoz its an sms... dun really know how he feels abt me missing training again... but i just hope he understands... coz thats all i need... dad wasnt that understanding actually.... although he was nice enough to pick me from sch and send me to the docs... he kept niao-ing that this might be stress-induced... i was there crying my guts out... and he could go on and on abt it... i know wat he's trying to hint at... my commitments and esp council... he doesnt like me being in council... but it's my choice... ...let me live life the way i want to... even if i made the wrong decisions... ...i would pick myself up... ----Stef stopped rambling at 11:53 --Link to Post |
| 18.4.03 |
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Rainy day today...
...but still lovely studied today... hmmm... did quite abit... but not much of data analysis... seriously... i've tried hard for tomorrows test... if i still get F... i really nuthing to say lioaz... must at least pass lah... or else dui bu qi my team mates... actually had to go ECP today to move out equipment from PFSSC... andrew let me off for the test... so my team had one person less worth of help... sorrie guys... promise to treat you drink tmr... was studying in KFC with YC today... coz he promised to Save My Physics... but lala and twig couldnt come... heh... think he was pretty traumatised by my incessant chatter... opps... if he does badly... i think its my fault... but he wont rite??? =) k k... will get going now... wrap up yeesh's prezzie... then look at my physics somemore... considering all my tutorials are copied... i think i need more revision than anyone else... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:16 --Link to Post |
| 17.4.03 |
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2340hrs...
just arrived home after a super long day... morning PE was super siong... teacher was making us do things we never even did b4... *b|az pengz... i told my wsfers wad i did for PE today... they were pretty shocked... never knew that PE needed to do so much... day passed pretty quickly in sch i guess... 3 tutorials and a lecture... and the two PE in the morn... and we're done... woohoo! love thursdays... yeay yeay... but had to rush down to ECP for training today... was pretty scary actually... in the bus 13... was sleeping... but was suddenly awoken when this big burly man plopped down beside me... i had the headphones in my ear... but i could hear him talking loud and clear... sorry that i'm saying this here... but i think he had some dysfunctionality... coz he was making 'bird-like' sounds in between his speech... pple in the whole bus were turning ard to look at him... i darent even look... was just really freaked... i know its not the right way to react... but i was really scared... reached ECP like 1430... surprised to see the other JC sailors already there... the guys playing football... coz unlike us... sailors dont sail when there's no wind... windsurfers can pump... so no wind we also go out and chiong.. today was kinda bad... was stuck near shore for a long time... couldnt move... grr... sam said i was pointin too high... i think he's right.. well... he knows everything i do wrong i guess.. he's damn li hai... saw him in his TJC uniform today... hmmm... i think he looks really matured in it... except for the fact that he's really skinny... and that he rolls up his pants while cycling to NSC.... i think he looks really cool... we sailed till pretty late today.. beached at ard 1830.... gate into NSC was locked... so we had to climb in... and carry our equipment over as well... making sure there's someone on the other side to take it... stupid pple din wait for us to come back... but oh well... wsfers have alwaz been the black sheep of the sailing family... who cares abt us??? went church visiting with grandpa... went to abt 7 churches... it was cool... but most of them are air conditioned now... dont really like it... coz the real feeling of a church is lost... still rem when grandpa used to bring me to church of the holy family after sch... the place was cosy... and it looked really pretty with its architecture... loved the feeling... then we would adjourn for kaya toast at the nearby coffeeshop... it was simple... but really cool... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:40 --Link to Post |
| 16.4.03 |
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decided to go for training tmr...
and pia phy on friday... aniwaz YC promised to teach me wateva he can... after i beg beg beg... so i'm glad... thanx YC... and to those who offered to help... i'll hunt you down one day... just packed my stuff... this is gonna be the first time i'm bringing so many things to school... piangz... my camel pak... my fin... my wet stuff... my soap bag... with 6 bottles of farnie stuff in it... soap...shampoo...conditioner...facial wash...the 42 bucks sunblock...and a 15 buck oil free sunblock... siao rite??? i think so too... but heng can dump everything in the CR.... maybe bring my pens and file to lessons oni... sounds familiar??? maybe i'll empty my stuff at CR lah... train hard tmr... study hard on friday... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:33 --Link to Post |
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the day passed pretty fast i guess...
but not w/o the subject of my horrible grades popping out again... darn! hate it when pple do that.. i know i know!!! i did horribly for my CT... stop bugging me!!! or am i bugging myself??? hmmm... but guess it'll be worse if it doesnt affect me... that'll be the end of me then... had meetings affer meetings today... met mr pat lim from 1430 to 1530... then had GM from 1530 to abt 1740... then met my elects' camp adhoc... all the way until abt 1900... phew... had to go down to compass point... think me deserve a treat of some nice bread... for lunch tmr??? i hope so... andrew just emailed me... asking me to try to put in more than the two afternoons i'm already doing... that i'll be missing out on alot... and it would be difficult to officiate my place... should the team be recognised as national... argh... really.. the stress is killing me... dunnoe wat to do... i really cant be everywhere... =~( i just wanna do well for my 'A's... is that so difficult? i just wanna enjoy my council term... but the stress is bringing me down... i just wanna bask in the warmth of the sun... soak in the water... feel the wind upon my face... cant i? ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:17 --Link to Post |
| 15.4.03 |
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http://www.freewebs.com/octoball/JPN_and_SIN.jpg
the JPN pretty ladies... and us... really leh... i think they're damn cute... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:07 --Link to Post |
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oh yarh...
confirmed liaoz... wearn how's gonna join our trainings when he's done with his studies in london... i dunoe when will that be... but i hope really soon... can you imagine??? training with your ou xiang... and having him as your junior in terms of board experience??? but will have loads to learn from him in terms of racing techniques... eh... somebody sportsboy of the year last time leh.... dont play play... when i heard was damn shocked lor... somemore he so humble one... even with the hundreds of thousands he received with the medals he won from the SEA and Asian games... *b|az faints... 'cant wait!' ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:06 --Link to Post |
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lala made me realise something very important today...
somethings you just just cannot simply look at it from one angle... but from different points of view... before you can truly pass a judgement... budden it brings me to another point... who am i to judge right from wrong? i cant... and i shouldnt... like i read somewhere before... those who know plz correct... i'm abit blur with the facts... jesus said... men/women guilty of infidelity should be stoned to death... but ONLY a man/woman who has not sinned can throw the first stone... no one could step out... coz everyone was guilty of one thing or another... no one's perfect... definitely not me... in that case... i cant be judging upon anything... then how can i seperate the right from the wrong from the sea of grey? discerning good from the bad... i know i'm starting to sound like a GP essay gone terribly wrong... thats how bad my head's hurting rite now... wanted to go for a jog... but put it off... think me better save it for andrew's trainings and PE lessons... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:02 --Link to Post |
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was pretty much a terrible day today...
was struggling with myself internally... had this giddy spell... and kept feeling faint... ya know the feeling when you stand up after squating for some time?? i had that feeling the entire day... was so freaked coz it never happened to me... told stella that if i fainted... ask them not to send me to hospital... it was horrible... but struggled through... survived... but turned the day ard... so it was pretty good... council's as crappy as ever... i think we were pests today at break... but it was fun... dragging kavi ard to sing b-dae song to her... happie birthday kavi!!! though pple might not be shuang with wat we did... we had fun... and i think thats all that matters to me... living for the moment.. mr tan spoke to us abt a levels today... was pretty inspired... even told angel that i shall remove mIRC and IE... hahha... but i cant lah... will never survive... muahhaha... will start to work hard... am trying... been doing my work ya know??? even arranged for a meeting with my chem teacher tmr to catch up on wad i missed out... woohoo!!! heard tao ze's hei se liu ding today... think its super nice... asked lala to loan me her CD again... cant believe i din realised that it had such a nice song inside... i dunnoe why but liked it alot... but considering i had such a difficult time finding it on #mp3files... not many liked it ya??? am d/l-ing it now... hope it's successful... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:48 --Link to Post |
| 14.4.03 |
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monday passed pretty quickly actually...
i'm glad... was frantically running ard trying to get pple to help me with the AJ Ideas survey... got all my forms done liaoz... thanx to all who helped me with it... love you guys... mrs wong spoke to me abt my terrible chem results... she din scold me... or anything like dat... just wanted to know whether i got any plans annot... considering the big drop in grades... just had to tell her i'm already trying... anyways... council work is coming to a standstill soon... so it aint that bad... she was nice... too nice that i feel so guilty... aww... hate it... PE was good... did a 1.6 in abt 8:40... ran my guts out... but dunnoe whether can get a A for the run annot... i think thats abt the oni thing i can pia... the rest i kinda give up liaoz... went for a quick shopping trip with lala just now... spent like 40 bucks within half an hour... gosh... the number of birthdays this month... i'm dead... yalor... but bought something for myself too... this giordano junior teeshirt... with a cow drawn in crayon in front... and the number 23 behind!!! so cool!!! my fav number... my sail no./birthdate/etc etc... happie! lala... really enjoyed the bus ride home with you just now... it was cool... crapping...laughing...gossiping... =) love ya! k k... get down to work liaoz... owe ms goh like 2 tutorials lioaz... i can do it!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:38 --Link to Post |
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hmmm...
know wad??? just uncovered this old birthday present serene gave me... a spell book for happiness... i know those staunch religious pple will kinda =P at this... but its just for fun... no harm trying them out... =) For el santo... even though i dunnoe who you... SKY On the first blue-sky day after a period of grey: Open your arms wide to the blue and ask that you feel this joy in the good weather repeated with joy in other things over the week. Light a sky-blue candle, and wish once more for pure pleasure and happiness: do not be specifc to any one wished-for thing, but let providence choose for you. You will be granted happiness in something important before a week is up. =) i dont know abt you... but this just seemed so pretty to me... though blue is often associated with melancholy... i think its such a calm and pretty color... dont you think so? ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:26 --Link to Post |
| 13.4.03 |
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today training was siong..
andrew wanted us to sail to sheares bridge... in LIGHT WINDS!?!?!?! without our harnesses?!?!?!?! gosh... din make it that far though... started out at abt 2pm... but had to come back b4 5... in the end i was the latest to be back... touched sand at abt 6pm... was quite bad actually... coz andrew had to return his boat... then he asked the two guys to sail to me and zhao gu me.. felt so bad... like babysitted like that... i dont want to feel inferior to the guys... but also i wanted someone to sail beside me... was pretty scared... coz behind me was this huge storm... couldnt see the CBD area.... big rain...lightning...thunder... the guys were like.... 'steffie! pump...c'mon, bend your knees...more explosive power...' and kept showing me how to do it... so they had to keep going back and forth... just so i could keep up... i was trying damn hard... but still so slow... almost wanted to cry... but cannot! where got see windsurfer cry one??? so pia back to shore... but made it a point to thank the guys for me... though is andrew ask them to do it one... the fact that they did it... i'm happie... before that went to club to loot the place... they moving out soon... so we took all the usable mistral stuff... got everything we needed i guess... so we're happie pple... sam developed his photos liaoZ! got this foto of me and him pretty nice... actually a few me inside... me and qi.... me in my bed... but i like the me and sam one... din know he so much taller than me... he mentioned he's abt 168... or a tad taller... but i think 170+ is the most ideal... must have this presence mah... lalalaa.... quite stupid actually... ended debriefing at abt 7 plus... andrew's office locked liaoz... then all our stuff all inside... my phone and my purse... gosh... had to call kimberly back from dunnoe where... and unlock for us.... somemore my parents waited for me so long laioz... feel so bad... but had a crappy time today lah... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:39 --Link to Post |
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saturday was pretty great...
went to sch early... to do spring cleaning... we keep finding farnie pests in the CR... the previous time was a centipede... today was a extra large lizard... farnie... and the guys were so freaked... coz they did spend a nite on the CR floor a few weeks ago... muahahhaa... really fun actually... took off shoes... throw water ard the CR... mopped...scrubbed...cleaned...packed...sweeped... it was tiring... but the CR looks good... really... but left early though... for training at ECP... dad was nice to rush down to AJ... then send me to ECP... then go back bishan for some matters... simply adore him... dunnoe wad i'll do without him... ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:23 --Link to Post |
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ECP was kinda sianz...
wind was absent... but busied ourselves with changing of the boom... sucky job... had to reconfigure everything... fit the sheaves... install the pulleys... i think i used like 6 different screwdrivers within a single day lor... but the whole rig looks pretty good lah... considering its all hand-me-downs... andrew say keeping the new set for competition use oni... so wont see my laogong for a long long time... dunnoe why i pretty lucky... all the equipment i've been assigned is pretty much faultless.... other than the fact that it's abit rusty... abit stiff... but it's been good... i'm happy... grr... realised that i'm of a good height for pple to lean on you know... laoda and sam alwaz put their arm on my shoulder and lean like dere's no tmr... grr... wei! i not that short okay... though sam's not as tall as laoda... he just like posing like dat... until i elbow him in the ribs... stupid guy... today the guys very irritating... i think i said 'idiot', 'i hate you' and the like many many times... hahha... i dont mean it in a bad way though... just my way of whining... the guys say i whine alot... they say wanqi whines very loudly... but i whine even more... grr... but quite true lah... i do it coz whining get things done... really.. should try it someday... after the beach dad came to pick me up again... to bedok MRT... then took a train to PS... was half an hour early.. but met cherchin.. so walked with him to PS... and met up with the rest... did abit of shopping... then went for talentime treat from mr tan... cost him like 121 bucks... had a great time with the ad-hoc... i think this is one of the best adhocs i joined... and i'm glad... made the best frenz here... really thankful... though my role was as insignificant as deco i/c... it was good... thanx council... ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:23 --Link to Post |
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realised something...
coz we were evaluating ourselves... like whether we get angry easily annot... and they said i din... but tend to bottle up emotions... then when it came to thrashing sessions... i would just burst... quite paiseh lah... coz alot of times cried in sch liaoz... so paiseh... so many pple see me cry... even pple i dunnoe... but cant help it lah... would you rather see me cry occasionally??? or chao face everyday??? i know some of you will say 'ya...face very tanned wat...' but you get my point... settle my grievances internally... then everything will be fine again... rather than shang gan qing rite??? know wad??? i like going home alone leh... cant say why also... but gimme chance to reflect mah... sometimes its sad reflections... disappointments... but also got happy stuff lah... becoz of this i tend to talk alot during thrashin sessions... 'frank talks'... coz sec sch bball alwaz have then i pro liaoz... no lah! just that i think abt stuff very often.. so got loads to say... but i'm tactful... i hope... some might disagree... glad that some councillors remembered wad i said some time ago... and thot it apt... feel so wise sia... said some stuff on impulse... but the fact that they actually remembered it... is enough for me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:05 --Link to Post |
| 11.4.03 |
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in response to the tag msg...
why octoballs?? actually... i really dunnoe... i like octoballs... they're good to eat, arent they?? but its a spin off from forest gump's 'Life's like a box of chocs...' i just realised alot of pple are using that... but mine came b4 i saw theirs ya??? it's kinda like.... life is like a box of octoballs... when you order it... you know you're gonna get three round balls with nice sauce and lotsa fish flakes on it... but you dont know how it'll come to you... like whether you'll have enough sauce... or enough fish flakes?? or whether your octoballs will be burnt... or undercooked? it's like life... most things in life is kinda expected... predictable to a certain extent... but in it... life can be full of little screw-ups... wonderful surprises... you think you know what you'll get... but really... do you? ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:29 --Link to Post |
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had a long day...
sch ended at 1345... but o2 debrief started only at 1730... stayed till abt 8pm... long yeay... but i think its nice to have council stay back together like that... and be among the last to leave the college... wanted to go eat with them... but felt bad abt the food kept at home for me... so decided to take the bus back myself... reached home at abt 9... phew... quite late for dinner actually... but it was a good one.. my fav squid... nice hot soup... and stuff... yummy! read your tag casey... picked up my HP right away and called serene... she was shocked to hear me... but we had a good time talking... well... she helped me justify my horrible common test performance... made me feel better... her bro's getting married in june... told me she's gonna be in a gown... laughed my head off... rene's cute... and seriously... doesnt mind us laughing at her expense... =) love ya rene... am trying to start pia-ing liaoz... will try harder to motivate myself... but tmr cant study again... got spring cleaning CR in sch... then gotta rush down to ECP for training... arrangement kinda suck... but seriously no choice... sunday still got training... argh... i think i need a longer weekend to finish my work... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:59 --Link to Post |
| 10.4.03 |
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Mood: Still depressed...
went out with klass after sch today... makan seoul garden... had lotsa fun... lotsa laughs... in short... had a great time... crappy stuff do make you a happie person... but back in sch for WITS meeting... then had to start studying for my chem test tmr... sucks.. hate the fact that i failed two subs... and did horribly for my languages... esp GP... which i thot i was quite safe in... it was a fatal assumption... i was wrong... sad man... my grades suck so much i really wanted to cry... but cant coz i brought it upon myself... the rest of the klass....the rest of the council is doing so well... but here i am... failing my tests... copying homework and crap... i really dunnoe how... somehow i just wished serene was here with me again... she'll know wad to do... how to make me work... wanted to call her... but scared she still having lessons... hope i get out of this bout of depression soon... its not easy trying to appear composed in front of every one else... going for a jog... maybe the fresh air will help me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:42 --Link to Post |
| 9.4.03 |
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first day of lesson proper for me in a long time...
happy seeing all the pple i havent been seeing for a long long time... happily kena suaned to the bone by laoda...xiyang...YC... and a few others... it's kinda nice seeing them all again... esp the girls.. coz girls rule... yeay! i dislike sch... but the pple IN sch... make it all pretty again... day was kinda short.. so it wasnt too bad... but really... din understand a single thing during maths tutorial today... and that sucked... tmr will be worse... with physics and chem coming up... i think i could just jump down and die... am pretty depressed with my horrible results... mr lim just told me to study harder today... i know i suck... but i really dunnoe how to help it... i tried to talk to andrew abt training liaoz... that i cant train as much when a levels approach... but he rebutted with the JC2 sailors... saying that if the sailing pple can do it why not windsurfers... that kinda killed me... feel kinda useless... even in comparision to myself... in sec sch i had two CCAs and o levels but i wasnt feeling as terrible as i am rite now... i dunnoe what to do... i know i need to study... but i dunnoe how to balance my stuff... no one can help me... oni myself i guess... so i've to start now... get down to work liaoz... maybe i've to stop blogging so often... come on only when i have pressing things to say... will that help? nah... i have loads to say everyday... no diff... but i'll ciaoz for now... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:24 --Link to Post |
| 8.4.03 |
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just wanna dedicate part of today's blog to my darling daddy...
he was really sweet today... taking half day worth of leave just to get me nice and dry to east coast... the guys alwaz say i'm spoilt... it's true... but my dad offered... and its too good an offer to miss... admit i'm quite dependent on my parents to get me ard... esp to and from ECP... almost like the snobbish optimists kids who have their parents pulling their boats in for them... but it's unavoidable that they pick me up after training during the weekend... coz i make it a point to eat with my family... esp during weekends... i mean i enjoy eating with them... i guess its the only part of the day when we all do something together... parents busy with their work... sis busy with her band...and last time...her prefectorial board... bro with his cycling mates...and prefectorial duties... me, my windsurfing and my council... seldom would i abandon that for anything else... coz i really love them to bits... back to my daddy.. he's really protective over every one of us... sometimes overboard... he'll miss his sleep... just to wake all of us up and get us to sch... he'll drive on for hours... to get us to places we need/want to go... he'll do stuff that most fathers wont do... and that earns my respect... i love my daddy... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:47 --Link to Post |
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woohoo!
last day of the break liaoz... kinda yi yi bu she... but bo pian... tmr need to go sch... hiakz! later must pack my sch bag... my stuff ard the whole house... in a total mess... *b|az pengz... today went to club in the morning to pack my equipment... dad brought my bike down for me... so that i could cycle down to NSC in the afternoon... fix my board and sail abit... looney was really nice today... coz sam couldnt pei me coz he going out with his sec sch frenz. looney cycle with me to NSC... help me fix my board in the rain... then when rain stop... he sailed with me... actually he could have just abandoned me at NSC alone... coz i had to wait for my dad... but he din... so grateful... coz andrew busy with the SANA pple.. then i'll be all alone if not for looney! dad sent him back with our bikes at the back of the car... hahaa... raining mah... cant expect him to cycle home in that rain rite??? somemore he so nice today... must be nice back lor... today sam damn crappy... until i can pengz on the floor laughing... kinda sad he cant sail with me today.. coz wind was pretty good.. usually when he down with me no wind or storm one... then cannot go out... was on lame morning lor... coz WQ, sam, looney and me were teaching SK how to cycle... piangz... 17 years old liaoz... still dunnoe how to cycle?? somemore windsurfer.... cycling is like affiliated sport lor... but he learn learn learn still cannot leh... but seriously ah... realised that i can converse better with looney... i mean me and sam ah.. sometimes when we not crapping will be very quiet one... but looney and i talked like almost everything under the sun... learnt alot abt him today... he earned my utmost respect today... today was a fruitful day lah... so i'm a happy girl... =) PS: met my first 3 mths maths tutor at beach, mrs lee... piangz...see her quite alot of times liaoz... she recognises me lah... which isnt a good thing... coz today she asked in surprise... 'you come down everyday???' can you imagine what she'll say if she knows my results suck to the core... got 2 Fs and a D/E... grr... sad... but its my own fault... will just have to try harder... and STOP playing harvest moon... it's bad for me... the farming lifestyle is becoming too appealing... if i tell you i'm going to nepal or something like dat you know why.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:33 --Link to Post |
| 7.4.03 |
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hehhe...
lousy monday... din get much done again... did my council work... so am pretty set for my last council term... its pretty fast actually... how the whole council term passes like tat... it's almost like yesterdae when we were first starting out... but now... we grew to be like really close... which is... to me... the best part of council... the relationships/frenships you build... i love you guys... but still got lotsa homework not done... later going to lala house take some of the tutorials... alot i dunnoe how to do coz was away in penang when it was taught... hehhe... 'enjoyed' 10 days in penang... come back siong ah... today went for run with bro and sis again... did a 15min run.. distance not too sure... but i think abit more than 2.4 lah... console myself... then abit of stuff at the fitness corner... met yunn boon again... but shitz.. forgot to ask for his number again... until i was up in the lift... on hindsight... he looks a tad like adrian... ya know... the guai guai look... the kind you'll love to bring home to meet mummy kind? hahha... parents met adrian once b4... coz we sent him home from beach... parents were totally bowled over by how polite he actually was... i think he was the only one who impressed them that much... hahhaa... arms aching like siao... think coz i din stretch down over the past few daes... sam loves stretching... dunnoe why also... he does it religiously after every race day at penang... i only do when i rem... usually i only rem when i see him doing it... haha... well... i'm that slack... slack in all aspects... council work... sch work... windsurfing... housework... haiz... think i'm a failure... and a big one at that... off i go to lala house... so that i can come back and copy homework... copy finish then can go training tmr!!!! woohoo! ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:23 --Link to Post |
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Physical condition: =P
am aching quite terribly... din really stretch properly after all that physical stuff over the weekend... and after the siong water training... somemore i carried the surf board on my head... a freaking 19kilos... have to lift it up on my head... coz have to walk damn far to the beach... now head damn pain... bad headache... dunnoe whether its a lack of sleep... or that board-on-head thing is damaging to my brain... but everyone does that leh... even ho chi ho... world youth champion... well.. maybe it'll make me shorter!!! well.... it beats having to carry the 19kilos in a more awkward position... had it on my shoulder b4... but becoz the board is kinda rough on one side... my left shoulder is kinda scrapped... sore... but oh well... if you wanna train... must be able to bear with such things... like andrew said... sailors must have a high threshold for pain... he dislocated his shoulder b4... fracture this... break that... i'm a safe surfer... darent take risks one... maybe thats why i'm still so lousy... haiz... i'll try harder next time... i promise... i'm actually scared of speed... which is quite ironic... i mean windsurfing is all abt speed... something which all windsurfers really die for... the fun is all in the speed... i love it when i go fast... but the faster you are... the less stable you are... and the instability kinda freaks me out... andrew alwaz scolds me for shying away from speed... go out to sail.. the sail alwaz very flat one... too flat actually... can see the guys' sail alwaz very full... but mine like paper like dat... cant seem to overcome this fear... but i'll only improve if i can conquer this... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:52 --Link to Post |
| 6.4.03 |
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woohoo!
training from 2pm today... in the end andrew din ask us to sail to sheares bridge leh... sailed within the preferred trinity of padang, bedok and keta buoys... the north-east monsoon training favourite... did terribly today... maybe coz i gave it my all yesterdae... today just simply cannot make it... all of us kena scolding jialat jialat from andrew... chaam... haiz... really lor... almost wanted to cry liaoz... was trying my best liaoz... but it wasnt good enough for andrew... even sam, our best sailor, got pretty hammered by andrew... dunnoe wats with the coach... PMS? maybe... but today wind was pretty gusty... too gusty for comfort... got one time three of us got underpowered and fall into water at the same time coz of a lull in wind... sam, looney and me... but as we were sailing back to NSC... wind was superb... was railing super high... and all the seniors who sailed over from the club were shouting like cowboys... saw dr harold...heeyong...kerwan...meng...rachel... then the PA surfers... actually its pretty ego boosting to see university students just learning... struggling hard on the board... and you think abt the fact that you're younger than them... hmmm.... you dont feel that bad abt andrew's scoldings anymore... muahahahaa.... evil yeah??? but thats me... i'm sure the foreign sailors who reign over us also feel the same... it's kinda like a hierachy effect.. so i'm like in the middle of nowhere... just keeping my feet on the grd... =) oh guess wad? yesterdae the GM of SSF said he saw porpoises out at sea... he recorded on video and showed it to us... man! they're like dolphins lor... so pretty!!!! but i never see them when i was out there lor... so ke xi... haiz... heeyong said he saw dolphins out there b4... but not that pretty ones you see in movies lah... i never see b4 leh... maybe i'll see them in future... when we train at the international beacons during the south west monsoon ya??? thats coming in like june/july??? cool! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:20 --Link to Post |
| 5.4.03 |
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sms-ed some of my frenz i havent msg-ed in a long time yesterdae...
serene...bernie...shuzhen...chunyong...randolph...barnie... and a few others... asked them to take care in light of the virus... or simply... just to say hi... had lotsa sms-es coming back... which felt really good... i dunnoe how... or why... but it just makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside... serene's reply went something like... 'stef!!!! so happie you msg-ed me...me got quarantined by parents...miss you so much...' or something like dat... maybe the miss-me part is self-included... but you get the gist... really felt like taking a cab to kallang to see my bestest pal... and just give her a great big hug... serene made a huge difference in my life for me... she was in the same class and CCA (bball) with me for four whole years... we been thru fights... petty quarrels... cold wars... but also lotsa pretty memories... birthdays that we celebrated for each other... trainings that we would really pia together... literature notes that we would write for each other... she was the one who pushed me from the bottom tenth of the cohort... all the way to the top... made me study for my tests... reminded me to do my homework... if it wasnt for her... i wont be what i am... i kinda miss her... but feel bad ... for alwaz not getting her b-dae prezzies when she'll make the most amazing stuff for me.... for not replying to her sms when i'm busy in sch... for joining forces with the other bballers in suaning her... for neglecting the fact that she has alwaz been there for me... but not me for her... thanx rene... for all you've done... regardless of how insignificant you think it actually is... your actions speak for themselves... dont know how i would get thru sec sch without you... you're da best... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:28 --Link to Post |
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woah...
today was hell... really... kinda make me feel like ciao-ing back to school asap... physical training was siong today... really... the worst ever... met up with the team at abt 10 am... then jogged 3.5km from NSC to the club.... along the way... did like... 50 squats... 50 step-ups... 50 push-ups... really lor... you really cant run anymore when your legs are jellified after the squats and step-ups lor... feet started shuffling... then slowly... speed turned to walking... coz tummy was hurting like shit.. feel ashamed to be walking while the 3 guys are like flying in front... so the walk din last for more than 100 metres... andrew saw... and for some reason or other... din scold me himself... but asked sam to tell me not to walk... reaching the club was a huge consolation... though 3.5 aint really a feat... the mid-day sun... the funny stuff we did at different stations really killed me... but arriving at the club only meant the beginning... guys did 50 pull ups... the girls werent spared... my pull up bar was much lower... like the IFAP... but we had to put our legs on a chair... wah lau... 50 seemed like eternity... really... then went to our torture chamber... everyone's 'favourite' pumping machine... lying flat on a high bench... we had to pull up a bar of 20kgs to our chest... 100... *speechless* i did it in sets of 5... hahhaa... so i did 20 sets... but really buay ta han... 100 sit-ups... today one direction oni... so was pretty glad... then arm hangs... and bar pushes... each for a continuous period of 2 minutes... us girls had to do the same stuff as the guys lor... piangz... except when it meant brute strength in items like pull ups.. then we do different kind... arms and legs really jellified liaoz... but still had to run that 3.5km back to NSC... sucky run... WQ was on a bike liaoz... she couldnt take it... SK walked all the way back... so oni me, sam and looney ran back... sam was as fast as usual... so though i started abit earlier... he overtook me soon after... and then i couldnt see him anymore... looney left something back at the club.... so he ran back to get it... heng cannot overtake me... or else i'll swear never to run ever again... so demoralising... reach NSC for lunch... couldnt swallow the fried rice lor... eat one spoon... drink one gulp of 100plus... to push the food down... if i had a choice... i wouldnt eat... but bo pian... need energy for water training... sun was freaking hot... throughout the run and PT... dehydrated like siao... lucky got the camel pak that mr lim kok wee got for me... suddenly he felt like a hero... thats why i alwaz tell AJ guys... mr lim is really really really a very nice guy... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:00 --Link to Post |
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water training was no better…
WQ sail tore… so she came out much later… but we did upwinds… downwind pumping… tacking drills… upwind pumping… starts… kena scolded a lot… but was kinda happy with my performance today… din fall too much behind the guys… sometimes… could even catch up with them… and overtake them… felt good… but come back to shore… debrief… everybody also kena scolded like shit… haiz… morale hit rock bottom… adrian joined us for training… was glad to see him... din lose to him too much today… though he guy… he din train as much as the rest of us mah… somemore he in army… where got time… if lose to him I think andrew will hang up my boardshorts man… but nevertheless… enjoyed the whole day today… like the guys said… if you can pull thru everything today… You’ll feel like a hero at the end of the day… i did… until I heard what we’re going to do tmr… sail from NSC to sheares bridge… that’s almost like from changi to mounbatten… this is crazy… but let’s see what tmr brings… ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:59 --Link to Post |
| 4.4.03 |
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grr....
spent 10 bucks on taxi fare to NSC... reach there... rain heavily... storm man... couldnt go out... even the sailors who were out earlier came back quickly... big rain... big winds... lotsa amazing lightning... and scary thunder... seriously... when you have to experience a storm away from the comfort of concrete walls and roof... it's kinda freaky... but you feel really closer to nature... was soaking wet... coz i had to run in the rain to rescue my board which i put out at the beach earlier before it rained... sam was happily reading his Time magazine... he was abt to fall asleep though... i could see... then we ran to the main blk for a hot drink... sky din clear... so had to un-rig and make our way home... andrew was really nice... he lent me his bike so that i neednt walk all the way to the freaking far bus-stop... which was quite farnie actually... coz the lowest the bicycle seat could go was too high for me... so i ended up on sam's bike... and sam on andrew's bike... i like sam's bike... and sam liked andrew's bike... so i think it was pretty cool an arrangement... =) sam was his usual crappy self today... i was too... hahhaah... amazingly... he had to stop me from crapping... which was ironic coz he was usually the one who had to be stopped... think sam's in love man... kinda caught him smiling at his phone... muahahhaa... shall conspire with the rest of the team to dig out details from him... would be pretty interesting tomorrow... but thing is i think andrew's getting the wrong idea abt me and sam... ever since penang... coz we would do lotsa stuff together... and recently been training together... but the fact is it's more of a 'brudder-brudder' thingy between us... i'm sure many of you reading this rite now would agree that i'm more guy than girl... heh... but i'm straight...=) just that i tend to heck-care abit more than usual... was on the way home today... was pretty freaky... c'mon... wat would you feel if you sat next to a cute guy... but found him talking to himself after a while? lucky he was oni beside for one LRT stop.. but the worse thing... he wasnt the oni one!!! imagine how freaked i was... *b|az faints... the LRT train is freaking cold... think they're trying to freeze the SARS virus i think... really lor... it was raining cats and dogs outside... i was wet.. and it was like a meat freezer inside... almost froze... really... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:32 --Link to Post |
| 3.4.03 |
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was trying hard to remember twig's ex-classmate name last nite...
finally remembered... its si lie... hahhaa... havent been bumping into him recently... unlike last year when i would bump into him in buses like ever so often... but the last time we talked... he was in ngee ann poly... just got attached... still as irritating or chatty rather... but still as charismatic as ever... but i lost his HP number too... with my 6510 last year.. sucks... hated the fact that i lost my fone... its not the phone that really mattered... but the contacts that you lose that you can never retrieve... grrr.... had to tell sam me not going down again today... feel damn horrible... but really bo pian... i hate myself ya know??? cant bring myself to do homework... i've been doing everything else except homework... or rather... anything to do with sch... which sucks... coz sch starting again soon... God help me please... really not prepared... argh!!!! been playing harvest moon alot... and watching alot of VCDs with my siblings.... last nite was a marathon of two movies... ended at 2am plus plus... hehehe.... power ah??? we watched iron ladies I a coupld of nites ago... it was really cool... though i had a hard time saying 'he's so pretty...' its really inspriring though.... that everything is possible.. just by overcoming the odds... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:26 --Link to Post |
| 2.4.03 |
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woohoo!
andrew just e-mailed... said that we got sponsorship for sunblock! which is quite farnie actually... imagine the company seeing us so black and chao tar... would they still want to sponsor us??? hmmm.... but it's not the brand i use leh... suan le... just use... maybe there's something wrong with the brand i use... considering everybody keep asking whether i chinese... *b|az pengz... totally in love with the song by shun zi... xie yi shou ge... the one that two guys sung in talentime... keep playing it over and over... shiok! the words kind pretty... and the sound... sweet and simple... aww.... =) trying hard to finish up as much homework as i can... so far... ive only done thermo chem... yes 01/02... i'm that terrible... but i'm trying... promised sam to train with him tmr... trying... trying... went jogging with my little bro and little sis just now... did a 2.4km... in i dunnoe wat timing... but think i did quite horribly... havent been running for a long time... but my sis and bro even worse... bro couldnt reach the next bus stop... sis started walked after 1.5km... hahaha... met yunn boon at the fitness corner... so cute... he changed so much i couldnt recognise him at all... still remember when we'll go play bball together... he's like one year older... but we get along pretty well... he provide pump... i provide basketball and needle... he...guo liang...and me... and the other guys who play soccer... patrick's ex classmate who i use to have a crush on... but whose name i forgotten... but coz he got super cute teeth... jackson...terence...the two tall brothers whose names i never bothered to find out...jasmine...her sis... but back to yunn boon... stupid me forgot to ask him for his number... i lost it with my phone which i lost last year... hope i see him again soon... but actually he lives just the floor above me... paiseh lah... oh yah...yesterdae forgot to say... sam cut his hair!!!! he looks just as cute... or at least... i thought so! =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:46 --Link to Post |
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hehehe...
supposed to be home doing my homework today... pre-penang homework... my penang homework... march holiday homework... orientation homework... hahaha... and some council stuff... darn... i'm supposed to call some balloon companies about balloons for family day... better get down to it now... din go sail with sam today... homework was just too much... will get down to it soon... i mean after the business calls i've to make... pray that my determination doesnt fail me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:53 --Link to Post |
| 1.4.03 |
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went to NSC today...
took a taxi... cost me a bomb... but bo pian... NSC is damn inaccessible.... and it'll be like dat every weekday that i've to go NSC... darn... i'll be broke by then... went down today coz sam wanted to train... asked me along and i thot why not... needed to rerpair my stuff also... darn weather today... rain no rain... but most importantly... NO WIND!!! feel like a spoilt sailor... wind too strong cannot sail... no wind also cannot sail... but really no point sailing today... will just be a pumping day... but wad sam say was true... penang taught us that windsurfing is all about pumping... and why the foreign sailors can be so much better than us is becoz they pump like there's no tomorrow... haiz... still cant bring myself to work as hard as them... i'm spoilt... 'tis a fact... esp during training... andrew knows it and sees it... but he quite zhao gu me... so i get away scot-free... but that's not the way rite??? maybe thats why he recommended mental training for the team... which i guess would be a good thing... so we din sail today... but crapped alot as usual with sam... irritated each other... but its pretty fun actually... he was really sweet actually... cycling by seasports which was 3.5 km away to get my soap bag for me... and coz i had to walk to the bus stop which was at least 1.5 km away from NSC... he accompanied me by cycling slowly on his bike... he offered me his bike... but i felt bad adjusting his seat height... understand how difficult it is to configure it for your personal use... he's da best... really... feels good to have a friend like him... one day a fren asked who i was talking to on the phone... it was sam... but almost automatically.. without thinking... i just blurted 'my buddy..'... it feels good to have a buddy to train with you... help you repair your equipment.. and do little things that would make your day... realised something yesterday while watching a midnite movie with my siblings... Iron Ladies...the first movie... i din blog yesterdae!!!! it just totally slipped my mind... the whole day i was so free... but i just din blog!!!! miracle... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:14 --Link to Post |
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