. be resourceful
 
 
. wasted time
 
 
. sanity check
 
 
. carbon dating
 
 
. frozen time
 
 
31.3.07




























Day 59 of Project 365...
really Editing Nitemare...
kinda volunteered to edit most of my project submissions this year...
i was thinking...
if thats what i do best...
why not do what you do best and leave the brain work to the rest...

of course...
there is also the down side...
editing AND formating is a pain-in-the-ass...
even though it doesnt look like a lot of work...
and i dont really get to learn other stuff also...
although my eye for the aesthetics have improved by quite a bit...

worked on the complementing poster yesterdae with some of my group too...
i dare say it looks fantastic...
especially for a content-full poster...
just that i din exactly agree with the pasting of some sample prostheses...
but somethings gotta give...


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Day 58 of Project 365...
just a mood shot in the NUS shuttle...
and an opportunity to say...
I NEED A NEW BAG...

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Day 57 of Project 365...
i boycotted the NUS shuttle service today...
i walked back to PGP from Eusoff today after my project meeting...
amazing feat that would never have been possible if not for the following...
...it was a cool evening after a long day of rain...
...i was baking in a study room without air-con prior, so anything is better...
...i was in my Birkies...
...there was no way i could board a bus all teary-eyed...

i hate the way i cant control my emotions...
maybe it's the downside about being too in touch with it...
writing frequently doesnt help...
coz all you write about is what you feel, what you think...
doing a lot of the brain work...
it's gonna cause my downfall in my career...
if there is ever going to be one...
i just know it...

it's hard to differentiate between Anger and Anguish...
i guess it applies to everyone and a lot of situations...
a mother can be angry with her son when she found out he started smoking against her wishes...
but on the other hand...
she is also disappointed and saddened by how it all turned out...
probably even blaming herself...

i dont know what i am feeling really...
i think people just convert Anguish to Anger in a bid to protect themselves...
from the outside world...
from everything else really...
truth is...
Anger fuels you with power...
while Anguish just makes you feel weak and powerless...
quite frankly i cant distinguish it in myself...
my breathing quickens...
my eyes just tear...
and i feel fluid in my nose...
i find my myself holding my breath just so nothing escalates...

i spent hours working on my half of the project...
typing out everything neatly...
referencing properly...
despite my mountain of other work to clear...
i clear stuff that are due collectively...
just so i wouldnt disappoint my co-members...
if the boat sinks,
we all sink with it...

now you tell me the annual report we chosen...
I chose, to be exact, coz no one else wanted to do it...
does not answer 2/3 of your questions...
because you only tried them the night before our meeting...
because you are only reading the questions DURING the meeting...
when our first meeting (and preparations) was due 2 weeks ago...
i just froze...
i tried to be accomodating...
i tried to help by suggesting other forms of answering techniques...
but now you want to change the world...
am i wrong for walking out on the meeting?
saying if that's the case...
this meeting is pointless...
just email me YOUR new choice...
i dont know...
all i know is that i spent good time on something that is about to come to naught...

i walked...
out to the bus stop...
but decided anywhere with light isnt good...
i walked on to the next...
and the next...
and the next...
along the haunted houses...
reminded myself that i really should be exercising...
wanted to call the guy...
but realising he is still in class...
and knowing full well that the dam will break once i hear his voice...
and therefore, didnt...
wanting very much to meet him tonight...
but realising i have to be in school at 9am tomorrow...
so i continued walking...
and arrived in my room...

here i am...
sweaty...
hungry...
pensive...

sometimes i just wonder...
how nice it is to NOT feel anymore..



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28.3.07




























Day 56 of Project 365...
just something i see in NUS countless of times everyday...
but still find it amusingly cute...
especially how the guy is seeing stars...
best part is...
he is still couching there...
can you imagine like in cartoons?
where the barrier just bounces up and down on the person again and again...
okay...
i know not funny when you're the victim...

but it's cute la...

reminds me of the time when stella mary told me of one guy in my JC class...
playing hero and used his arm to block the barrier to save a damsel in impending doom...
i think it was angeline...
so hero hor?
maybe i should plant myself under one...
with a hidden helmet, of course...
and see if the guy will come and save me annot...
think he'll just stand there and laugh at my foolishness...
i lead a sad sad life...

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Day 55 of Project 365...
assembled the wheelchair already...
it weighs in at 12kg...
which is pretty good really...
woohoo...

review of a Russian restaurant today...
glad i took it up...
Russian owner was really nice..
and it was the first time trying interesting things like kvass, tea grib and pure vodka...
i love my job...
so i really have to watch what i eat outside of work...
no point wasting calories on things that are not worth it...


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Day 54 of Project 365...
review for the week...
B e a c h C a b a n a...
picture looks good...
food wasnt too bad...
expensive for cafe-type though...

and my Singapore Sling looks like fruit punch...
i feed on food...
mossies feed on me...
*scratch scratch*

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Day 53 of Project 365...
just the view from my balcony...
spent the most of sunday crouching over my wheelchair upholstery...
it has been a pain in the ass...
literally coz i had to sit on the floor for hours...
and it still looks horrid...
i have to make it work...
yet i am neglecting my other modules...
dont think i can carry on any more...

i am not a quitter...
i just dont know any other way...


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24.3.07




























Day 52 of Project 365...
was having lunch with the parents and maternal grandma...
Old Airport Road Food Centre...
i just read somewhere that you have to be Teochew to rent a stall there...
heh...
dont know how true is that...
but the standard of the food i reflected...
and i guess thats why the ladies, being Teochew, love the food there so much...

for me...
i just love food...
and that's very evident in the amount of weight i am putting on...
darns...

just saw this trafficlight out of order just as we were turning out...
of course, my dad would have given a call back to the office to get them to fix it...
but then it just came across to me...
how apt it was...
in describing my career ambitions at the moment...
i really dont know what i want...
other than being a rich tai-tai...
when will i know?
will i know too late?

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Day 51 of Project 365...
our wheelchair project is finally taking shape...
the picture depicts our footrests...
funky shape eh?
now i'm still headaching about the upholstery...
URGH.
so many things to do...
really going crazzeee...

and i really need a new bag...
wanna drop by LIME flea tomorrow...
but there just isnt time...
it's truly a love-hate relationship with being-busy...


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mingling with real PR people this time round led me to some realisations...
i really need to brush up on my social skills...
i need to talk more...
but also...
i need to talk sense...
the reason why i clam up is insecurity...
the apparent need to appear larger than life...
i feel small against the articulate individuals of the real world...

and with that...
i also need a decent new bag...
something i can tote around daintily and act like a rich (and young) tai-tai...
writing only for leisure...
and more formal clothes...
if only my taste isn't so contradictory to my real financial status...

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22.3.07




























Day 50 of Project 365...
another dinner...
this, I must say, was pretty good...
though i better not say too much...
lest i kill the element of surprise...
just wait and read in sd.com soon..

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USA is actually sooner than i imagined...
i'm not sure if i'm physically and mentally prepared..
but first things first...
need to get past the mountain of presentations/reports/tests/exams...
wish me luck...
i have exactly one month to the first paper...

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21.3.07




























Day 49 of Project 365...
review of The turqu0ise Room...
it's a pretty place really...
minimalistic...
white with splashes of turquoise...

my first time out on my own...
exciting to say the least...
quite an experience...

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Day 48 of Project 365...
dinner with JQ at the Engin canteen...
i know i sit very chorlor-ly...
but thats exactly what i love about being in pants...
anyway...
when in Rome..
do as the Romans do...
i am in Engineering school...
need i say more?

ok..
i'm kidding...
i just feel short on normal chairs..
so i have to prop them up on whatever leg rests i can find...
just so my legs dont get numb...
the curse of being 1.58m...


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Day 47 of Project 365...
busy day really...
wound down with a Chocolate Cream Chip from Starbucks...
discussing the PBL project, no less...

sin in a cup...

i ought to be cutting down on drinks like that...
history of diabetes in the family...
so i guess...
i can now attempt to save money on b&j's, bravissimo's, etc...

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Day 46 of Project 365...
this is just something i took while on my way to dinner with the family...
but i guess it stands for bigger things too...
like how in life, you have to make choices...
and while the choices might be able to bring you to your final destination...
each choice leads you to a different journey, takes a different time and you meet different pple...

i'm glad i chose NUS...
that i continued windsurfing...
'cause thats how i met the guy who means the world to me now...

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i contemplated calling it quits after the second piece..
coz i thought that there was no point in having no pride for your work like that...
but truth is..
the situation got better...
and i realised i'm better at damage control now...
since i'm off for sessions on my own now...
with the photographer, of course...
it'll mean more freedom...
but more stress too...

i like what i do...
and of course, it's still pretty airy-fairy...
but it's a learning experience...
and who ever complains of babies being too immature?

thing is...
i might have been spending too much time...
writing and rewriting that i might have neglected my studies abit...
been aiming to write and finish proof-reading within 2 hours...
but it's dependent on the place and whether the words come to me quickly enough...
the guy says i should aim at finishing within 1 hour...
i doubt that very much...
considering i'm not a writer by profession...
having to check and confirm the meanings of words before really using them in my articles...

argh.
i'm on for 3 next week...
wish me luck!

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17.3.07




























Day 45 of Project 365...
raw fish salad at the Zhen Zhen Porridge of Maxwell Food Centre...
this is really good stuff that i dont eat much of...
the queue here is usually blardy long...
so the only time i can NOT wait so long is when i join my parents for a real early breakfast...
this was one of the days...
they dragged me up at 6am...
on a Saturday, no less...

the raw fish are all hidden under the generous helpings of sesame seeds, spring onions, fried shallots, ginger and red chillies...
then drizzled with lotsa of lime juice...
i love to grab a bunch of everything with my chopstick...
and dip it into their tasty plain porridge...
ala chinese fondue...
and it's totally yummy can?
because the fish gets slightly cooked...
but still coated with all the wonderful goodness of the lime, sesame and greens...
wah lau...
it's amazingly great...
and this portion is just $3...
the plain porridge goes at $0.50 a BIG bowl...
which you probably cant finish on your own...
trust me...


thats why i love breakfasts with my parents...
we always have cheap and yummy stuff...
woohoo!


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Day 44 of Project 365...
McDonald's breakfast with the ME folks...
it's true that we've been spending like hours with each other each week...
working on that dreaded wheelchair of ours...
but we havent spend time together outside...
chilling out...
or anything...
save for the soccer final at the end of jan...

finally our whole project is taking shape...
although i'm given the task of making the upholstery work...
which is a dreadful task...
considering i havent found anyone willing to sew this nitemare of ours...
will see how it goes...
wish us luck...

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15.3.07




























Day 43 of Project 365...
lizard dropped from the ceiling and attacked me today...
it is damn freaking scary can?
coz i was holding my churros stick, happily lapping away at the cinnamon sugar...
first i called the guy...
who laughed at me...
he couldnt help much coz he's rushing to class for Stochastic tutorial...
called my daddy who laughed at me too...
but since he was coming over to collect my printer to send for service...
he promised to come and be hero...
for a whole 2 hours...
i was throwing pieces of paper behind my laptop where the lizard was...
to chase it out of the mess of wires...
dare not use laptop also...
damn pathetic...
i was armed with a plastic container...
coz that's my favourite way to catch insects...
couldnt find it for some time...
and not like i dared to flip stuff like my laptop or printer for fear that it would crawl on me...
so i waited...

then my daddy came...
lifted my laptop...
and there it was...
probably immobilised by the heat of the laptop...
my daddy thought it was dead...
and started scolding the lizard for not knowing better...
suddenly thot of the parable of the boiled frog...
here is the poached lizard...

then we covered it with the cover for quite long...
thinking that it was really dead...
until some time later...
IT REVIVED!
*fainted*
luckily it was still inside the container...
so we slid a piece of paper under...
stuck duct tape all over...
and ta-da!

technically...
i din kill it...
i put it on top of a bin in the next block...
if it spent the night clawing away at the paper...
it might get out...
so good luck to the lizard!

i use Double-A paper...=X

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Day 42 of Project 365...
finally had the long-awaited reunion of the windsurf comm of 0506...
at first i had 8 SUREs...
which was promising, to say the least...
more than half the comm mah...
went ahead with it...
and people started cancelling on me on the day itself...
haiz...
i feel like such a failure...

but we had fun...
all 6 of us...
totally enjoyed the dinner at Basil Alcove...
drinks at Timbre...
where EIC was playing for the night....
and supper at Kopitiam...
we concluded that we shall all meet up at Taiwan when we stopover there after USA...
we're SO gonna look like illegal immigrants when we cram into the guy's granny's place...

i want to eat yan shu ji!

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13.3.07




























Day 41 of Project 365...
meeting for my ME4253 PBL...
project has been long and hard...
but we're learning loads...
and not just confined within biomaterials-related materials...
but bigger lessons...
like learning about people...

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12.3.07




























Day 40 of Project 365...
morning skies of Tiong Bahru...
but i cheated...
this isnt monday...

but hey!
i was there on both days ok?

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you know you are too reliant on technology when...
...you have to use excel to keep track of attendence when organizing gatherings...
granted that it wasnt an excel sheet made just for that...
just the contact list that i have had since eons ago...

am staring at the guy sleeping right now...
he has this ultra long 3 hr break on mondays...
and after a hour-long study session with his friend...
now he's flat out...
like always...
love watching him sleep...

i know i am a horrible gf...
like in the previous Project 365 post...
i kinda forced him to buy me chocolates...
it's just typical of the guy...
he has his own ways of being nice to me...
and they are just not the flower-sending, handbag-toting, chocolate-buying kind of stuff...
i get insecure sometimes coz i dont see his sweet actions...
but on hindsight...
they all come to me...
like how he drives me home or pick me up from school, especially when we stay quite far apart...
how he helps me carry my sail after making helluva noise about how 'light' it is...
how he switches off the sound in the TV when he sees that i dozed off while studying...

i told him yesterdae that he reminds me of my dad...
but i dont think he realises how big that is to me...
not in the sense that i am comparing him to my dad...
but that i've always wanted the man of my life to have all the good qualities of my dad...
and i'm glad i found that...

i love the fact that he knows what he wants in life...
that he loves his parents...
that he is smart, funny and articulate...
and it's amazing coz when we first started out...
i never knew him to be all this...

USA will be something new for us...
post-graduation too...
it's been more than 2 years...
thats something and nothing all at the same time...
i dont know where this can take us...
i just know that for now...
there is probably none other who can be as great to me as he...


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11.3.07




























Day 39 of Project 365...
i forced the guy to buy me chocolates...
*guilty*
i've only eaten the orange one so far...
coz very CNY-ish hor?

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10.3.07




























Day 38 of Project 365...
am so in love with my work...
that having the cake my maid bakes at home is totally different now...
i went to squiggle chocolate syrup on the plate...
peeled orange slices...
decorated with my chocolate coffee beans...
who says you need to spend $16 on a slice of cake to be classy?
though i admit my plate very ugly...

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i know i am damn sua ku...
but i finally had my long awaited Moet & Chandon today with the guy's parents...
i have tried other stuff before of course...
without knowing what it really is actually...
but ever since that time in Milk...
when i went back to the office after a recce...
only to see bottles of empty Moet & Chandon...
that it has been my ultimate craving...

after i have tried it...
i'm no champagne expert...
but it wasnt exactly my kind of thing...
that only leaves me with the Dom Perignon...
which the guy's dad is so in love with...
that he will gladly save on buying a mobile phone...
and splurge on a bottle...

and...
i've been to 4 restaurants in 4 days...
with only 2 being reviews...
i dont know if i should worry about my waistline or my wallet...
but thing is...
i really need a detox...
after all the foie gras and avruga caviar...
which is supposed to be a cheap imitation of the real sturgeon sort...
i AM learning my food...
not just eating and sprouting flowery words ok?

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Day 37 of Project 365...
i told you this project will be peppered with things related to my engin lab...
this is from the little path i will take to get there every tuesday and friday....
i should have taken the welder at work...
he's this cute little uncle...
damn funny and nice...
coz i'm like the unofficial welder assistant from my group...
so have been hanging out with him pretty much...
can do that on tuesday though...
have more stuff for him to weld for us...

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Day 36 of Project 365...
was in the vicinity of the Red Dot Museum...
i love buildings that look out of place from their surroundings...
but then again...
that whole area is so queer and interesting there is definitely no shortage of photo ops...
the food-tasting session today was fantastic...
enjoyed the food, service and ambience...
and i've found the ex-chef/owner of another restaurant the guy's parents brought us to before...
the job certainly has its perks...
and the expanding waistline is definitely not one of them...

btw...
the inconsistency of the concrete in the photo is not a cut-and-paste error...
but a slab of concrete with the URA signage...
i thought it was at first...
bleah...


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no...
i'm am alive and well...
just that everything's coming at me, fast and furious...
and it's hard to even take a moment's breather...
i'm just trying to stay afloat...
and my jaws apart...
got a stiff jaw on tuesday...
scary and very painful...


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7.3.07




























Day 35 of Project 365...
okay...
i admit...
this is day 36...
but day 35 was really too busy to take my camera out...
and i really like this picture of us happily on the BTC...
on our way to marketing presentation...
which i really screwed up...
was nervous during presentation...
no idea why...
considering i'm usually okay...
BLEAH...
the guy was fantastic though..,.
first time i see him in action during class...
and he was impressive...
despite not going to lectures, he quoted from it...
despite not preparing his part, he sounded damn convincing and credible...
i hate this guy...


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6.3.07




























Day 34 of Project 365...
dinner with the folks at Vivocity coz i needed them to pass me some docs...
Sushi Tei there is pretty great...
especially the ambience and the seating deep inside...
we were along the kaiten though...
and i had quick access to the best salmon sashimi i've had in a long time...
really value-for-money the stuff you get there...
parents and i were really basking in the Japanese charm...
until a table-clearing trolley came rolling past...
-_-"

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5.3.07




























Day 33 of Project 365...
i love mondays...
partly because i get to hitch hike with my family to school...
and my parents will take me to have yummy breakfast...
it's usually a very yummy and healthy yong tau hoo...
but sometimes we adjourn to Tiong Bahru Market for lor mee instead...
this isn't my favourite stall coz it's closed for the day...
but another that adds lots of fried bits and even sharkfish nuggets...
all at a low low price of $2...
can you beat that?

it's amazing what goes into lor mee...
yellow noodles...
thick gravy...
fishcakes...
ngoh hiang...
fish bits...
sliced pork belly...
fried stuff...
and even the condiments are an art in itself...
chilli padi...
minced garlic...
chinese parsley...
chilli...
vinegar....

i love breakfasts with the folks...

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4.3.07




























Day 32 of Project 365...
movie at The Cathay...
kena dragged by the hair to watch The Fountain...
think Hugh Jackman was really good...
he cry, i cry and cry...
but it's the kind of movie you have to think a lot about...
like abit Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind-wannabe...
but i still like Eternal better...
especially since it took Jim Carrey totally out of the stereotype comic...

would it really be better if we could simply erase painful memories?
it's kinda hard to say really...
coz memories make us whole...
makes us who we are...

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3.3.07




























Day 31 of Project 365...
bro's 15th birthday...
he has come a long way...
and he's even taller than all the girls in the family already...
my sis and i think he's pretty darn good looking...
especially in the other shots...
but i love this shot because of the angle...
and the 6 candles on the cake...
pity that they're no longer lighted...
and he has a lot of moles on his face...
that my grandpa passed him a piece of tissue thinking it was chocolate...
hur hur.

he's my favourite brother...
but then again...
he's my ONLY brother...
and he'll always be my little baby brother...
*hugs*

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this past week has been a pain in the ass...
projects. presentations. review.
i know the latter was supposed to be a leisurely, i-love-my-job sorta thing...
but now my work gets edited so much...
i really dont enjoy my name up on the article anymore...
i dont even think any single sentence was left untouched...
it is particularly painful because i worked till 5am for it...
i researched my ass off about the lighting design, the wine, the italian words...
to have everything just taken away like that...
i know it's a little dumb to treat the Bloomberg guy seriously...
but if he told me 3 times he was looking forward to reading my article...
i was seriously hoping for a chance for my article to get seen by a professional...
it could just be my big break...
get real. =(

Project 365 is very irregular now...
i dont even have time to stop and smell the roses...
but it will continue...

guy and i were singing Feeling Good all the way back home...
only stopped when we were getting takeaways at Macs...
and we ended up eating all the way back home...
it was fun coz we were all out of tune...
and doing duets...
and repeating the same things over and over again...
just made me smile...
sometimes dumb things like that make you happy...
and when they do...
you know you have something that you wont want to let go of...
ever.

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2.3.07




























Day 30 of Project 365...
this is supposed to be 31...
but i have my bro's birthday to cover too...
and Jo's celebrating in advance...
so i put him on the 2nd of March...
this lucky 1 year old has the biggest Barney cake ever...
and is wearing Guess kids...
ello...
i dont even think i own anything from Guess..
but the food at Roxy Hotel is good...
pretty good selection at the buffet table...
yummy...
had donkey loads of sashimi!
and durian paste...
mmmmm....

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1.3.07




























Day 29 of Project 365...
this is a location in NUS...
so some of you might want to start looking out for it...
it's queer how i started to look out for pretty patterns or angles on things when i started 365...
observing things i dont really do on a normal basis...
it's a good feeling...
except that i still dont wanna be regarded as a mountain tortoise who takes pictures of ceilings...

therefore...
i resort to my 2MP Nokia from time to time...
evident with the more grainy texture of the shot...

this project has been fun...
and i still get a kick watching the slideshow on the top of my blog...
i loved the CNY shot...
and also the blue voodoo doll...
which i lost btw...
it's sad...
but the guy said i can take another one!
yeay!

----Stef stopped rambling at 00:19
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