| 31.7.03 |
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this is a great song...
dunno why... but like it alot.. enjoy... Matchbox20_-_Unwell All day Staring at the ceiling making Friends with shadows on my wall All night I'm hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good For something Hold on I'm feeling like I'm headed for a Breakdown I don't know why (chorus) I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be See me Talking to myself in public And dodging glances on the train I know I know they've all been talking 'bout me I can hear them whisper And it makes me think there must be something wrong With me Out of all the hours thinking Somehow I've lost my mind (chorus) Talking in my sleep Pretty soon they'll come to get me They'll be taking me away ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:01 --Link to Post |
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did this write-up for the yearbook...
dun know why i alwaz happen to do such things... hope its good... dont know if its wad everyone feels... but it was what i feel abt the klass... in short... i love 01 to bits... maybe its wad you make out of things that really matter... 01/02 People normally perceive 01 to be a nerdy class with a lack of fervour for school activities and anything non-academic. 01/02 was far from that. Not that we lacked the scholars or the A-listers, but somehow, most of us seemed to have found the divine equilibrium between our academic pursuit and having all the fun we could in JC. Life is more than just tutorials, notes or the over-rated TYS, it includes the relationships we foster and the bonds we create (non-chemical ones of course). Great memories never fade. Will remember the times we turned PC’s place upside down as we tossed yusheng, collapsed to the floor laughing at each other’s soccer or basketball skills (or rather, the lack of it) or simply how we hung out in AJ Square before school begins. Two years is not a long time, but in 01/02, we had the time of our lives. ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:57 --Link to Post |
| 30.7.03 |
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studied with laoda after sch today..
was waiting for lala to finish VA... =) then went home with her... talked abt stuff... well... i guess many things in life is beyond us... truly... we are pawns of fate and circumstance... its hard to take charge of your own life then... all a game of chance... lala... couldnt tell this to you on the bus... but something you should know is tat... dont let other pple's (esp mine...) actions ruin wad you have... it's inevitable... so i guess its just how you take it in stride... rem i told you how bothered i was with pple's gossip abt me tat i made him wait far far away??? it was unfair to him... he thot so... i thot i couldnt help it... but i could... if i could just ignore the gossip that might go ard... it'll be unfair to you both if you bother too much abt (my) suaning... so... try to put it aside ok??? phew... load off my conscience... talked to him today... somehow... the simplest of conversations... be it crap...suaning...nonsense...rubbish...a hi/bye/smile... it'll just make me darn happy... then i go bouncing ard in the day... somehow... i guess its something i'd learnt to make do with knowing i cant have him... *shrugs* its the next best thing... betted with alwin lai today... for this coming stats test... person with lower mark treat... but can only be treated if one of us get A/B... its our way of pushing each other on... i hope it works.. for both of us... will get back to work... stupid eugene din reply my previous sms again... stupid guy... either his phone died on him... or the sms din get to me... or he simply refuse to reply... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:00 --Link to Post |
| 29.7.03 |
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day 2 w/o the council badge...
been good.. had cy msg-ing me asking whether i'm used to life like this... i must say i am... enjoying the occasional hanging out with the councillors... more time with my classmates... meetings been reduced to much much less... still having some due to WITS and AJ iDeas... more time for my homework... studying in the RR or blk 4 is really good... was amazed by the amount i achieved studying in these places... been wondering if i had studied like dat for the past 2 years... maybe i would have been a straight A student??? guess its too late now... just haf to work hard for times ahead... prelims really near now... am picking up momentum to start pia-ing.. wish me luck... and do remind me to study if you do see me along sch corridors... it'll help me i guess... went to sk library for some coffee and sandwiches yeah.. to finish up on my tut 34... and start abit on tut 35... abit farnie... coz test on sat oni testing tut 29 to tut 35... will be studying hard with sentill tmr... he needs help... and i need practice... hope we'll be able to pia tmr... jia you jia you... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:18 --Link to Post |
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libra AB type
September 23 - October 22 for Men Personality: There are hardly any flaws about you. Your style and sense are always enjoyable and that's why no one finds it difficult or boring to spend time with you. One thing you could try to improve on is your mistrust for others. You are afraid to show your weakness to others and this makes it difficult to become close to others. Love Tendency: Women are attracted to your overall strength. Your popularity makes it easy to find a girlfriend for yourself. However, you wait for the opposition to make a move on you because you like to keep up that stud image. Life: You are destined for a turbulent and an exciting life. Your popular status as a sociable person earns you much praise at work, which is beneficial to your career. Try to be less mistrusting to others because it will be take a toll on you. Money and trustworthy friends are around you, so you should thankful for that. for Women Personality: You are an attractive and smart woman 'yeah rite...' but sometimes you come across as a person without any feelings due to your clear-cut rationality. hmmm...true... Love Tendency: You're greatly troubled with your failing relationships. One reason why this occurs is because you don't allow yourself to open up to your partner. You're afraid to get hurt and that's why you keep your distance. Life: The expression of "friends come and go" fits you correctly. You don't have friends who stick around too long but there'll always be someone there for you. With the changing friendships, you evolve as a new person, too. =( Match Good Match: Your great matches are A-type Aries, AB-type Gemini, and A-type or B-type Aquarius. You are a demanding woman to men. The men who can responsibly take care of you are A-type Leos, Capricorns and Pisces, A-type or AB-type Cancers, and A-type or B-type Scorpios. An organized and cleanly person would be suitable for you. Bad Match: O-type Sagittarius and Pisces are least compatible matches for you who will hurt you in the end ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:10 --Link to Post |
| 28.7.03 |
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long long day today...
first day in school tat all the councillors felt so homeless... scampered into 412... and congregated there... all the way till bell rang... did go into the CR many times today... to check on the JC1s... and ask how they were doing... i think they were fine ya... fitting in just fine... suddenly meeting the councillors along corridors seem so happy a thing... would join them in the canteen.. to crap... make noise... all sorts of stupid things.... love them to bits... it doesnt matter we dont have a room no more... as long as the spirit is there... i guess thats all that matters... stayed in sch till abt 1945 to do work man... finished tut 34! woohoo! so happy... am glad am glad... met eugene after tat... it'll probably be my last time in the presea... tat guy's selling it for a lancer... eeks.. washing machine backside... heck... its pretty good a car lah... dad drove one of those b4 his sunny.. k k... going to do the survey on IVLE... yc chasing me there.. nite! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:56 --Link to Post |
| 27.7.03 |
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watched a knight's tale on HBO last night...
when i was taking a break from the maths i was doing... man! it was really good... i dunnoe... but suddenly while watching it i had this urge to call everyone i know to watch it... was so touched at certain points of the movie that i cried... wont do a review here... coz it'll only spoil the movie... but man... it really made me believe... that one can really change the stars... no matter how difficult it would be... stayed home today... did council activity list for myself... AJ Ideas summary... and printed out the newspaper articles i needed... thanx lala and laoda... for collaborating to send me the stuff... appreciate... will grab my bath... then do the mindmaps... am blogging much less these days... i guess it has to be this way... need to direct my time to my studies... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:34 --Link to Post |
| 25.7.03 |
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just punched my dad in the tummy just now in the lift...
swore it really wobbled... that guy needs to get some exercise man... just like me... mr lim kw asked me whether i gained weight man... gawd... even he noticed... darn.... feel so... today stepped down.... last time wearing the council badge... took it off during the ceremony... wanted to cry liaoz... but oni broke down during the reception... really... couldnt control... ...cried when i hugged siaowen and thought of the time she bought me strepsils when i coughing like a horse... ...cried when alwin did his signature cheer and we 'alwin! bagus bagus!' him... ...cried when i saw that they pasted elmo beside my name in the book of memories they designed... ...cried when i realised that we no longer belonged in 311...we moved to 411 liaoz... ...cried when samuel from the 18th came back and played they song they composed last year... ...cried when yh talked abt the geese mr lim told us abt... it was sad... but like cy said... all beautiful things have to come to an end... thats what makes them special... i guess... council have been great for me.. dont regret running for it... will write reflections here another nite... its pretty late... just came back from GH's place... we all went to chiong her house... and buy all sorts of rubbish from chomp chomp and the market nearby... roti john...stingray...satay...porridge...duck rice...hokkien mee...shellfish...chicken wings...satay beehoon...oyster omelette... shiok! it was great... sat ard... girl talk... watched movies... kena suan... suan pple... it was one of the more happening times of council... when we really enjoyed ourselves... we enjoyed ourselves during events too... under loads of stress though... this is one time when we can really sit back and relax... we're out of council man... will miss the kind of lifestyle... wont miss the frenz... cuz they'll still be ard... alwaz... love them all... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:14 --Link to Post |
| 24.7.03 |
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last nite was another 2am...
=( tired man... today just slept wherever i could... in my dad's car on the way home... in the canteen when CR not opened yet... in the CR when alwin lai came with the keys... but the day was too busy to sleep in the breaks... used the breaks to do homework and stuff for the book of memories... *pengz* so happie with the council table... did stupis stuff with it... and felt that working on the proj has made cherchin open up to us much more... am glad... cuz finally feel more like classmates/fellow councillors with him... he's pretty farnie a person really.. very witty actually... feel super fat... no exercise... ... argh! dunnoe how long i can tahan... acting out of character recently actually... buay ta han ah!!! oh ya... bought flowers with lala today... for the council girls... thanx lala for accompanying me... me hope they like the geberras... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:47 --Link to Post |
| 23.7.03 |
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siong ah...
worked till 2am last nite... think tonite will be abt the same... lotsa thing to wrap up for council... the WITS competition... the stepping down stuff... ...book of memories... ...video... i'll miss those guys really... was watching the video during rehearsal today... cried... luckily it was dark... so no one saw... but really... feel sad... reached home ard 830... pengz... so late... got lots to do today... physics... chemistry... maths... council stuff... pengz... and i'm still here??? *amazed* took lotsa photos with councillors... so happy... know wad??? cherchin was drawing caricature of all the councillors... piangz... he draw me with super big ugly mouth... even if it is true... its damn bad rite!??! that evil guy... horrible! better get down to work... nitez. ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:42 --Link to Post |
| 22.7.03 |
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tuesday!!!
was so happie that i did 6 questions outta tut33... thought it'll last me at least 2 days... piangz... no lor... she finished them within this lesson... so have to do more for tomorrow... still have to finish my CRV... 8 more questions!!! argh!!! die liaoz leh... really... but at least i dont have other HW due tmr... finished my AQ at Sk library over a cuppa latte with lala... am glad... but the maths is enough to get me killed... bleah... toe is hurting more than usual leh... dunnoe why... must be the shoes... but heck lah... prefer to wear shoes compared to sandals... feel more protected... =P took more photos today... with the councillors... am aiming to finish taking with everyone by friday... its for me to keep... coz i lurvvve them soOooo much... hehhee... the BenQ cam is really not bad... the screen is small on the cam... but when i tranfer the pix to the PC its really clear... am glad am glad... spending lesser these days... 1. save money... 2. diet... since i spent most of my money on food... so... oh well... better go bathe soon... then start on my maths... or else i'll get chopped by ms goh tmr... *faints* ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:00 --Link to Post |
| 21.7.03 |
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really have to fight hand and foot with my bro to use the pC man...
its getting a tad out of hand... seeing that glare from him juz now... but simply cant understand why he can tell his fren on the phone 'i talk to you on MSN...' when he knows i am waiting to use the PC... cant he just talk on the phone instead? really... its ruining my relationship with him... cant tell whether its my fault or his... yeah... being the elder i'm supposed to give in to him... but ALL the time?!?!?! man... that boy is way too spoilt lor... i can just tell him abt how he's doing something wrong... and he'll be crying his eyes out.. and i am then the bad guy... sick and tired of it... am thinking of really not using this PC... maybe only in the night when they are all asleep... argh... frustrated... tired... all for the wrong reasons... it was back to sch today after so long... really coughed terribly... had trouble breathing thru my nose... but wad da heck... had to keep going to the toilet and blow my nose... coz its pretty rude and disturbing to do it during lessons... did AJ radio today.. probably my last day on it... felt good... am happie... went to CGH today for the follow up on my toe... doc says its fine... continue doing the buddy splint.. and return 3 weeks later for an xray... that consultation cost 20 bucks... wah sey... but oh well... the hospital is an expensive place... cannot do physical exercises for 1 mth... gross... sad... cant run... cant gym... cant surf... man... i'm going to grow sideways... =( will get going... med i've been taking for my flu gets me really drowsy... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:35 --Link to Post |
| 20.7.03 |
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here i am again...
mourning the homework i have undone... really no motivation... feeling dead tired... as if the flu bug sapped me of all my energy... tired... burnt... toe hurting alot more... the bandaged slipped off yesterdae... and i oni managed to tape it together myself... it was ok when i din walk ard tat much... but when i went for dinner with my sis just now... it started hurting alot more... now thinking whether i should bandage it again for the doc to remove tmr... or simply just tape it up like i did... dont like doctors scolding me when i dont take care of myself... coz my dad does it often enough liaoz... =P will go do maths now... i guess its time i better start pulling up my socks and bucking up for the big As... my ouxiang shall be my motivation! too bad no big blown up photo of him... or else i will put as wallpaper... to remind me to go study everytime i come on the pC... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:11 --Link to Post |
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went to see the doc again this morning...
kena scolded for not staying home yesterdae man... he said he knew i went out to sea cuz i was pretty red and burnt... no time to put sun block yesterdae... gave me cough mixture... started me off on antibiotics... argh... i hate medicine... think will be trying to reduce my use of the PC... this super fast PC is making me fight hand and foot with my sibs leh... and i dont think its the right way... feel childish... but sometimes i do think that my parents kinda side my bro in everything... alwaz seem to be in the fault... argh... sianz... super sianz the whole day ah... cant surf... cant go out.... cant use pC coz bro using... do some work... then alot of work dunnoe how to do... think me falling into my pre o level days... where i just stepped down from bball and wsfing.. then super sianz super bo liaoz... i guess that sudden influx of extra time got me expecting more outta ben at that time... i guess thats how we fell out... lost touch and everything... kinda afraid that it'll repeat itself... this time on other pple... like eugene? argh... i hope not... juz hope we remain friends until he leaves for studies in the UK... coughing like a horse now.. dont really know whether horses cough... but its the really hoarse cough... and since hoarse sounded like horse... why not? dun know how if i were to start coughing in the middle of the lecture... imagine... the silent lecture hall... borf! horf! man! cannot make it... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:58 --Link to Post |
| 19.7.03 |
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woke up at 7am today to a huge thunderstorm...
so decided against cycling down to PA... asked my dad to send me there after work... pretty okay an arrangement lah... hate cycling along east coast on a busy saturday... tried before... almost died ah... got this guy... crashed into this young girl on roller blades... right in front of me... was worried for the gal... but wasnt used to the bike i'm using... cant really stop safely with two feet on the ground... so just went on... until i crash landed into seasports.. =P today went on andrew's boat... got two malay guys... and meng's gf also joined us on the boat... piangz... andrew alwaz show off lor... ride damn freaking fast... =P idiot lah... bounce bounce bounce on the boat... almost thrown out alot of times... then kena suaned that i no balance... KOR34... cho... was leading the pack all the time... thought sam was pretty close to him... but actually it's coz he waited at marks for the rest to catch up... he wanted to drag the finishing time... so the pple at the back wont get cut off by the time limit.. so nice of him leh... though it might sound quite insulting for him to do that... a DNF and a finish really makes a huge difference to a sailor who pia all the way... din sail... but kena robbed ah... sam took my board... lili took my sail... but power lah... both of them... sam found a crack in my board... and lili's mastfoot broke... right in the middle of the course... dunnoe whether it's my equipment lousy... or coz they use... whatever the case... i heart pain lah... bandage for toe came off today... coz the thing was wet mah... so it just slid off... man!!! it hurt like shit lor... then the toe still slanted one side... i see i also heart pain ah... so ugly... then next time i sail.... kick into footstrap sure die one... thats why must bring medical tape everytime i sail... to tape up my toes... going to see the specialists on monday... hopefully they'll know wat to do... hope its not harold ma as the doc on duty... i think he'll be as blur as i am... team went out for dinner... din go with them lah... had to come home... get myself comfy... re tape my feet... no use bandaging it again.... gonna get wet again tmr... and do homework!!! argh! still having abit of the flu... nose still blocked... speech still abit farnie... head still pain... darn! why doesnt the med work!?!? argh... really cant afford to miss sch anymore... am too much behind liaoz.... =P wh's back from spain liaoz... heard he's been sailing in 30 knots wind in spain... come back sg sail 10knot wind... pengz... heard from andrew that he's dating someone... wsfer also i think... from pa one... lucky he not my ouxiang anymore... or else i'll be so sad... hehhee... idiotic me... k k... down to GP essay now... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:24 --Link to Post |
| 18.7.03 |
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stayed at home again today...
dad woke me up this morning and thot that i felt hot still... quite irritating though... coz dunnoe why the fever like on/off like dat... wanna go to sch... its a friday lor.. so shiok... juz came back actually... went 'out'... but before anyone one of you think its something bad... skip sch then still can go out... no larh... needed to something from my fren... and since its something i needed... thot it wasnt nice for him to come all the way... dropped by at the library as well... and got myself some opposing viewpoints books... on tech and society and human rights... so will be doing some reading later... =) it'll be good for my GP... ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:11 --Link to Post |
| 17.7.03 |
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the new PC is working pretty well...
windows XP... aint very used to the stuff... i guess it takes time... spent the morning trying to get all the stuff i used to have on the previous comp... mIRC... mp3s... the basics... realised something... lost alot of stuff i wanted to keep in the other PC... lotsa photos... weefong....ben...TKGS...friends...family... things i wanna remember... chat logs...letters...prgs... documents files..projects...council stuff... am really sad... coz am a really sentimental person... from time to time... i like to look back at these stuff... smile...laugh...cry... i dont believe in closing one chapter and moving on... coz the past made me wad i am... makes me conscious and appreciative of wad i am now... tats why i am blogging so faithfully... i dont deny... i regularly look into my archives and read my own crap... thats why i dont really bother abt whether pple do read my blog... but of coz... am glad that pple actually do... stayed home today.... down with da flu... quite terrible actually... first time felt so jialat coz of flu... sore throat... runny nose... slight fever... damn uncomfortable... so much so that i havent got down to having any work done... argh... feel so unproductive... am missing the stepping down rehearsal today... msged alwin whether they needed me down... but he said it was ok... i hope so... coz feel bad... they plan it so long... the least i could do was to come for the rehearsal... but cant... will be resting... and try to do some work later in the evening.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:05 --Link to Post |
| 16.7.03 |
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but before i get down to maths...
am rethinking my life abit... days away from training... ...cuz of my fracture... time away from council... ...cuz stepping down soon... cant get down to serious work... and feel a little lost... am a person who needs a direction to move towards... no ambitions... no goals... but a rough idea of wad i'm doing and where i'm heading... if i get into a U next time.. i dunnoe whether i want a busy timetable like i did in JC... or slack my way thru... it was tough... but at least i spent my time in a useful way... at least i din live my life in vain... ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:22 --Link to Post |
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happiness...
the new computer is coming in today.. seemed to be quite a powerful one... or so i'm made to believe... pentium 4.... i guess finally... the comp can match up with the internet connection we just got... monday got my physics back... man... just passed with a D lor... sad... but kinda expected... just glad that i din fail... =P toe still in wraps... having lotsa trouble bathing and all.. but bo pian... eating painkillers like nobody's business... gawd... its quite farnie how i dun really know how i injured my toe.. i know it was when i was launching the rig... but i dunnoe whether i kicked something or otherwise... happened too fast... just knew i felt pain... and the toe looking abit out of place... tuesday was a pretty uneventful day... oni thing deserving of note is when marcus was sleeping in the bus... missing his stop... man... turned ard wondering why he din alight the bus... then saw him sleeping... lala and i straight away... MARCUS! then he woke up and rushed off... hehe... it was farnie... farnie things alwaz happen when i go home with lala... today going national stadium for the national track and field meet... should be some fun stuff... hehehe... hope the cheering will be good... last year... it was our first cheer session... the meet... i guess having it close our council term... is quite significant and memorable... am typing this in the library now... i guess i should be able to blog more often if everything gets set up at home... yeay... dont think its such a good thing actually... taking my time away from books... but seriously... this past week... havent been doing much at home either.. reach home straight away sleep... cuz my mom dont like us going on the bed in dirty clothes... but i was so tired i just slept on the floor... without a pillow or anything... dead tired.... k k... get down to doing serious stuff now... =P MATHS!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:00 --Link to Post |
| 14.7.03 |
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friday...
the end of the week... day kinda gloomy... got my chem papers back... a bleak 53.5%... haiz... somehow mrs wong din scold me... or anything... she said coz i have DISCIPLINE... man! she must be joking... ask anyone beside me... i must be the last person anyone would name as DISCIPLINED... trust me... that adds a D to my collection... maths came back earlier that week with a C.. haiz... disappointed... but oh well... considering i spent more time on the phone on my supposed study week... there's still undiscovered possibilities... just waiting to be discovered... maybe i would get better marks if i studied harder??? who knows? =P went out with eugene after tat... think he looked nice with the white polo... man! that guy is tall... hate tall pple... somehow i have alwaz felt that these pple are the reason behind why i cant learn how to pilot a plane... coz if everyone else in this world was as short as me... they would HAVE to change the requirements... even if it meant changing the plane... =P! saturday.. the most amazing day in my life man... removed my bandage in the morning... haiz... went to PFSSC... met sam... ECP got oil spill... so quite jialat... my board, sail, shorts, shirt... all got tar stains... eeks... my foot also... but the best part was... fractured my LITTLE toe SOMEHOW... dunno how i did it... but was launching from the beach... struggled a little... coz it was onshore wind... as i was sailing out.... my left toe felt pain... then saw my left toe in a weird position... compared to the right... but bo pian... continued sailing all the way to PA... siong man... was constantly talking to myself... to keep my mind off the pain... couldnt put my feet into the footstraps... just hurt a lot... ouch... everyone thot it was nuthing major... including myself... mr tan helped me massage abit... but just when i was stretching to prepare for the race... shuyun saw my feet... then exclaimed... imagine... a trainee doctor exclaiming like tat... i freaked out lor.. she asked uncle ben to come over... A&E doc from CGH... he said possibly a fracture.. ask me quickly go CGH for xray... mr tan offered to send me... so did andrew... but they needed to look after the team... weather was quite stormy... called my dad to come lor... then went to CGH... doc say was small fracture... wrapped it up... and sent me home with painkillers and MC... =P sunday was spent at home... SLACKING... guilty as charged... but totally no motivation to study/homework... went to library with siblings... had a nice brownie with ice cream... and a hot latte... shiok! k lah.. enough for now... spent the entire break here catching up on the past week... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:49 --Link to Post |
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gawd...
its been like a week since i last blogged... and like eugene said... knowing me.. not being able to blog is a huge torture... but oh well... kinda true... coz i had so so many things to blog every nite.. but couldnt... alwaz wanted to come library and blog... but never found the chance... tuesday saw me coming back to sch with a normal timetable... day was long... but kinda passed pretty quickly... went to AMK with lala.... ate abit of MOS... bought the movie vouchers i needed... was supposed to have gym that day... but just as i was about to board bus 70... andrew sms-ed... saying he cant get away from the intersch races... so couldnt have gym that week... lucky lor... or else i would have been sleeping in the bus... all the way to kallang... wednesday: another helluva busy day... highlight of the day came after sch when we had to do appraisals for fellow councillors... did abit of reflecting... and realised we pretty much grew alot together... people changed... for better or worse... but everyone did.... its pretty sad to think that we are all stepping down on 250703... its been one year... but it never felt that long... almost as if it was just yesterdae... ...when we put that elongated badge upon our collar... ...when cy said that it felt like yesterdae since they stepped up... ...when we stepped up in our polished shoes and ironed blazers... =~( thursday was pretty fun... and interesting... got down to learning some soccer... it was funny... ended up rolling on the floor in laughter instead of kicking real ball... was more interested in the bball game in the adjacent court though... for obvious reasons and reasons better left undisclosed... =P ankle hurted alot after the whole day... made my way down to bedok reservoir for my fav bonesetter... favourite indeed.... just that he alwaz seemed to be able to solve my prbs... at a high price of 20 bucks per ankle though... got it bandaged... slept my way home on 87... it was a pretty good day nonetheless... ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:30 --Link to Post |
| 7.7.03 |
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oh yah..
am really broke right now.. eating into my savings... anybody willing to spare me a few bucks... will appreciate... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:59 --Link to Post |
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today was one long day...
met up with the team at city hall... seldom see the guys in streetwear... but they looked really different... pretty cool actually... sam was in a brown quiksilver quarts... a nice white shirt from 37d... and a really nice pair of vintage nikes... he looked really nice.. but his fossil watch made him look a little gay though... sk was in a billabong tee... baggy jeans and all... oni looney was kinda in beachwear.. with his unmatched slippers... shohoku tee... and yellow berms... me was just jeans and a brown tee... wq black tank and denim skirt... alwaz feel underdressed beside her... went shoe shopping.. felt bad that all of them had to walk ard with me... trying to look for shoes... one of the classic nikes caught my nice... but it had a ugly red tick behind.. and adrian has the grey tick one.. so thats a nono as well.. think its getting harder and harder to buy shoes... sad... coz really want one that doesnt squeak like my present one... watched charlie's angels again... coz sam treating us... won cash from the race... so treat us movie lor... ate lunch at breekz... man... it was huge... the main course... but prior to that... had buffet salad and dessert... so were ultra full... like if that wasnt enough... met the tk basketballers for dinner at marina bay... oni GY couldnt make it... we had a really good time... laughing.. chatting... teasing... man... i really miss hanging out with them... did make it for the previous outing. felt so bad.. but today was great... oni that we really ate too much... coz when we were really full liaoz... serene came back with a plate full of chicken... and some fried chicken wings... gawd... that was the most i ever eaten man... saw 1102 there... klass outing i guess... so here i am... telling you abt my day.. with my bag for tmr unpacked... and none of my homework done... darn! will just go sch and die tmr... bleah... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:55 --Link to Post |
| 6.7.03 |
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some friend prediction thingy...
abt him... lala... the front part kinda true leh... *** is as bright as a button and as sharp as a blade. If there's ever anything you need to know, *** is the person to ask. Chances are he will know the answer already. If not he will go and ask someone else and he will keep asking until he gets an answer. *** simply cannot stand the idea of a question that has no answer, so if he cannot get a satisfactory explanation he will invent one. A good one. He is after all as bright as a button. There are though, some questions in life which are best left unanswered. The rest of us know to leave them alone. *** cannot resist the urge to explore them. He is drawn to such questions, like, well, like a button to a button hole! *** answers these questions cleverly because, after all as sharp as a blade, but then you know what they say about people who are too sharp... *** can be very cutting sometimes. He doesn't mean to be. He just can't help it. *** can't stop himself from daring to say what other people hardly dare to think. This is why *** often gets himself into trouble but it is also why *** is such an interesting person to know. Life with *** is never dull. There's always an adventure, a challenge or a deal to be done. *** loves to do deals. The word 'no' is not in his vocabulary. When he hears it *** is immediately tempted to reply "Is that 'no' as in 'maybe', 'no' as in 'I need to be persuaded,' or 'no as in 'not quite yet?' Luckily *** gets clean away with this kind of attitude. ***, at least when it comes to the unanswerable question, is living proof of the old adage "Who dares...wins". ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:56 --Link to Post |
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went out with my team after tat...
had some coffee shop fare at siglap... zhu chao... shiok lah... pork ribs... honeyed chicken... kangkong... tofu... yummy! tehn went to siglap centre to resupply our common tool box... bought the adrelite i spoiled... but decided to buy the WD-40 from some place cheaper... just tat adrelite very difficult to find... and then to starbucks for kopi... had the new coffee caramel jelly frap... not bad leh... my pals say nicer than xi ying... but heck lah... it was so nice that sam kept drinking mine instead of his mocha frap... man... it was not as sweet as mine... i simply adore caramel... talked lotsa crap... abt sam's egoistic nature... SK affinity with gals... man... those girls really hiong lor... the take initiative and asked him for his number leh... and not just one leh!!! WQ being suaned by all of us... and me just sat there laughing and all... it was good... we should do this more often.. just slacking all the way after training... back to today's training... andrew kept scolding me... saying i not putting in enough effort... but seriously i think if i dont put in effort.. then wad for i go for training... wasting my time oni.. i am trying lor... but then my physical fitness really sucks compared to the guys... i'm really not as good... but i'm trying... really... today had tacking drills... speeding sailing... wind was good enough at a certain point of time to plane... wooshed past all the little bath tubs... they really just stumped in our wake lor.. it was that shiok... went quite far out to padang buoy... even the police coast guard was kinda worried... was alwaz very very near me... they scared i just die out there... they asked andrew why we were sailing so far out... no choice wad... wind better outside... really lagged behind by alot these days... morale down... but spirits still okay... just that i got a good team behind me... going out with my windsurfers for lunch and shoe-shopping tmr... then meeting teh basketballers for stella b-dae bBQ-steamboat in the evening.. long day.. with lotsa food... oh yah... me thinking... will be breaking from serious training for the A's soon... must keep up a regular training regime... maybe jog every weekday??? dunnoe... will psycho myself to put something down here... so that all of you reading this can help me keep up with it... i HAVE to... really dont wanna fall behind the guys anymore... i cant afford to... i still have my big dreams... i'm losing to WQ now... but doesnt mean i will forever... we are each other's closest enemy... competitive we are... but i guess pretty good friends if we're not racing lah... k k... time for a quick shower... then its the stretching routine tat sam swears by... giving him the 8 pak... and sculpted biceps and all... man... i better start believing... but not tat i wanna sculpt my arm muscles... they are big enuff liaoz... with fats of course... nah... i just wanna rid myself of the aching feeling... nitez! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:41 --Link to Post |
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so happie...
daddy so nice... he woke me up this morning to ask me abt training today... then i sorta made a lot of noise... saying i wanna go maxwell eat porridge and raw fish... wasnt really serious... but it was a craving lah... dad relented and brought me there for lunch... had the kosong porridge for 70cts... and a plate of raw fish for 3 bucks... man! its the best... coz it had lotsa sesame...spring onions... and everything nice in it... yummy! this kinda lunch usually can last me until the evening one... but training today was so hiong i was feeling hungry at abt 5pm... today was siong... the wind came and gone... came and gone... at least like 3 times... kept reconfiguring my pulleys... argh.... whenever i configure nice nice for strong wind... the wind drop... whenever i loosen everything for light wind... the wind pick up... ARGH! but nvm... today had adrian, jing chuan and leeching joining us for trg... WQ was smittened with her adrian... i was just trying my hardest not to be the last... was alwayz last in my team lah... so i was oni fighting with adrian and jc... =P feel so lousy... really... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:20 --Link to Post |
| 5.7.03 |
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=P
tired... totally... planning to do some stretching in bed cuz my muscles all sore liaoz... before hitting the sheets soon... was terrible during training today... fell behind the rest by alot... din run much... under 3km... but 100 squats... 100 step ups... knee ups for half of bedok jetty... then take the stroll/jog back to NSC... but prior to tat had a 15min ride on sam's bike to nsc... met the gang at mr tan's house... borrowed sam bike to cycle to trg... its the oni way to get there if my dad doesnt send me... no way i'm spending money on taxi anymore... its just not worth it... but sam was really nice to meet me there and pass me the keys for his bike... appreciate... but his bike ah... coz its his spare bike... oni use when he going trg from sch... coz he cycles his mountain bike from home... its a shorter mountain bike... but the seat ah... butt damn pain... after gym and lunch at NSC... cycled back to seasports with all our stuff... met andrew and some pple i dunnoe on his boat at siglap buoy at 1430... then sailed upwind to forward... one of the international beacons... freaking far... fell behind the rest by alot... then did gybing drills... starting sequences... kept colliding with the rest... kept falling in... kept uphauling... arms aching like nuthing... cycled back to mr tan's house after training... piangz... butt already cannot take it... went out with looney, sam and wanqi to eat... seriously... i felt really happy today.. can feel the team spirit very strong today.... went to eat at marine parade hawker centre... had our own stuff.. but being the hungry pple we were... we shared more dian xin... shared cheng teng... shared tang yuan... my favourite with sesame inside... then walked parkway abit... but stood outside adidas for the longest time... just chatting...laughing... really... man... i think all of them felt the spirit.. started talking abt dinner tomorrow... and shoe-shopping on monday... where sam will use the money he won from PFSSC race to treat us to movie... yeay! took bus home with WQ.. talked alot with her... abt guys/love/relationships... i told her abt the time andrew thot me and sam were together... and she said that she actually found me and sam compatiable... which i seriously think is untrue... sam is so much better looking lor... oh yah... we thot the SANA guy we met today was good looking... i waved bye bye to him today... and he was kinda shocked... thot he looked a little like jud... man... crapped loads with her.. starting to think that hey... she's actually a pretty nice person to talk to... kinda starting to love my team lots now... SK left us... but i have my darling WQ to bitch to... i have sam's 8-pack abs to punch whenever he said something lame.. and looney to make me laugh even during our 2 minute arm hangs... but of course not forgetting andrew... for coaching us in a not-so-coach-like way... i hope the feeling will stay tat way alwayz... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:49 --Link to Post |
| 4.7.03 |
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tmr will be training of a different kind man..
dad's at work.. so no one to send me to the super inaccessible NSC... meeting the guys at mr tan's house... then borrow sam's bike to cycle in... imagine... cycle for 20 minutes... then start official training... gawd... tmr will be the first time in a long time that i'll be doing full routine training... if you have been reading my blog.. you should know wad tat means... 7km jogs... lotsa muscle work.. endurance... and strength... and heard andrew got his pumping machine up again... boy... that thing... hate it leh... just simply cant do it the way the guys do... feel so anti-superior... which means inferior... if you're clueless abt the YXY lingo which i have been starting to be infected with... better sleep early liaoz.. tired and fatigued... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:49 --Link to Post |
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freak!!!
some idiot stole my bike... darn... dont know what they see in it... its old... suspension abit creaky... its red... and alwayz lau hong... man!!! thats my bike!!! nvm.. seems that i just missed the thief by a little bit... think he was in the other lift when i came up... coz i saw the lift at 12 floor... then i thot my bro going out to cycle... but saw him at home and my bike missing... ass... if i ever catch that idiot.. i'll make sure he/she eats dirt... =P back from charlie's angels... not bad lah.. but i preferred twins effect... coz CA the special effects damn fake... and their stunts very incredible... too incredible in fact... not my kinda thing... din really live up to my expectation... 2...popcorns!!! ate BK... my fav chicken whopper junior... keep eating BK ya??? but oh well... i love the flame-grilled idea... shiok... will shuddup now.. tomorrow training full force... full routine and all... man... PT!!! argh.. dead meat.. and ankle's acting up... dunnoe how... hope i make it through... with no further damage to my ankles... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:00 --Link to Post |
| 3.7.03 |
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was thinking abt my klass...
chatting with lala... abt all the pretty memories i have of them as 0102... the sweet times... the times we chiong together... but seriously... two times tat really left a great impression on me is the two times we played ball together.. once soccer at PC's place... and the other... basketball during PE lesson... somehow.. like lala said... it felt so much like a xin fu jia ting... i alwaz smile when i look back at those times... though some in the klass dont feel wad i feel... but i think its their loss.. c'mon... there is nuthing more beautiful than having your family/friends ard you... really... nuthing beats tat... i treasure my klass... i really do... not really close to some of them... i blogged abt the bball game b4... i was in the same team as cherchin, yeesing, YXY, merser and i think weiding... i made the most noise.. am pretty sure... YXY did lotsa solo runs... but he was really good.. cherchin and yeesing... alwaz first to run over... merser at defence.. weiding attack... man! it was good... really kept laughing...screaming...shouting... i really had fun... hope they did too... that it'll be one of their best memories as well.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:33 --Link to Post |
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lala said she thought i was kinda avoiding him today...
somehow.. cant approach him like i usually do... me feeling insecure??? i dunnoe... maybe i just wanna rid myself of this infatuation... its killing brain cells... dont know him THAT well... coz usually when i start to like someone... i would have already got to know the person really well... personality/character attracts me.. and i guess the oni way you could see someone's true character is by knowing the person... but i guess its how the pple ard me start gushing abt him... me starting to observe him from a distance.. its torturous actually... but sometimes... i guess being in love at a distance is pretty beautiful an idea as well... even if one-sided... at least i cant be rejected... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:07 --Link to Post |
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finally...
the end of the CTs... but like mr lim said... when we finished the meeting.. maybe we could rest a couple of days... but seriously... we need to pick up our books again... and pia... sounds horrible... dont think i'll take up that suggestion... i dont need an A at the expense of my life... i'll study... but its not the primary occupation of my time... life's more than books/notes/tutorials... really... went to watch twins effect with lala, yj and laoda... piangz... damn farnie... i laughed and laughed until really dont care image... the fight sequences really quite shuai... kinda makes me hope 'A's would quickly pass... so i could get down to learning a martial art or something.. think i'm going to spend my post 'A's time taking up new stuff or something... life's too short to be stuck with boring routines... and neverending homework... oh yah... back to twins effect... woah... edison chen really damn shuai qi... maybe its coz he act as vampire... then got this forbidden fruit kinda feeling... making him seem more attractive than he already is... the show's abit teeny-bopper kinda feeling... the antagonists being this real life girl duo called twins... but its a must-see for its fight scenes and comic effect... 4! popcorns.... thats 4 factorial... which means 4x3x2x1... which is 24.. wow... nah... i meant 4...popcorns! had more things to say actually... kinda forgot... let me think... oh yah!!! david beckham's taking up the no.23 shirt at real... woohoo!!! i dont really fancy him tat much... but thats my favourite number... seriously din know how much significance that number had until i read the papers today.. speculating why he took tat number... 1. Jordan's jersey number.... best in basketball history... 2. something to do with kurt cobain... the sum of the years he lived and died... 3. julia ceasar... no. of times he was stabbed?? not too much of a history buff... but i just love 23... man! doesnt even it look good on its own... 23 so sculpted... so defined... just so pretty... *bleah* yeah... me in crappy mood... but wad the heck.. i smell food... man... something fried today i think.. ooh.. sinful! ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:48 --Link to Post |
| 2.7.03 |
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came back early today..
to sleep... really exhausted after all these papers over the past 3 mornings... been insomniac for 3 nights liaoz... until 2am... slept less than 4 hrs everyday... dun know how??? napped the after for about 2hrs.. then got down to chem just now... last sub for this CT... hope to survive... the CTs have been horrible so far... morale-basher... sometimes it does make me think... am i really this stupid??? c'mon... i did study... not like i didnt... i know it wasnt enough... but flipping thru the entire paper crapping your way thru wasnt really very pleasant you know??? its sad.. i'm sad... but i guess its something i have to live with and try to overcome... guess the thing abt me liking him is more of less confirmed... suddenly blurted out to lala... i think i really like him... gawd... that was after a long silence in the bus ride home with lala... was tired... but kept thinking.. i have no idea why... maybe coz the idea of love/relationships was kinda the main course of our lunch today... guess i'm ruled more by the heart than mind... falling for him even though i know its pretty impossible for anything to come out of it... lala i know you'll say why not possible... i just know... its a intuition... and i'm darn good at it... really... how else could i scrap thru the 'o's by guessing answers? how i came to the conclusion that i actually liked him...after so darn long? man.. i really dont know.. i think its how i... ...try to spot him in school every morning... ...try to strike up conversations yet feel dumbfounded when i actually bump into him in corridors... ...bring him up in almost any conversation i have with lala... ...talk about him with such admiration and awe... seriously aint tat close to him... so cant be sure whether it's just idolisation or otherwise... liking him is not a good thing... trust me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:54 --Link to Post |
| 1.7.03 |
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am taking a short break from books..
lets see how long this blog will take lah... was watching lightyears just now... it's pretty good a show i guess... always miss it coz am usually at gym on tuesday nites... today saw kim and issac breaking up... mAN! i think issac is damn cute lor... he isnt shuai... but he's darn ke ai... and nice...sweet...sensitive...smart... *smittened* back to the break-up... they alwaz seem so brief... so spur-of-the-moment... but seriously... break ups are really horrible... torturous... psychologically and emotionally... Are they the same??? but yeah... even if both parties are agreeable... withdrawal symptoms... are really hard to manage... your whole life changes... your priorities... your schedule... your focus... the backlash kinda makes it less attractive yeah? the ends do not justify the means... i guess... but i think all of us are still looking for possibilities... that one day.. you would actually meet the ONE... but then again... wad if the ONE just passes you by like tat... no one made the move... no one dared to start it off... since there should oni be ONE... does it mean 'opportunity doesnt knock twice'??? wad if you think he is the ONE... when he really isnt??? then how??? live with the mistake??? make the most of out it??? start to believe?? *bleah* i'm nonsensical... with this mindless blabbering... will go back to physics now... its time for more weird formulas and yucky definations... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:03 --Link to Post |
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maths paper today was another killer...
skipped alot of questions.. and they were awarding way too little marks for too long a soln... argh... maybe its just tati din get enuff practice... but that doesnt explain why i couldnt do a whole 10mk question... was studying with lala at BK... saw lotsa pple i used to play bball with last time... terence...the kids... was crapping loads with lala... din practically everything except study seriously... think we're just too brain dead to do constructive stuff... BK kept playing the same CD... bet i heard the same thing at least 4-5 times... but bo pian... really like to study there... but b4 you think we're some horrible seat hogger... i spent like 8 bucks in that place... burger...drink...apple pie...tea... and made sure the place wasnt crowded... =P today got less to crap here.. coz crapped everything to lala liaoz... now go slack abit and read the papers... will get down to revision again soon... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:22 --Link to Post |
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