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tried very very hard to stay awake during lectures today...
even slipped off the table and jerked myself awake... din mean to be rude to the lecturer... but been having this sleep disorder since sec sch... sleep when i dont want to... and cant sleep when i want to... din help that i was dead tired the day before... and the lack of sleep really brought everything together... had a terrible time during tutorials... day damn humid... really struggling lor... just perspiring away... *pant* but made do with tissue paper and lotsa water... ate alot today also... darn! whats happening to the diet i'm supposed to be on??? the guys on my team are supposed to be carbo-loading... not me! but i happily use it as excuse to eat... woohoo! had a great time decorating the klass notice board with the klass today... felt good that most pple stayed back together to do crappy stuff... ended up crapping with YXY abt how a hibiscus should look like... irritating each other... well... think he's a BIG crapper... but also an amazing person at that... went ard whole sch... games set up... rushing out proposals... meeting mr pat lim... alot of changes for EC... just broke down and cried... worse thing... SC stuff supposed to be internal... cant even talk to anyone abt it... know how it feels when you bottle everything inside then just cant let it out... terrible know... dad was really nice today.. hearing me out and all... driving me home... just telling me not to cry... that i must learn to accept such setbacks and all the yucky pple in the world... i think he's the best... he's against me being in SC, yesh... but he never fails to save me when i fall into depression... played abit of bball with Clarence... until abt 7 plus... suay suay kena locked out of SC... piangz... but he was damn nice lah... although he could have left me in the lurch... his bag just beside window... can grab... he waited with me for cass... who had to come back all the way from orchard... love her man... really... appreciate them alot... ate dinner with them... and came back home to more dinner... piangz... i feel like a pig... well... i think i am... msg-ed mr lim just now... glad to have a encouraging sms back... forwarded it to my whole adhoc... hope they feel inspired by it... will be logging off soon... after my entry in italics... go get sleep for tmr... nite! ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:03 --Link to Post |
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