| 31.5.03 |
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the elects-organised gathering was pretty good lah...
cant expect too much... but i guess there was food, noise and games... and most importantly... cards to play council's-favourite-outside-school game... bridge... hahha... simply just play and play... did stupid things like truth or dare... got chased ard the condo by the irritating security guards... piangz... cant play anywhere lor... so sad... so just make noise in the house... sent the scholars home... gerald...cherchin...keatwei... crapped truckloads on the way home... first time in my jC life that i see cherchin crapping... singing a pop song... laming... piangz... and threatened him with a scandal that was created today... woohoo! so he has to give me his chem and physics tutorial on monday... or else... whole of 01 will know his scandal... the other council guys planning to tell YXY as well... so he can vouch for me when i do blurt it out... =) nite nite.. havent done any homework... training starts at 12pm tomorrow... till abt 6plus... pengz... i need sleep... but it's either hw or sleep... opportunity cost of doing homework is the lack of sleep.. shall decide tmr... see whether i can wake up first or not... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:29 --Link to Post |
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went to support hockey guys in the morning..
we lost... but i can proudly say... they did a great job.. played a great game... just that certain circumstances din quite allow them to get the first... but still... we are proud of you... damn tired after the cheer support... slept in the mrt on our way to sch... whole council sit along on row of seats... all sleeping... all in yellow tees... quite cool a sight... but really... everyone really burnt out liaoz... couldnt bring myself to miss the gathering tonite... so missed training this afternoon instead... need a break... badly.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:27 --Link to Post |
| 30.5.03 |
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AJC VBALL-1ST IN NATIONALS!
damn freaking happie... cheered our hearts out for them... glad they clinched it... wasnt easy for me to be there.. was actually posted to delta to support another team there... but thing was laoda was playing on the first team... couldnt miss it for the world... was pretty depressed when no one wanted to switch places with me... broke down and all... felt bad... but the tears just started flowing... dunnoe why also... maybe coz i promised laoda liaoz... and felt bad to go back on my word... shishi offered to go for me in the end... feel really horrible... like a spoilt child who cries for an ice cream... =P spirit today was great.. dunnoe whether it was council or that the AJ pple were really great... i think both... but esp the latter... couldnt do it without them... thanx AJ... you were a great sport today... i witnessed the sch spirit that i have been longing to see for a long time... was esp impressed by my klassmates... seriously... can you imagine the level top physics student cheering? or quiet guys that you wouldnt catch cheering actually doing it? i felt heartened... suddenly all the negativity that i have been facing as a councillor seemed insignificant altogether.. it was THAT powerful... thanx lala...yz...alvin...YC...YXY... merv...PC...shan2..angel...BHF... i only saw the first few pple.. but i'm sure all of you there were cheering your guts out... thanx really... seeing you guys cheer really kept me going... i dunnoe how to put it in words... but suddenly... the council cheers sounded so different... =) met serene...bernie...jieying... woohoo! was so happie to see them... simply ran over to them and hugged them... bernie din change... serene still as irritating... and jie still as sweet... miss them alot... decided to chiong gelare on tues... woohoo! ice cream!!!! went to guitar concert with lala... but sat with councillors...qingjun and yz... crapped alot... was pretty good... think qj is pretty nice a person... he's one of those who you dont have to know really well in order to be comfortable with... =) easy to bully also... make him throw rubbish for me... hahaha... feel bad... but oh well... thats me... k k... go bathe liaoz... it's been an exciting day... great job vball-ers... you've brought AJ together... revived the sch spirit... worked the whole crowd... all by playing a beautiful game... well done... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:58 --Link to Post |
| 29.5.03 |
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just came back from gym training...
havent eaten since that pao at 1pm... tao sar pao... piangz... freaking hungry... but decided to eat after my shower... which is abt now... at 10pm!?!??!?! yesh... feel miserable... Event of the day... today's ken's last day in AJ... jisiao-ed him for the last time... he taking the bus back to KL tomorrow... haiz.. will miss having him around... coz he's pretty farnie and cute... oh well... lost one good rockafella dancer... he's pretty good at it... and at other dances too... actually i think the 20th can really dance... but whether they can work or not.. is a big question lah... getting my photos developed... will get to see them when dad comes back with them.. woohoo! for now... it's dinner and my physics tutorial!~!~!~~!~!~! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:58 --Link to Post |
| 28.5.03 |
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beautiful wednesday...
day had lala constantly jisiao-ing me about liking YXY... its NOT true... i just think he's nice.. and that ends there... not including the fact that he can be an ass sometimes... had a statistical lecture for gp... abt how badly my lecture group did in the 1st term... and the recent timed practice... c'mon... i know i got 20/50 for the sucky essay... its a whole 12 mark drop from my highest ever attained... am sad enuff liaoz.. din need a morale basher... haiz... dunnoe wat to do... work hard on my content subs... get BBC... then gp so jialat.. *b|az gives up... took cab down to delta stadium to catch melissa's match... spent 9 bucks just to cheer for 30 mins... whole bunch of us rushed down in 5 cabs... hiakz... will be expecting alot of running ard in cabs over the next few days... esp when i need to go national stadium for training from weird places like delta, CCAB, or toa payoh... tomorrow cheer support again... i dunnoe cheer who.. but i hope it'll be good... events like these will either make or break the council... of coz we're hoping for the former... walked back to sch with keat wei after delta today.... discussed serious stuff with him... realised that he's quite mature in his thoughts... is that a good thing or bad??? sometimes you'll think that people with the most naive and immature thinking are the best off... coz they dont need to think too deeply into things sometimes... i guess... dunnoe where i stand... am going thru a pretty difficult time now... really am training 4 times a week... working my ass off for council... and trying to study hard all at the same time.. i get stressed... i do... but i try not to bring it to sch... just sleep it off at nite... maybe thats why i cant get enough of sleep... sleep with too many things in my mind... cant get proper rest... the next holiday is too far away... haiz... just need one day when i can just sleep at home... recuperate... =P~ ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:08 --Link to Post |
| 27.5.03 |
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=P
long long day today... sch was pretty normal... got into abit of trouble with my maths teacher for not completing my tutorial.. but thats pretty okay... went down to CCAB for the vball semis... had a good time cheering... chun chi was telling me that he feels kinda extra/stupid/you-get-my-point going there to cheer like dat... but told him wad i felt... which was that i was really enjoying myself... and thats all that mattered to me... we look stupid... we may even sound stupid... but at least i know i'm doing my part... had fun crapping with chun chi, charles and the councillors... we're a crazy bunch... we are... =) went to delta stadium after that... for the hockey guys match... was 1-1 when we got there... pretty sad that they missed a penalty... but oh well... think our guys played well... we cheered ourselves hoarse... but its kinds cool actually... to actually turn back and see 'magneto' cheering along... hehehe... he's pretty nice a person lah... but dunnoe the score though... left before the match ended... coz i had to get to national stadium before 1830... took a cab there.... then met sam... went in... got changed... then waited for WQ and andrew... today's routine was more siong.. almost twice of last week's routine... coz have to follow the plan that the S and C coach mapped out for us... piangz... the first exercise of deadlifts gave me jelly legs... dumbells gave me aching arms... rowing... back extensions... and more crap... then the ab work... today's ab work dunnoe why more siong.. though same like last week's but it was more painful... maybe coz andrew asked me to pull my legs back more... and the med ball twists... *b|az faints... but despite the extent of today's training.. finished relatively early... woohoo! arrived home like almost 2145... siong... by the time eat dinner... 2215... now's 2300... and i'm just done with my bath... how am i to do my work!?!??! first step: get off the internet!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:27 --Link to Post |
| 26.5.03 |
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was looking through my cupboard just the other day..
stumbled upon this folder of neoprint books... flipped thru... and was thinking all about my secondary sch days... all the bball team neoprints... where 8/12/16 of us will just squeeze into that teeny rectangle... and take the neoprint... my klassmates... how we fought to get the best position... and our act chio buay chio poses... collected some of their neoprints with their boyfriends and all.. remember all the gossip we put these pple through... then flipped to my most treasured book... we took lotsa neoprints together... most of the time is i dragged him there one... he's quite tanned too... i guess its the long journeys on the motorbike... esp his arms... which i remember to be really strong despite his skinny frame... that book was so important to me... kept it in my sch bag... and peeped in often enough to warrant me psycho... although i see him everyday... it's like suddenly think of him... then want something to look at... its unexplainable.. and thats how some pple define love... on hindsight.. its sounds more like infatuation... but i'm pretty sure we were over tat... my frenz liked him pretty much... so did my parents... i dunnoe why... but i guess it was his down-to-earth nature... he wasnt tat smart... but he seemed to know everything that needs to be known... he could fix up my PC... he could advise me abt life.. he could see my shortcomings... he just seemed so worldly-wise... something that sparked my admiration for him... he was really someone i could depend on... he wasnt well-to-do... nor brought up in a happy family... but i guess these kinda made him the mature person he was... he was that different from me... so i believed that opposites attract... we had our differences... but they alwaz end up resolved and placed behind us... i guess tats the beauty of it all... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:31 --Link to Post |
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hate mondays...
so many breaks... just end up eating and eating.. quite terrible.. coz aint doing much during my morning PE... and i'm excused from afternoon PE... gym trainings in the weekdays oni served to give me aching muscles... and you cant really lose fat by sailing... i should simply eat less lor.. i think thats the best way out... got terrible results for my essay... 20/50... gosh... worst ever... totally screwed the whole thing up by misinterpretatingt the word endeavour... really need to do something for my GP... cant afford to let it go down like tat... it really is very important... was really very tired the whole day... just felt like sleeping... during all the lectures... haha... haiz... sleepy me just wanna sleep... pig huh... i think so too... was in CR while the rest had PE... hahaha... hafiz was there advising one of my councillors abt love... and i was happily sitting there... nodding my head... or threatening to smash theirs whenever a sexist comment was made... hahah... was trying to finish freecell #208... quite difficult... din get it solved... cut hair yesterdae... now so short that i cant tie everything up... grr... but it sure feels lighter... woohoo! k k.... will go crappy stuff now... nitez! ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:17 --Link to Post |
| 25.5.03 |
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after much consideration this morning...
decided to pon today's training... anyway andrew couldnt make it to train us today.. SK's sick... looney's back injured... qi's kinda put off by the horrid weather... oni dilemma was that sam will be training alone if i dont go... but more complications turned up... am down with horrid cramps... so gave surfing today a miss... need the break badly... but... couldnt stay at home... really really wanted to watch Matrix Reloaded... went to PS with cy... woohoo!!! the fight scenes were great... though i had trouble comprehending the movie... and i was busy drooling at neo and his cool moves... piangz... that guy can really fight... i dont know how cheorographed it actually was... but he looked damn good... took bus back home... stood up for the whole hour long journey... got seats... but stupid me decided to act strong... somemore was travelling the whole journey backwards... felt like puking at the end of it all... and the cramps... gosh... hate it... came back home... slept for abt an hour... was super tired... dunnoe coz of the bus or the movie... woke up to eat dinner... and celebrate my sis's birthday... ice cream cake was superb... dunnoe why they jacked up the price so much... 40 bucks for a teeny cake... up from the previous 30... hmmm.. but it was nice... yummy... had the frozen strawberry... it was sour... but it tasted good with cream... am tempted to buy a box of strawberries... and some Equal sweetener... pretend i'm lazing by the pool... diping the berries into a bowl of Equal... woohoo! thats life! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:45 --Link to Post |
| 24.5.03 |
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kinda reminded me of how my dad blew up when he found out...
that i was lying to him... never seen him so angry before... it was so terrible... he din speak to me for days on end... and the final straw came when HE tried to send me something by post... dad even threatened to wreck him... just held back all infomation of him... hoping that the storm will blow away soon... it was sad... but it was my fault... he didnt react like tat when i told him abt wf... i think i was honest... so he didnt mind... but i was 'fraid he couldnt accept blaz... didnt think he ever could... but keeping him a secret was the wrongest decision i have ever made... maybe if i was more open abt him... things would be a little different... but i darent think any further... i'm happie now... i am... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:34 --Link to Post |
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got to sch at abt 1010 in the morning...
hehehe... very chiong ah... kinda gan cheong... coz timing very crucial today... oni like 10 mins to eat... 10 mins for the rest to change into formal attire... luckily i oni need to do carpark duty... most slack one... duty finish go blk 4 play risk... damn shiok... played two rounds... was winning both rounds... but had to keep coz got stuff to do... really fun lah... first round i allied with cyndi... go bully charles... then second round played with ken, clarence, chun chi and jiaen... din realise all guys also... until the others were jisiao-ing me... hehee... dunnoe why... but it was one of the most interesting games of risk i have ever played... really... you should hear their strategies... wow... you'll never think of them lor... ken's leaving for another scholarship in malaysia... kinda like our reuben last year... he's been a great junior... although i younger than him... you can feel the respect he gives you... and thats a nice feeling... was doing carpark duty with him, kailun and a badminton player from 1602... hehehe... kinda crapped alot with them... and my so-called-twin from my junior council... and ms ong and mr arthur lim from PE dept... they damn farnie lah... so my whole day was pretty cool actually... dug into the buffet reception after everything... the food was okay... but everyone simply loved the kueh-pie-tee... shiok leh... just stood there and filled all the biscuit cups with prawns, nuts and turnips... woohoo! think the bulk of us enjoyed ourselves... took photos... cheered... and cheered somemore... we were a rowdy bunch... but after all the hard work... i think its oni rite that we go crazy abit... gang left to chiong AJ Ice... but left for a extended family gathering at sakae suntec... spent like 1 hr circling the suntec carpark with my dad for a lot... so oni joined them like pretty late... still had my favourite tofu... yummy salmon... spft shelled crabs... woohoo! i felt like a glutton... went to the fountain of wealth with my family... have you ever seen a father splash water at his children!?!??! my dad did just that... wah lau... then we splash back... walked out of the fountain area wet... haha... kinda avoided looking at the guard in the eye... hehehe... ate soft yogurt too... was just too yummy to resist... had mine with sunflower seeds... nice... so scary... was near the foodcourt... when this mother slapped her daughter's boyfriend... din stay ard to look... but it sure looked scary... kinda pulled my parents away... better leave them alone... i'm sure the young couple is feeling uncomfy enuff... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:33 --Link to Post |
| 23.5.03 |
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still cant understand how the world works...
and why some people in it are so... ...irresponsible... day kinda sucked... went 'round chasing pple for proposals... being the bad guy... i had no choice... sometimes feel like washing my hands off this loan shark like job... almost did today... but made sure i did my best before i left for home... went to compass point to buy a CD for my sis... she likes this taiwanese rapper... hope she likes it... coz she's really into him... just that she never really got down to buying his CD... maybe it can help improve her chinese... was having starbucks with lala... total brain freeze... but it was shiok... the weather is really killing me... way too hot for my liking... really felt kinda sick on the way home... but the frappacino did wonders for me... the wonders of caffein! know you'll be reading this lala... really appreciate that you shopped with me even though you had to rush home for cell group... love going home with ya... the sky's purple today... really cool... i dont know abt you.. but nature often does things to make my sucky day feel good again... at least the purple sky made me smile again.... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:10 --Link to Post |
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did the 2.4 km run liaoz...
finally the whole napfa is done with.. pretty happie... coz i think i got a gold... i hope... if all goes well... did a 13:05 today... for the 2.4... my best so far... coz was wearing weiding's watch... forgot to bring a digital... but having one helped loads... kept each round within 2:10.... was dying... but told myself it'll be the last PFT i would need to do... unless i really go serious into the sport... then will have to undergo killer tests... andrew said he, meng, and jon puked at their tests... imagine.. big burly grown men... puking?!?!?? and that they dont believe in sexual discrimination... gosh.. i pray... pretty long day today... sch ended pretty early at 1300... but stayed back to do some work with lala angel mervin and merser... mervin and merser left us... but alvin and shan shan joined us later... had a crappy time... even though we were in the library... we were the kind who could just burst out laughing just by looking at one another... reached national stadium at ard 1835... andrew wasnt coming.. but WQ and sam were going to be late... coz they went over from the beach... session today was interesting.. arms, abs kinda hurt alot... esp my abs... did the lowers abs, crunches, med ball twists, static hold... gosh.. the worse part of training is the ab work man... but wad the trainer said was true... the ab is the core... the performance of the other parts of your body... kinda depends alot on it... alot of national teams were there today... TKD, netball, shooting, weightlifting.. wah liew... looking at them train kinda makes you self concious... =P felt so so weak... argh... need to get down to work laioz... was watching AI... happie that ruben won... he's great.. but so was clay... love them both... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:00 --Link to Post |
| 21.5.03 |
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realised that i'm not strong enough...
esp emotionally... went into my daddy's car... din wanna bother him with my stuff... kept dead silent... until he asked me whats wrong... then i just burst out crying... think the stress is crushing me... simply dunnoe wat to do... dad says the prb with me lies in my expectation of the pple ard... that i must understand that no one's perfect... they do horrible things... but thats a fact... something i have to accept... pray that God gives me strength to pull through... if there's two things i really need now is mental resilience and sleep... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:08 --Link to Post |
| 20.5.03 |
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had a good day with lala and angel...
hahhaa.... just crapped and crapped... laughed until my abs really hurt... more than when i do sit ups... hehehe... stupid way to work your abs... but i think it works... =) left sch at abt 5... reached national stadium at ard 6... first proper training at Kallang Athletes Training Centre... though i'm not much of an athlete... piangz... then get to see all the pro pro pple... discus thrower...James Wong? some taewondo national team??? or were they youth team? some weight lifters... and this guy was wearing our blue/yellow... probably some ex-AJCian... so cool... that he still wears it... wah liew... the full training routine is damn siong... warm up routine already cramp up legs liaoz... but the thing is... its not really the panting kinda siong... but really siong on the muscles... especially their ab work... coz the fitness trainer design the routine for specific sports.... and for windsurfing... he made us concentrate on the legs...arms...back and abs... hmm... thats abt everything... oh well... worked out for two whole hours... coz they're pretty strict abt technique... and die die also must wait 90secs between sets... grrr... dont think i can watch AI on thursday liaoz... today damn stupid... was pushing sam ard after training... our usual childish pranks... then he gave me one huge shove once... wasnt prepared... piangz... sent me flying... literally... pengz... that idiot! damn freaking strong lor... so kinad scrapped abit of my palm and my knees... file flew too.. so my tutorials kinda green with the chlorophyll from the grass... will take revenge someday... maybe plant a frog in his bag... i'm THAT vindictive... trust me... arrived home at abt 1030... haiz... dunnoe how i'm going to keep up with this... lucky today not much homework... i dunnoe i thursday how man... die die die... parents kinda shocked when i stepped in at that time... 1030 on a sch day is kinda rare from me... even council only keeps me till 9 plus at max... will just have to try to manage.. think the fact that i'll get to see more of my ouxiangz in the gym will inspire me even more... add oil add oil! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:38 --Link to Post |
| 19.5.03 |
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lotsa homework today...
so must get down to it soon... was dancing all the council dances with the crappy pple of SC after sch... it was great lah... crapping.. laughing... total rubbish... but got my mind off the stress abit... was glad... dunnoe why today just seem to click better with them than ever before... maybe its the elects' camp??? hhehe... was crapping alot with alwin lai... abt him owe-ing me a treat coz i got higher than him for chem... kena chased ard the CR and finally into the female toilet for refuge by YH... stupid guy... came after me with a pen... trying to draw on me... after he caught me drawing on alwin lai's paper... played wu zi qi with chunyen, jiaen and gerald... won je okie??? wah lau... win the chinaman... dun play play... crapped alot with lala and gang also... overall day was ultra crappy... temperature taking was real cool... how often do you see each other with something like tat stuck out of your mouth??? and everybody just waiting for the beep... muahaha... damn farnie... had a great day... and hope everyone reading this did too... oh yah.. ate alot today... din get to run the 2.4 i wanted to... test on thurs... die liaoz... really hope to get a A... but realised its not easy... esp when i havent trained on stamina like for weeks??? past few weeks andrew focused alot on strength and conditioning... no endurance... no more 5.5 km... or his fav 7km split into two... he just comment tat my and qi's fitness level is pretty horrid... true... but i'm working on it... if i do spot another cute guy running ard my estate... i'll be the first to rush down sia... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:32 --Link to Post |
| 18.5.03 |
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supposed to wake at 8 to do homework...
couldnt wake up... slept until 9 plus, almost ten... piangz... never do anything... went to beach pretty early today... needed to patch up my lovely sail... but i think it was a job well done lah... even sam commented that i did a good job... at least the hole din sag like it did on his... mine flat flat sui sui one... woohoo! maybe i should go into business of sail patching... lucrative leh... but slid my right index finger over the torn myla... piangz... cut my finger... almost like paper cut... damn deep... no blood... but can see the inside.. gross... at least 3 layers of skin sliced... pain... but bo pian... continued training... today andrew damn freaking fierce... so scary... scold wanqi until very jialat... he also got scold me lah... but not as bad... he kept asking me to change my stance... but the stance that he wants me to have hurts my left ankle alot alot... coz its sprained like dunnoe how many tens of times... so my port upwind cant use his method... once i change starboard side then my right ankle okay... then he stop scolding me liaoz... he kept saying that we fitness damn low... pump also cannot pump properly... but me already trying my best liaoz... fel into the water alot of times today... first time i really dont care abt falling in... but doing everything the proper way... instead of the usual play-safe chicken gybes and stuff... proud of my gybes today... wind was quite strong... but i din overpower... and could scoop pretty adequately... think me even gybe faster than sam... woohoo! thats a feat... dunnoe wads with sam today... as if he just learnt new word... 'b * t C h' started going ard saying it over and over again... pengz... but in a i-dont-mean-it way lah... still got me chasing after him like a mad dog... qi left early today... so left me and sam... stretched down together... piangz that guy... he damn obsessed with stretching lor... think he trying to get all those muscles out.. but he damn skinny leh... so abit no point... crapped loads with him lah... so far he's been a great guy lah... until he laughed while eating oreos today... totally lost image... came home after dinner... battery totaly flat liaoz... dunnoe how am i going to embark on my homework... or how i'm gonna wake up tmr... die... k k... try to find my homework now.. ciaoz.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:32 --Link to Post |
| 17.5.03 |
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sch ended at 7pm today...
on a sat!?!?!? yeah... kinda... the so-called 'elects' camp'... really lor... first time i had to raise my voice at anyone... but seriously... sometimes you can only get your point across when you are fierce... know many of them taken aback by our approach... but it's for their own good... might even get a few pple starting to hate me and a few others who were the 'evil ones'... but if it does change them for the better... i really dont mind... coz they're going to become the 20th SC... we need the best... just hope our approach can work the rite way... super tired liaoz... coz i was station master for one of the most dangerous games... wah lau... when they go thru the obstacle ah... my heart really stop beating for minutes on end lor... just really scared that they drop the poor person from the stretcher they constructed... *pengz* really... just scared ah... my fellow SC were so worried that we really tekkan them during debrief ah... not that we enjoyed it... but really... we had to... grace lost her voice liaoz... i'm still going strong man... but really hate it when i have to behave out of character... just feel like evil personified... went for dinner with family... our fav peranakan dining spot damn freaking crowded... even the main branch was terribly packed... ended up in a farnie seafood restaurant in clementi.. paid 85 bucks for normal fare that would usually cost us less than 40bucks in a coffeeshop zhu cao... *pengz* was a terrible experience... just swore not to return... dunnoe why that place still so crowded... dad alwaz brings us to the wrong-est places to eat... the previous time he suggested something new... got us bleah-ing too... eeks... dad got lousy taste... with food... or else my mum with come after me... short entry today... too tired to write more... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:50 --Link to Post |
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dear ILoveAjc,
hope you'll be reading this... coz i stayed up to write this for you... under the freezing aircon... wrote one just now... but wasnt posted successfully... lost it... haiz... sad... coz it was a true expression of wad i really felt... but one of my most important points in that lost entry... i had 5 parts to it... was that i wasnt going to allow you to undermine council like dat.. i may have offended you with my speech in the morning for my klass' SL project... but i was in no way representing council... thing is... there are pple in SC working their guts out for pple like you... and more unappreciative pple out there... 'why do they do this??? for the CCA points? it aint alot...i can tell you... for the limelight? negative one you mean... i dont think so... these are people who have given up their As... their 4th subject... their personal lives... their time... their sleep... we're fine if it doesnt work for you... coz it did for some... and that is enuff for us... whether you like it or not... we are striving towards what we believed in... and are still believing... and just FYI... we have great lives outside council... might only be me lah.... w/o a proper life... weekends burnt out at the beach and sea... but most of us are happily eating, shopping, dating, studying, enjoying our life... maybe even more than you do... i'm not sorry for being irksome... we just enjoy being ourselves and getting pple to join us as well... if it bothers you and your friends that much.. i do suggest that you get a life... rather than come around reading my crappy blog... i bet your time is more precious than that... an alternative is to 'bear' with us a little longer... we oni have 10 weeks left in office and a new council steps in... maybe they'll irk you even more??? oops! i guess thats just too bad... and if you're the artist who drew the beaver and left it at blk 4... would like to congratulate you on a great drawing... had us in stiches laughing... its still on our internal notice board... do drop by to see it sometime... cheers! stef ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:08 --Link to Post |
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tried very very hard to stay awake during lectures today...
even slipped off the table and jerked myself awake... din mean to be rude to the lecturer... but been having this sleep disorder since sec sch... sleep when i dont want to... and cant sleep when i want to... din help that i was dead tired the day before... and the lack of sleep really brought everything together... had a terrible time during tutorials... day damn humid... really struggling lor... just perspiring away... *pant* but made do with tissue paper and lotsa water... ate alot today also... darn! whats happening to the diet i'm supposed to be on??? the guys on my team are supposed to be carbo-loading... not me! but i happily use it as excuse to eat... woohoo! had a great time decorating the klass notice board with the klass today... felt good that most pple stayed back together to do crappy stuff... ended up crapping with YXY abt how a hibiscus should look like... irritating each other... well... think he's a BIG crapper... but also an amazing person at that... went ard whole sch... games set up... rushing out proposals... meeting mr pat lim... alot of changes for EC... just broke down and cried... worse thing... SC stuff supposed to be internal... cant even talk to anyone abt it... know how it feels when you bottle everything inside then just cant let it out... terrible know... dad was really nice today.. hearing me out and all... driving me home... just telling me not to cry... that i must learn to accept such setbacks and all the yucky pple in the world... i think he's the best... he's against me being in SC, yesh... but he never fails to save me when i fall into depression... played abit of bball with Clarence... until abt 7 plus... suay suay kena locked out of SC... piangz... but he was damn nice lah... although he could have left me in the lurch... his bag just beside window... can grab... he waited with me for cass... who had to come back all the way from orchard... love her man... really... appreciate them alot... ate dinner with them... and came back home to more dinner... piangz... i feel like a pig... well... i think i am... msg-ed mr lim just now... glad to have a encouraging sms back... forwarded it to my whole adhoc... hope they feel inspired by it... will be logging off soon... after my entry in italics... go get sleep for tmr... nite! ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:03 --Link to Post |
| 15.5.03 |
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Physical State: EXHAUSTED
Mental State: DEAD =P woke up pretty early today... met the rest of the council outside AJ today... then split up to recce the route for elects' camp... kinda glad at the turn out... though some din come... i'm sure they had their reasons... i hope... had fun though... need to recce the area ard woodlands road... all the way down to upper bukit timah road... woohoo! so took MRT to woodlands... where gerald sweetly treated me to BK... dunnoe why he so nice recently... yesterday treat cc, aud and me to barley at S11... then took bus to causeway... then start walking... splited with gerald's grp... was with alwin, clarence, deb, joycelyn, ruth... hehhe... but was more with the guys lah... i think i click better with da council guys... somemore the log comm too nu ren for me liaoz... but still... had fun as a whole... walked a total of 3 hrs... pretty cool... except that elects' camp walk is gonna be at least 3 times of that... muahahha!! sadistic me, just relish the thought of torturing the poor JC1s... i had a good time ji-siao-ing alwin lai... hehehe... he looks damn ke ai when teased... met up with family at sunplaza... nice them came to pick me up to go temple visiting together... heheh... realised i'm pretty weird... visit churches on gd friday... then temples on vesak day... *pengz* ya... the temple i went to was pretty big... so they had thermal scanners at the entrances as a preventive measure against SARS... first time me getting scanned... hehehe... came back home... watched talentime VCD... the event i was really proud of... woohoo! laughed at the funny moments again... mini-me... 'wah...gao ah!' and all the crappy stuff... smiled at the sweet moments... am totally proud i was part of it.. glad... missing american idol just so i can blog this... and do abit of hw later.. but seriously am too tired... dunnoe how... dont do hw again? =P will get killed man... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:11 --Link to Post |
| 14.5.03 |
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stressed...
seriously... elects' camp is getting on my nerves... though i'm not formulating the proposals... have been staying up late with those doing them to print for them at the end of it all... kinda tired... tmr hol also no rest... recce 30+ km route for hike... not walking the whole of it... but it'll take up whole morning liaoz... afternoon go with family to temple.. almost broke down just now... broke news to parents that i got recce tmr... then they kinda blasted at me... at council for doing something on a public holiday... seriously... we bo pian... somemore i IC... cannot say dont go rite??? we are already tight on schedule... alot of restrictions... seriously... the last thing i needed just now was them to raise their voice at me... i really had enuff of crap for the day liaoz... need a break badly... but dunnoe where to get it from... mentally...physically...psychologically tired... met up with mr paul tham regrading AJ Ideas today... glad the results are back... hope that our batch can do SOMETHING abt the canteen prb... we're trying... went for dinner with cherchin, audrey and gerald after everything... ate zhu chao... it was interesting lah... one of the few whom i wont eat with usually... i had a gd dinner... oni that i have to come home to more food... but felt obliged to eat with the scholars... considering the meeting i called... was one of the reasons they missed dinner at hostel... they were sweet pple... waiting with me for the bus before it came... though it wasnt long till it did... the fact that they pei me until then was sweet enuff liaoz... =) just wished my parents would be more supportive of wat i am doing... it may be taking alot of my time... but it is wad i ran for.. its my responsibilty towards the college... it is that important to me... dont think i will give up council for anything else... if i were to choose... i would rather quit wsf-ing than council... i have a duty towards council.. a passion... a fire... and i wont let it burn out until the end of term... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:30 --Link to Post |
| 13.5.03 |
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day today was ultra hot again..
actually it's very difficult for us to keep awake and pay attention when the classrooms are so hot... actually hot is okay... but the humidity... argh... struggling... trying... just voted my 10 votes for the 20th council... yeappie... councillors got 10 votes... woohoo! hope the results will be good tmr... sat beside YXY for physics today... crapped with him loads... and found him to be a really nice person... even tried to motivate me to work harder... telling me his studying strategy... he's the IDIOT who scored 88% in the previous physics test... feel inspired yes... but just cant materialise... still am pretty appreciative of his effort... he's my ou xiang lah... really... went to compass point with lala... ate hot dogs and had my fav OrangePineapple original... bought tea eggs for my bro.. nonya kueh for granny... and soya beancurd for my grandpa... and pressed some money out for myself... kinda broke liaoz... esp after the bingeing on hot doggies with lala... talked abt loads of stuff with her today... love going home with her... just have loads of fun... and the day wont seem that gloomy afterall... we DO gossip... i must admit... but we talk abt loads of intellectual and stuff with depth too okie??? heheh... correct lala? been having loads of farnie dreams recently... hmm... let's see.. dreamt of cy... then dunnoe why it diverted to wf... all sorts of funnie things happen... but it seem so real... cant really remember wad it was... but i was damn happie that it happened... oni to wake up and realise its just a dream... does that mean i'm dissatisfied with my life now??? maybe... but i really dunnoe... somehow when i think abt it conciously... i feel that my life's pretty good rite now... at least i dont sit and brood and think wad went wrong.. in fact... dont think i gave myself any chance to sit and brood anyway... i'm a happie girl... or so i think... i've got a supportive family... great frenz/classmates/council/team-mates... a fulfilling sch life if not for the lousy grades... wsf-ing's going fine other than the fact i'm behind the rest... it IS a blissful life actually... and no way i'm going let a dream/person/object/issue take that happiness away from me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:05 --Link to Post |
| 12.5.03 |
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wah lau!!!
the weather damn freaking hot... cannot stand it... gosh... whole day just steaming in the hot grey shirt... =P actually nuthing much to say today... just that had a long elects' camp meeting... alot of changes... stressed... but bo pian have to continue... met lunnie today too... to pass him the after sun that i think he really needs... he's not THAT red lah... think i disappointed him by not dragging angel along... hehhe... too bad for him... k k... will go get a good bath... then it'll be homework time! ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:15 --Link to Post |
| 11.5.03 |
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=~(
ultra sad today... my baobei tore quite badly... was totally ripped lor... piangz... coz we went out quite far into the open sea... then got this beacon... those big yellow ones... we call it FERRY... coz all the beacons got name one... and it was a international beacon... current was damn strong... fell in... sail got stuck againt the beacon... couldnt pull it away... was just too strong for me... andrew din help me somemore... just kept scolding me... maybe its true that he couldnt help me... but the incessant scolding din help... i really snapped at him lor... din care that he was my coach... if someone was to scold me for the wrong reasons... i would disregard the person's seniority and just attack back lor... he was like... "next time...do something fast instead of sitting on your board and dilly-dallying..." i slammed my boom end into the water and did a fierce tack... went to him... "i WASNT sitting on my board!!! neither was i dilly-dallying!!!" i think he was taken aback... liew... even if he decides to sack me... i cant be bothered liaoz... sail tear until like that... beyond repair lor... haiz... its my baobei leh... damn sad... really... i already have enuff reasons to keep me away from training liaoz.. 1. failing grades... 2. parental objection... 3. coach who doesnt give debriefs... amazingly enuff...he gave us one today... now... a torn sail... argh... my board took a slight knock too... chipped a little at the side... grr... argh!!! did alot of tacking and gybing today... quite happie with my gybing though... sunk the tail pretty well... could manage even though the wind picked up a little at the end... woohoo! din do any planning today... was just too little wind... sad sad sad... had a good dinner with my family though... hope my mom had a lovely mothers' day... and starbucks... caramel and mocha fraps... and the guy who took my order was really cute!!! he was like really frenly... 'so...what can i get you? =)' 'do you want whipped cream with it? =)' 'not a problem! =)' 'so who's having wat? =)' he ended everything with a smile... kinda made my day... not that he was cute... but you know how nice it is to have someone serve you with a smile? ya... plus the fact that he's cute... plus the nice family dinner... it kinda made me forget abt my lousy day... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:26 --Link to Post |
| 10.5.03 |
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had a really eventful day today...
so exciting that i dunnoe where to start... so will start in a chronological fashion... boring... but bear with me... maths test was okay... but had a few careless mistakes that will cost me big... just hope i can just pass... dont think i can keep an A.... then went for breakfast with the bunch from the klass... hah.. had a good morning i guess... went to national stadium for our introductory gym session with that ang moh strength and conditioning coach... woah... i tell you... it's a real eye-opener... though it's no wonder gym like the one you see at somerset... it's kinda small... but the stuff they make you do are damn professional... got a training sheet to tell you wat you need to do... how many sets... and all... damn cool... really lor... got difference leh... after gym today... it wasnt as tiring as andrew's training... but you really feel stronger... the angmoh damn particular abt how much we bend our knees... whether we stick out our butt... and the proper technique... was surprised when he corrected me with a 'wahlau...so bad...' hahha... but he quite fierce actually... after that got the high performance thingy... where sg sailing spoke abt their plans for 2008 olmypics... abit fei... so was dozing off throughout the whole thing... spoke abt sports school too... damn cool leh... the facilities and all... the boarding sch... harry potter feeling and all... but too bad it's a sec sch... muahhaha... went out with cy today... for dinner and abit of grocery shopping... groceries??? yeah... he needed supplies for camp... and me, food for trg tmr... it was good seeing him again after so long... he changed alot... lost alot of weight... really... hehhee... =) bumped into eugene's family on our way home today... oh my gosh... he's my bro's best fren... but i din know his bro so... so....dude! lor... *b|az faints... hehehe... lucky i nice to eugene... teach him maths for free... hehehe... put in a good word for me leh... mauhahaha... =P told lala.... then she ask me... wh and sam how? heheh... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:14 --Link to Post |
| 9.5.03 |
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sleepy day again...
dunnoe why so tired also... but just am... haiz... went to BK to eat and study with lala and YC and william... heheh... crapped alot... but learnt quite abit also... corrected some of my concepts... so pretty glad... well... happie that YC stuck ard with me after lala went off... dunnoe what i'll do without him... ...answering all my stupid questions... and correcting me where i went wrong... hope i can do tmr's test... actually we just practised vectors and complex #s... die liaoz... the other topics i really all dunnoe... die die die... better go continue my quest... must study hard... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:21 --Link to Post |
| 8.5.03 |
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did the announcement thingy today...
so this marks the last time i'm making annoucement for the SARS project... woohoo! actually though the 'speech' sounded a tad idealistic... i mean every word of it... ....We end this project with hearts warmed, values affirmed and pride of being an AJCian reinforced. Thank you for making a difference in our lives and in that of our heroes. Non mihi solum. =) did napfa 5 items today... like i said the other day... i really need a gold badly... for my team promotion into national level.. should it be possible in oct... managed a C for the broad jumps after abt 4-5 tries... phew... got a mix of Bs and As in the rest... so just hoping that 2.4 run wont screw up... then i'll be pretty fine... woohoo! watched x-men... woohoo! it was power... esp nitecrawler... totally awesome! ask weihao and weisong... who were beside me during the movie... piangz... i was like so excited when each of the mutants did their stuff... nitecrawler!!! my ou xiang!!! the effects so power somemore... woohoo! collected the photos we took yesterdae lioaz... was smiling from ear to ear while looking at it on the way back... glad i was taking the informal shots... coz it was just so fun/nice/sweet... it was wonderful... had to keep this short... wanna watch American Idol... woohoo! clay! reuben!!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:13 --Link to Post |
| 7.5.03 |
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took council fotos today after school...
it was great... i dunnoe why... but we got really hyped after GM today... and suddenly it felt really cool to have everyone with us... sweating in our white shirts and blazers... end of SARS project today... it has been great.. making thank you announcement tomorrow... hope i am calmer than the previous time... now go bathe... got lotsa work to do... nite nite... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:34 --Link to Post |
| 6.5.03 |
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but oh yah...
forgot to blog something that the VJ prez who was stepping down said... went something like... "priorities of a councillor arent as simple as the food nutritional pyramid... they are forever switching places in different times......" family.. academic... council... friends... windsurfing... hit really close to heart... coz it was so darn true... like when we neared promos... we threw everything else aside... just to study... when got orientation or like my talentime... we threw all our tutorials aside and did what we had to do... it was tough... but we pulled through... going for VJ invest today... it made me feel good abt myself again... coz of the way they were praising councillors... felt as if i gave up so much... dont know how much of that applies to me... but at least i am reassured that council wasnt a wrong choice... despite wad my dad, team-mates, coach, friends say... at least.. now.. i know its worth every bit... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:48 --Link to Post |
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day today was pretty interesting...
coz alot of changes at the very last minute... went to VJC in the end for their council invest... met up with ching... talked alot with her... and decided to watch matrix reloaded with her and our bball gang... been some time since we all last met up... maybe hopefully we can get tix for MR? yeay! glad to see her... made me glad that i went to VJ for the invest... the hall was super hot... and me in my blazer... it was horrid... just perspiring like nobody's business... hot!!! was impressed by the sch spirit there... something we can never achieve in AJ... its simply not in the culture... elects' camp proposals late again... sometimes i kinda dunnoe how to react... i am angry... but i tell myself they have their reasons... so i'll end up contradicting myself when i confront them.... and sound like a total hypocrite... argh... hate it.... not easy being IC... stuck between the teacher and your adhoc... sux... did my worst essay i ever written... really dunnoe what i'm writing ya know... think me went totally out of point... darn... mr wee's gonna kill me man... dunnoe how i'm going to survive... just bought white blouse... it aint really the correct kind... but cant be bothered liaoz... just need one super badly!!! argh!!! k k... will get going... super tired... and super alot of things to do... help!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:41 --Link to Post |
| 5.5.03 |
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hmm...
day was just okay lah... lala was angry with me at one certain point of time... but everything evened out fine when she just HAD to ask me for graph paper during the test... woohoo! the power of having graph paper during physics practicals... hehee.... splinter in heel is horrid... was limping ard the whole sch today... pain... went doc just now... couldnt get anything out... i really dunnoe whether its psychological only or wat... but it hurts!!! the doc poke poke poke... until bleed... hate blood... thats why i totally cannot take biology... argh!!! now i cant find my white shirt for fornal events... darn! tmr might need to go VJC for invest... but may not go... so see how... but wed got phototaking... darn... get me that white shirt!!! the last time i took it out was for the ODACians when they needed to do ushering... now i cant rem whether i got it back... darn! hope i'll just find it in my locker tomorrow... i pray man! k k... shall go and get some work done... oh yeah... i need to write another annoucement for the SARS campaign... might go up to the scary place again tmr... wish me best... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:01 --Link to Post |
| 4.5.03 |
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argh!!!!
super bad mood today... i dunnoe why really... but kinda had two sucky days of training... alwaz no wind... gusty wind... then i alwaz cannot move... andrew will happily just come... wheezing past with wearn haw in his boat.. then just scolding me for not pumping... argh!!! i am pumping lor... i am pumping hard... i am trying my best... so for once... i would really appreciate that he'll get off my back and tell me what i am doing wrong... instead of just telling me to pump... there must be a reason why the rest can pump better than i do... i dont wanna be just a moderate wind specialist... i hate it... when the whole pack of them is in front... and i cannot catch up... thing is... i'm really trying my best... really... i never pumped till my arms ached like that before... i was really damn pissed with andrew... i almost scolded him... almost cried... but wearn haw was there... cannot make him lose face... but thats not it... its like its been two days w/o a proper debrief... sucky thing... andrew alwaz rush off to chiong with wh... damn angry lor... here i am... using my weekend break to train like some earnest ass... but he cant even give us a debrief?!?!?! i mean thats basic for every training squad lor... he damn own-time-own-target... we slack he scold us... he slack what we do... sit and fret??? i feel like emailing him and blasting him... but he's my coach after all... i need to respect him... did alot of tacking and gybing drills when the wind picked up... it was siong... but i guess it wasnt as bad as the windless sailing... wind picked up to almost 16-18 knots... then we started planning... that was shiok... really... i was skimming across the water at top speed... tried to jump a couple of times... but the waves aint high enuff... it sorta perked me up... from the lousy day... =) i'm a little better lah... but wasnt very nice to family... had dinner with them after training... guess i was venting my anger on them... started to pick on my siblings... its bad... but its subconcious... really... feel bad yesh... but i cant help it... luckily they're understanding enough to brush it off... i hope they know i'm sorry... i'm just very tired... and very pissed... hope i'll just sleep it off tonite... something in the water poke me in the heel yesterdae... i had to pluck it out... din see wad was it... but its starting to hurting like hell in the hole... pain... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:37 --Link to Post |
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soOOoo happie!!!
managed to get the song last nite... but i think the version that the american idols finalists sung is kinda nice too... i want that!!! but the jackie deshannon one is pretty great... just totally totally in love with the song... woke up at abt 0930 today... actually to do homework... but you see... i've been all over the whole house... reading the papers.. fixing my breakfast... blogging... toileting... havent done any homework!!! darn! heck... have to start studying for maths anyway... yucky thing... oh yah... have to start training for my napfa test man... really NEED to get a gold.. i think it'll help in the carding of my team... but then... but broad jump sux... my sit ups sux... my sit and reach sux... in fact... EVERYTHING sux... haiz... will try harder... hopefully can fly over the broad jump mat on thurs... there can be miracles... when you believe... ooh yeah... going for training later... there will be more scolding... more laughing... more pain... more muscle strain... oh yah!!! din blog this yesterdae... wah lau... was stretching down with sam yesterdae... wah liew... can see his muscles... damn defined now... *b|az pengz... feel so inferior... or like xy would say... 'anti-superior'... haiz... i think its his regular stretching down... and his enthusiasm with the weights... i really cant do the weights lor... cant really lift it properly... damn heavy... but the guys and WQ do just so effortlessly... argh!!! why i so lousy!!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:25 --Link to Post |
| 3.5.03 |
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horrible chem test...
make me study so many topics... 15 topics!!! for 45 marks... piangz... sad ah... in the end... everything also dunnoe... i really can go and die liaoz... went for training today... din have PT.... coz the big shot came to speak to us... say say say so much... in the end... say cannot recognize us as national... it's not that the status matters... but the way he put my team down... one thing i'm very sure... my guys are definitely fitter than your fittest sailor lor... wat they can do, we can do... but they cant do stuff that we can do... like pump? got me kinda pissed lor... dont wanna card us... nvm... but dont undermine us like dat... we worked damn hard for this... even the sail we hold down is larger than the sailors'... can see all of us really grr liaoz... WQ was hitting her leg against mine everytime he said something nasty... =P we're going to prove him wrong man... we are... if we havent already... goes to show he knows nuthing abt us... today very sad... sail got its first tear... haiz.. its even worse than the other pple tears coz it tore at the seam... darn! cant paste myla lor... haiz... damn sad... then everytime i pump... the hole gets bigger... but if i dont pump... andrew scold me... stuck between the devil and the deep blue sea... today storm hit... piangz... pulled all my system to the max... still cannot sheet in... damn gek... hands were cramping up... just dare not fall... or else really cannot uphaul... went to do tacking and gybing drills... practised reversing... and did some pumping when the wind practically died to non-existence.. coz andrew confiscated our harnesses... piangz... did alot of swimming also... like 6 laps between two buoys pretty far from each other... piangz... runnning tired can stop and rest... swimming tired you stop and drown ah! wearn haw was pretty farnie today... seemed that he was out partying after last nite's sports awards... was sleeping at NSC... i think almost like andrew... party animal... just a little bit guai-er... smarter... nicer... fairer... and maybe fatter... but he was very farnie today.. on land and in water... really lor... the windsurfers would just suddenly burst out laughing out of nowhere... coz of wh or andrew... piangz... then when we were doing the drills... we kept laughing at how each other fall in... piangz... training was tough... but the laughter kinda rid us of the yucky fatique... i'm happie... i wanna watch Xmen2!!!! dont care... but dont have time... dunnoe when i can go... really really wanna watch... grr.... wolverine.... argh! am using the 50 bucks after-sun lotion... damn shiok.. coz very cooling... but wah liew... using it like water like dat... coz so nice... lucky its sponsored... or else use like dat sure heart pain... but then again... I WONT BUY IF ITS 50 bucks! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:40 --Link to Post |
| 2.5.03 |
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went to study at my favourite BK with YC...
piangz... dunnoe why he today so crappy... so in the end... crapped with him loads... din really achieve much... but haiz... really hate the extent of the topics... really alot alot... cant finish... but i'm here... blogging??? need to get things off my mind mah... he's really farnie.. lame farnie.. but din fail to make studying more enjoyable... hiakz... if he fail... i think its my fault... came back to eat dinner... at it like at 11pm... with my daddy who was in the office till abt 10 plus... poor guy... work so hard.. come home kena bullied by me... tomorrow play taxi-driver send me to NSC... yesh yesh... i know i'm spoilt... =P k k... will get back to more chemistry... woohoo! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:34 --Link to Post |
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really... today it rained in the early morning... was kinda relieved abt not needing to go up to the podium... but sad that my klass thingy cant go on as planned... like alwaz... God had his plans... the sun came shining again... and there i was asking pple to support my cause... it felt good... really... after mr wee's additional line of... 'it has been said that AJC has no school spirit...i dont think so...' the place was ultra silent... and the people were really listening to me... i shook... i did... cass saw me shaking like a leaf... but i managed to maintain composure and speak like i had all the time in the world... it felt good... coz my pals were congratulating me... and pple were actually coming to the booth after hearing the announcement... i dunnoe... but today felt really nice and warm... though i must admit... the weather is really killing me... man! the heat! but people were really enthusiastic abt contributing... money... signatures... well-wishes... there were more donations of notes and coins... and this guy even donated 20 bucks! i know the amt doesnt matter... but it is inevitably a measure of their generousity and selfless nature... i'm proud of the AJCians today... really... it was really one day that made me feel proud to be an AJCian... though i am most of the time... it was today... ...that i could see the hearts of my fellow sch mates... ...that gave me a warm and fuzzy feeling that you get when you do something really rite... ...that i begin to believe that 'unity in adversity' is not just a mindless cliche... ...that i can tell myself if i were to get down with SARS there are pple out there who care... thank you AJ... we'll be all out for the first three days of next week... i hope that we'll do just as well... if not better... making our effort to lug the heavy tins home... a meaningful and worthy one... =) alwin lai watched xmen2 liaoz!!! buay ta han... i also wanna watch... thinking of asking the team to adjourn after training... but its a little difficult... coz all of us on different modes of transport... the bulk of them cycling to NSC... while SPOILT me would be sent to NSC after my test by my darling dad... or a handsome taxi driver... though the probability of getting a handsome taxi driver is 1:10... oh well... it doesnt matter... i just NEED to watch xmen2... i think i need the wonder of impossibility... to provide me with the door of escapism... what am i talking?!?! need to go for jog now... coz must log something into my training log... or else andrew will chop me for not doing anything these few days... been really slack... and been eating a real darn lot... PIGGIE! yeah... kinda... eating is so wonderful... i meant... nen chi shi fu ya??? of coz of coz... no wonder i'm FAT... okok... time to lose weight now... ciaoz. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:28 --Link to Post |
| 1.5.03 |
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sort of completed studying for chem liaoz...
just need to get my facts more correct... and a little more practise on the questions... organic chem still a BIG blur coz of the latter part when the farnie stuff start coming in... freaky... but think the other topics are pretty fine for now... tmr shall be the final sprint... till sat's test... then chiong two days of training before i embark on the MATHS journey... hate vectors... but have to like it before i can do well ya??? hope i do... went to study with lala today... think we crapped more than we studied... but it was good... found stuff that we werent sure of... then marked them to ask teacher tmr... wohho! guess i'm on the rite track... really hope to do well... and not let mrs wong and mr lim kt down... think they're really worried for my results... watched american idol... woohoo! it was good... just love talent shows like dat... like the talentime i helped organise... i dunnoe.. but it just brings this realism into the glitz and glamour... you just feel happie when these pple do well... really... what the world need now... ...is love... ...sweet love... i really think so... thats why we are do the project for the SARS caregivers rite? yeehaun cant go up on the podium to speak to the sch tmr... and mr wee kinda wants me to do it... am fearful... coz it seems all so scary... to go up in front of 1600 pple... and try to rouse them towards your cause... dont feel that powerful... YH is council prez... he has that right... but small and teeny me?!?! i doubt myself... but i need to overcome that... to go up there tmr... mr wee's even willing to coach me in the morning... cant refuse him... but cant help being scared.. been up loads of times... but just the thot of speaking like that... chills me to the bone... but on the bright side... it's my bit for the SARS situation... if getting scolded by minnie wasnt enough... and i should be proud of it... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:59 --Link to Post |
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