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. wasted time
 
 
. sanity check
 
 
. carbon dating
 
 
. frozen time
 
 
31.8.06
viv's right...
the guy didnt get NOC...
and he attributes it to the flip-flops he wore for the interview...
cant think of any other reason though...
good grades...
good spoken mandarin...
the right course of study...
impressive internship firm...
save for the fact that he might have been over-confident...
he was sad when he told me the news...
and i was stucked...
coz i knew i wanted him to get it...
and i also knew i wanted him to stay...

it's okay...
we have other options for year 2007...
Work and Travel...
or our long awaited Hong Kong...

but before that...
we'll need to drag out feet through a heavy Year 3...
let's hope we get through it alive...

----Stef stopped rambling at 03:49
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30.8.06
we went crazy yesterdae while walking from the food court of PGP to the bus-stop...
we started hitting each other repeatedly...
albeit in the touch-only manner...
it got to a point where he put his arm around my neck and grabbed the hand nearer to him..
and the hand further away was deemed useless coz i couldnt reach his head...
it was funny coz it reminded me of some korean drama where they hit each other like mad...
when i mean mad...
i mean MAD...

it wasn't mad with the guy...
but it was fun...
though he messed up my hair and gave me countless forehead slaps...

NOC Shanghai is fine...
i'm not as affected as what WQ's blog says...
i don't want him not to go...
i just wished there was a better way to do it...

----Stef stopped rambling at 08:03
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24.8.06

Happy 21st Mervin!

----Stef stopped rambling at 21:41
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Bintan


PA Championships 2006


NUS Championships 2006

----Stef stopped rambling at 02:27
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i realised i have been terribly sticky with the guy...
i guess it's the fact that he'll probably be off to Shanghai for a year come yearend...
so i'm like trying to see one and half years worth of him before the year draws to an end...
i hate being the sticky one...
it just feels so needy...
so helpless...

i know i'll need to be busy to cope with the sudden emptiness...
but i've stepped down from the committees...
and i'm not sure how busy schoolwork's going to be...
i know it's 6 core including a blardy design module that will take forever to complete...
but still...
it will be one freaking year!
...no hand to hold...
...no shoulder to cry on...
...no chauffeur...
...nobody to play chopsticks with...
...nobody to criticise my dressing...
...nobody to eat late-night Boon Tong Kee with...

but i know NOC Shanghai is what he wants...
and although it sounds campy to say this...
i will give him my support...

----Stef stopped rambling at 01:50
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10.8.06
been MIA for some time now...
finally left my job...
time to myself...
to try rejuvenate for a long school year ahead...
windsurfing...
gatherings...
Bintan...
Johor Bahru...
or just time with the guy...
school's in...
and bleah, it's a 6-module semester again...

just bought a new camera...
so have been taking loads of photos...


been trying to build up my collection of windsurf photos...


they have built a fairly good relationship with the ice cream uncle/auntie...
they get 4 layers of ice cream for the same price...=X


taking pictures of blue skies...


hanging out with the windsurf gang at New York New York...
this was before the restaurant started getting LOOOOONNNNGGGG queues every evening...


practising taking jumping shots of friends...


more..


the not so successful ones...


like this...


where the guy looked pretty good...


where i looked crazy enough...


finally a good one coz i'm not inside...

it was over to Bintan for 3d-2n at Mayang Sari Resort...
it was a pretty place with single chalet like huts...
which are so close to the beach you can hear the waves at night from ur air-con room...


our little house by the beach in Bintan...
at least for 2 nights...


not excluding the good company...


our private verandah just 10 metres away from the beach...


my favourite scrambled eggs..


trying very hard to get rid of weird tanlines...


testing out the cam's flower mode...


nice comfy hammocks...


we are seaturtles!


beer and breeze...
what more?


sucking in the tummy...


in his own world...


heading home...

it was over to JB on National Day...
shopping for the ladies...
movies for the guys...
food food food for everybody...
it was a good ten of us...
so it was good fun...


dressing up in FOS JB...
we look pregnant with those...
and i had to photoshop away the ugly brastraps...


food is good enough to risk being doused with dirty water from above...


"please dont rain..."


speak no evil, see no evil, hear no evil...


yummy squid...
we had like oyster omelette, crayfish, stingray, ladies fingers, bak kut teh, chicken wings...
which totaled about 10 sgd...
pretty worth it i would say...


contender #1...


contender #2...

i have also been acting like a spoilt brat and getting chauffeured to the beach...
the guy hasn't been complaining much...
so i really have to commend his effort...
"when i finally learn how to drive, i will drive you around also ok?"


being chauffeured in the van...


in the car...
though he doesnt look very happy here...

----Stef stopped rambling at 02:01
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3.8.06
met up with yujin after so long...
he has been back from the UK for a couple of months...
and we finally went out for dinner and drinks after he msged me on friendster...
wahaha...
i changed my HP number without telling him...
it was so long since we last met...
that i had the jittery 'blind date' feeling prior to the meet-up...
not that it was a date-like date...
but it was probably because we havent met in so long...
to the extent that i thought i forgot how he looked...
i have a bad memory...
really...
dinner at din tai fung was his treat...
and drinks at punggol park was mine...
discovered for the first time that he was a total geek...
studying before school starts...
topping his cohort...
discussing excitedly the importance and irreplacibility of shipping in the present world...
not that it was boring...
just that i never knew (that he was such a geek)...
but truth is...
he has always been an interesting person to speak to...
and i dare say that that was a gross understatement...
but i always feel i gained a truckload of information just after one evening...
it's his quest for information and willingness to share...
something i definitely lack and would love to have...

day in the office was also made interesting with relationship talks...
colleagues were lamenting the many "love you forever and ever", "i want to marry you" & "you are the one for me"...
and how the men never ever meant those...
then it occured to me...
the guy never said any of these to me...
and neither have i to him...
so i just wondered whether it was a cause for concern...
afterall...
whats the point of being together if marriage (aka ultimate togetherness) is not on your agenda?
talked to the guy about this...
i love making him talk coz he doesnt like to...
but when he does...
he either says things like "i dunnoe", "i just do" or breaks in utterly profound explanations...
explanations that are fundamentally correct and logical...
to the extent that i feel dumb for asking dumb questions...
i dont know whether to deem the both of us mature and rational...
for not promising promises we know we might never keep...
or conclude that we are both afraid to commit...
sometimes i ask him questions like how many kids he would like to have in future...
and he says two...
only to follow up with comments like it being too early to discuss this...
not that i am hinting anything...
but i just wonder...

i think it's better not to be promised anything...
and take each day as a surprise and a good one at that...
there is little that is worse than the feeling of disappointment...

----Stef stopped rambling at 01:52
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