| 28.10.07 |
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corresponding with my favourite ang moh in the land of the windmills... has made me miss him even more... we write via facebook messages... but he writes these long lovely things that make me so happy... like how our picture is on his dutch facebook profile... and how it got onto a photo frame at his parents' place... so sweet... i wonder when can i ever afford to fly up there to bask in the VIP treatment that the newly-promoted arrival services manager promised me... havent sat down to properly reply his email... but if you're reading this john... COME TO SG FOR NEW YEAR'S! and let me know if you're coming on the second week of Jan... we might be planning a trip to Krabi, Thailand... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:26 --Link to Post |
| 26.10.07 |
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weekday escapades are such the bomb... after taking my sample out from the oven... and meeting a administrative officer to handle the mapping of my USP modules... i took the MRT down to Changi Airport to meet the guy for lunch... it was then a bus ride to East Coast... where we managed to squeeze in abit of plane-ing... before the wind died a little... that few runs really took my mind off all the yucky things... though my body is damn tired from all that uphauling... i feel awesome... and ready to take on whatever school throws at me... i dont know what's wrong with me... but recently... i just feel so in love... it's almost as if we've just met... and in the honeymoon period... nothing major happened... so i dont know what triggered the feeling... but i just feel that way... while it makes me insanely happy... it's scary how dependent i seem to be on him... bumped into Mr Tan while walking to the bus stop today... spent a good lot of time speaking to him by the road with him on his bike... such a fun way to catch up... weekday escapades are such a bomb... pity aint that many chances left for it this semester... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:00 --Link to Post |
| 22.10.07 |
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it's the guy's birthday today... his 24th... and as the uncreative person i am... i did next to nothing for his birthday... wanted to get him stuff for his impending entry into the work force... so i got him a tie... and wanted to get him a decent bag for work... but he refused... saying he was happy with what he already had... and me, being the stingy me, was very unwilling to buy things for him without his approval... because he was the kind of person who wouldnt wear anything he did not like... so i had to drag him to buy the tie... and that's about it... i kinda messaged him two days ago... apologizing for not doing more... as lousy as i have been for the past two birthdays of his... but the guy was the sweetest thing with his reply... "i am happy just to have you... really" i melted. the truth is... i'm the lucky one... i dont think anyone can begin to fathom the stuff i put the guy through... i am quite a wreck... too emotional... occasionally insane... perpetually pessimistic... so many a time, i only see the bad side of our relationship... even though i blog the good stuff sometimes... the frequency of the bad stuff that runs through my head is probably a hundred times over.... but once again... the truth is... we've got something pretty awesome going here... i focus too much on his negative points sometimes... that i overlook his strengths... he understands me... and that understanding has been growing through the years that we've been together... he knows how to respond to my crap... coz i guess that comes with practice... but most of all... he accepts me as the person i am... the moderately evil... occasionally farting... me. and with that... he changed me... not with any particular mold of his fancy... but in a way that i think i've become a better person... i think it's a wonderful thing to be able to share your life and experiences with someone else... and for us... through our "formative" years at university... really... dont know what would have become of me... if it wasnt for him helping me through the last 3 years... but i'm just glad we're going through our last year together as well... so if there's anyone happy about having someone... it would be me... cause i wouldnt be anywhere without him... Happy 24th Birthday. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:00 --Link to Post |
| 21.10.07 |
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another failed sample... but might be my own fault this time... KAMBATTE! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:16 --Link to Post |
| 16.10.07 |
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as weird as it sounds... between me and the guy... there was never a pursuit of one or the other... so technically... he never did... he should right? even as a make-up pursuit... i mean... just to make sure all grounds are covered... i kinda feel sore that i never had the pre-date flower... or awkward meal... uncomfortable phone call... we just started out like that... *poof* it's not fair... we have an okay how-we-met story... in school... because we joined the same sports sub-club... love the sun, sea and sand... but we dont have a so how-did-we-hook-up story... *sob sob* the conversation online doesnt count... so sad... i think i'm gonna demand a romantic pursuit... despite being together almost 3 years already... yes... i'm that unreasonable... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:20 --Link to Post |
| 11.10.07 |
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i was supposed to chiong my FYP this week... or at least get a sample out... but the blardy compression machine died on me... it refused to maintain the pressure i needed it to maintain... so i have to start from square one next week... URGH... i know all the crap about failure and mother and success... but i dont think i have much time left... URGH.... if not for the FYP... this will be a happy semester... but it is not... not sure if i want time to pass faster... coz if it does... i'm just going to fail my FYP... if it doesnt... i'm just being tortured slowly to death... URGH.... i need some happy thoughts... the pastry/dessert review tomorrow should do the trick... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:59 --Link to Post |
| 5.10.07 |
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very quickly... it's already the end of week 7 of school... it sucks... especially when i have almost no part of my FYP done... except for a report outline... which i did at 3am having jumped out of bed in cold sweat... realising how screwed up i really am... been trying my bestest to read The Economist... at least the Finance/Banking section... i really need to boost my knowledge on the finance sector... but Wil & Grace is always distracting me... how can any show be that funny?!? it really doesnt help that the TV season is back on in the US... if anything... the Americans can sure write good TV... have two out of four of my term papers done... not sure whether i should feel proud or otherwise... just did a super expensive restaurant on Tuesday... at 160++ per pax... i kinda expected more... but it was still an experience.... am really torn between continuing to write and not... but i feel my articles are getting a little better... and my boss keeps saying she's "saving the best" for me... cant help that i love good food yet am such a scrooge... just had a mini holiday with the guy... aint much... a weekday date... a foodcourt dinner... window shopping... korean movie that made me cry my eyes out... just being happy... pretty awesome stuff... will go all out on monday with regards to my FYP... compression moulding of UHMWPE, you are going down! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:10 --Link to Post |
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