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i asked the guy if he'd dump me when he becomes rich and successful... then he said he would make me a tai tai... i'm kinda getting mixed signals with that... you know how in those chn8 or TVB dramas... always got those rich tai tai where their husbands cheat and flirt with girls half their age... and the wives can only stay home and pretend nothing is happening... while maxing out her hundreds of credit cards on shopping and spas... and playing mahjong with other tai tais in the same predicament? i only like the credit card - shopping - spa parts of that... but before you people chide me for being low in self-esteem... being bimbo/dumb... i'm just kidding laaaa... i know full well its a crazy world out there... not that i dont have faith in the guy or myself or what we have... but things change sometimes... whether we like it or not... so you can say i dont have faith in things being eternal and unchanging... CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT... i used this blardy line in my bloomberg interview... i think it cost me the second interview... sobz... but even though my ideal self will be able to be independent and detach myself well if something like that ever does happen... it probably wouldnt be so ideal... i'll be reduced to one lumpy, sad mess... but then i'm confident i'd recover... just a matter of how much time it takes... quite frankly... when i see an awesome condo, i always wonder how it'll be like if the guy and i own a unit... when i see an awesome car, i wonder how fun it'll be if the guy and i own one together... so on and so forth... but then i'll stop myself... coz thoughts like that get you into trouble sometimes... if a break-up ever happens... every time i see an awesome apartment i'm just gonna cry... every time i see an awesome car i'm just gonna cry again... sometimes i wonder if there can ever be a bad guy/girl in any relationship... coz sometimes i think... if it doesnt work out, it just doesnt... even if guy dumps girl... it simply means they are not for one another... though i think it feels good to victimise oneself and blame the other while crying to ur pals... but of course... there are the horror stories of guy toying with girl's feelings... girl making use of guy for rides, money and whatever... vice versa... but whatever it is... i'm gonna have an awesome date with the guy tmr... he says dinner and movies... but considering whats out on the screens these days.. and the fact that i'm no longer a safra member... the guy cannot be safra member coz he never go SAF... and HSBC discounts only apply mon to weds... yes... i'm such an auntie when it comes to discounts... i might suggest timbre and beer... he is bound to complain though... he is such an uncle when it comes to inactivity... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:46 --Link to Post |
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