| 25.10.03 |
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one of those days when you rethink your life and kinda wonder where you're heading...
cant deny... long for someone i can actually have and hold... still am waiting for the ONE... amazing the ease of which one can succumb to the lure of an emotionless relationship... but am trying not to... while it's great being loved... i'd rather be alone waiting for the someone i love... than to be loved by someone i'm void of feelings for... sound like i'm justifying my singlehood... i am... thats probably the reason why after the 21 mths with wf... and the other one falling short... i havent been involved with any other person... pple come and go... but not one came close to what i felt with wf... so i guess i'm still waiting... just waiting... spoke to da ant for a short while last nite... poor guy has been sick for a couple of days now... i think its nicer to talk to him when he's sick... sounds mellow-er... and more mature? poor guy has been dragging himself to work... and what not... man... if i'm sick... the first thing i'll be so happie abt is skipping sch! but he has gotta work... even over the weekend! gawd... and i thot he has got a nice slack job... get real! but i guess it just exemplates how responsible he actually is... and the passion he has for his work... both of which i think are very impt qualities in a man... or rather... both of which i know i sorely lack... ant's sweet... imagining someone oni running on 60% efficiency... sounding so weak... trying to entertain me and stuff... and considering i've never been much of a good conversationalist.. both on and off line... i think he might just be trying that hard to keep himself awake... bleah... just take care... drink water... eat med... and stop skipping meals! think there's a flu bug going ard these few days... take care peeps... esp those pia-ing for a levels... dun get ur immune system down... drink lotsa water... and go for jogs! they are good for you! and pple... like we alwaz read in emails and stuff... abt telling pple wat they mean to you... for we dont know what might happen to us the very next day? i love you guys... yesh you... every single one of you... my life would be so different without you pple inside... gawd, i wouldnt even dare imagining... i dont usually show it... but i guess if i were to leave this place for good... the oni thing i fang bu xia would be the pple ard me... =~( ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:58 --Link to Post |
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