| 30.1.06 |
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i havent been talking to the guy for two days straight... it's quite funny really... i call him... he misses my call... he calls me back... then i miss his call too.... and it goes on for about 2 cycles a day... such is CNY... tired... but having fun... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:06 --Link to Post |
| 29.1.06 |
 the ULTRA cool Sea Sports Camp 2006 poster... done by Publicity and myself... Justin's still working on the webby... and from what i have seen so far... just wait to be amazed... ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:08 --Link to Post |
| 28.1.06 |
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its CNY soon... in like an hour... it's been mad... trying to finish up work so that i can fully enjoy the CNY... but its quite impossible... and i've clogged up a backlog of work... plus getting stuff ready for the bazaar when we get back to school... sea sports camp stuff... windsurf stuff... going mad... finally mailed out those cheques for the Singapore Open... hiaks! watched a few movies over the last two weeks... Cheaper by the Dozen 2... where i cried like mad... Memoirs of a Geisha... which i enjoyed as a book... Fearless... in which i cried as well... when Jet Li lost his family.... been out with the guy a tad too much... but i cant get enough of him! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:04 --Link to Post |
| 24.1.06 |
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after 8 years of staying in adjacent blocks... where we spent lotsa time of our secondary school days playing bball together... si lie and i finally realised that we had a crush on each other at about the same time in sec1... it's quite funny really... me thinking how it probably wouldnt work out... him probably thinking the same way... and now, wondering what it would have been like if we did find out 8 years ago... i guess it's like that... opportunities lost... are lost forever... and the only thing we can do... is to wonder what might have been... i guess i learnt my lesson since... to say things you want to say... and not to wait for a better, more appropriate chance... coz you might never get to say them ever.... i'm glad i din make the same mistake with the guy... no more wishy-washy stuff... if you like someone, let them know... they might just feel the same way too... never hold back and wait till 10 years later... only to look back and wonder, "what might have been?" it's better to confess and get rejected... than to live with a regret that you never found out how he/she really felt... and continue wondering all your life... but i guess there is always another way to look at things... on the bright side... maybe if si lie and i worked out... i wouldnt have met the guy... the guy i would have given up the world for... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:46 --Link to Post |
| 23.1.06 |
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you know the kind of boyfriend who practically puts his girlfriend on a pedestral to worship? i want... okay... maybe not a pedestral... but picture on MSN... picture as HP wallpaper... lovey dovey MSN nickname... all i dont have... somehow... i dont know whether to be sad or not... coz it can SOMETIME be rather goosebump-inducing... *Should you need an definition of goosebump-inducing, click THIS. the guy doesnt do all that... he rather have a calendar on his HP... and a picture of coconut trees or a soccer ball as his MSN display picture... i know feeling this way sucks... and is on the verge of picking-at-things-to-be-upset-about.. but i cant help but feel that he is ashamed about being with me... maybe "ashamed" is too strong a word... it's not much of a deal really... but it just feels sucky when the guys i know are like scrambling about to choose the best picture of them and their girlfriends and plastering them on every known surface on earth... exaggeration again... on the showy places.. MSN... HP... Friendster... laptop wallpaper... the guy was adamant when i asked him about it... he didnt see a need to... so i told him i wanted him to... then he said he didnt want to... so i asked again why he didnt want to... then he went back again to he didnt want to... which felt like what a stuttering child would say to the parent when lying through his teeth... its like stamping CONFIRMED in red on my suspicions that he wasnt exactly keen about letting the rest of the world know about my very existence in his life... we see each other's friends sometimes... so its not exactly true either... coz he still holds my hand when we bump into friends... but the feeling is stinging and its hard to go away... we got into quite a spat over this... it came to a point when he said putting photos like that just wasnt him... wasnt something he would do... though i remember him putting it up when we first got together... how queer... i was pretty upset really... until i realised... why am i picking on all these insignificant details when his hand is still holding mine? maybe when he stops holding my hand when we go out... i shall finally start questioning why... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:43 --Link to Post |
| 22.1.06 |
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it's been hell of a windsurfing weekend... committee reunion dinner at the guy's place... lotsa food... games pulled in to finish the food... soccer... the movie, I am Sam... we din even get to sit to play mahjong.. we finished dinner at 10pm... but it was fantastic... laughing about balls... stifling our giggles only to laugh even more... me offering to peel Philip's prawn... and forgeting that it was HIS prawn... munching and wondering aloud how nice the prawns were... it was a mad house really... how did we ever eat dinner until 10pm... beats me... another training session today... wonderful turnout of about 18... everyone improved truckloads... and i finished the same time as a 4m... whose name i CANT disclose coz of NTU and SMU surfers reading this... whahaha... i cant say we will win this year... coz we have the numbers... but not the experience that NTU has... nor the muscles SMU have... still... we will try... and we will give them a good fight for the trophy... i'm like how shack now... pumping... tahan-ing the gusty and not-bad winds... 7 hour breakless day tomorrow.... woooohooooo~ ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:09 --Link to Post |
| 20.1.06 |
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it's whirlwind of two weeks into school.. so fast... and i'm already dying... even though i havent started on the labs and the tutorials... it's mad... plus all the projects piling up... i'm already feeling stretched... Justin will probably feel 10 times worse... coz he studies 5 times as hard... has twice as many projects... and has the websites to maintain... am sorta glad the Seletar Speed Crossing has no news since... shall hide until they decide to start work on it...  and my jolly good timetable this sem... it sucks! especially the 7-hour marathon on Monday... all recommended modules by the way... and i thought i would have short days considering how all my days start at 10am... boy, am i WRONG! sometimes... i dont know whether all this crap is worth its while... madness... life? what life?  the ultra fantastic windsurf webby... click on it to enter... it even has a "shop" now... where you get buy our windsurf t-shirts... woohoo! and i contributed to this masterpiece by Justin ok? i made the NTU Open and ITWC buttons... and did the write-ups ok? wahahhaa... it's soooooo FANtastic! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:57 --Link to Post |
| 19.1.06 |
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some of us tried going for windsurfing yesterdae... was sunny and all when we arrived... then as we were getting the sails ready... the rain came down hard on us... was pretty dampening really... john... who suggested the entire thing... john's friend... paul... tesma... the guy... and myself... so darn sad... but the great thing that came out of the whole afternoon's adventure from NUS to PA... i got to have lunch with 3 hunky windsurf guys... weiming, justin and paul... took a long train ride from Clementi to Bedok with two pagaent guys... weiming had to go back to school... and i managed to settle the Sea Sports Camp costings with Boo over at PA... guy and i adjourned to Suntec for dinner... and then a movie over at Marina Square... it was Cheaper by the Dozen 2... quite funny and crappy... but it made me cry... i covered my eyes halfway... and the guy thought thought i was scared... WAH LAU! family shows like that always make me cry... i dont know... but Steve Martin's character and his relationship with his daughter just struck a chord... it hit so close to home... he even had my dad's hairstyle! thing is... it made me realise that even though i think my dad's a jerk sometimes... he really just wants the best for me... even if the means through which he ensures that are a little extraordinary... it's just the whole importance of family... the entire family unit... as one indivisible whole... just so great an ideal... my family's like that... save for the fact that i havent been on a family holiday with them for years... not because i dont want to.... i will try my darnest to cancel everything in way of the next family holiday... they are what matter most to me... guy and i went back to his place so that i can print all the notes i want in the world... with his amazing paper-curling, sequence-messing laser printer... as we crossed the 8-laned major road in front of his place... i noticed that he has been doing something very sweet all this while... the fact that he silently keeps to the side of the oncoming traffic everytime we cross the road... like first... he'll stand on my right... and we'll do our running thing... then he'll move over and stand on my left while we're on the divider... and we'll do our running thing again... although it seems like such a small action... it was just so thoughtful... although his body doesnt seem much of a barrier to a car travelling at 80km/hr... i think this makes up for all the irritating pokes in the waist he gives me when he is bored... ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:59 --Link to Post |
| 17.1.06 |
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it's Serene's birthday today... but we met up over the weekend to facilitate the horrible uni timetables... it was a simple dinner at Billy Bombers... at Jurong Point (!??!!?)... even when most of us are Easterners... just for the bday girl who stays in NTU hostel and has a 830 lecture in the morning... it was fantastic to meet up again... even though we met a couple of times over the holidays... for BBQ and stayover... refer to collapsing-bed incident... it wasnt much... but i hope we made her happy... or considering how cheerful she always is... happier than usual, i hope...  kitying and myself... narcissistic shot that i took... presumably as a bday gift to rene... coz it was her camera... or more accurately, her sis' fantabulous 5.0 MP Cybershot... came out pretty ok... and yeah... my new earrings...  rene, the bday girl and GY... GY rushed over from Pasir Ris to Boon Lay... and that's from one end of the EW line to the other... Serene, you ought to be touched... haven't seen GY since our bdays... and that was in September... her hair GREW!  tian1 cai2, Jas and the bday STAR! Rene's shirt is supposed to be a vietnamese flag... but the less geographically inclined of us thought it was a Converse shirt... she was striking nonetheless... EVERYONE knew who the Birthday Star was...  rene and kitying... the two who are forever bickering... it's damn funny really... awhile before this photo... probably long before... Rene said something that made Kit want to step on her feet... because Rene was sitting on the opposite side... Kit slid lower in her chair and attempted to step... she practically disappeared and her attempt was unsuccessful as well... i concluded that it is usually near impossible to harm bday girls/boys in any way...  i must really learn to smile while keeping my eyes open... GY said picture not nice coz my eyes so small... *attempting to lick boots of bday girl* i think Rene's smile very nice... her mouth very small then quite cute... (*pukes breakfast, lunch and dinner*)  start of the self portraits...  the bday brownie... which was damn yummy by the way.... i'm sorry i ate so much of it! and i seriously think she looks nice in this pic... so nu3 ren2... wahaahha!  the pufferfish shot... and i think i am a blardy good photographer...  myself, rene and jie... as you can see where we dined were in the midst of the shopping crowd... so paiseh... taking so many pictures... making so much noise... but truly... only with friends as close as these can you go high on melted cheese and brownies...  and then we tried to do a group shot... i think i secretly only wanted myself in the picture...  the waiter, though helpful, wasnt very proficient... blur picture... though nicely framed...  and so i tried again... i cut of Jas' forehead... and they werent very happy...  FINALLY!!! save for my lack of a chin... and very weirdly positioned head... but everybody else looks great!  her presents from us.... "Hey Rene, ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:46 --Link to Post |
| 16.1.06 |
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it has been nuthing but amazing working with Justin for a number of projects so far... last year was NUS Championships... then heading the Windsurfing Sub-Club together... Sea Sports Camp 06... and the other smaller things like the webby's graphics and all... its great to find someone else who feels the same about things as you... working as hard, if not harder, for something we believe in... quite frankly... when i was about to give up and go into self-destruction mode... his enthusiasm spurred me on... him working that hard... made me realise how easily i crumble... putting in our darnest for Windsurfing in NUS... hopefully our hard labour will pay off... ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:44 --Link to Post |
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sometimes i dont know why i am doing this... but the fact that i am... probably means i'm hooked on to being occupied and busy... 3 meetings over 2 days... talked until i feel so lao4 hong1... taught a 2 day course over the weekend... screamed, shouted, swam, paddled... but it was a good class.. willing to learn... and fast learners too... great selection races with NUS Windsurf... at least a total of 5 races... with amazing planable winds... gaining back my proficiency on the eeky 6m sail... accompanied the guy to pick his dad up at airport after business trip to Shanghai... where i met Ronald (!?!?!)... as if i dont see him enough at school... 2 birthday celebrations over the weekend... wanqi at Pasir Ris... Serene over dinner at Jurong Point... another meeting for Sea Sports Camp tomorrow... somebody buy me an air pump... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:57 --Link to Post |
| 13.1.06 |
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the guy lost his phone... his rather new Samsung... anyone with 2nd hand phone lobangs please let me know... we have an addiction to Samsung that we cant shake... despite knowing how easily they get faulty... pretty please? ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:46 --Link to Post |
| 12.1.06 |
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i forced the guy to give me flowers. terrible right? was a PMS-induced request... feel terrible as a result... coz he dare not take public transport with the bouquet of 5 gerberras and 4 carnations... then he had to come school in a cab and hide at PGP basement while waiting for me... but then again... it's the guy's fault for not absorbing my pre-birthday and pre-anniversary hints... hints to the extent of I WANT FLOWERS... he says i ask for too many things... until he doesnt know when i'm serious... (how about ALWAYS?) so i guess this makes up for it all... but still... the guilt inside me is mounting... and i cant afford the white Chelsea jersey which might help alleviate my guilt... so i'll have to live with it... it's so weird that i would want flowers... when most people would not associate me with girly, flowerly stuff... i guess it's just nice to feel girly once in a while... especially with the whole flower thing... just makes you feel special... even though you forced it out of him... and hid it in your room immediately after... he did give me flowers two occasions prior... of his own accord... on our first official date as a couple... and during the last vday... which probably was a killer... considering how insane people price their blooms on such occasions... feels good la... even though it hurts his pocket... and all you do with it one week later is to try fit it in the rubbish chute... maybe it's overhyped by all the TV dramas and movies... that recieving flowers is such a WOW thing... i have heard of women who work in offices who send flowers to themselves just so they wouldnt look bad next to the woman who just got a bouquet of 99 roses from her hubby or something... but what does it really prove? the bigger the bouquet the more love from the guy? i think it's simply the bigger the bouquet the richer the guy... which brings us to another evil... Materialism... and did i say i hate my new hair? I HATE MY NEW HAIR. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:26 --Link to Post |
| 11.1.06 |
 attempt at another poster... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:33 --Link to Post |
| 10.1.06 |
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orientation finale... went back to AJ with some of the council people.. to peep at my sister as well... more importantly... to laugh at her dancing... good fun... feel old... band was not bad... composed an "orientation song"... funky AJ Rappers... not bad, not bad...  AJC Orientation 06..  3 generations...  part of the 19th AJSC...  jer hsuan with all the girly bags...  my twin!  with Mr Alex Tan... ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:12 --Link to Post |
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hate myself for making the guy so miserable when i am PMSing... i'm sorry. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:49 --Link to Post |
| 6.1.06 |
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need some help in deciding which to send for for probable publication in SPORTlight.. have been getting mixed response...  this?  or this? ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:28 --Link to Post |
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our anniversary came and gone... and truth be told.. i was slightly disappointed... it was my fault really... to impose my expectations on him... we are, in fact, embarking on a whole new journey together... and how can i compare him to an ex or to the boyfriends of others? i was expecting to be blown off my feet... with daisies that Tom Hanks gave Meg Ryan in You've Got Mail... with a ring that wf saved up so hard for on this particular occasion 5 years ago... with gifts that guys shower their girlfriends with on occasions like these... i was sorely disappointed... didnt feel important enough... not worth the expense or the trouble... (although i admit i never did anything for him for the occasion either...) when he realised that my joking tone of disappointment was no joke at all... i saw how distraught he looked... and i realised... hey... we're not supposed to be like any other couple... so why am i comparing us to others? him remembering the day... taking me out to eat at the places we've always wanted to... watching the movies we've been wanting to watch.. (and paying for everything...) is more than enough really... shallow me forgot all about the stuff he DID for me over the WHOLE of the last year... just because of things he did not do in one day... ...sending me home from town everytime even when his place is just 5 mins from town... ...paying for the expensive meals and leaving the cheaper ones to me, silently... ...watching movies like Chicken Little with me when he didnt really want to... ...walking aimlessly over the Esplanade - Fullerton stretch just because i wanted to... ...putting up with my childish behavior and not getting angry with me ever... ...teaching me my homework even though he had loads of his own... blah blah blah... day started off late... after my bout of disappointment curled up under his quilt... went to Marche because he wanted so badly to eat there again... only to find it closed for the day... adjourned to Billy Bombers instead... got nice boxed seats.. though the food was slightly below their usual standards... went over to PS to try find some presents for friends' 21st birthdays... then watched Wallace and Gromit... after i have been wanting to watch it for so long... dinner was at Brewerkz... to try the much talked-about burger... but the food were a let-down... or maybe because we were too full after the late Billy Bombers... burger and sandwich washed down with Golden Ale... *burp* proceeded back to town... for Narnia... decided to watch it at PS... coz it was the best place to go from Clarke Quay... movie was not bad... loved the little girl... though the hype was a tad too big... went back for 2 games of Monopoly in which we tied... update: he won a third game...boohoo! Zzzzzz... long day... no presents... no special things... just a lot of time spent together... being happy... other than the part about whether or not physical punishment is beneficial to wayward kids... i guess thats the best thing about being with the guy... it just feels so right... so good... Happy first year. (i think anniversary sounds cheesy...) ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:50 --Link to Post |
| 3.1.06 |
 the first of many more to come... i hope... thanks for making the first move when i had no courage to do so... ...for asking what i felt about you when i was dying to tell you. thanks for all the happy memories... ...windsurfing together ...watching countless movies together ...travelling to Taiwan ...bearing my horrible singing as you drove me home so often thanks for acting all childish with me... ...playing along when i pretended that the roll of wrapping paper was a lightsabre ...for pretending to whimper in pain when i slapped you on the tummy thanks for being there... ...whenever i need someone to scream to ...whenever i need a shoulder to cry on ...whenever i feel that the whole world's evil ...whenever i feel that nobody likes me at least i know you do. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:43 --Link to Post |
| 2.1.06 |
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i know Lalame neber ask me to do this meme... but i think it's fun.... so here goes nothing... In no particular order, list down: 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see at school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with, and 3 people in your sms inbox.
This is hard. Not because he isn't good looking, but because of the fact that i have always tried to be non-judgemental when it comes to looks. (Actually, Wil is probably a 10. Everyone says so. Just that he has this link and i dont want to get him big-headed and all. But then again, the guy's a 10 too. And judging from all the people who will beg to differ, my opinion is no opinion at all.) How nice is number 8? Vivien is nice. (I have to say that, she's reading you know?) But frankly, she is one of the few who volunteered her services FOC at the Singapore Open. (Does this mean i can keep your $$$?) Never heard her badmouth anybody and she's helpful, kind, sweet, generous, etc... All the makings of a NICE person. Need i say more? Honestly, if number 9 met an accident, what would you do? If Mr Connor met with an accident, I probably wouldnt know. He was my secondary school Lit teacher and I have never seen him since. Thing was, he rescued my mediocra Lit grades from an F or D, i cant remember, hammered everything into me until i got an A for the O Levels. He makes us see all the wonderful things in Literature, things you dont usually get on the first reading. I guess that changed me as a person. Totally. Would I ever fall for 11? Adrian's a jiemei. Although he looks like Kui Jien whom i totally adore, I never did lah. But it's hard to say man, this kind of things. One thing i know for sure, Adrian only likes pretty girls. So too bad! What sport would i play with number 12? Ronald goes to the gym a lot. To the extent that he's mad. He'll tapow Mac's into the LT to eat during lecture just so he can spend the two-hour break working out at the gym. I don't get his fascination with the gym, just that he should be careful of how big he's building his body to be. He has a Calvin (of Calvin and Hobbes fame) -sized head, really small for a big body really. What sport? Bodybuilding is a sport? How much do you like number 3? Yijun (the guy one) is funny la, funnier than you would expect. And although he looks innocent and all, he aint very very. He knows really good cake lobangs though and that, is reason enough to like him many many. Would 13 and 7 make a good couple? They are both guys. And very straight ones at that. (One of them confessed that he has a love interest already and i assumed it to be female. Thank you very much.) Do i hate number 5? Yes. Very very much. (Such an apt question for YXY.) But he's been really nice over the last exam period and we spent many many hours either online or on campus together, studying/eating. I hate him for his arrogance but i guess it's something you're entitled to if you are in the Dean's List for 3 sems out of 3 sems so far. It's really a blessing to have a smart friend, (everyone looks at you with envious eyes when you're all stuck outside the exam halls with burning questions in ur head). Would 14 kill me one day? My sister. She might if i continue teasing her about her guy. Thing is, he's pretty integrated into my family now, especially since my dad and him are Man. U. fans, unlike the guy who is an outcast at the moment. He has been over sometimes for mahjong and the works, so i guess i'll stop teasing her for some time. (Maybe until it's time for wedding bells, which will be long later considering my sis is only 16.) Who do i like more ? 15 or 10? Wah lau. This is blardy hard. It's like asking whether i like my right hand or left hand more. (Stella dont kill me!) But let's just say the guy is my right hand and Stella's my left. (I am right-handed by the way.) So what do you think of no. 4? Serene is blur like sotong and slow like a dial-up modem. We dont call her 486 for nothing, but luckily for her, we promoted her there since her 386 days. But since she didnt scold us for collapsing her bed the other time, she's really sweet and kind and nice. Which is true. Which is why she is one of my favouritest best buds ever. Pity she's in NTU, else we'll have a blast in university together. How would you feel if number 2 slapped your face? Suli can be very fierce. So i reckon it would be quite painful. Feel sad. Feel pain. Ow. ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:11 --Link to Post |
Great things that happened in 2005
i know it's not much... ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:02 --Link to Post |
| 1.1.06 |
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it's finally over. that's if you dont count the accounts i have to settle... and the headache i'll be getting over the next week... went out with Yijun on the Finish boat today... he was the only one around... coz the guy decided to get drunk last night with his OCT buddies.. on 400 bucks worth of alcohol.... thats 4 people, mind you... and a second round at his place with blue label Johnnie Walker and Glenfiddish... i dont drink nor club... so i dont see the point in blowing the money only to get a hangover in the morning... and to stand your girlfriend up in morning... such that she has to rush claims last night... so that she can go out to the sea in the afternoon... get wet in the storm... rush into the air-con office to churn out the race results while totally wet... and risk getting a bad cold... AND refusing to stay for the free NYE dinner... so she couldnt stay either... but at least he came by... and helped me do stuff... writing my claims summary and payment vouchers.... proceeded on to J8... wanted to go Esplanade... but the taxi driver say road closed... to have Haagen Daz fondue... but they were sold out... so we had the New York Brownie... and iced tea with aloe in it... ta pow oyster mee sua and ji pa... go to his place to watch chelsea match... midnite came and went... we simply muttered a Happy New Year... and carried on watching TV... it feels so different not being out there with the crowds... with the Happy New Year! greetings... with the alcohol... with the flares... but it was enough for me... just being there with him... embarking on a brand new year... i never had the practice of setting New Year's resolutions... but frankly... all i wanna do is to zuo hao ren... HAPPY NEW YEAR. ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:41 --Link to Post |
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