| 25.4.08 |
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loved the way he sang it... kinda amazing when you know the original mariah carey version.. i love David Cook! been feeling rather emo of late... and it's making the decision very difficult... but maybe i should make the difficult decision only if and when i get an offer... might make this less painful... ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:16 --Link to Post |
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Ted's the protagonist in this sitcom... How I Met Your Mother. where the sitcom revolves around him telling his kids about the time when he was younger... and still very much alive in the dating scene.. so it was woman after woman... and of course, the bunch of very interesting friends... very Definitely, Maybe... but i think this sitcom came first... unless Definitely, Maybe was a book... we're guessing this woman is IT... she's a doctor with a kid in tow... so she refused to go out with him... saying that she doesnt have time... only two-minute lunches... when she obviously likes him too... so... this is the date he planned... loved the song in the background too... its thirteen by big star... which is so perfect... perfect for this scene... it made me cry... coz it is oh-so-sweet... and insanely beautiful... something you dont quite expect from a comedy... sometimes you dont have to lose things to realise how much they mean to you... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:52 --Link to Post |
| 24.4.08 |
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considering how much time i spent on research for this job... i really hope they, at least, give me a second interview... pretty please? ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:06 --Link to Post |
| 20.4.08 |
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my selective mind is blocking out everything between now and the 15th of May. hong kong, hong kong... i think skipping the island is going to be therapeutic indeed... job-wise, still no luck... but considering how much of it isnt luck, but competency... still not good enough for anybody... but i might go back into production during the insanely slow jobhunt... just climbed the mountain the other day and spoke to olivier about temp-ing again... although i did mention i wanted to concentrate on the lessons i need to take... driving, powerboating, ncap, first aid... will see how things go when i get back from... hong kong, hong kong... i think it'll be awesome fun meeting up with cyrus, swire and violet.. and waikei's gonna be back in HK too... so we'll all go yum cha... how cool is that? ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:59 --Link to Post |
| 13.4.08 |
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i am contemplating a total shut down of this blog... but i'm reluctant coz of the crappy archives i have here... it's fun to read and cringe at the horrible language, (lack of) maturity, etc... another option is to keep it... and start a new wordpress... have always been pretty drawn to the neatness and organized layout... and wx wants a RSS feed... i dont know. much as i dont know why alot of things happen in life... before you read that and start linking it up to what you might have seen on facebook... things arent always what they seem they are... crap.. i dont even know what i am talking about... but to all the nice people... who are voyeuristic like me... thank you... especially linc mah who was terribly sweet... in other news... i'll be taking up powerboat lessons soon... so i might just get a boat license before i even get a driving license... not sure how everything is going to work out... but i'm hopeful... at least i know if i'm gonna be unemployed for some time post-graduation... i know i'll be suitably entertained and kept occupied with things like my first aid course... or the ncap theory... i like to be distracted like that... but wth... i hope what doesnt kill me, only makes me stronger... same goes for the finance quiz that i didnt prepare for, coming up tomorrow... its the last lap of school... i need to do this well... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:01 --Link to Post |
| 12.4.08 |
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f. if only i werent so weak. ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:08 --Link to Post |
| 11.4.08 |
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i asked the guy if he'd dump me when he becomes rich and successful... then he said he would make me a tai tai... i'm kinda getting mixed signals with that... you know how in those chn8 or TVB dramas... always got those rich tai tai where their husbands cheat and flirt with girls half their age... and the wives can only stay home and pretend nothing is happening... while maxing out her hundreds of credit cards on shopping and spas... and playing mahjong with other tai tais in the same predicament? i only like the credit card - shopping - spa parts of that... but before you people chide me for being low in self-esteem... being bimbo/dumb... i'm just kidding laaaa... i know full well its a crazy world out there... not that i dont have faith in the guy or myself or what we have... but things change sometimes... whether we like it or not... so you can say i dont have faith in things being eternal and unchanging... CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT... i used this blardy line in my bloomberg interview... i think it cost me the second interview... sobz... but even though my ideal self will be able to be independent and detach myself well if something like that ever does happen... it probably wouldnt be so ideal... i'll be reduced to one lumpy, sad mess... but then i'm confident i'd recover... just a matter of how much time it takes... quite frankly... when i see an awesome condo, i always wonder how it'll be like if the guy and i own a unit... when i see an awesome car, i wonder how fun it'll be if the guy and i own one together... so on and so forth... but then i'll stop myself... coz thoughts like that get you into trouble sometimes... if a break-up ever happens... every time i see an awesome apartment i'm just gonna cry... every time i see an awesome car i'm just gonna cry again... sometimes i wonder if there can ever be a bad guy/girl in any relationship... coz sometimes i think... if it doesnt work out, it just doesnt... even if guy dumps girl... it simply means they are not for one another... though i think it feels good to victimise oneself and blame the other while crying to ur pals... but of course... there are the horror stories of guy toying with girl's feelings... girl making use of guy for rides, money and whatever... vice versa... but whatever it is... i'm gonna have an awesome date with the guy tmr... he says dinner and movies... but considering whats out on the screens these days.. and the fact that i'm no longer a safra member... the guy cannot be safra member coz he never go SAF... and HSBC discounts only apply mon to weds... yes... i'm such an auntie when it comes to discounts... i might suggest timbre and beer... he is bound to complain though... he is such an uncle when it comes to inactivity... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:46 --Link to Post |
| 10.4.08 |
 we dont take self-pictures like that very much... i did try to squeeze in like a few during our WATUSA trip... but other than that... i hate doing the narcissistic pose-and-snap... funny how he's the one with the fairer complexion... and i'm the chao ta one... finally done with the genes and society essay... made it look like a magazine article... so it's a little cheesy... but i'm kinda taking a gamble... hoping to score big on the presentation part... cant wait to skip school tomorrow! not that i'm skipping class... but i think i finally can spend my entire weekend at home... if i diligently pack my laptop and notes home... i should be able to finish making changes to my thesis... in time for the submission on monday... been trying to make more job applications... i think my goal of one application a day is kinda pushing it... so i guess about 3 to 4 a week should do it... i'm still a little lost... with regards to what i want to do and all that... will just have to see how things go... i think temp-ing a couple of months while finding the perfect job.... will be better than diving head first into the wrong job... just consoling myself.... finance quiz again on monday... not too stressed out about this one coz it's a best two out of three and i aced the last two... but the fact is... everyone aced them too... so oh well... cant get too complacent yo... i'm kinda thinking i should have a graduation-form of the bucket list... you know... a list of things i should do before i graduate... and officially become an adult who cannot make use of student discounts and concessions... - watching all the freaking movies i want at cathay will undoubtedly be one of them... - buy the pair of haivanias (however you spell that) i have been lusting after at student price... - jump into the NUS swimming pool considering i never have... - go into the library when everyone is mugging and scream, "Chao muggers! You suck!" - pretend to run out of the exam hall in the middle of the paper screaming, "NOOoooooooooo!" technically i cant, coz i need every single A or A- i can get... - tell the western food uncle at Bizad that his sandwiches rock... ...and the list goes on... think its about 40 mths with the guy so far... amazing HUH!? i'm amazed coz i didnt know anyone can tahan me for this long... but then again my parents did... 22 years and counting... 0230hrs... i think i ought to jump into bed... else i'm certain i'll fall asleep in uncertainly lecture tmr... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:05 --Link to Post |
| 8.4.08 |
 i just love buildings like that... National Museum on the night of the movie-i-did-not-quite-understand with the girls... ----Stef stopped rambling at 04:43 --Link to Post |
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bumped into boredin saengtuksin in biz school today... and as fate would have had it... HE BLARDY FORGOT MY NAME! i think it's karma. back to Genes and Society... i need to conjure up some amazing biological invention so as to appear in a TIME article in 2020... double BAH. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:28 --Link to Post |
| 7.4.08 |
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watched the Pillowman today... luckily i forced the guy to double check our tickets... coz our selective memory caused us to forget that we... cheapskates that we were... bought the matinee show at a student price... but boy did i feel old when we got there... i swear the place was crawling with 18 year olds... not that i have anything against 18 year olds... but since i weaned myself off places like Far East Plaza... i have never seen that many pple under 21 in a single place... okay i am exagerating... thing was 3 hours... i thought it was good... in a Tim Burton twisted sorta way... but a little to slow and draggy for my liking... i'm just a sucker for entertainment... so deep and thoughtful plays like that didnt quite hit the spot for me... though i quite enjoyed trying to read deeper into everything... i dont exactly spot irony, insert-random-literature-mambo-jumbo here... things like that quite easily... i'm blaming 4 years of engineering school... i have a confession to make... i stare at the guy's facebook profile sometimes for fun... he is so un-happening that there is nothing i dont know on his facebook profile... so i just stare blankly at it sometimes... that, and i'm a facebook-parking wars addict... i'm now saving up the buy an ice cream truck that costs 1.9 million... and the only thing the ice cream truck does is to increase the rate at which i earn (fake) money with my other cars that i park on other's people streets... i am going nuts. first draft is going to the prof tomorrow... i think he might just shoot me a hostile email saying that i cant grad.. and i'll have to stay another year to re-do my FYP... not that i want that to happen... just saying there is a possibility... coz... if there is anything my Uncertainty class has taught me.... it's that anything is possible... and adidas says impossible is nothing. but that being said... i know next to nothing about Uncertainty... the past few online assignments was done with the guy having to go to great lengths to explain to me why his answers were such and such... i wouldnt constitute that as cheating... but productive discussion... albeit, very mono-directional... and i realised i didnt do as well as i thought in genes and society... not that i failed or anything... but i thought i got 32/40... when in actual fact its 31/40... not sure if i should panic... coz a ton of people got higher marks than me... and another ton of people got lower marks... i wouldnt say i'm average... coz stats show i'm slightly above... but hey... who wants to be average? sometimes i do. i think i've got such low self-esteem that if anyone (boy/girl) spends more than 0.1 ms of time looking at me... i would immediately think i have messy hair or veg in my teeth... or that my jeans are too tight... they are, but i love my BR skinnies... and i do have messy hair... i dont own a hair brush you see... i think i'm worse than a caveman... bah! that being said... i'm amazed that the guy loves his cavewoman... truth be told... i'd be embarrassed to have a girlfriend like me... if i were a guy, that is... maybe he is... but he blardy hell doesnt show it la... which is super-duper amazing... sometimes i half-expect him to throw a garbage bag over my head when we bump into his friends in town and pretend he was just taking out the trash... which further substantiates the fact, that i have already established 3+ years ago, that the guy is FREAKING wonderful/amazing/great/awesome/super-duper... save for the fact that he loves his soccer more than me... i think the whole post is quite the pointless.. but i had fun rambling... WOOTS! ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:12 --Link to Post |
| 5.4.08 |
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its official... the stomach flu is now on my list of WORST WAYS TO FALL SICK... food is one of my greatest sources of comfort... so imagine now when i feel down and stressed out... i cant even indulge in my get-fat ice cream or thick luscious chocolate lava... WHY!!??? not that i dont enjoy sick people food like porridge and soups... i love those.... but i like it better when i choose to eat them... not when i can only eat them... stomach, please get better soon... the movie out on the front lawn of the National Museum with serene and stella tonight was fun... under the stars... watching a movie in a language we dont quite understand... i just thought the carpet grass was great to lie on... save for being excessively prickly... i slept a little while pretending i was watching the film... and we walked.. and we sat by the war memorial to talk... it was a quiet way to spend a friday night... but thats probably the only way i like it... thanks for dragging me out girl... i needed it. ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:45 --Link to Post |
| 4.4.08 |
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went home for dinner yesterday... realised i dont sleep very well at home any more... i kinda get really guilty that my laptop is not next to me... and i cant pretend i'm working as much i really should... but i love going home... it's the only place where i dont feel the urge of calling the guy every ten minutes... yes. i am that needy. ----Stef stopped rambling at 08:36 --Link to Post |
| 3.4.08 |
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the boy with the cute behind says he is willing to give me up for french fries... ... any takers? well... i've been holing myself up for some time now... i think i sit in front of the laptop so much now that i honestly think my butt aches... i dont know how to prevent buttaches like that... coz i honestly dont think that sitting on it for prolonged periods of time will tone it... tone it for even longer periods of sitting... but i'm just ranting... i finally see the end of it... was writing pretty smoothly today... though it takes me forever to write a little paragraph coz i have to sift through tonnes of journal articles to substantiate my results and give it a little reliability... met the engin gang today for lunch... kinda cool.. coz it's been really a long time... considering i met lau su almost everyday of last sem... its crazy that i havent seen her at all this sem... it was fun crapping and taking our minds off the dreadful deadlines... and everyone is more or less employed or knows what he wants to do in life... i'm the only LOSER. why why why? i know i shouldnt be ranting... and i should be doing something about it... but this seems like the easiest way out... plus a bit of praying before bed every night... i'll go try write somemore... i need it to be an A- so badly i could cry... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:53 --Link to Post |
| 1.4.08 |
 i think he has a cute behind. ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:51 --Link to Post |
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kinda hard to get real work done when the only time i dont feel sick is in bed... and asleep... dont think my stomach is ready for real food... rice and the works last night... earned me like 6 trips to the loo this morning... and it's green! why am i even excited? i dont know why i've been really crazy about Matchbox Twenty's Push of late... been listening to it over and over... even though i have no idea what it really means... though a quick google search unravels a debate between physical and emotional violence... just like how the song builds up... i think it kinda parallels real relationships... and it's been fun finding people from primary school in facebook... i have collected all the stephanies in my class... and i'm slowly building up the collection... evoking some awesome memories at the same time... realised a lot of them are studying overseas... back to trying to work on my FYP... BAH. ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:30 --Link to Post |
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