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came back early today..
to sleep... really exhausted after all these papers over the past 3 mornings... been insomniac for 3 nights liaoz... until 2am... slept less than 4 hrs everyday... dun know how??? napped the after for about 2hrs.. then got down to chem just now... last sub for this CT... hope to survive... the CTs have been horrible so far... morale-basher... sometimes it does make me think... am i really this stupid??? c'mon... i did study... not like i didnt... i know it wasnt enough... but flipping thru the entire paper crapping your way thru wasnt really very pleasant you know??? its sad.. i'm sad... but i guess its something i have to live with and try to overcome... guess the thing abt me liking him is more of less confirmed... suddenly blurted out to lala... i think i really like him... gawd... that was after a long silence in the bus ride home with lala... was tired... but kept thinking.. i have no idea why... maybe coz the idea of love/relationships was kinda the main course of our lunch today... guess i'm ruled more by the heart than mind... falling for him even though i know its pretty impossible for anything to come out of it... lala i know you'll say why not possible... i just know... its a intuition... and i'm darn good at it... really... how else could i scrap thru the 'o's by guessing answers? how i came to the conclusion that i actually liked him...after so darn long? man.. i really dont know.. i think its how i... ...try to spot him in school every morning... ...try to strike up conversations yet feel dumbfounded when i actually bump into him in corridors... ...bring him up in almost any conversation i have with lala... ...talk about him with such admiration and awe... seriously aint tat close to him... so cant be sure whether it's just idolisation or otherwise... liking him is not a good thing... trust me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:54 --Link to Post |
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