| 30.12.02 |
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hehe...
today no wind... so we kinda slacked at the beach... until everyone went home... then jud, WQ, rae, seeleonghuat, sam and i went swimmin'... it was cool... until we tried swimming against the stupid current... until jud swam back and shouted to us that we aint moving... then we made our way back... swimming got a little sian... so jud wq sam and i stayed back... and took out some boards to pretend we're surfer dudes and dudettes... hahaha... it was really fun... will all the verbal diarhoea from jud and wq.. pengz.. me and sam just stadn there and laugh our guts out.. hehehe... i'll really miss jud leh... sam and i got him a t-shirt and a pullover... think it looks kinda cool... but i bought it... i think the beach without him is gonna be so different... he just makes life more lively... and funny... hehhe... will oni get to see him maybe in 5 years? or maybe not at all... dun really know... but hope we will still keep in touch... =) last day of race tmr... wish me best... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:50 --Link to Post |
| 29.12.02 |
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bad races today...
though i managed to beat WQ at one of the races... got last in IMCO at the other two... even lost to the guys from macau... piangz... got lapped by the thai boys lor... argh... almost felt like crying... coz it wasnt that i din sail well... i thot i did... but my daggerboard just din wanna listen to me... it just din wanna go down... argh... hate it... really... stepped on it till my sole hurt like shit now... haiz... but maybe i should cease to blame my equipment... and start reprimanding myself... =P havent been seriously training for the past year... suddenly ask me sail sing open... shucks lah... my upwind was better than the rest... but downwind i still cant get the right pumping technique... shitty stuff... will try harder tomorrow... and keep my blistering hands outta my mind... they hurt alot... cant even clench my fist right now... much less hold the sail properly.. haiz... the indonesians spoke to me today... haha... was farnie... coz in our conversation i asked him which part of indonesia was he from... he din understand... so i tried to rephrase and rephrase... =P i think i heard bandung... well... there is a part of indonesia named bandung... that i know... hahha... he asked for my name... and told him mine... he told me his... and thot his name sounded abit like mine.. oh well... maybe i should try to smile at the macau guys tomorrow.. i'm not being blah blah... just trying to play a good host... they're kinda quiet... in their own world... i thot it'll be cool if we could get them talking.. =) k k... will go rest my hands... may there be moderate winds tmr... i really cant handle high winds liaoz... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:13 --Link to Post |
| 28.12.02 |
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races was cool...
but very tired... now 9 points behind WQ... not too good... my upwind was pretty okay... could point higher than the rest... managed to beat some guys from macau... i think they're ard my age lah... or older... got into one of the shots in the news today... wah lau... they make us fuss over one stupid sail... make us look busy.. and hahha... it was dumb... wQ was smiling all the way... i was whispering to sam... haha... din know wad to do... i go sleep liaoz... next 3 days of races... wish me best... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:09 --Link to Post |
| 27.12.02 |
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today was kinda slow again...
before noon... just waiting ard for uncle kah soon to bring us the materials for the sail numbers... sam and i were getting abit pissed at how last minute everything was... like dr ben said... wat? your sails still virgin ah? havent touch water? sadly, yesh... we had to season the equipment while racing... but kinda appreciated the help uncle george and uncle francis rendered us... optimists coaches... gosh... i was away at the skippers briefing... and he was at my sail... patiently poking the air bubbles in the stickers... i never asked him to help me.. but he did... quietly... if i din walk that way i wouldnt have known... seriously... sharing the beach there with him is one of the best things that could have ever happened to us... the windsurfing lot... he's been teaching us alot of stuff too... kinda glad... and happie.. think the thai and indonesian sailors are kinda frenly... hehhe... i think a bright smile really helps when language is a serious barrier... havent got the chance to mingle... coz was too busy with the sail stuff... will try tmr... =) for now... its sleep... prepare for the long days ahead... wish me best... not to lag too much behind... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:26 --Link to Post |
| 26.12.02 |
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me kinda touched by pple ard today...
councillors kinda gave me quite a number of prezzies... shishi gave me nice chocs... dopey gave me an eeyore... PQ, a pouch... lenny, a bear.. kaiting...something i havent unwrapped... yeesh and frenz...a couple of candy canes and a band... feel bad... coz i havent done up their prezzies... been too busy... forgive me guys... know wad? serene did the nicest thing anyone could ever do for me... i told her i lost my fone a couple of days back... and know wad she did? she wrote down all our mutual frenz numbers on a piece of paper... and mailed it to me... without me asking her to... she WROTE THEM ALL DOWN!!! all 40+ of them... i love you, rene... i really do... was kinda sianz at beach today... andrew msg-ed WQ to tell us to come at 1030... but WQ din msg us... saying that andrew din tell her to do so... well... okay.... just that we came at 1430... no time to do up our equipment... no time to sail... no time to season the new stuff... kinda pissed... sam's really sianz too... can see today he din crap at all... men men bu le... i tried to cheer him up... worse thing... his bike tire got punctured... *pengz* poor thing... tomorrow my dad helping to send him to bike shop... =P after the marathon i guess... pray for moderate winds tomorrow... dont think i can even come close to the china sailors... just hope that i can finish the marathon to kallang... and back to ECP... woohoo! wish me best... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:59 --Link to Post |
| 25.12.02 |
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actually not much to say today...
coz the actual xmas is usually quite uneventful... went shopping with family... to see whether i can get a new fone... saw teeny song ericsson one... free with a new line... but 200+ bucks as a replacement... gosh.... but kinda worried abt switching from nokia... coz will have trouble getting used to... but now all the nokia fones are kinda not my thing... on hindsight... ii think my 6510 wasnt my type... then even the MMS-enabled fones are not only pricey... but quite weird looking too... so am pretty happie with my 8210... until i save enough money... then maybe can get one of those pretty samsungs... woohoo! was at giordano today... saw TK... terence koh??? council senior... heheh... surprised to see him... he was too.. hahah... bought a pair of light denims... 20 bucks... how good can that get? bought some sweets for andrew... gonna write him something... so kinda appreciate all he has done for us for the past few weeks... during our two week intensive... he was oni paid a measly 60 bucks a day you knoe? haiz... feel bad that we keep disappointing him... =P and gonna ask him not to smoke so much... its bad for him... k k... gotta go liaoz... homework homework homework... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:02 --Link to Post |
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samuel commented yesterdae online...
that i oni start speaking whenever anyone spoke of x'mas... think it happened unknowingly... but christmas is really special to me... for no particular reason watsoever... but its such a joyous mood... of hope, love and faith... kinda bad that i din have time to buy stuff for people around... really sorry to all who read this... but would like to hug every single one of you out there... and tell you how much you guys mean to me... i dont really show it... or say it... but each one of my frens make a difference in my life... and memories would withstand the test of time... thanx for being there when i needed you guys... understanding when i'm just plain mean... and simply for being my friends... love all of you... really... he gave me a CD the previous year... it had all the x'mas songs that he played on the piano... though it was mass-produced and given to all his frenz... mine was special... with a bonus track... i still have it... and all the songs he played in his folder... in my PC... sometimes when i think of him... i just play them repeatedly over and over... rem there was this one song that he 'composed'... one of the many he did... may be just him banging on the piano and a anyhow-tune come out... but it really brought a smile to my face... coz it reflected my mood of the day... at the big walk skipping along nicholl highway... =) it was pretty... back to present... a.k.a. REALITY... i must let go to all i am holding on to... i find it absurd myself... how i simply cant move on... this is not me... i'm supposed to be a can-pick-up-can-put-down person... but i guess this kinda stuff makes you act out of character... coz i am... totally... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:16 --Link to Post |
| 24.12.02 |
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never knew getting new equipment ready for water can be so difficult...
gosh... the boards alone took us one entire day... had to waterproof the seams... fix the foot straps... upwind...downwind... fix the fin... check the daggerboard... reinforce the casette... *pengz* worked from 1030 to 1930... 5 people on 5 boards... was interupted by the toopid glenn and rod... disturb our work oni... really die liaoz... havent done any homework at all... die die die.. thats why now... i shall leave my blog alone liaoz... and do some work... tomorrow is the only day left for me to do work... 26th got training and sch... 27 to 31st got competition... 1st jan also can do work... then 3 days of orientation... piangz... how to finish the mountains of hw??? argh!!! somebody save me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:36 --Link to Post |
| 23.12.02 |
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glad i managed to make someone really happy today...
coz was my nanny's b-dae... she really did alot for us when we were little... so me and my bro went to visit her... went 'round trying to get b-dae cake... but most of the cake shops all stocked with x'mas cakes oni... walked alot... then got one at prima deli.. yeay... then went for seafood with her entire family and my family... except my sis though... at a bbq... so ate and ate alot... soft shell crabs... black pepper crabs... prawns... fish... and all the yummy stuff... woohoo!!! my dad paid for the dinner... but me siblings and i sorta give him abit of reimbursement... coz i thot we should foot the bill... =) then went back to my nanny's home to eat the cake that i bought... heheh... it was kinda small... but i guess it's the thought that counts... and could see... it really made her happie... it made me glad... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:53 --Link to Post |
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its quite crazy actually...
chatted online till abt 4am in the morning... was trying to do my essay at the same time... managed to finish it... but think it sucks... 4am??? yeay... i think its kinda like when you find a person you can really talk to... you dont really feel tired of talking... when i was in sec3/4... alwaz spoke to him till the wee hours of the morning... simply crap... dont know how we managed that... but goodbyes alwaz takes at least one hour... so i'll start falling asleep in klass... and get sent to the toilet by the teacher... i think i was the oni person caught sleeping by ALL of my teachers... power ah? i think so too... and him? locked in his office... sleeping behind the tall chair... its really quite insane really... we could talk until i fall asleep at the keyboard... or starting typing rubbish... but oh well... i talk rubbish all the time anyway... my nanny's b-dae today... so will be bringing my bro to go visit her with a cake or something... but lazy bro still in bed... i think he's quite cute actually... telling me all the stuff that happened on their trip to malaysia... he's really happie i can see... i'm glad they enjoyed themselves... it was hilarious how my sis and bro keep relating stuff to me... my bro tried to tell me abt the rides they rode... then i said i know... how you know? coz sis told me... then my sis tried to tell me wat they ate on the way back... then i said i know... how you know? coz bro told me... hahha... xmas is kinda here... but dont really have the xmas mood... been stuffed at ECP for way too long... away from town... feel bad for not getting any prezzies... maybe i'll try to get something for my family at least... but ney... i got training tomorrow... grr... seems that andrew's gonna get interviewed on the glenn and rod show... on tV... maybe i'll float by the background? hahaha... see how... they'll probably chase me away and do a retake... muahahaha... then i shall continue ruining their takes... ----Stef stopped rambling at 11:29 --Link to Post |
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oh yarh guys...
got my sim card back liaoz... so if can just gimme an sms with your name so that i can add you back in... yeay... but havent got a new phone.. so using bro's samsung... kinda cool... but aint used to it... ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:14 --Link to Post |
| 22.12.02 |
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rigged up the new stuff today...
sail is quite pretty... yellow and orange... really dare not use it... coz the whole rig and board coz almost 2500... wad if i damaged something... man... kinda afraid... heard the sailors from china also coming down... die liaoz... that means me and WQ dont even need to dream of getting anything... surely lose to them one... can oni pray... our seniors couldnt even beat them... how could we? pray harder... dont know how to find time to do my homework... havent even started.. hope i can push through... wish me best... now its GP time.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:34 --Link to Post |
| 21.12.02 |
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today was pretty cool...
went to beach at ard 2... supposedly to rig up the new equipment.. but andrew was late... so we'll do it tomorrow... actually he's quite nice... coming down on his own accord to help us... =) heard from mr tan that he's paid less than 60 bucks to train us... feel quite bad... coz at the end of the training stint... he treated us to satay... yummy... and we just ate and ate... new equipment is quite cool... sail is orange and yellow... dont really like the colour... but think its not bad lah... you know the picture on sunday headlines? pix of andrew surfing??? ya... that sail... the new stuff looks really new... got this bu she de yong feeling.. esp when you din buy it yourself... i really scared i spoil it... =P but kinda happy.... that i'll be getting a new set... courtesy of salvatore... today took gerald's car to suntec to eat... met with his ntu-nus pple... dont really know them.... but WQ like so shou with them... so it was kinda weird... so i stuck myself with sam and sk... but hated the feeling... as if we're tagging along with them... but feel quite amused how WQ does it... coz i could never pull anything like that off... sam walked me to the MRT... actually wanted to take 10 with him... but he said it would take quite long to reach tampines... so he walked with me from suntec to the MRT... hate suntec for that reason... its kinda far from the MRT... talked to him alot along the way... feel that i could better relate to him than before... kena static by him alot of times... he say coz air at citylink very dry... maybe... coz we got static-ed like 6-7 times... first time was on his forehead... checking his fever... he was nursing a bad flu... supposedly caught when he watched the 2330 LOTR the nite before... we talked abt how we wasted one year of training... the equipment was taken away from us... and none of us could train on the mistral one design... those who went down played with the shortboards... and stuff... but these werent wat we are training for... oh well... hopefully these 2 weeks are enough to make up for that... i know we cant beat the HKG sailors... nor the thai sailors... but one thing for sure is that i wont give up... unless it blows a force 7... that no matter wat... i wont be able to handle... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:22 --Link to Post |
| 20.12.02 |
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edwin from the national sailing centre spoke to us today...
about donning national colours... and training under them... that they'll try to train us for the international races... so it means national team... if we could make the mark... but they asked for commitment... like 4 times a week... which was quite impossible... even if i would willingly burn my weekends... i cant take out two days from sch... harlow... i end sch at 5.... by the time i reach ECP... the sky dark liaoz... in addition... joining NSC would mean leaving mr tan... and all our seniors at the club... that aint good... must ying shui si yuan... but not joining NSC means that no matter how hard i train... i will not don national colours... or enter the national team... unless i'm as good as andrew... its a chance of a lifetime... but i really dunnoe what to do... both directions has its pros and cons... but thing is i really cant commit... on the other hand... there's no point training so hard when i'm not aiming for national colours... there's a freaking load of politics in sailing... and many dont know that... why cant BSAS get along with SSF... then i wont have this dilemma... coz it really sux... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:04 --Link to Post |
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today marked the end of official training...
but also the start of informal training... tomorrow still need to go down to the beach... and rig up the new equipment... today got fitness test... did really badly... came in last for almost everything... lost to WQ in everything except running... Run (3.3km) - 19:02 Max weight lifted - 25kg (WQ did 40!!!!) Max bench pumps - 3 (WQ did 32!!!) Crunches (2min) - 36 Arm hang - 0:36s (bleh! sam did a 2:27) Back arches (2min) - 110 quite sad... coz its quite bad.... but trying to improve on them... =) getting my first SIN number... 30 bucks ah... but its abit like the car license plate number... so only one person in the whole windsurfing circuit will use that number... woohoo! trying to get SIN 23... if nobody's using it now... coz its my lucky number... and also jordan's number... =) if not... maybe some nice 3 digit number... like search joo's SIN 711... so cool... WQ say she wanna SIN 90... coz sin 90 is one... and she wants to be number 1... hehehe... so crap... sam today was really crappy... kept laughing at him... last time he was a shy sec3 guy... you know... when we suan him... he'll keep quiet one... but now... he can even suan back... muahhahaa... i think he got 8 points... and going to TJ i think... too bad... wont get to see him often i guess... =( ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:54 --Link to Post |
| 19.12.02 |
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wind was superb today...
din do much of the drills coz i went late... (in the afternoon...) so i kinda sat in the boat... and wait to swop... did quite badly for the race... but when andrew went to return the boat... took seongkian's sail out... woohoo! it was shiok... wind was damn good... so started upwind planning... and tried to do some carve gybes... mast track was kinda tough to move... but it was good fun... kelly chan jr. was out there today... actually wanted to borrow a set of equipment to play... but we were training you see... so he went out on his formula... woohoo! that was one big sail... alwaz see him ard this season... coz got kelly chan marathon mah... in memory of his dad... so he'll be training hard... quite confirm liaoz... will be joining the kelly chan marathon and the singapore open... hopefully will get one of the five sets of equipment sponsored by salvatore... u know the italian pasta restaurant... there's one at suntec??? ya the boss... he's a pretty nice guy.... treated us to pizza b4... heheh... after one of our trainings... coz we surf at pasta fresca sea sports club mah... hahha... pray hard that i'll get a set... today dr. ben was quite farnie... coz i went to beach in sch U... then they saw my council badge... and they purposely misinterpret it as counsellor... so he went... 'councillor...i like this girl...but the girl dont like me...how?' in his most child like voice... and andrew and his stupid comments... 'so how??? go sch counsel notty boi?' i pengz.... today andrew was damn farnie... coz uncle suddin they all caught a baby shark outside... quite scary... coz like andrew says... got baby means got adult... freaky... but like shuzhen said... he really acted like a little boy... played with the shark... and showed us how the shark would yawn... tried giving the shark CPR... hahha... one farnie guy leh really... really appreciate my team... i dunnoe... but training with them can really light up my worst days... liek fone.. the loss of my fone.... and the lack of co-operation from the councillors.. no matter how pissed i was on the way to the beach... everything just seemed so fine again... really... surfing the waves really took my mind away from everything... if only i had my family with me now... then i'll be so glad... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:59 --Link to Post |
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day was busy as it was...
but i had to lose my fone to top it all up... sucks man! really... my fone was my life lor.. now i lost like 200 plus 300 contacts... how am i going to get them back... i need alot of them for orientation but now... they're all gone... seriously i'm damn sad... but still had to paint flag... still had to train... =~( randolph... cant sms you even if i want to now... and no need to help me change for spare batt liaoz... i have no use for it liaoz... parents in malaysia... told them lioaz... mom was quite alrite with it... dad wasnt with her... so he doesnt know yet... why did i have to lose my fone? shouldnt have ran for that stupid bus... shouldnt have gone to sch... instead of training straight... argh... why did it have to happen to me? okay... so much for losing the fone... grandpa was really nice... offered to give me money to get a new fone... feel really bad... other pple have to pay for my mistake... i think this time... i have to pay for my own mistake... but its not the phone that mattered... its the contacts that i lost... my phone directory that i built up... appeal to all my frenz... do sms me after i posted that i got a new phone... so that i can re enter your number... haiz... sad sad sad... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:29 --Link to Post |
| 18.12.02 |
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oh yarh...
i miss my family.... very much... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:13 --Link to Post |
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quite disappointed with my organization skills actually...
its so bad that oni abt 4 pple is gonna be in sch to paint nature flags tmr... and i've to skip morning training just to do painting... seriously ah... i dont know why i cant get more pple... but everyone else seems to have their thing to do... more IMPT stuff it seems... i'm quite pissed actually... so i'm already dead tired as i am... but i've to make my way down to sch tmr... then beach... ARGH! i really need a rest... badly... dunnoe when i can get one... i havent done my homework... i still got training next week... and competition the week after... eeks! it sucks... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:10 --Link to Post |
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quite proud of myself...
5.5 in extremely hot weather is quite a feat... timing was worse than my previous 5.5.... today's timing was 36:09.... compared to monday's 35:17.... its a huge increase... today was much tougher... even had trouble breathing... coz nose block... damn... PT today was short... after the monsterous run... we worked the abs... then start rigging up the equipment... then had one race b4 lunch... jud came in first... i was almost last... coz winds were really light... but was in front of adrian... can see that he's really drained... was sick... but trained so hard... ran so fast... hehee.... ate duckie porridge for lunch today.. hopefully when i do duck walk can walk better... hehehe... after lunch we raced 3 more times... came in 3rd, 1st and 2nd... the first race was stupid... was actually right behind sam... but daggerboard din wanna come up... then i stupidly forgot there's one more mark to round... so had to go back and round it... second race was better... sam started late.. i pumped and over took WQ... so managed first... being first is no fun... its quite pressurising... really... third race... hahaa... behind sam again... but i was actually behind... so caught up alot... think i played correctly... the current and the winds... even andrew was like... 'think abt wat you did and explain them to me later...' is that good or bad? hope the former... k k... going to sch tmr... then to the beach... wish me best.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:55 --Link to Post |
| 17.12.02 |
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family went to m'sia liaoz...
leaving me all alone in sg... not really all alone actually... still got my grandparents... my maid and my aunt in the house... kinda miss them... kinda close to my family you see... esp my dad... who drives me to and from training... today took bus home... so tired until took the wrong bus... ended up in pasir ris... lucky from there got straight bus home... then stupid thing happened... i din press the bus bell... so missed my stop... grr... so tired... still make me walk so far... haiz... dam tired... today training was so bad that it really hurts like sh*t when i squat down... dunnoe how i'm going to do duckie walk tmr... weather was damn hot... the 3.3 km that we ran... felt much longer than the 5.5 i ran the day before... but the cool thing was... today's 3.3 and friday's 3.3 i clocked the exact same timing... a lousy 20:45... hahah... like i told andrew... though we were supposed to better our time... i think our fatigue sorta counter acts the improvement... did lotsa PT today... really... i think this is the worst of the 4 days i did the full routine... i can duck walk until i fall onto one side... just pengz like that... and drink salt water.. coz we did most of the hops...duckie stuff...sprints...slides...in shallow water... so resistance was great.. and very tiring indeed... butt still hurts... pain... pain...... wind was superb today... sailed a bit... but after a few uphauls.. i really had no strength liaoz... jud took over my sail... coz my board damn slippery... he slipped a few times... then cannot already... so both of us camped on the boat... while andrew took the board... he sailed pretty much.. but came back commenting that the board too slippery.. stupid thing... made me fall so many times... so had one last uphaul... then sailed back to shore... saving my dignity.. or wads left of it... kinda hesistant abt joining singapore open at the end of the month... my skills are still rusty... and if the monsoon is going to hit... i dont think i can handle the winds ya know??? even the 15 knots today freaked me to the bone... i was so scared i din wanna go out... really dunnoe why... but i really very kia see recently... i need to find my post-o-levels self... oni then... i might find the courage to sail the singapore open... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:52 --Link to Post |
| 16.12.02 |
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water training was quite tough today...
tacking drills... 720s again... then storm hit.. and winds hit 18 knots... kinda too strong for me... esp when i just made my comeback from inactivity in council... not really inactivity... but physical inactivity... you know wad i mean... so stayed at shore... while others struggled.... andrew asked me to try the wind... told him i'm afriad that i cant handle... tensioned all the ropes i could tension... but fear really hit... =P think i'm one big weakling... but dont want to be so... kinda sad that i cant perform to what i wanna achieve... wish me best... there's still 4 more days of training... maybe i'll build up by then.... oh man... sam chopped his beautiful hair liaoz... so sad... thot he looked really ke ai with the previous hair style... when he came i really screamed and grabbed his head... why you cut your hair!!?!??!?!?! haiz... so sad... he dont look like harry potter anymore... haiz... but he still looks cute... hehee... too bad he not coming AJ... or some of you can actually see how he looks like... hehehe.... parents sent adrian home today... =) piangz... that guy is really damn polite... think my parents also kinda shocked at how polite he was... me shocked at where he lived... another rich guy who dont show it.. piangz... not only him lor... sam is quite well to do also... living in the katong area... home of my favourite kaya toasts... and my heritage... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:51 --Link to Post |
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k...
so proud of myself today... ran 5.5 km in 35:17 mins... not a good timing... but look at the distance! this is the furthest i've ever ran in my whole entire life... and i DIN walk!!! so proud of myself... andrew say same thing tomorrow... so hope i can keep up... kinda tired liaoz... today was quite jialat... full PT routine... but andrew incoporated land training and aqua training... so kinda like... hop hop hop to the end of the beach... swim ard the big drain... then hop back... or duckie walk till the end of the beach... swim swim then duckie walk back... alot of abs work today... though work them like siao... i dont see my waist getting any smaller... or any of the washboard andrew promised me... maybe end of the week lah... pray pray pray... alot of arm work as well... goodness... think me really weak in this aspect.. couldnt hang for more than 30 secs... and andrew's expecting something like a 2 min hang... but hands keep slipping... cannot help it... find the 15kgs abit too much too.. had a lot of trouble bringing the bar up... yucky thing... dont like training at seasports... coz dont like that stupid bar thingy... rather train at NSC... and gawk at the cute sailors... bleh... or like WQ joked... the sailors with the nice tight butts... quite farnie actually... esp when she said it... and andrew made a farnie comment... coach looked really tired today... seemed that he's been getting alot of calls from reporters abt the asian games incident... but he looks okay abt it... mentioning it oni once... and joking alot with us throughout the day... looks like he really enjoys making fun of WQ... hahha... oh well... oh yarh... did i ever mention??? andrew has a girlfriend... really blond hair... seen her oni once or so... but that was a darn long time ago... so kinda forgotten how she looks like... heheh... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:38 --Link to Post |
| 15.12.02 |
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heheh....
woke up at abt 10 plus today... daddy asked me to read the papers... got something abt andrew... seems like he got into some ugly shit at the asian games... got him suspended from internationals for two whole years... wat a waste... seemed like a raunchy incident... and his image sorta fits the bills... you know??? havoc guy who smokes and gets dead drunk... seen him totally drunk b4... until he just collapsed on the floor... during one of our new year eve parties... it was quite bad... he just came up to me and sprouted rubbish... which scared me quite a bit... but no matter wat... he's my coach... and a good one at that... believe in his integrity... and he's still my ouxiang ya? going out shopping with my family later... yeay... maybe i can get the shorts that i need... and PT stuff i'll need for the next week... me dead liaoz... havent done any homework at all... gonna die a horrible death... i think i'll pia my way thru the week after... coz that'll be my hibernation week before the singapore open... wish me best... that nobody from sch ask me to go back and do some stuff... i need the time... really... done all i could for backdrop liaoz... kinda saw the whole thing thru... nature flags will be the other problem though... pray... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:55 --Link to Post |
| 14.12.02 |
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santa clause 2...
its quite cute lah the movie... kinda like the nice shows that warm hearts before any major holiday... esp christmas... i really like christmas... not becoz i get gifts... but its a really cosy feeling... nice feeling of togetherness... maybe its mainly becoz my dad takes the role of santa every year... sending presents to all my cousins... presents handpicked and wrapped by us, his elves... hehe.. it's really this giving that i'm really happy of... i love christmas... when i was younger... you know the magic diary craze??? i asked for one... but my dad being my dad... alwaz like to reject me... but buy for me in the end... i din know... but kinda gave up... thinking i dont need one anyway... i woke up really early that christmas morning... dad was up too... he found it weird that i was up... so did the other adults in my family... so they treated me really nice... so nice that i cried... then my daddy thot i cried coz he wasnt gonna give me the magic diary... so he went to his room... and took out the last present he havent given me... the magic diary... until now... they kinda think i cried coz i din have the magic diary... but in actual fact... i cried coz i was touched by the love they showered me... that was all i needed for christmas... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:17 --Link to Post |
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today quite farnie...
wanted to watch 1515hrs' santa clause 2... but ended up watching the 1715 show... in the end oni lenny, peiqi, yeehaun and me... kinda LOOKED like a double date... esp when they decided to sit alternate seats.. so i had the wall and yeehaun beside me... worse that we had to share drinks and popcorn... muahaha... nalah... yeehaun was duped to watch with us... coz he thot there were more pple... but there weren't... coz the rest either watch liaoz or no money... boss is one farnie guy... everytime i ate the popcorn he called me a pig... so when he drank the coke i call him shui tong... hahha... he looked like one anyway... din manage to do any shopping... alwaz like this when you are out with big group... we had shouwen, yishan, kaiting, audrey, yuenlam and CK ard before and after the show... so though i see things i need and like... kinda diff to stop everyone and get wat i want... i think training everyday this week kinda led me to the realisation that i have a serious lack of PT attire... i used my nike dri-fit like thrice... AJ shorts thrice... and the yucky thing is when you go into the water... it sorta floats... like a big balloon... wanna get shorts... coz my nike ones are really too short... and they're ORANGE... i love loud colours.. but ORANGE shorts? dont ask me why i bought them... oni to wear them at home... i must be crazy... i need to go shopping... really!!! feel like buying the pink top i saw at queensway the other time... but its too far away... =P~ will see how... walked alot today... from orchard MRT to lido... from lido to HMV... from HMV to lido... from lido to HMV... from HMV to lucky plaza... piangz... stupid rite?? walked the same area so many times... dunnoe why the council like HMV so much... they were there from abt 4 to abt 8 plus... while the 4 of us went lido to watch the movie... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:16 --Link to Post |
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been posting stuff abt training alot recently...
need a record of stuff i've been doing... will try to keep up with PT over the weekend... maybe with the bicycle... and short jog... probably abit of strengthening at home too... slept pretty early yesterdae... 1+ near 2... left abruptly... sorry RUDOLPH... apologise for that... just that i felt that it wasnt very nice... cant really reply to your sms... my thumb got one big hole... hurts when i pressed on number pad... i'm not angry with you... really... hmm... online now... lenny asking whether wanna go out... dunnoe whether i should go out or stay at home and make up for the lost time with my family... confirm not going for the m'sia trip liaoz... so shall stay in singapore and train... probably have to cycle to NSC... but not from sengkang... maybe park my bike somewhere nearer... like bedok... and take a bus down to bedok... then cycle... have to see how... oni scared when i cycle will rain heavily... then i jialat... ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:49 --Link to Post |
| 13.12.02 |
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oh yarh...
must add... really really like andrew's shorts(S)... the black quiksilver one.. the red quiksilver one... and today's black billabong one... piangz... why his shorts all so nice!!! i think over the next week... i'll get to see more... yeay! but then ah... his shorts nice... but his shirts quite jialat... the best one so far was a white stussy one... hahaha... oh well... it's the shorts that count! coz he doesnt really wear his shirt anyways... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:26 --Link to Post |
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looks like the blog auto remove the extra SPACEs...
good... actually feel damn disappointed with myself... salvatore oni bought 3 sails in the end... if there were 5... i think i would get one... but 3? dont think so... WQ is much better than me now... compared to the inter-schs... where i managed to beat her... by that bit... she's in WS in TJ lor... kinda regretting not joining TJ and subsequently WS as my CCA... maybe i would have more time to sail... and do better than wat i'm doing now... many at the club were also quite surprised why i din choose TJ... or any better JCs... since i got 6... but dunnoe why i guess the distance thing really got to me... i dont think regret is a good thing to feel right now... halfway thru JC life... in council... but the good news is... i'm the oni girl that is eligible for the world youth championships... coz WQ is born in jan... and me in sept... so i'm still under 19 the year after next in july... that shall be my ultimate goal... to make world youth by then... but before that... i need to get top three in asia first... that... is hard i can assure you... think andrew is damn lihai... today during the 720s... he came in water and tried to collide with us... to teach us defence on water... piangz... the way he does his stuff arh... the sail like one piece of paper oni lor... he's that good... if only i could be half as good... know something??? actually the few of us din really like sam... coz jud sorts psycho-ed us... that sam's alwaz copying him... in terms of style and sailing technique... but starting to think that samuel is really nice... SZ agreed too... coz he helped me alot during rigging... and even in water practise... though he's younger than me... it's as if he's older... and he looks after me alot... hhaha... he even ordered lunch for me today... we both ate hokkien mee... and shared a plate of carrot cake... aint fair you know??? that uncle gave him 3 prawns... i oni got 2.... haiz... wat to do... sam's better looking than me... =P~ ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:34 --Link to Post |
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=P
training was tough today... cant type with my right thumb now... so you can see the SPACE quite farnie... it got sliced abit by my boom... freak... coz i pressed the button in... sam pulled on it... and it clipped my thumb... hurt like hell... bled abit too... training today... approx. 3.3km of run... 3 rounds ard the lagoon.... boy that place is big... took 20:45mins... shitty time compared to the guys... but was first among the girls... not anything wonderful... coz i missed 3 days of PT due to some stupid virus that chose to attack me at such an inconvenient time... light gear cycling wasnt too bad... kinda like cycling... and cycled alot when i was younger... so it was easier... pumped 15kg... freaking 100 times... couldnt finish actually... but had to do it slowly... andrew made sure i did it.... stupid guy... alwaz have to ji-siao me whenever i cant do something... the 4-direction abs work... wrist weights... leg raises which i couldnt manage... it was gross... but we survived land training... soon came aqua... after lunch and half an hour of rest... swam alot... jumped alot... freaky stuff... had to step on barnacles... and jump into the water... they hurt alot... so kinda held on to andrew... not that i wanted to... but it really HURTS... andrew made me do my water tuning again... but i couldnt handle... so he sent sam to help me... poor sam... had to swim to me... but made him stay in the water... coz i wanted to at least finish part of it myself... then sam climbed on board to help me... thats where i clipped my thumb... and where andrew and WQ commented that we looked like lovebirds floating away in the water... worse thing was that we kinda lost balance... and fell into the water as well... so then came the suan-ing... practised on 720s... gross stuff... never did any of those before in my entire time WSing... but tried anyway... realised my starboard gybe still sucks like hell... would just haf to practise much much harder... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:23 --Link to Post |
| 12.12.02 |
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kw blogged something abt being unable to erase somebody from ur memory...
i thot of that before... i could erase his HP number on my HP... erase his email add from my inbox... erase his home add from my notebook... but they all remained in my memory... his face remained as well... his jokes... his music... his smile... =) seriously... i really wanna know when will i ever see him again... i kinda think 'never'... and i dunnoe whether i should rejoice or grieve at that answer... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:33 --Link to Post |
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kena suan-ed by andrew alot of times today...
piangz... coz my equipment tuning in water damn slow... the stupid thing just dun wanna go in... =P quite disappointed... will just try harder tomorrow... =) WQ was saying andrew looks abit more serious recently... quite true larh... coz can notice his tone one... very obvious... but dunnoe why after aqua training he like got his crappiness back liaoz leh... can joke and laugh with us... hehe... think i'll write him a postcard after the entire camp... with some mentos... and a note... not to smoke too much.. he's really nice larh... but smoke so much... early die how??? can see lor... he's very respected by most of the more reputable sailors... esp the asian games squad... and i respect him for knowing so much as well... being so willing to impart everything to us... really very grateful for tat lor... shall stop yakking abt him... or else pple think i like him... or worse... i really start to like him... WQ also commented that sam actually quite shuai... see... i thot so too... me thinks he looks like harry potter... hahha... he also very crappy today... keep fighting for my camel bak... to drink from it... then got so many stupid comments... almost wanted to knock his head... wait a minute... i did knock his head... hahah... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:14 --Link to Post |
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gross...
got salt in my ears... must be tha training routine today... siong... but really pretty much fun... my first day on a full routine... a short jog compared to yesterdae's 1 hr... today was oni 20+ minutes... 3 rounds ard NSC... then some gross horse stance... 50 squats... frog jumps across the jetty... thrice... high kicks... and leg raises... those really killed me... coz my tailbone had alwaz given me prbs... hurts like hell... couldnt even sleep on my back during lunch break... arms routine was not so bad... weight bar X 3... assisted pull-ups...30... then took a spray of fresh water before hitting the sea... had to sail to lunch... so cannot say give up on sea... coz was damn hungry... ate duckie porridge... reckon that i wont have the energy to bite... then tried to sleep awhile... could never sleep in the afternoon... so just sat and did some controlled breathing... i guess it helped... coz din feel the strain too much during aqua training... wind wasnt good... so stayed on shore to PT some more... swam ard buoys... while Siemens was blasting ricky martin to play musical chairs... pasta fresca SSC mah... they alwaz have functions like this one... treaded water... for damn long periods of time... equipment tuning on water was worst... though sea was calm... had a lot of trouble with my stuff.... just din wanna listen to me... so couldnt manage... stupid andrew kept ji-siao-ing me... say i take damn long... that i'll lose something in the water... grr... =P so mean... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:05 --Link to Post |
| 11.12.02 |
 Which male HP character are you most compatible with? brought to you by Quizilla just realised leh... sam looks abit like harry potter... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:32 --Link to Post |
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everything ended at abt 1920...
piangz... quite late... and feel bad to make my parents wait for me... hungry... in the cold... but bo pian... i need a ride home... NSC is freakingly inaccessible... feel stronger today... dunnoe why also... think the training routine is really pretty good... it must be.... it got the seniors thru china training... and andrew into the asian games... maybe by the end of this week i can happily wear sleeveless shirts again... been avoiding those... esp since i joined AJ... and campaigned for council... havent been working out... even my ex-neighbour commented that i grew rounder... losing weight aint the most important thing here... i think building muscles is... monsoon is abt to hit... and by the time i compete in singapore open... it'll be full force... dont want it to be like last year... sit on the board and wait for a lull... no such thing... this year... i wanna sail.... i wanna sail with the top sailors in the region... hope i can... really do... really wanna excel in something... windsurfing is it man... saw wee at the rental shed... =P dont like him! eh... forgot how he offended me lah... but really dont like him... oh yarh... i think coz he insult the youth squad.. well... i think some of us sail mistral better than he does now.. =P~ looking forward for the new year party that we alwaz have... lotsa booze... hard liquor... i oni drink abit... okie? abit!!! but love the pretty flares and the ship horns that sound at midnite... shiok! really... if you havent been to ECP to see these... you should... it's really pretty... better still... bring your gf/bf... just sit on the water breaker and watch the waves... hear the horns... see the flares... =) the little beautiful bits of life... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:22 --Link to Post |
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*faintz*
piang... i cant train under andrew any longer... i really think he damn nice lor... coz some of them were banging into the boat today... then coz i was sitting down... my head almost kena bang... then he use his hand to protect my head lor... *faintz* he quite poor thing actually... know that he kinda pissed with our performance already.. i din train water today... dad scared i faint in the water or something... so could understand that many of them already reached their limits... but he really expects more... or at least... an indication that we tried our best... saw both sides of the story... dilemma lor... know he wants the best for us... but dont know how to tell him we ARE trying... they ran from NSC to bedok jetty and back today... damn long a run... one hour... will be doing it tmr... dunnoe how i'll die... today i cycled that distance... already half dead liaoz... *pengz* did some super high step-ups... duckie walks... sit ups... assisted pull-ups again... interesting leg raises... *pengz* the rest must be very tired... water training was kinda tough today... tacking drill... gybing drill... horrid stuff... but gave me alot of insights... actually learn alot on the boat.... anything i dont understand... just ask andrew... and i'll get enlightened... so happy... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:09 --Link to Post |
| 10.12.02 |
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i think i starting to idolise andrew leh...
i really think he very knowledgeable... oni thing is that he smokes... pretty much... hate smokers... but oh well... he was really nice lor... got once... the anchor line was down liaoz... then he moving the boat... the line was slicing along the sides... i din see.. coz i was recording the others' mistakes... then he grab me and ask me sit away.. he kinda got a hearing prb.. so his speech usually very soft also.... piang... cant hear him... but he's quite soft spoken for a guy like him... he was damn farnie today... hahha... had a lot of fun laughing... he kinda got alot of crude jokes... but its quite ok actually... got once very farnie... we wanted to pull up the buoy in the water... then we pull up... 'this isnt the knot that i tied....' then i stone a while... then he look behind... all the 420s sailing fast fast towards us.. piangz... he grab the steering wheel and ciaoz arh... then we laugh laugh laugh... then after that go say sorry to that china coach... for ji-siaoing his buoy... i think i kinda misunderstood andrew last time... really... i think i really did.... saw samuel today after a really long time... his hair grew longer... i think he got better looking too... coz i was like... hmmm... that guy quite not bad.... then the others were like 'sam!' hahha... i pengz ah.... =P he and WQ did pretty well at sea today lah.. sam's got a good posture... and WQ had the strength and power... i dunnoe where i stand... after such a long time away from the beach... but daddy say cannot train tomorrow... he scared i viral attack... then might get worse... shall listen to him... but do the strengthening stuff... and think i learn more on the speedboat too... kk... my siblings complaining liaoz... sleep sleep sleep... is good for you! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:50 --Link to Post |
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another early, long, hot, burnt day...
=P~ din do the run from NSC to safra... so i cycled with them... taking the back runners... while andrew led at the front... kinda to encourage the slower runners.. i've been there... actually... i'm usually there... just that i'm not running... so i know how they feel... after that stupid run... SBJs along the stone jetty... and joined them for the yucky duckie walks... piangz... leg hurt... but imagine them... power puff-ed... did the sit ups... crunches actually... my tail bone doesnt like me doing sit ups... in four directions might i add... gross stuff... then 30 assisted pull-ups.. and a 2 minute hang... but hand slipped off more often than it could stay... so oh well... think i'm trying hard to catch on... wish me good... then went to da lagoon to have lunch... hahha... had some piggy legs... and some meat bone tea... hahhaa... then stole some equipment stuff.. then took the speed boat back... water training for them started at ard 2... within 20 minutes... 2 sailors were down... couldnt even uphaul their sail... kinda got me freaked... thot one of them was pretty strong for his size... followed andrew ard on the speedboat... woohoo! love the way he rides the waves... and the boat goes damn fast... kinda had to lean on him... or else i'm the first thing to fly off the boat... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:50 --Link to Post |
| 9.12.02 |
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din actually do the quiz...
but just wanted to show you guys how squid looks like on rocket power... hehhe... looks abit like harry potter rite??? told you i've got a thing for the specs! 
Take the What High School Stereotype Are You? quiz, by Angel. ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:04 --Link to Post |
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was still down with fever in the morning...
even got a bout of diarhoea... so went down to beach at 0830... told andrew i was sick... and my nice daddy brought me to see the doc... then home to sleep awhile.. before heading down to the beach again to settle equipment stuff... know wad??? pretty happie with wad i got... got kerwan's old sail... which was still really new... though it was since last year's singapore open... he took care of it really well... and got andrew's board!!! the one he used at the asian games this year... woohoo! damn happie... dunnoe why i keep inheriting his boards.... my previous board was a '98 model of his... think andrew was damn farnie today... dunnoe why... but he made me laugh alot... tomorrow wont be training... dad wont let me... so i'll be on the speed boat with him... hahah... it'll be cool... considering how he powers the boat... damn fun... yeay! oh yarh... really liked andrew's quiksilver shorts! it was black... with some farnie design and red stiches... woah... but too bad its men's... ladies board shorts are usually shorter... and too bad i dont have the legs to flaunt... hmm... today gerald was there too... he kinda took sam's set of equipment... so i guess we'll be going down to europa to get another for him... seong was rigging a sail with a rather large scoop... hope he can handle... the winds recently can really kill... i think it almost hit 20 knots today... but we werent out... SZ using my SIN 11... and WQ using andrew's sail... i think she beat the rest of us to it... haha... actually wasnt really feeling well... then did the rigging in the hot sun.. then got drenched in the rain... not too good... but i was okay... better than last nite... was feeling damn cold... i kept holding on to my mum... even in public... hehhe... i think i crap too much... better go pack my bag for tmr... lalala.... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:31 --Link to Post |
| 8.12.02 |
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oh yarh...
just some stuff to add... kinda saw all the seniors today... mr tan was ard... heheh... long time din see... han-ee... but din really say hi... coz stoned for a moment... trying to recall his name... i think he's kinda cute u know... rachel and kerwan yesh... harold ma...aka...hao rou ma... kelly chan jr.... i think he got fatter... meng got rounder too... and the all-time buaya... whose name i forgot... dr. (uncle) ben in bali with his girlfriend... so din get to see him... kinda happie to see everyone again... hehhe... though as seniors they're kinda distant... still feels good... WQ wore a pink bikini top today... shant comment.. except that she's got the guts... SZ... yeay... picking her up tmr... so that we can go together... adrian, seongkian and JUD! haiz... kinda dreading yet lookig forward to training... all at the same time... wish me best... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:55 --Link to Post |
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long day today...
or at least... it felt long.. fell sick... kinda bad fever... got into a really foul mood... and ended up blasting my dad for his incessant questioning... felt bad... but i couldnt help it... went to NSC for camp briefing... looks tough... i mean training... the kind where when you hit your bed at nite... you practically go into comatose... after briefing took andrew's car to his place to get the schedule and pack list... wow... i know he stays in a private estate... but never did i know that it was pretty grand... and know wad? 'the thai team stayed here last sing open...' so you stay alone? 'nope...got another house in the street behind...' adrian, seongkian and me practically fainted... when we first saw the house... we were already staring at one another with mouths wide open... i know he's rich... but not THIS rich... so actually... he's been a really humble guy... nice car... the back seat even got the 'table' like in the aeroplane... woah... he's oni 27 for goodness sake! kinda idolised him actually... he was the oni widnsurfing rep in the recent asian games... he din do too well... but he din fail either... he's like much much better than any of us... saw jud today... commented that his hair was hot... streaked and dyed... blond? gold? you get the picture... it was cool... but he gotta dye it back soon... going to private sch in canada... haha... imagine... uniforms like harry potter's... way cool! fever's not getting better... dunnoe how i'm going to start training tomorrow... gotta see how things goes... hope things go fine... kinda freaking out... *bleah* somebody save me... better go get rest for tomorrow... 0830 to 1830... intensive... God bless us all... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:49 --Link to Post |
| 7.12.02 |
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quite tired actually...
final touches on the backdrop finally done... so i guess its just the tagging... but still got abt 7 more banners to paint... wish them the best.. coz i'm going to be away for some time... did some dancing... fine-tuning with the reflection at the ground level of the library... it looked pretty good... so i'm quite happy... even taught alwin bringin' da noise... hahha was difficult to teach... but i guess he got most of it... happy coz he's moi first student... but stupid alwin din even treat me rootbeer!!! 80c!?!?!?!?! stingy guy... but i understand... must be saving money for 'you-know-who'... hahha.... k k... better stop disturbing him... think me going overboard sometimes... 'dont do onto others, what you dont want others to do onto you...' din like it when they ji-siao me with CY either... but i know alwin really likes her... but oh well... lets leave it to God... and i better stop before i jeopardise it for them... home... big rain out there... me stinky after dance... will rest awhile before hitting the shower... woah... i think i need one badly... before my family faints... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:00 --Link to Post |
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slept at 0240 hrs this morning...
dunnoe why... but something kept me chatting online... i guess it was insomnia... definitely not RUDOLPH... hahha... =P~ but must admit i do enjoy talking to you... dunnoe why also... but feel like i could crap lots with ya... till the cows come home... but i think RUDOLPH was part of the reason why i stayed awake to watch WWE.... gosh...i hate that dawn marie... and then wrestled my sis off the PC... to crap until the wee hours of the morning... i managed to wake up at 0630hrs... was panda-eyed.... but damn happie... coz i got to see otto, reggie, twister and sammy da squid... and how they rough it out in a extreme competition... they had biking, rafting, skateboarding, windsurfing, snowboarding... it was the coolest... ever... i like squid... though he's the guy alwaz getting teased.. and deemed as the weakest.. he never succumbs to the criticisms... he's cool... in the charmingly geeky way... did i ever mentioned??? i find intellectual guys very very attractive... i dunnoe why... ever though it might just be the specs... hahha... i wear specs sometimes too... but dont really have to coz its just mild astigmatism... let me talk abt my ideal guy... since i'm in the mood... (i think squid fits the bill...) one clarification is that looks dont really matter to me... i'm not a looker either... so all the better... but i like cute teeth... nice hair... intellectual look.. haha.. thats quite a mouthful actually... but the real mouthful comes with the character and personality... i value sensitivity... i think it's kinda important... esp when its something i lack... we should have the same ideals and thinking... and sorta a sense of humour to keep our days cheery... but once again... i dont have much in the looks department... so i'll just have to wait and see... ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:53 --Link to Post |
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to R`...
talk to my hand... =P~ ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:07 --Link to Post |
What Type of Villain are You? mutedfaith.com <º> like da artwork... really cool! ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:35 --Link to Post |
| 6.12.02 |
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spent the most of tonite reading someone else's blog...
it's really quite intriguing actually... to see wad goes on in the mind of someone you actually know in real life... esp when you get to see something totally different... totally real... to an extent that freaks you out a bit... he's got a good command of the language... and words he used really hits you on the nerve... its quite painful too... to read how a person is suffering in the hands of unrequited love... in fact... it stabs rite in the heart... how a person can love another till he/she actually cries... i did too... i got back up... but now i dunnoe where i stand... not in the extent that i hurt as much... that i still cannot let go... like a piece of rope... frayed and weathered to the last thread... but still unwilling to let go... i read up till abt the first quarter of the year... blogs reverse chronologically... so kinda saw the reverse of how love can actually build up... it's quite scary actually... to see how one actually feels for another... i could never put in words wat i felt for him... never could... therefore wad goes in here were oni distant memories of happier times... never wad i felt... coz that... i could never fathom as well... oni been really in love twice in my whole life... as boring as that might really sound... i was serious in both... though the first was slowly built up while we were in the relationship... to an extent i could imagine myself building the happiest family with him... farnie as it may sound... i did... but it had to come to its sorry end... something neither of us saw coming... something we couldnt salvage... the latter was something totally different... savage garden_-_i knew i love you before i met you yeah... materialised... spoke to him for a year that seemed like a month... held him for wad seemed like a second... lost him for wad seemed like an eternity... =~( been trying to move on... cant make the distinction between being unable to move on... and the absence of a person of interest... how can i move on... without knowing wads holding me back??? thats why i'm still waiting... waiting for an answer... for the past year? it tires... fatique pulls me into reality... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:19 --Link to Post |
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loved this song...
yeah man... DeF LepparD_-_Two Steps Behind (Elliott) Walk away if you want to. It's OK, if you need to. Well, you can run, but you can never hide from the shadow that's creepin' up beside you. (CHORUS) And, there's a magic runnin' through your soul, But you can't have it all. (Whatever you do) I'll be two steps behind you (Wherever you go) And I'll be there to remind you that it only takes a minute of your precious time to turn around and I'll be two steps behind. Yeah, yeah. Take the time to think about it. Just walk the line, you know you just can't fight it And take a look around, you'll see what you can't find, Like the fire that's burnin' up inside me. repeat CHORUS Yeah, yeah. Oh. SOLO (???) repeat CHORUS Yeah, baby. Two steps behind Oh, sugar, Two steps behind. ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:05 --Link to Post |
Take the What Type of Friend are You? quiz, and visit mutedfaith.com. [Me.] hehee... thats cute... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:31 --Link to Post |
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today's hari raya hols...
kinda dumped all appointments to stick myself at home... kinda flat out after the whole week.... but meeting lala and YZ later to get my backpacks back... need them for WS camp next week... been talking alot abt WS camp... think fear is getting to me... WQ is gone on OBS.... so i guess i'll be the oni girl there... with sam, seongkian and probably some of the seniors... hope SZ can make it... so at least i'll have someone to die with... dying off the shores of the east coast doesnt seem like the prettiest thing to do... seriously hope they let me off abit... havent been training for almost half a year... pray...pray...pray... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:26 --Link to Post |
Take the What High School Stereotype Are You? quiz, by Angel. sounds more like some high-school bully... hahhaa... am i? AM I?!?!?! heheh... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:22 --Link to Post |
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was watching the amazing race...
the pitstop was mt faber... they were at the point where we were... overlooking the city... same point... different times... different medium... kinda sad... coz made me think of that time... it was nite... really pretty... coz though mt faber wasnt much of a mountain... you could still get a good view of the city... with its bright lights... looking like diamonds shimmering across the dark blotch... it was our second 'date'... not much of a date... just two frenz going out... nice food i tapow-ed after WS training at ECP... he said it was a surprise... then drove all the way along the ECP to mt faber... sat there... ate satay... drank cheng teng... and satay beehoon... it was farnie... coz we couldnt open the satay sauce... he poked his carkeys into it... and it all bleh-ed out... we ate... we talked... dad called... i lied abt where i was... dad found out... started screaming... things came to an abrupt stop... he understood... started the car... to drive me home... got worried abt wad my parents gonna do to me... asked permission to cross my legs on his prized leather seats... i couldnt sit still... he realised... we had kenny G playing... we drove ard... ard serangoon gardens...to where he lived... ard town area... everywhere... but i had to face home... it was terrible gaining courage to face wad i had to face at home... but like he said... i had to... and so we lost it... contact for good... i kinda miss the stupid things we did together... it was crappy times... but i really think the crappy times are the most fulfilling... many of us are too caught up in the technical part of life... we forget abt others ard us... and pure basic fun... instead, now, we pay money to be entertained... wad abt sitting on the swing with ur very best fren?? too passive? thats the present for you... ever moving... ever changing... wad will the future hold then? things beyond wat we will ever fathom? guess so... embrace the future, let go of the past... can anyone actually do that? ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:42 --Link to Post |
| 5.12.02 |
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another 7 to 7 today...
but a long break in between to go binge with renez... had seoul garden... piangz... damn farnie... told her szechuan chicken not bad... then she come back with one big plate of it... so oni ended up eating that and black pepper chicken on the hot plate... but enjoyed ourselves... just chatting... and waiting for the rain to stop.. coz got a long walk to sch again... finished most of the backdrop liaoz... feeling really happie... coz i had a hand in most of it... feel damn proud... esp the 3rd bird from the left... though JH helped me salvage abit... i painted it... hahah... and the words of coz... with dear Keatwei... wonder wad would those who come back on sat think... wahhh... the people on thurs damn efficient... hahha... we were... with me being the slave driver... sending alwin and ben to the library to print stuff... mountain to JH... huiqing with her volcano... feel bad... but i guess it was one of the reasons we could manage it so fast... so happie... watched the amazing race... kinda grr... with flo... the horrible girl who kept shouting at poor 'ole zach... he's so sweet and nice... but after she hooked up with the doll-like twin... she kinda got meaner to him... quite yucky actually... to see how a person changes from one personality to another... in just a blink of an eye... dont like flo...dont like flo... but i like zach... so kinda like a dilemma... dunnoe how to cheer or jeer... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:02 --Link to Post |
kinda fascinated by the really cool quizes....
Find your Role-Playing Stereotype at mutedfaith.com. [Angel.] ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:44 --Link to Post |
| 4.12.02 |
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long day in sch today...
=P 7 to 7... wat do you think? its terrible... really.... lotsa meetings... then draw backdrop during my break... then paint backdrop... *pengz* i cant keep this up for long... anyway it wont be... will be down for WS camp next week anyway... that aint much better... trust me... 5 of us did the deserto cactus and the land in the globe today... green stuff... really cool... coz we worked really fast... coz we could work well with one another... one person do base color... another tone blue... another tone yellow... one blend... the other pour paint.... hahaha... it's really pretty... so if you do get to see our orientation backdrop... do look out for the cactii... and the globe! yeay!!! today very farnie... parents and i got stuck in traffic jam in punggol... you know??? the not moving kind... so me got a little gek... and thot it's a good chance for me to start building up for the WS camp next week... lucky i was in o-tee and shorts... then ran all the way from punggol back home... took a longer route though... feels kinda good... coz you not running from point A back to point A... you die die also have to finish the run... lalallalalalaaaaa.... very sleepy!!! maybe should sleep now.. then can paint fast fast tmr!!! then we can finish the backdrop in.... 2 days!!! like real.. dream on... think me should go dream... or maybe catch abit of charmed... hahhaa... i need all the magic i can get... smallville!!!! superman!!!! i wanna watch... muahahahahha... i go laioz... woohoo!!!! i think i'm going abit bonkers... but thats just me... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:29 --Link to Post |
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got this in my mail...
Windsurfing Training for Singapore Open’03 Training starts at NSC @ 0830hrs everyday and ends @ 1800hr unless advised. LT (Land Training) - Morning Lower Body – Running Upper Body – Sit ups Squats Back arches Hops / Jumps Arm hangs Duckwalk Pull ups Leg lifts WT (Water Training) – Morning and afternoon Distance Sailing Speed Sailing Tacking / Gybing drills Pumping Mark rounding Upwing / Downwind Forced planning Starts / Lining up 720 degrees penalty turns Emergency stop & Reverse Board Railing Course Racing – triangle, sausage, trepeziod, figure eight Mast extension adjustments Boom extension adjustments Classroom – Briefing and discussions Sail tunning Pointing height Harness lines Mast foot pressure Foot pressure Footstraps usage Daggerboard limits Upwind stance Downwind stance Pulley system installation Mast marking Please note that before every training commences, there will be a stretching routine. Likewise when training ends. This is to prevent injury to muscles and trainees. everyday for two whole weeks!?!?!? this is insane... dont know how i'm gonna get thru this... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:48 --Link to Post |
| 3.12.02 |
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was super late for school today...
meeting at 10am... i woke up at 1030... hahah... kena jialat jialat from alwin larh... thats why have to do propoasl tonite for him... wait a minute... regardless of whether i late or not... i still help him do proposals! wad the *beep*! hahah... but met them to go shopping for backdrop stuff... had fun disturbing alwin... hahha... you know... abt 'you-know-who'.... it was cool... went bugis... and managed to get a couple of x'mas prezzies as well... love x'mas... its one of my favourite holidays... coz its really cool... love the trees... the snow... though we dont have them in sg... just the atmosphere.... its so....giving... something i really like... warmth...love...peace...joy...hope... i think i crapped alot today... even my dad thot so... yakked all the way from marine parade back home in sengkang.. piangz... i talked alot... he asked whether i was sick... hahah... wasnt... also dunnoe why... just in good mood today... coz.... 'tis the season to be jolly... falalalalah....lalalalah.... was at parkway... place really changed alot.. unlike wad i remember... now they got really cool shops... a swensen... a study area in BK... lotsa food... and nice shops to buy things from... woohoo! bought some x'mas prezzies from there too... ya'know... the cute cute sweet sweet stuff that i can never resist? yeah... i'm going broke... somebody save me! haiz... cant publish blog... 'Sorry, publishing is temporarily unavailable.' =P so sad.... i want a entry for the day... aiyah... spoil my record... but bo pian... could only come online at 2340hrs... sharks! sharks! sharks! was in sch for awhile... had fun ji-siao-ing alwin again... but ended up kena suan-ed by both alwin and sentill... aint fair... two EX-victorians ganging up against one TKGian... haiz... so sad... still say they gentlemen somemore... my foot! k k... i better go koon... got lotsa meetings in sch tomorrow... logistics meeting... council general meeting... backdrop painting... argh! wad holiday??? i dont see no holiday... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:53 --Link to Post |
| 2.12.02 |
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thats was really cool...
i mean the quiz... coz i really like daisies and gerberras alot... they're like mini-sunflowers... ever so cheery and bright... pretty!!! dont puke... i dont mean me... hmmm... first time at the esplana-de today... hahha... know i'm really like the tortoise who just came down from the mountain... but no choice... quite cool there... i mean the library... havent been inside the concert hall or theaters... but think my chance will come... when i strike lottery... hahha... or when maybe something really cool comes up that i'll save up for... i'm only a poor student okay??? bought this cool green 'purse-like' thingy... dunnoe why... but i really dont use wallets anymore... just dump everything into the purse-like thingies... and i'm off... and if i dont bring a bag... even more amazing... just my student pass, nets and some cash into a card holder... my HP... and voila...<---did i spell that rite? and i'm off to roam the streets... muahahha... sound like some wonderer who ply the streets every single day and nite... hmm... town's looking pretty with the x'mas lightings eh? =) budget's down... but simplicity is good... x'mas all abt giving... so we should save on the flamboyant lights and decor... and give more to charity! hehehe... not too charitable a person either... but i promise to be... when i strike lottery... wait a minute.... i cant even buy lottery now can i??? hahha... now trying to pass time... until the rain passes... then TRY to go down for a short jog... have to do something abt the bulk i'm putting on... grr.... its like sec4 i was down with two physically active CCAs... now council is kinda passive abt working out... especially when we have so much on our hands... maybe oni the occasional basketball sessions that i crash once in a while... but even then.. i'm so lazy that i dont even run the full court... just leave that to the guys... while i stay in the offensive half... and do my lay-ups and shots... going back to TK tomorrow... juniors having their annual camp... and i'm supposed to go look see... and play frenly match... hahah... think i'm totally off-form... but my team mates shouldnt be lah... 4 of them sch team in their respective JCs... we'll see tmr... i think i shall find some other entertainment... eat fruits! eat fruits! they're good for you! ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:52 --Link to Post |
 Which Flower Are You?Find out! ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:34 --Link to Post |
| 1.12.02 |
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had a slow day today...
went to cuz's house to play CASHFLOW... this amazingly expensive boardgame that costs a bomb according to them... 200+ bucks??? woah... sat beside this ultra rich guy... who drives one of the SLKs... he owns the boardgame... should be peanuts to him... aunt's colleague... should be cool with that... had fun... but ended up losing... sad but oh well... its oni a game... earned millions of dollars... but still LOST... hahah... wads the world comin' to? wad abt good 'ole monopoly? had an oily dinner... YABBE... supposed to be australian fast food... but tasted a little like captain cook/LJS kinda fare... oh well... had a good time catching up with my cousins though... both cuz younger than me are working... kinda feel a little too sheltered in my daddy's world... but too many things on my hands... all dont give me any money... kinda sad... but it's kinda of a happily busy kinda thing... coach just called... asking me where i disappeared to... kinda like i want to go back to the beach... but circumstances dont really allow it... monsoon's gonna hit full force soon... but i havent been on the board for almost half a year... kinda sux... think my seniors also give up hope on me... they moving on to formula... so it's like... my batch will be the seniors of the mistral 1 design... which is a scary thought... a competition in march... in penang... sounds big... some asian thingy... oh man... where can i find the courage... or even the ability to challenge these amazing people i idolise??? someone save me man... they ARE gonna give me one set of equipment... but i've to get the pulleys myself... wad abt sch??? wad abt council??? wad am i going to do??? i'm just doing this for the love of the sport... will that feed me in future??? someone tell me wad to do.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:31 --Link to Post |
 Which Kid's TV Character are You?Find out! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:12 --Link to Post |
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