| 31.10.03 |
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caught this amazing sky with the free benQ cam... no match for yujin's fren's power camera... but gawd... isnt this pretty? do give credit to the shutterbug responsible too... it takes alot to find the rite composition... muahah... if the previous blog scared you... i'm fine again... went for a jog... got wet in the rain... but it was an amazing feeling... trust me... u cant tell the difference between sweat and rain... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:13 --Link to Post |
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realised its better that i keep my blog away from my frenz...
in that way i can speak abt wad i truly feel... instead of simply entertaining my readers... and trying to stay as non-critical as possible... today was really a day that i realise the failure of my entire life... think abt it... wad i went through today... i'm just thinking... wad have i been doing for the past two years??? being civil to a group of pple that are void of any concern for me??? the obvious answer is that 'they are concerned wad...' but sometimes the most obvious answer... isnt the answer at all... think abt it... went to sch... asked pple ard... 'ya... LT3...' so i thot i'll go there first maybe... everyone else went to the audi... when they realised the mistake... no one bothered to sms me... i oni went to the audi coz i saw pple walking there... did u know how i felt??? usual me went to confront them as a joke... but deep inside i was hurting like shit... seriously... at least i had elza with me... if not i would have walked out of sch... not wanting to see anyone in there... to pple who helped me carry the bulky dvd player for some time or another... thanks a bunch... but do u know wad seriously mattered??? after the feedback in LT3... i was the very last person in our klass to leave the LT... no one waited for me... or checked if i could manage... gawd... i couldnt even see the floor beneath my feet... heck... i could even roll down the stairs and break my neck.. none of u would even know... but before i break my neck... my heart shattered first... no one slowed his/her steps to see if i was okay... before u put the blame on others... check wads wrong with u first... i did... and my head hurts like it never did b4... coz i cant see wads wrong! tell me plz! edward couldnt make it for the movie today... seems like something cropped up in camp... gawd... was kinda prepped for today... but it had to be cancelled... went home... din go eat with the klass.. din wanna feel uncomfy... and in a way... din wanna spend another afternoon acting... too fatigued to do so... but i came home... switched on frenster... and rene wrote me a testimonial that practically summarised our whole entire life... i cried... truthfully... these are the things my tears should be used for... not over pple unworthy of my tears... ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:29 --Link to Post |
| 30.10.03 |
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i think i shouldn't get my moods down so often...
its costing me alot of money... bought dido's white flag... and maksim's the piano player... gawd... thats like 40 bucks liaoz... and i say i'm saving up for pattaya... i am! but i need the outlet la... i think its one of the few ways where i can finally get wad i want... sounds psychotic... i know... but oh well... like i said before... pain disregards wad the whole world thinks... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:03 --Link to Post |
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moved my blog...
just by deleting one letter from the add... i dont think many would find this... maybe not at all... thats my very intention.. i'm not running away... just that i need to get thru this... alone... will move the blog back post As... when my life gets happier anyways... but seriously am feeling much better liaoz... was talking to merv last nite... at least it gave me an option to simply cry my heart out... kinda realised that its not *** that made me feel so terrible... but the fact that my best pals kept it from me... merv said they might have felt confused... but freak... i could even see the look on their eyes... just watching me fall deeper and deeper w/o any consideration for how i'd have felt... even when i knew it... and asked them casually abt it... they could deny ever knowing... knowing anything at all... my world din crash in the library... but outside the library where he told me they knew... the bus ride home was spent thinking wad i did wrong... for the most amazing of frenships to wind up this way... i went to sk lib... tried to read... tried to study... i could do neither... i just sat there... staring blankly into space... sipping my hazelnut cuppacino... somehow at the back of my mind i know they meant well... but i cant bring myself to say its ok... got alot of things figured out last nite... really glad to have you as a fren, pal... love is a choice... not a commitment... i guess when choices do not coincide... u simply have to let go... i tink over the years i'm getting good at this... two heartbreaks at the most crucial times... was telling merv that hopefully this works for me like wad b|az did for my O levels... not asking for much... A for maths... 2 B/C for sciences... and a B4 for GP... muahahha... still... i'm not giving up on love... still the want to love and be loved in return... the latter alone doesnt suffice... courtships are alluring... but i will not falter... u only get one chance to fall in love with the person u'll be with for the rest of ur life... no way i'm passing that out... eyes are swelling a 'lil after last nite... hope they'll subside soon enough... need to study... need to study... ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:46 --Link to Post |
| 29.10.03 |
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went jogging...
just kept running... and running... mattered not that i was hurting... mattered not that my knee was threatening to give way... remembered i said he probably wouldnt tell me stuff like dat... just a couple of nites ago... but in the most ironic sort of way... he did today... never had to put on a mask so painful... deviating so much from wad i truly felt... the enthusiasm was pretentious... maybe i should get an oscar... maybe i shouldnt have dug so deep... maybe i would just be able to survive until post-As... but i guess P=(3/4)(1/2) is definitely higher than P=(1)(0)... i wish him best. just kept running... mattered not that the sky was getting darker by the minute... or that the pretty red sunset was disappearing into the horizons... ----Stef stopped rambling at 07:18 --Link to Post |
| 28.10.03 |
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left home really early today...
went out to study... with james... bleah... studying with that ediot is good... coz the whole day he like never do anything... then like i achieve alot... woohoo!!! but in actual fact i din la... just did chem... and chem... and chem... bleah... think i'm abt to puke chem... but seriously... that guy looks damn serious when he is studying fervently... man! feel so lousy... maybe he absorbs more when he concentrates... have to be la... straight As in his HC days... think there's something wrong with me... everytime i come back from a jog keep having this acute pain in my abdomen... dun know wad... now cant differentiate the pain i'm experiencing as gastric or the weird pain... not hoping for the latter... mom's pretty much geared up to send me to CGH should the pain return... hate that place... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:13 --Link to Post |
| 27.10.03 |
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kinda unexpected to see him today...
and in my usual fashion... pretended i couldnt see him until he looked up and realised i was actually around... seriously am kinda thinking its a tad too obvious... and maybe he actually knows... just that he's simply ignoring the obvious.. i think so... but somehow... i doubt myself... wad i feel... but yesterdae... when i was showing my sis his picture... there's this inexplicable rush of feelings/thoughts/emotions... was smiling from ear to ear... even as he wasnt mine to hold... he told me something rather casually today... saw my world crash in front of my very eyes... dumbstruck... no it wasnt tat he was in love with someone else... he wouldnt tell me such stuff ya? guess the last time i might get to sneak a peek at him would be on my last paper... something i guess i have to cherish... coz there wouldnt be a chance anymore... am still struggling over whether or not to tell it to him... but considering the fact that there is zero chance of it being reciprocated... i guess, like b|az, it would just end up as something i have to slowly let go... trust fate to torment me so.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:56 --Link to Post |
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went to sch to study today...
thinking there'll be lotsa pple to study with... but by 1pm... was alone in the lib... defeated the point of going to sch in the first place... but there wasnt a table i could join without being either a huge lightbulb... or a freaking pain in the ass... decided to go home... maybe stake out the lib or the BK near my home... oh ya... was in the same bus with tall and not-so-tall things in the morning... made a point to sit far far away... so even if i lightbulb... the intensity of the light is lower... since I=k/d^2... where k is a constant to be determined... they din resist... so i guess it was the right move ya??? walked ahead of them in sch... since they stayed behind... i guess it wasnt a wrong move either ya??? heh... but not bad la... at least when reach sch... got 4 tables i could join at the 3rd level... ck...grace...wd...YXY... since gracie was expecting some pple... and CK looked hostile... merged the latter two into one table... and sat in... two gao shou ard my table... scary leh... left sch ard two plus... reached home with lunch in hand... sis say wanna go lib... so was thinking why not? can see shuai ge also... but not only shuai ge dun haf... table also dun have... so started reading up on sexual violence... urban terrorism... and even picked up an outdated copy of the economist... then when finally got seat... piggy sis made me order choc and blueberry danishs... with icecream... my hazel nut cuppacino.. hazelnut ice blend... and wedges... we sure pigged out... and there was this farnie guy who kept asking me to look after his stuff for him when he left the lib for awhile... he looked so apologetic... so ke ai... haha... its quite farnie when u see a tall big guy being tormented by so much notes like dat... and furiously scribbling on his PDA... sis and i were contemplating running away with his PDA... muahaha... but we realised SK's kinda small not to ever see him again... was a nice guy... came over when he was leaving to thank us again... nice to encounter pple like dat... makes ur day to know that little favours are actually greatly appreciated... even with strangers... loonie called me a couple of nites ago... think my pattaya fund cant stand on its own anymore... seems that andrew wants us to get our own board bags and thermal suits... so on our side... the whole pattaya trip will cost 800 bucks... excluding personal expenditure... and thats even after SSF paid 10 grand for the 5 of us... freak... never knew it was going to be tat costly... but i guess when u fly a 18kg board over... and an 8 kg rig... have hotel standards accomodation for 3 weeks... the cost will probably shoot skywards... damn! i'd rather sleep in the streets... 800 bucks leh... seriously dun wanna touch my parents money.. *starts to wonder how much that ntuc award is worth...* argh... hate it... dont even know whether i'm going pro with this... dun even have the standard... argh... and i'm spending so much hard-saved money on it... not even on equipment... end of the day... if i were to quit... i'll just be left with some useless accessories... no sponsored board or sail... man... am starting to wonder if its a ploy to earn our money and what not... argh!!! am kinda in a bad mood today i guess... if it wasnt for the guy at the lib... or the little kids smiling at me at the lib... or the lady at the cafe counter remembering me... i think i'll probably snap... wont say life sux... coz... life is wad you make out of it... just that something is very wrong with mine... and i had better do some tweaking before its too late... kinda wondering where's ant as well... was supposed to meet him online at 9... but its been hours... quite unlike him to fang wo fei ji w/o a call or something... just hope he's alrite... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:07 --Link to Post |
| 26.10.03 |
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i think the 'trying-to-motivate-myself-to-study' is getting my mind a little crazed...
went jogging just now... before dinner... and was jogging ard sengkang... kinda realised... at every cross junction... my direction next would be determined by which side was flashing the green man... followed that... and i almost ended up in hougang... but thats besides the point... my point is... it seems all so similar to life... its kinda like... when we come to a crossroad... we make our decisions for the most minute reasons... and as such... in a rather confusing mess... our lives are largely determined by the decisions we make in our lives... like now... my decision whether or not to mug hard for the a's... will ultimately decide where i end up in life... be it sengkang or hougang... it's kinda scary too if you think abt it hard enuff... i dont think i'm mature enough to decide for myself... i might be 18... but there are many things i cant fathom abt life... too many things in fact... somehow you'll want to let it all go and let someone else steer ur ship... but you know you cant... coz you know oni you can/should/will write ur own destiny... hiakz! i think i say here say there... in the end still come to a conclusion... 'go study la!' but bleah... not yet... will do so after my bath... but i'm still cooling down... after the super-full dinner, tat is! ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:08 --Link to Post |
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part of my oct photo series...
this is one grp of pple who made such a huge difference in my life... man... words cant express how important they are to me... bunked together overseas... huddled together in the cold... team raced against others... seldom join them in their usual after training dinners and stuff... coz i'm a family person... but when i do... i have one helluva time... great peeps tat i think everyone should get to know... my dearest windsurfers... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:19 --Link to Post |
| 25.10.03 |
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one of those days when you rethink your life and kinda wonder where you're heading...
cant deny... long for someone i can actually have and hold... still am waiting for the ONE... amazing the ease of which one can succumb to the lure of an emotionless relationship... but am trying not to... while it's great being loved... i'd rather be alone waiting for the someone i love... than to be loved by someone i'm void of feelings for... sound like i'm justifying my singlehood... i am... thats probably the reason why after the 21 mths with wf... and the other one falling short... i havent been involved with any other person... pple come and go... but not one came close to what i felt with wf... so i guess i'm still waiting... just waiting... spoke to da ant for a short while last nite... poor guy has been sick for a couple of days now... i think its nicer to talk to him when he's sick... sounds mellow-er... and more mature? poor guy has been dragging himself to work... and what not... man... if i'm sick... the first thing i'll be so happie abt is skipping sch! but he has gotta work... even over the weekend! gawd... and i thot he has got a nice slack job... get real! but i guess it just exemplates how responsible he actually is... and the passion he has for his work... both of which i think are very impt qualities in a man... or rather... both of which i know i sorely lack... ant's sweet... imagining someone oni running on 60% efficiency... sounding so weak... trying to entertain me and stuff... and considering i've never been much of a good conversationalist.. both on and off line... i think he might just be trying that hard to keep himself awake... bleah... just take care... drink water... eat med... and stop skipping meals! think there's a flu bug going ard these few days... take care peeps... esp those pia-ing for a levels... dun get ur immune system down... drink lotsa water... and go for jogs! they are good for you! and pple... like we alwaz read in emails and stuff... abt telling pple wat they mean to you... for we dont know what might happen to us the very next day? i love you guys... yesh you... every single one of you... my life would be so different without you pple inside... gawd, i wouldnt even dare imagining... i dont usually show it... but i guess if i were to leave this place for good... the oni thing i fang bu xia would be the pple ard me... =~( ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:58 --Link to Post |
| 24.10.03 |
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went kusu today...
hehee... pretty ok lah... just a little hot... and what not... but i guess enjoyed brunch with family... toileting at one fullerton... dessert at bedok... talking abt dessert at bedok... this poor guy in his mid20s... coz he was alone... then 5 of us share table with him... i think he felt so uncomfortable... but he also die die have to finish his laksa and tea... and we were like sOOOOoooooooo noisy... felt so terrible... almost tried to make conversation like... 'hi, hows your laksa?' you know... and the like... but din... he could almost pass off as my elder bro man... think we'll look like one big happie family... oh ya did i add? he's quite shuai too! went shopping with mom... happie happie... and realised something... think i really put on alot of weight... never really realised it... coz all my present clothes still fit... oni coz i alwaz liked them baggy... today was like so demoralised... and did even crazier thing... bought size 30 jeans... muahhaha!!! to boost my morale... no lah... it was some hipster thingy... so i thought why not... but regret abit la.. think can put chicken inside... bot gio junior tees too! alwaz lurve those coz they're sOOOOoooooo bright... and they alwaz have my fav number.... 23! think i'll wear those to pattaya... bet the HKGers and thais would be laughing their head off behind my back... thinking that i match my clothes with my sail number too! bleah... have i ever blogged a photo of my sail??? will do so... coz i lurve it to bits! its my baobei okie! SIN23.jpg keke... will go for jog soon... think i must really get serious abt losing weight and gaining muscle... the flab is too much for me to take... and my lack of strength and stamina will simply make me a laughing stock in pattaya... if i'm not already one... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:51 --Link to Post |
| 23.10.03 |
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GP timed pract today was draining man...
just sat in klass and crapped with the gurls... we came up with something really gross... that lala was the right butt cheek... angel was the left... merser was the a**hole... and i was the anus... dun ask me how that crap got out... coz i also dunnoe... went to sk lib again... had a apple cheese crumble... and my fav hazelnut cuppacino... shiok... almost finished p1 and p2 of TPJC maths... but left a few qns then chiong home to go jogging... fwah... today at LRT station... saw shuai ge... then quite funnie... *me imagines turn left-turn right scenario... coz we were walking down the stairs... he was on my left... then coz the stairs will turn... then he became on my right... then we passed the gantry together... then he walked down the right stairs... into the other estate.. and i down the left stairs... into my estate... okok!!! i never said anything abt being pretty like gigi leung or him suave like takeshi... just started giggling... i think he was wearing brown... with a striped tie... quite funky... hehhe... somehow he looked familiar... i dunnoe why... *me assures everyone reading... this is NOT another infatuation... just a weekly gossip column abt the shuai ges i see on the streets... muahahhaa... oh ya... proud of my jog today... took a totally different route... think i met one of my long-time-no-see crush... and i do mean i crush on him... dont ask me why i did either... i was sec 1 and ignorant... maybe it was amazing that a pri6 guy would be more mature than me... esp since he was a guy... muahhaa... jogged past him... and he cycled past me... i think we both pretend we dunnoe each other... used to play bball quite often... and i'll be crashing their soccer session as well... kinda wonder how all the guys are doing rite now... jacky...terence...silie...jackson...jason...donovan... (yes, they're brothers...their mother pretty crazy over jason donovan...) they probably dont remember me anymore... maybe find each other familiar... but i can hardly fit a name to a face now too... its been too long... sometimes i guess... thats how acquaintances fade away slowly... back to my jog... quite short la... abt 15 mins... but climbed two overhead bridges... crossed abt 4 roads... did abit of jumpin jacks at the fitness corner... trying to burn the cuppacino and the apple crumble ya??? guilty... and lifted abit of logs... been some time since i last ran... coz of the recovering knee... felt damn shuang today... probably do it again tmr or something... if i'm back early from kusu island... i guess i cant stop my exhibitionists tendencies... cant forsake my blog... love doing this... i dunnoe why... maybe coz i'm the kind who lurves to read abt stuff i did like 4 mths ago... and reminisce abt stuff... ya??? so forgive me if i bore you... just be glad that i dun bore myself... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:27 --Link to Post |
| 22.10.03 |
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stayed home today...
went thru a few physics topics... maybe go see shuai ge at library later... bleah.. u know the studious bespectacled kind??? yaya! hahaha... frankly i think my perception of shuai is quite different from convention... i might think this guy is shuai but my frens will BEG to differ... oh well... i dunnoe... maybe its just the feeling the person gives me... an alluring exuberance of charm, confidence and charisma? woah... thats 3 Cs.... maybe shall think of another 2... consideration? hmmm.... cant think of another C... so give you two Ss... sense of humour??? and a great smile... i dunnoe... forgive me for the total crap... =P oh ya... i wanna watch matchstick men and kill bill vol 1... darn... dunnoe whether i can afford to forsake my books and notes for a few hours for those... argh... i love movies abt con-men... they're just so smart! maybe not the actors... but the script writers and stuff... woah... i just stare totally impressed by the quick thinking of these con artists... like the name suggests.. it is an ART lor... talking abt art... i think window displays are form of art ya?? esp for high end boutiques and all.. its not just a dressing mannequins... but a projection of the image and lifestyle the line of clothes trying to sell ya? it is, afterall, the oni thing other than the brand/name that is likely to attract customers into the boutique ya? come to think of it... i have been pretty much of a blind shopper... just mindlessly window shopping without looking that much into windows... but knowing a person who does such stuff actually makes me look more closely at window displays... and appreciating them better ya? muahhaa.... changed photos for my frenster.. primary photo still the shoe one... but the rest... are photos of the most impt grps of pple in my life... my bball team... my windsurfers... my council and of coz my klass.. these groups of pple made a huge difference in my life... and am totally indebted to them... u guys rock... ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:48 --Link to Post |
| 21.10.03 |
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oh ya...
forgot to add... physica pract today was amazingly easier than chem... enjoyed myself doing the qns man... but according to past experiences... the more i enjoyed doing a paper... the worse i'll do... grr... just praying this isnt the case.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:51 --Link to Post |
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this is me and my crap partner... coz probably oni he can take my crap... and probably oni me can take his suan-ing... quite farnie a fella la... today he made me laugh really hard during lunch today... when he was telling us abt this 'use-chopstick-kiap-housefly' game... and the way it traumatised him... muahhaa... almost puked my ban mian at him... suddenly had this weird thot while dad was driving along ECP on sun... coz they had signs abt the OSIM triathlon.... and was like... hmm... alwaz wanted to fly plane... but cannot... maybe a triathlon might prove to be a good challenge... esp since i alwaz thot i could never run 10km... nor swim long distance... or cycle without hurting my butt... why not? even if i die withot accomplishing my aim... i die trying ya??? but thinking abt running cycling 20km...swimming 1km...running 10km... *pengz* i'd rather stick to surfing... considering it gives me more of the adrenalin rush i'm totally addicted to... so thought more deeply abt it... so officially... GOALS TO BE ACHIVED BEFORE GOING INTO UNI... cant say next year... might even be retained... who knows man... wanna learn how to drive CAR and/or POWERBOAT... so the next time andrew takes my surfboard and tries to show me the correct stance and all... i could just drive his boat away... away from torturous training... wanna take up a martial art... like KARATE/KICKBOXING/TAEKWONDO... not that i find myself not guy enough... like YC would say... im already very nan ren... but wanna use it to beat up guys who suan me... muahaha... nah... not really self-defence either... but just out of interest... and to be able to differentiate the real fighting from the fakey ones in movies... and then decide who to chong bai... dont think i can accomplish so much.... but i'll try ya??? but these wont apply should they decide to send qi and i to china... kinda freaked abt surfing there... coz of sharks... but met the chinese province teams before... and their warm hospitality... man...i tell you... is totally one of a kind... esp this gurl from zhejiang i met during last year's sing open... though horrible me forgot her name... *scratch head* even the cute guy whose head was shaved like shaolin monk... darn... stef.xiyang.jpg shall end it with another photo... smarty pants in my klass... YXY... with an ultra fakey smile i had to force out of him... at least he smiled la... seems like someone stepped on his tail that day... face look like mine after my penang stint... charcoal black... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:45 --Link to Post |
| 20.10.03 |
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TRIED to study in sch today...
but ended up crapping with me mates... darn... and wasting alot of time on some stupid chem RJC qns... 5 qns... and i took like eternity... *kudos to RJC chem students* tmr physics pract paper... wish me all the best... i need all the luck i can get... considering i kinda screwed up my chem pract... bleah... *prayz* ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:26 --Link to Post |
| 19.10.03 |
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this is my shoe!!! see the orange round thingy??? its actually a smiley face... muahahhaa... that i stole from PC's sticker sheet... hehhee... cant really see the smiley face... but i think its darn cute... and esp when i walk up the stairs... pple walking behind me will probably start giggling and something... hey... at least i made an effort at making pple laugh... laodasshoe.jpg this is the tall thing's shoe... well... i guess feet size is proportional to height ya??? his feet is darn huge lor... but i checked liaoz... its not twice of mine... no worries... i guess it just gives him more stability ya??? considering his CG abit high... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:01 --Link to Post |
| 18.10.03 |
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after granny's b-dae dinner today...
just sat in safra lobby with my sister... and talked for hours... abt almost everything under the sun... stopping short when it comes to the guys we like though... coz she die die dun wanna tell me... but really appreciate the time we had today... to just talk the nite away... rarely do that with her... and she complains its coz i am alwaz too busy... well... it takes two hands to clap... she's not that free either... ever so clammed with her band activities and stuff... i tink it runs in the family... we cant survive on inactivity... i'll bore myself to death... (disclaimer: studying is NOT an activity...) know how i really cant stand pple in the service industry who dont do their job well??? another one today... cleared the plates on the table... the water spilled over... onto the table and into my granny's soup... the gurl din even say sorry... and pulled the napkin from my mom's cutlery and shoved the tissue to my granny... i just stared in disbelief... quite unlike me... din make a scene... but made it very clear i was bu shuang... how can she do that to my granny??? its her birthday you know??? grr... since my dad din make a scene... i dont think i should.. so let the matter rest... bleah... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:55 --Link to Post |
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my family.... love them to bits... even the bro that ever-so-often gets on my nerves... so i also bu ke qi one... wrestle him... muahhaha... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:17 --Link to Post |
| 17.10.03 |
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am watching holland V...
totally flabbergasted by the character played by cynthia koh... banging stuff when she comes home... going for the rich ass played by benedict goh... bully tianxiang like dat when she doesnt have any feelings for him... blaming everything on yangyang when she only have herself to blame... in short... the character sucks... even more than the da hua guy... lingling's husband... so happie he's kicked out of the house... woohoo!!!! love xie shaoguangs character... the way he likes wan wan is like so... sweeeeettt!!!! think he damn ke ai... though he not very nan ren... but i think he makes a good husband... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:59 --Link to Post |
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my bestest pals in klass... like i said before... lurve them to bite-sized pieces... wo men shi SMS! stella, melissa, stef! BLEAH... stef.cass.jpg and this... my twin... i know we look nuthing like each other and all... but we spent almost 2 years calling each other that... just coz we were mistaken for each other during one OGF workshop... lurve her to bits as well... she rocks... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:17 --Link to Post |
| 16.10.03 |
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erm... great... i'm running out of things to say on my blog... nuthing much today lah... took photos? last OFFICIAL day of sch tmr... come to think of it... its pretty fast how everything ends... will miss the klass... really... spoke to da lazy ant on the phone yesterdae... pretty amazing laughter i must say... the kind that u actually laugh at... and it makes the worst of days all pretty again... esp the 'tweet tweet' thing... laughed till i almost cried ah... but too bad was using my hp... phone heated up abit too much to carry on the conversation... nevertheless.... it was a good one... if there's something abt talking to pple older than me... i guess its the stuff i learn in the conversations... yesterdae's lesson... mannequins are fun pple too! i guess lazy ant's a welcomed change from the usual science-techy stuff... in the creative line i guess they use more of the left brain ya??? ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:13 --Link to Post |
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was responding to a mail abt why i liked enemy at the gates considering it wasnt a well received movie...
and abt the matrix's questions of our true existence... thought stuff i said was quite general... so no harm bringing them here... hmm...coz there was jude law and joseph fiennes? not so much of tat i guess...was superbly impressed by the art of snipery...and the fact that it wasnt a typical war movie with gory scenes and all...but cant say much here...aint a fan of war movies...just appreciate the beauty of any well made movie...another war-themed movie i really liked was Silent Night on the hallmark channel...its really beautiful...cant speak for you since its a preference thing...but do check out the sypnosis...its a lovely story...one that captures the beauty of the paradoxical faith/war/love/hope/hate... cant say much abt the matrix though...enjoyed keanu reeves flying ard and beating up agents...but couldnt delve too deeply into the issue of existence and all...thinking too much abt things you cannot find an answer for makes your head ache...but when i said i wanted to meet someone real...i meant someone void of pretense and apprehension of the dark lurking world...someone who can be herself/himself ard me...that'll suffice. ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:41 --Link to Post |
| 15.10.03 |
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nuthing much today...
good thing... so i wont spend too much time blogging... rehearsals for farewell assembly... eeks... have to wear court shoes and white sleeves... eeks... well... one day oni!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:42 --Link to Post |
| 14.10.03 |
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chem pract today was horrid...
i guess its the worse pract i've ever did in my whole entire life... and it HAD to be my a level pract,, darn... mood quite bad... never thot i'll screw it up this badly... was shaking like a leaf when the examiner said '3 minutes left...' coz i had bits all over the whole paper that have yet to be filled in... freak... haiz... but i guess wad is done... cannot be undone... just have to work harder for the p1,2,3... kanbatte!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:28 --Link to Post |
| 13.10.03 |
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am wearing one of the race teeshirts...
u know those that come free when u sign up for competitions... 22nd singapore open... dun rem a good race then... its kinda huge... i think i was late in collecting it... and everyone got the smaller sizes... either that... or my dad accidentally wore it someday and stretched it a little... in some berms that actually 2 sizes too big.. yes its mine... love such clothes... comfy... cant really see the light of day lah... as in wear to the mall or anything... but at least it doesnt make me feel fat... speaking abt fat... am waiting for maid to be done with the french toasts... lurve those... cant help it... am a pig by nature... know sometimes u do things... but only regret much later? hate the feeling of regret... its one of those where you can do nuthing abt... frankly... am fine with regreting my own actions... but if only my actions dont affect the pple ard me... dun wanna let my parents down... esp with all they've done for me... the last thing i wanna do is to make them sad again... like when they called me on the hP that fateful nite... it was the first time my dad din talk to me for days on end... even though we went out for dinner together... man... that feeling... was worse than being condemned to the last level of hell... *prays* ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:51 --Link to Post |
| 12.10.03 |
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stayed home the whole day...
went thru some of my chem practs... TRIED to get prepared for the tues paper... got tips from chem pro... hopefully i'll be more prepared than i was for the prelim paper... am trying to finish up the VJ prelim GP... am at the AQ now.. paper was so boring i fell asleep after qn.7... darn... hopefully that wouldnt happen in the a levels... dad bought a new vacuum cleaner... man... it looks exactly like my mambo bag lor... dunnoe which one got its inspiration from the other... its really alike lor... yellow in the middle... grey at the sides... same colour tone... and shape as well!!! darn... hopefully no one else bough the same vacuum cleaner... or else they'll be pointing at my bag and stifling some laughter... keke... promised myself liaoz... i guess with the start of my papers... i guess its time to put some self discipline into place... probably trying to stop coming online half as often... cant pry myself off blogger... since i've made the blog quite pretty... once a day? hah... i dunnoe... but will stop the IRC and ICQ... if i can help it... but before i do... can i tell all my best buds abt my coming disappearance??? muahaha... maybe it takes 2 months to notify everyone... hahhaa... by then i in pattaya liaoz lor... =P now kinda stuck to a conversation on iCQ... will get back to AQ after that... CONSUMERISM... =O that was a yawn... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:29 --Link to Post |
| 11.10.03 |
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din manage to pry myself off the PC...
and realised i'm kinda too addicted to blogger... suddenly i kinda thought that i shouldnt be blogging my whole life for the world to see... is life really that unfulfilling to me that i seek solace in a lifeless interface? suddenly occured to me that pple were actually reading my blog... apart from the usual suspects... suddenly i sense the exhibitionism i've alwaz despised... i dunnoe whether to continue or stop coz the blog have alwaz been the container for my bottled feelings... keeping me sane i guess... somehow i really dunnoe... maybe i should stop coming on as often... and conc on what deemed more important... a levels... windsurfing... and my social circle... which seems horribly miserable... i think friendster the culprit in making me feel this way...=P was going home today... felt as if pple were staring at me... i'm not going crazy... just inferiority complex i guess... sounds like the lyric rolling at the bottom of the page rite now... i lurve that song... think it fits me to a T... argh... PMS PMS... hope it'll pass soon... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:23 --Link to Post |
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went to sch to study today...
not that i did much... finished one maths paper... learnt a new thing abt physics... made a stop at compass point to takeaway BK... had yummy crossian'wich and a cuppacino... met sentill in sch to stardee... heheh... funny chap... had fun lah... at least motivated me to study... by setting an example himself... but when he was leaving for lunch... he admitted he was only studying coz i seemed to be studying... bleah... the irony of life... went by compass point on my way home... takeaway bandito pocket... seriously quite nice... but lunch at 3???!?!? abit funny... swallowed it anyway... dropped by frenster just now... refound some of my sec sch pals... hope they add me ya??? been some time since i spoke to them... kinda miss them alot... oh ya... alot of pple has been spotting the tall thing and the not-so-tall thing hanging out together in sch alot... though sch so many pple... they kinda STAND OUT among the crowd ya??? and asking me about it... dear tall thing and not-so-tall thing... wad should i say to these pple ah?? i say dunnoe....they say dun bluff... i say cannot say...they say confirm got something liaoz... and pple who are planning on asking me... seriously ah... i also dunnoe leh... this kinda thing... u must ask the parties in question... not me! bookshop uncle's quite shou with sentill... so he was talking to us while we were studying... although middle aged pple tend to be a little preachy... i like to hear them out... they do make alot of sense... and many a time... they knock sense into me... was complaining that his son alwaz threaten him... say dun wan study and all... was reflecting upon my behaviour towards my parents... am not to that extreme... but do admit... i am pretty much of a pain in the butt more often than not... but deep down... i lurve my parents lah... just hope i was disappoint them... *prays* keke... will get back to work now... or at least... TRY to pry myself off the PC... ciaoz. ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:36 --Link to Post |
| 10.10.03 |
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oh yah...
edward passed me jin's iCQ liaoz... so happy... finally spoke real-time to that bloke... not that it lasted very long either... just am glad... never do work today... darn... tmr go back sch and cheong... wish me best!!! oh yah... pardon me if i do stink... my bandage on my knee rendered me hydrophobic and squat-phobic... cant use no squatting toilets!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:53 --Link to Post |
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yeay...
went to the tie da liaoz... he twist it... turned it... pulled it... pain lor... but am jumping, walking ard like monkey now... went to the doc with only my phone... not even my wallet... had my dad send me to jing's place... gave me like 40 bucks to take cab home... muahaha... passed jing her stuff... tried to tell her abt stuff we discussed in sch... stayed till joel came... to pass me the phy TYS... but left the TYS at her place... was rushing out of the house... coz jason was waiting in the cab... came to pick me coz jing's place quite out of the way... had lunch with him... da new fish mcdippers??? quite nice lah... maybe coz i lurve fish... thot he looked better with messy hair... so crazily asked him whether i could mess up his hair... muahaha... and i did!!! i think i also abit screw loose... dunnoe lah... these few days havent been myself.... ultra mean to pple ard me... snapping pretty easily... pardon me ya? just tat the pending A's kinda pressurizing... unacceptable excuse... i know... but do pardon me... knee's bandaged up pretty bad... look like popiah... bleah... oh ya... am hooked on friendster now... just very cool to know how everyone seems to be linked with everyone... hehhe... will go play with it somemore later... ciaoz first... abit tired.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:21 --Link to Post |
| 9.10.03 |
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am in pain...
tried to stretch it a little while watching TV... think it got worse... freaking knee cant extend properly... dun even think left leg can support me... thats why cant really walk properly... actually even walk at all... mom told me not to go sch... esp when i'm wheeling abt the whole house with the desk chair on wheels... will try to make it to bedok tomorrow... to the bone-setter's... freak... and if i sound like i'm trying to pon sch... gain sympathy... think wad you like... i really dun care... gawd... that was venom... heck... pain disregards what the whole world thinks... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:08 --Link to Post |
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played badminton and bball during PE today...
actually me fine with playing anything one... though i miss bball alot... but elza die die also dun wanna play in the sun... shan shan die die dun wanna play bball... hahha... so badminton was pretty fun... played with angel and elza... had a good time... jumping ard mindlessly... but decided to jisiao the guys at the bball court... benjamin, yeesing and twig... played their stupid F, O, E game... and then abit of manjiang... which i won!!! or so i think... played 2on2... ben and i against twig and ys... then alvin came to join us... so ben twig and me one grp... ys and alvin another... piangz... think i hurt my knee then... damn pain... but damn fun... so continued playing... YXY came to join us after tat... made bet with him tat his 3pointer wont go in... muahaha... it din... won a drink... demanded a pink dolphin... the most expensive drink in the canteen... hahaha... i so bad... but not so lor... the stupid idiot bumped into me when he took a shot during the game lor... FOUL! but nobody care... if i fall ah... he die ah... day passed pretty fast i guess.... din see the bonesetter... maybe tmr??? he closes early today... bleah... tmr tmr!!! pain pain!!! cant run... grow fat!!! argh!!! still in my stinking uniform... bro's best bud was over to play chess... hahaha... wad if he smells me stinky... go home and tell his bro... stephen's sis damn stinky... argh!!! die die die... heck... cant smell myself... but like someone told me before... you cant smell urself coz u too used to ur smell.. quite true... but i really cant smell!!! =P ate more cookies today... damn shiok... coz its not too sweet... yet sweet enough to make my headache go away!!! yeah!!! will have my bath... dinner... then cheong maths and physics... yippie! ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:18 --Link to Post |
| 8.10.03 |
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next fav song after ·É»ú³¡µÄ10:30...
think its nice... enjoy... =) the italics arent the translation... but stuff i actually feel when i hear those lines... David Tao - ÌìÌì Ì«ÑôÌì(»ò)ÏÂÓêÌì È˼·È˵Ŀ§·Èµê everyday... ÕÒÒ»¸öÄÜÏëÄãÊæ·þµÄ½ÇÂä think abt him in moments of solitude...esp in the bus... ¿´×ÅÇéÈ˼翿¼ç ÂýÂýת¿ªÎÒÊÓÏß seeing couples shoulder to shoulder...slowly take my gaze off them... yeh yeh~~ ÓиöÅ®º¢ÈÃÎÒºÃÏëÄî funnily enough...i think of him... ÎÒµÄÐÄ ÒѾ·Éµ½Õâ¸ö³ÇÊеÄÁíÒ»±ß dunnoe whether i've misplaced my feelings... Ïë¿´×ÅÄã ÎÒ°®µÄÁ³ looking at him...thinking i might have... °ÑÐÄÀïµÄ¸ÐÇé ¶¼¶ÔÄã˵ sometimes i really wished that i could just let him know... ÄÇÂí·ÉÏÌìÌ춼ÔÚÈû ¶øÿ¸öÈËÌìÌìÔÚÈÌÄÍ the world seems to come to a standstill when he's ard... ûÓÐÄãµÄÈÕ×ÓºÜºÚ°× ÔÀ´ÕâÑù¾ÍÊÇÁµ°® miss his presence during his absence...but dun know what i am feeling... ÎÒÏëÒªÄãÔÚÎÒÉí±ß ·ÖÏíÉúÃüÖеÄÒ»ÇÐ while i hope its reciprocated...it is pretty much impossible... ÎÒÏëÒªÌìÌì˵ÌìÌì˵ ÌìÌì¶ÔÄã˵ÎÒÓжమÄã if only i could tell him how i feel...everyday...then maybe i wont be in such agony... BABY~~~~ ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:50 --Link to Post |
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ok...
today got the real CONFIRM + CHOP prelims results... MATHS: B (69) PHYSICS: B (62) CHEMISTRY: B (60) GENERAL PAPER: C5 (53) muahhaa... thats why my blog today much more cheery... and also becoz i survived the day of two timed practices... totally 4.5 hours of pure torture... trying to keep quiet and still... with oni the brain working... but cant lah... hyperactive me would rather me jumping ard... ji-siaoing pple ard me... and abt the SC thingy... i went to look at the board again... and found many more pple who deserve MERIT more than i do... pple who deserve ur MERIT... u know who you are... am proud of you... heck the awards... like aud said... its the journey that matters... and i met them... love u guys... went to BK to do some maths... with a cuppacino and chicken cheesesticks... yummy! din see no shuai ge today... aww... but doesnt matter ya??? received the wedding invite to rae and kw's wedding at ritz... man... its on nov 1st... quite close to the A's... but considering the fact that they've been great seniors the past 4 years... helping us along every step of the way... i guess it's only right that we are there to share their joy... i guess most if not all the juniors will be going... so i better not be black sheep... but its gonna be so kewl... reception at Asian Civilisation Museum... and dinner at Ritz Carlton... yesh... rich pple... hehhe... but so fun... weddings are alwaz fun... not the organization though... the wedding invite to the reception was in the shape of a surfboard... way cool! buay tahan... love the dinner card too... engraved the following sweet words... 'surely goodness and merry shall follow us all the days of our lives...' -Psalm 23:6 i wish them that too... PE tomorrow... cant wait... somehow... PE seems such a attractive escape... from the books, papers and the dreaded calculator... time for bath... ciaoz... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:13 --Link to Post |
| 7.10.03 |
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prelim marks confirmed liaoz...
Maths: B (69) Physics: C (59) Chemistry: C (59) GP: C5 (53) really cant escape the fifties region lor... and all one mark from the next grade... am tired sick... ...of freaking lousy results which i've been desperately trying to improve... ...of doing stuff that dont matter, smiling at the salesperson who doesnt smile back, keeping the doors open for pple... ...of working my head off for council, crying, being verbally thrashed by the student population only to get a commendation award... ...of training so hard under the sun every week, being scolded by andrew, only to get thrashed by the HKGers and thais... ...of bringing all my unhappiness back home, thrashing my parents and sibs with cutting comments and my intolerable inpatience... think i've been getting my priorities all wrong... all these time... skipping training to do council work, carry out council events... missing sleep to do work, work that that stockpiled due to my training and council activities... having a horrid temper with my lack of sleep, being ultra mean to all those ard me... my nose is dripping... though at the rate slower than the flow at my eyes... everything i've worked so hard for... just come to naught... am put on the same level as pple who totally disregard the fact that they committed themselves to council... freak... somehow... though i'm supposed to... i cant take it... i have two options actually... 1. to feel damn sorry for myself... think that the whole world has forsaken me... and thrash all those who make the decision abt who goes into 'Distinguished', 'Merit', 'Commendation'... keep questioning why i din get merit considering the late nites, effort, parental disagreement and all... and think 'dad's rite for asking me to quit SC and conc on my studies...'... 2. realise i have been having the wrong priorities... start regretting... panic when i realise i have to score the milky way for my 'A's in order to redeem myself... realise its an impossibility... and start falling into the depths of grief and regret... did abit of retail therapy at compass point though... bought kueh for my granny... bean curd for grand dad and aunt... and lotsa cookies... my fav. macadamian nuts and choc chips... like i read in angel's blog... my version is... i guess there is nuthing too terrible that lotsa choc chip cookies cant cure... the laughter would probably be supplied by the pple ard me i guess... so readers take note... just dun mention CCA awards... or else i'll feel so damn sorry for myself i'll start crying again... oh yah... so gek... bad day... hate bad sales pple... the staff at bengawan solo... damn jialat... dad also commented before... the staff there quite terrible... last time... put all my purchases in small little plastic bags... and ask me carry all by myself to the cashier 6 m away... the bags had no handles lor... then she gave me that face... today... the same girl was talking to her boyfriend/lover/father/husband/son/whoever! at the other entrance... one was serving another customer... another eating her lunch... i waited damn freaking long lor... she kept looking at me... the girl at the door... i kept staring at her... argh... was looking for feedback form... couldnt find though... piangz... if next time like tat again... i promise i'll write to ST lor... i'm not being difficult... but its the image they have to uphold for being an established confectionery... argh... bath time... then maths... give me strength... my head feels as if its gonna blow... ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:51 --Link to Post |
| 6.10.03 |
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got back most of the marks today...
both my sciences got 59... fell short of the B grade by 1 mrk... was freaking sad... but i got over that liaoz... maths is still under consideration... so its a A/B... with 90% probability of B... GP c5... sucks... i know... but i've come to terms with myself... hope that i'll be able to work this failure into a motivation for my A's... spent another 3 hrs in library doing maths... which i was supposed to have done over the weekend... thats after a 3hr mock paper in the freezing audi... quite a feat actually... if u know how slack i usually am... nuthing much happened today i guess... was just not in my happiest mood coz my coke bottle got dented... dont worry not ur fault... stupid me go and put on the floor... of course someone will kick... if not you... sure someone else... results suck... oh yah... so paiseh leh... took lrt back home today... was walking down the stairs out of the station... the usual me will start prancing ard... swinging my hands... then i think my hand accidentally hit this guy... i dunnoe where i hit lah... lucky he tall... or else i hit there... i dunnoe what to say ah... but considering my hand actually hurt... i think i hit his knee... then both of us said sorry... and gosh... he sounded so suave... din stalk him home though... i think stay too far liaoz... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:03 --Link to Post |
| 5.10.03 |
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*awestruck*
piangz... shawn yue damn freaking shuai lor... edward said he preferred edison.. but oh man... shawn yue is like... *mind drifts off to a distant place* yalor... movie is cool lah... quite amazing actually... sometimes such movies make u wonder whether the hk triads really so power annot... never been there... then i think abt the hong kongers i meet during international competitions... they dont seem so huai leh... maybe a little playful... a tad guai lan... like ho chi ho lah... and that new world champ... whose name i keep forgetting... why all so shuai? hiaks! too bad sg team not as drool worthy... muahha... but oh well... cant put all HKGers in one basket and condemn... but someone do enlighten me... is the hk triads really so daring and all??? keke... my craze for today is that i wanna be in the police force... muahaha... think pple reading this must be rolling across the floor... stef??!?!?! police?!?!?!? muahahha... so damn inspired by shawn yue's character lor... wo yao zhuo hao ren... *starts dreaming* but die laioz... whole week never do work... me xia ding jue xin liaoz... i must i must start working hard... must help me ya?? see me in canteen... chase me to library... see me eating... remind me got bread in bag... see me slacking/gossiping/sleeping... shake/slap/wake me and tell me to start using the exercise books i just bot... think me will start going back to sk library to 'hog' seats... and disclaimer hor! i'm not those inconsiderate seat hoggers... not talking abt angel... me talking abt the pple who hog the cafe seats w/o buying anything... but one person take one table... and use 3 chairs... that is kinda overboard... if got nice old couple carrying stuff looking for place to sit... i will carry my kopi and give up the seat for them k??? coz i am hao gong ming.... and!!! i'm not like some rich kid who spends my parents hard earned money on expensive coffee... usually the stuff i have there would probably double up as my lunch/dinner liaoz... and usually i would bet with YC see who reach there first... late person treat... and usually i'll be treated lah... see! must know how to save money... muahhaha... kekke.... time to bathe... and prep myself for horrid results next week... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:34 --Link to Post |
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so happie...
am going to watch infernal affairs... must bring plastic bag to collect my drool... sure got alot.. esp when got edison chen and shawn yue... piangz... din do work this weekend... hiaks! am going with edward... weird rite? just that i'm a person wanting to watch wu jian dao... and he, an ultra bored person... better ciaoz... or else will be late... sayonara! ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:20 --Link to Post |
| 4.10.03 |
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its gonna rain soon...
air feels cold on the skin.. esp with the fan blowing at my back... am seated in front of the PC in the living area... maid's watching suria on the tV... plugged into WMP... tao ze's ji mo de ji jie playing... dunnoe why but it feels comforting... mandarin sucks... dun know wad he's singing... like i actually care... for it gives me a sense of serenity and comfort... song played over to the demo of black tangerine... put the whole album into my PC memory... so i could just play it altogther... rain's starting to fall... could hear the pitter patter on the window pane... the thunder... and see the occasional flash of lightning... am reminded of the times i would just hide under his pillow when i see lightning... and he'll just burst out laughing... before trying to be the all-time sensitive new age guy... telling me its just the thunder... and putting his hands over my ears... am less afraid of lightning and thunder now... i guess when no one's there to cover ur ears for u... u just learn to take it in ur stride... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:41 --Link to Post |
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am feeling better today...
downed painkillers like nobody's business last nite... seriously dun wanna go A&E... fear that place... really... something like tat happened in march actually... i mean that kinda pain... after physics paper... went to doc... din know wads wrong... gave me painkillers... asked me to go a&e if it comes back... it did... but i really dun wanna go... lets just see wads up for me today... running really low on painkillers... not that i'm dependent on it... but doc oni gave me 10 everytime i ask for it... and every month i use at least 3... after yesterdae... i think i'm pretty low... dun worry... i'm not getting a high on painkillers... hate med to much to get hooked... thanks gene for calling last nite... i was feeling ok lah... but somehow... when i lay in bed... the pain seems to go away alot... so couldnt talk long... the comfort of the bed was too enticing... am trying to do some physics now... wish my attention span was longer... ciaoz. ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:00 --Link to Post |
| 3.10.03 |
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am hurting...
i mean literally... pain... i dun know why or how... but its just hurts a freaking lot... the way it hurts when i usually get my cramps... x3 the intensity... but its not due anytime soon... or so i think... freak... feel like puking and all... damn... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:18 --Link to Post |
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am slacking in the ultra cold comp room...
trying to blog and melissa's staring at me... but thats not my point... thing is... and most importantly... i'm wasting valuable time tat i should be directing towards my studies... got maths p2 back liaoz... 70.5... so i guess i wont get my A for maths... something i've alwaz aimed for... man... its like i worked damn hard for this subject... its not having an insatiable greed for good grades... but its just that i've worked... i've failed... output doesnt justify the input... am saddened... but i guess setbacks pave the way for comebacks... Watch out Cambridge... i want an A for the a levels.... sadly... the same cant be said for my other subs... GP really deprove alot alot... jialat... am sad... but i guess.. i'm really way off from current affairs... ive been doing essays of my own accord... handing them up to mr wee like YXY... but i failed it... 24/50... really distant from my highest at 32... disappointed... but i guess i've to accept it... chem has been cold as well... did alot of mCQ... put alot of effort into chem... but output once again... grossly undermined my effort... maybe its my lack of consistent work... maybe its my lack of complete understanding... maybe its the distractions that serve to pull me away from the depths of chem... and into a world of leisure and slumber... work harder for a's... u have to... physics have been pretty surprising so far... am doing better in it compared to chem... and considering the lack of effort in my pursuit of physics excellence... the grades so far have been pretty decent... enough of the complaints... i think i've got to pee... hope physics continues looking good till p3... then i'll probably get a B or something... which is highly unlikely... *keeping fingers crossed though* ----Stef stopped rambling at 11:04 --Link to Post |
| 2.10.03 |
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had pe...
did farnie folk dance... got back physics p2... did okay... doing better in physics than chem... even though physics still sucks... have no idea why... coz i definitely studied harder for chem... was contemplating giving up physics to die... but din... and tried to make amends with last minute cramming which din seem to be of much use... =P mom made me go back to the hairdressers'... felt it too big... it was... kinda regretted cutting it this short also... coz everyone ard are like trying to be tactful and all... when i plainly know it sucks... straightened it abit... rebonding isnt my cup of tea... not much of a diff actually... actually none at all... damn... eat my 40 bucks... din go watch infernal affairs with cass hx den alwin... wasnt feeling too good... and the mom-made-me-go-back-to-the-hairdressers' issue... will sleep abit... and do work... pray that my paper tmr is okay... really praying for an A... but dont think its that possible... so a B will do just fine... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:26 --Link to Post |
| 1.10.03 |
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somehow...
few of my frenz been saying how not nice he is... somehow... cant help but agree with them... after some serious thot... am thinking there's really nuthing great abt him... NUTHING at all... if so... why do i....? i dunnoe... afterall... he's oni human... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:29 --Link to Post |
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jing's fine!!!
yeay... happie... for her... phew... went to TMC to visit her with YC...merser...tabber...merv...yz...hs!!! hehhee... seems like she'll be missing school for a number of days... wish her a speedy recovery!!! after tat went town to buy stuff for ben and william... muahhaha... walked and walked... get farnie stuff... made the guys go into dressing room and model our buys for us... muahhaa... enjoyed myself... though we walked until feet damn pain... sometimes i really wonder whether my gender really female annot... why do i hate stuff that most women love.. *shrugs* i'm fine with shopping actually... just not in love with it... had a honey green tea with pearls... been some time since i last had one... at least 2 years lor... piangz... nice pearls... gene called me when i was at wisma... dot dot dot... was screaming to my pals abt the nemo infoboard... and he was like 'dot dot dot...' now he's starting to call me child... somehow he sounds so holy when he does that... purposely walked by mango at taka... ben L. said it was one of those displays that he did... din go see LV's though... couldnt bear to make my frens walk ard the whole place with me.... alwaz thot mango's displays were pretty cool... i mean it was one of those displays that alwaz catches my attention... even though i dont frequent their boutiques... muahhahah... nice job ben... both the display... and ur occupation... think its ultra cool lor.. man... but if it were up to me... i would die to do displays for toys... and all the pretty stuff... man... it would be a job to die for... but too bad i'm not tat creative a person... bleah... kudos to u, ben L.... but darn... i cant call u ben L either... there's another one in my sch... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:56 --Link to Post |
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