| 30.6.03 |
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15:41...
two rounds ard my estate... =P if i recall correctly... my previous timing was a 15:45... so today's not bad... considering i havent been running of late... distance should be more than 2.4 lah... i think... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:10 --Link to Post |
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GP paper today...
man... think i totally screwed up... AQ got a little out of point... essay got a little out of hand... on the whole i just crapped my way thru the paper... maths tomorrow doesnt look brighter either... did questions with lala and merser at BK just now... i had more question marks than anything else... even things i thot i was good at... i simply got stuck with them lor.. very demoralised... beaten liaoz.. both mentally and psychologically... war on maths will continue later.. after this blog... a jog... a bath... and dinner... hope am able to concentrate after tat... and sleep well tonite... couldnt sleep last nite lor... too excited for sch today i think.. piangz... where got such thing one? i think its stress-induced insomnia... bleah... hate stress... oh yah... me bought the YXY pen.. maybe it's really the shen qi bi... so in the name of science... bought the 1.50 bucks pen... see whether can score in this CT annot... no choice.. pretty desperate for some form of hope... =P got to see him after a long hols today... but can be sure whether the feeling is wat i think it is... somehow... i WAS looking out for him... and WAS happy when i actually saw him... but seriously... i dunnoe... in fact i do hope not... its pretty messy in here.. and liking someone will only worsen it... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:27 --Link to Post |
| 29.6.03 |
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just came back from dinner...
did abit of maths today.. so i'm pretty glad... but still got alot of things i not too sure abt... so tomorrow will be pia pia pia... went to eat at jerry's.. the bbQ cum grill at jalan kayu.. erm... food was abit above average... yesh lala... calamari was great... but the price was WAY above average... 132 bucks for the 5 of us... man! and they all point finger at me say i recommend... i pay... but quite farnie lah... when we had to pay.. dad took out his stack of cards from his pocket... piangz... quite a number of credit cards.. but more of membership cards... priviledge cards.. and stuff like dat.. but the waiter see... the waiter also pengz... now me cracking head over complex numbers.. which is indeed... very complex... but will stop soon lah... and change to GP mode... tmr GP... cannot let mr wee down... =P me go chiong liaoz... hope i can find my thermometer... and the SARS declaration form... or else they dont let me into sch tmr... wait a minute... that IS a good thing rite??? ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:23 --Link to Post |
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this was pretty cool...
found it in my mail... be enlightened... Everyday when you return from your school, whether or not it is from a secondary school, a junior collage, a polytechnic, or ITE, you would probably think that school sucks. All that work and torture under your lecturer's or teacher's homework or assignments, or tutorials... But think about this, I mean really think. All the time spent with your classmates, all the laughter, sorrows, and happiness of knowing that your friends are there in your class. Now imagine them gone, perhaps part of them or even all of them. You may not realise it, but when advancing into the next level of education, it is inevitable that some friends will be parting with you. What is all this you ask yourself, what I ask is of you to think, for those who received this mail, what do those people who were once or were still your classmates and friends meant to you. Anyone who has at least finished their o levels and has graduated from respective schools would know the feeling of parting with your classmates and friends. Not knowing when you still see them again. Perhaps the next day, the next week, month, years, or even decade. Perhaps one day, you would realised how bitter sweet those memories were, the fun you had with your classmates and friends. That is why ever so often when you asked someone which is the most fond memories they had in their years in education, they would often have that sadness in their eyes, but yet, they smile briefly. It's the memories of their school friends. Those unforgettable years of laughter and happiness in school. Each classmate had suffered under the same stresses in school. The teachers, whether they are kind or extremely strict. So treasure your schooling days, don't complain, because you never know when you will miss them dearly. And perhaps, shed a tear for those treasured times in your youth. Let those whom are weak and tormented in the spirit find strength in this letter, knowing that someone still remembers them, and care for them. No matter the circumstances. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me... yeay? suddenly i feel this rush to get back to sch... even though got a week of tests... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:56 --Link to Post |
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its sunday...
me guess i shouldnt get too worried abt gene lah... ...maybe he left his phone in camp??? ...maybe he just dun wanna reply my sms or answer my call... ...maybe his phone dropped into the toilet bowl... possibilities galore... looks kinda rainy again... supposed to wake up at 0730... but stucked in bed till abt 9 plus... today's maths... hope i can finish up most of the revision.. tmr do some practise... then i'll be preped for tuesday's paper... my preparations for this CTs kinda suck... just hope i'll be able to scrap thru... and not get chopped by my tutors... so... its down to my books for now... wish me best... coz i hate differentiation and integration... man! oh yah... called SCV yesterdae.. coz connection was being terminated intermittenly... spent some time giving one worded answers to the guy on the helpdesk... my sis called twice.. me once.. and my dad twice.. all of us got different solutions... person told sis to monitor situation... guy told me to get a network card... guy told dad to wait 24hrs.. ... oh well.. just as long i can blog.. i'm pretty glad liaoz lah... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:09 --Link to Post |
| 28.6.03 |
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cant really concentrate on studying the whole day...
the guy coming in to do up cable modem... moving of the pC into the living area... the heat... being unable to contact eugene for the past day or so... everything to take my mind off studying... but seriously... am hoping gene's okay... the sms-es died off quite suddenly yesterdae... and he din reply my sms-es on to both of his HPs... and he din answer my call abt an hour plus ago... gawd... wat could have happened??? cant think of anything positive that could have happened... man! gene! if you're reading this, reply my sms!!! and to think i ended one of the sms with a 'Be safe...'.. *b|az faints... now me thinking of calling him at home... i'm not stalking... but this is worrying me... really unlike him leh... broadband came in today... its fast yeah.. but been giving us alot of prbs... sis/bro's msn not functioning properly... and my IE's screwing up periodically... just hope that it stays fine for now... coz the scv helpdesk asked my sis to monitor the situation first.. at least for the next two hours... so here i am... taking time off the notes... to watch over the connection while she's in the bath... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:13 --Link to Post |
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actually wanted to blog this yesterdae...
but kinda forgot... watched a little of the chn 8 serial... erm... holland village... then saw this part abt mo xiao ling's character being discrimintaed abt her looks... man! i think its pretty much like dat in real life as well... though we havent seen much of it yet in the semi-sheltered environment of education... *b|az looks into mirror and fret... really??? its kinda scary... then wat happens to your talents/abiities/qualifications/sacrifices??? all undermined just like tat??? anyway... who is to decide wads beautiful and wads not? its all in the eye of the beholder... somehow i tend to lean towards the argument that beauty is somewhat over-rated... might sound again like sour grapes... but wat has your looks got to do with wad you can do?? so... why should it be the deciding factor on wad you can achieve?? something i've alwaz believed in... people should not be incriminated over things they haf no control over... things they are born with... but i guess the way society looks at them... will be the odds they are fighting against... low self confidence... ...something bestowed upon me... whenever pple take a second look at me on the streets... i'll be like... 'man! now wads wrong with me... issit my hair??? ...my face??? ...my arms??? ...my legs??? wad!??!?!' *b|az tears hair from head... its THAT traumatising... so i'd rather look at the concrete floor.. not all the time though... ...coz banging into pillars aint a pretty sight as well.. =P hopefully its just a phase i'm going through... i think living the rest of my life with my eyes on the floor aint a good thing... man! think of all the things i'm missing... brad pitt might just walk past and i wont even know! ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:06 --Link to Post |
| 27.6.03 |
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nite time...
almost the end of the hols liaoz... aint very productive this hols... many would agree to tat... been slacking way too much... ate pretty much today... ice cream... muffin... durian... and thats just snacking!!! simply eat alot when i'm at home like dat... argh... **initialising STATE OF PANIC** CTs just the next week... cant say i'm prepared... but cant say i'm not... just trying... hopefully i am... dont wish to die in the hands of the teachers... *b|az faints... its back to books now... hopefully i wont sneak back online later tonite... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:25 --Link to Post |
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haiz...
stupid... republished blog... took so long... hours on end... coz i wanted my archives to appear by month... but still even after hours... oni a few months was published by the month... give up liaoz... =P just done with watching the returner... oh man... it's one good show... nice action... nice plot... nice gadgets... nite twists... woohoo! and the girl's shoo pretty ... and of coz... the guy's handsome too.... can borrow from me if any of you want to watch... its pretty good... k k... me go study liaoz... or else pple make noise... ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:56 --Link to Post |
| 26.6.03 |
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ever lost a close fren, relative, klassmate or stuff like dat before?
be it by death or maybe just by a lost contact... somehow i guess if the person meant alot to you.. you'll see parts of that person manifesting in others ard you... maybe i'm overly sensitive... but can help but see him in people ard me... but wat if all these were in a single person... am i expected to fall in love again like i did years ago? maybe its just an illusion... probably so... it becomes an expectation.. filling of his shoes... which is sad.. which means i havent really gotten over it despite the length of time that passed... maybe i'm still waiting for the answer... but dont think i'll ever get it... c'mon... its time to move on.... yeah... i know... but seriously... even if i'm to fall in love with someone right now... i wont be sure that i'm outta the shadow of the past... been thinking... the greatest liar in my life would be myself... tat applies to many pple as well... or so i think... but... Disclaimer: No...i am not infatuated with anyone now larh... hmmm... was tat a lie as well??? *shrugs* =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:55 --Link to Post |
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home...
clean... smelling better than an hour ago... man! stupid andrew... make us go gym so early... in the end... msg me say he cannot make it... oh well.. he said he had work... on hindsight... arent we his work??? his job is to coach us mah... give him benefit of doubt... no use training under a coach you dont trust... yeay? but todd valdich wasnt very happie andrew din come... although he was fine... joking with us and all... but could hear his sarcasm in his voice... that he was already doing SSF a favour by letting us use the gym... since we are not carded national athletes... that the least andrew could do was find a replacement for himself... man! they keep using the word not carded YET... but i'm really very skeptical abt being carded at all... feel as if we are all being taken for a long rollercoaster ride... am i getting anything outta this??? i dont know... but oh well... just let me enjoy surfing and my pple while i can... can be considered the weakest on the team... even if the team was to get carded.. i might be left out... =P but i'm trying... pretty engrossed in the bus ride back with WQ i guess.. we'll getting along better now than before... down to some serious gossiping... use of oxymoron... spent some time talking abt her love interests... and mine... well... at least its something to talk abt... better than both of us listen to our own radio or something... which is wad i seriously prefer if i dont know the person well enuff... bought the returner... somehow i remember somebody telling me its good... oh yah... gerald told me YXY bought it... so trust YXY's taste... should be a good movie... will watch it soon.. if not tonite... =) met eugene... supposedly for dinner... but he came with his stomach filled and mine growling... havent had a big fish in a long time... thot it should be time to fight the phobia of bones in the big fish... found some in my last big fish... switched totally to chicken whopper jr... i love bk... its da best... hey buddy... was expecting the 'i-forgot-how-much-it-cost' trick.. but wasnt fast enuff... nevertheless... thanx for dinner and the ride home... somehow the ride seemed kinda familiar... *shrugS* am deciding whether or not to blog another entry... hmm... maybe i should... we'll see... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:35 --Link to Post |
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woohoo!
blogger upgraded my blog form liaoz... its looking better and more user friendly... am glad... brr... in school library now... freezing cold... but bo pian... been in this place for so long i saw the sun come and go.. the rain fall and dry... and now the sun's up again... =) its pretty... that everything's drying up again... which i'm pretty grateful for... coz my shoes.. nike ones... know those woven ones??? they dont really have plastic protection in the front.. so they kinda let water in when i walk on wet puddles... oni discovered it after i bought the shoes and fell in love with it... yesh... i fell in love with my shoes oni after i bought it... weird... but yeah... then i hate wet socks... OBS camp kinda made me realise... that the best luxury one could ever have was warm socks and dry shoes... even though we were soaking wet... clothes dripping and all... it didnt matter... as long as i had my dry socks on... man! those felt good... fingers kinda freezing now... i had to take them out of my jacket to type this... but lending it to sen and gang later... they're going to play pool and sch shirt aint the way to go... brrr... today's been pretty cool... sorta 'studied' some maths topics liaoz... more like a review actually... then did abit of chem TYS... finally understood the gist behind nitrogen compounds... man! i took THIS long... gym today is a little earlier... coz andrew insisted on having it so... so that he can chiong earlier... =P spoil my routine... but oh well.. i have my plans as well... cant get the song i posted yesterdae outta my head man... whenever i'm outside the library... i'll either be humming it or TRYING to sing it... stress on TRYING... Note to ignorant: stef cant sing for nuts... but i think the song is really cool... not becoz someone intro-ed it to me... but seriously... it was one of the songs i liked yet never knew... ya? k k... its abt 1610 now... time for me to get myself ready to leave school for gym... today got the yucky exercise called... 'Horizontal front and back...' no idea? i didnt too... it looks damn easy... but man! its the worst of the lot... not mentioning the medicine ball twist... gross stuff... hmm... but looking on the bright side... *smirk* today clashes with the soccer guys... woohoo! *b|az cheers... ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:15 --Link to Post |
| 25.6.03 |
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is it ever possible that the person you think you know really is unknown to you?
well.. i think its more possible than not... i, for one, am behind a mask i wear everyday... i cant say its deceit... but maybe as a form of protection of your true self... that you want an upper hand above the rest... thus you keep your true self away... kept from others... i guess it makes you feel less vulnerable... less susceptible to harm, fear, guilt, hurt... and it takes more than guts to reveal your true self for the world to pounce on... i dont think its something wrong.... but i think its sad that anyone has to live life this way... seriously... am i??? i'm not even sure myself... coz i guess even i have been taken in by myself... it sounds illogical... incoherent... i guess thats how my thoughts are rite now... why so? i have no idea... eugene, its all your fault... on a lighter note... I am fine... not suicidal or anything... but thought its good to look deeper into things once in a while... and since i was in the mood... so why not? we keep saying.. 'BE YOURSELF...' but do we really know ourselves? ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:00 --Link to Post |
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think the holidae mood is getting to me...
which is the wrong time actually... i should be getting back INTO sch mode... but haiz... let me take whats left of this holidae slowly ya??? i think it'll be my last hols till the last dash... the others would be named study breaks liaoz... know that i'm kinda slacking now... but seriously... havent been able to get myself into the rite state of mind... keep thinking abt going out to sea... ... withdrawal syndrome i guess... haiz... dunnoe how... today been home all day... kinda inactive... considering a typical day for me is one all over sg... but oh well... ive got gym on tmr... would be earlier... 530pm??? *smirk* that clashes with the soccer guys training... woohoo! been eating alot as well... at least.. more than wad i eat in sch... actually i do eat alot in sch... and darling mom came back with my favourite apple pie from carrefour... piangz... a whole pie... gosh.... i think i'll probably eat more than half of it... =) ate ice cream i found in the fridge as well... and that's called snacking... havent heard wad i ate for the so-called square meals.... shant go into those... i'll oni scared myself... SELF JUSTIFICATION: i was hungry...=P spent some time talking on the phone today... which isnt supposed to be the case... hey... i'm supposed to be studying.. but my self discipline aint that good... me thinking of going sch tmr... to study... hope the library's open... or at the weather bearable for me to study in our oven-like study area... maybe i'll concentrate better like dat... i hope... dont haf much time... its the last leg... i better make the mark... oh ya... watched the animatrix last nite... was supposed to be watching it with my sibs... and our holiday midnite show... but they fell asleep... i found the short films really intriguing... thats the power with short films... the briefness of it all... leaves much to your own imagination... your own thoughts... it's better tat way i guess... you choose wad to believe in... instead of getting it all laid out for you... more possibilities... infinite actually... watch it... i thot it was good... it better be... i spent 12.90 on it... hmmm... wont my opinion be bias by that fact?? oh well... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:44 --Link to Post |
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Frente_-_Bizarre Love Triangle
Every time I think of you I get a shot right through Into a bolt of blue It's no problem of mine But it's a problem I find Living the life that I can't leave behind There's no sense in telling me The wisdom of a fool won't set you free But that's the way that it goes And it's what nobody knows And every day my confusion grows Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray I'm waiting for the final moment You say the words that I can't say I feel fine and I feel good I feel like I never should Whenever I get this way I just don't know what to say Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday I'm not sure what this could mean I don't think you're what you seem I do admit to myself That if I hurt someone else Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray I'm waiting for the final moment You'll say the words that I can't say Every time I see you falling I'll get down on my knees and pray I'm waiting for the final moment You'll say the words that I can't say ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:52 --Link to Post |
| 24.6.03 |
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gym!!!!
*pants* pretty fun today... had james wong the thrower coming in today... suaning andrew abt the asian games saga... =P hmm... think he some big shot... i guess he has to be... all 119kg of him... no cute TKD guys today... got a couple i dont really fancy... but got lotsa army guys doing up the structure in the stadium... and national shooters... and the soccer guys.. =P enuff liaoz... i love gym... you can guess why... saw red jimny today... just the way ben wanted it... but i strongly discouraged... so he got a dark green one instead... thot it was nice... din get to see the number plate though... it might have been ben's... maybe he sprayed it... but oh well... watching animatrix with siblings.. if only i can resist the temptation of staying online rite now... someone get me outta here!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:34 --Link to Post |
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have you ever wondered what lies beneath the surface of the sea?
as a windsurfer who often has her legs dangling from the board... its a frequent thought... which you rather not think abt at all... esp with all the scary fishes you saw in finding nemo... if you found them scary that is... i havent really had the chance to really look into the water... although i'm there almost every other day... sg's water a tad too murky for that... but i have seen beautiful documentaries of coral reefs and stuff like dat... and teeny fishes, small sharks, shrimps, snakes and stuff like dat before... and its really pretty... so is that something to fear??? i guess not... but at the same time you cant be certain of wad else is out there... been in many close shaves in my years of windsurfing... but seriously... most of them are man-made one way or another... 1. SHIPS... was sailing with my senior once... and thot she was more experienced... just followed real close when we sailed round this big container ship... but current was really strong... and even though the ship was stationary... the current sorta created a suction at the bow of the ship... senior's equipment was sucked in... and all she could do was swim away as fast as she could... for dear life... she was ok.. equipment suffered a few scratches... and a farnie smell... but we were lucky... 2. BUOY... hmm... was training out at the international beacons... sea currents work in a way such that they're stronger the further you go out at sea... was waiting for the rest at padang buoy... not too sure how its spelt though... or why it is named as such... kinda fell in after i lost my balance... was struggling to keep afloat... and my sail away from the buoy which was full of barnacles... sail got torn... human was still alrite... though i got a bashing from andrew... lucky i was using the lousy training sail... if it was my SIN23... piangz... i'll just die there... 3. JETTY.. i mean bedok jetty... its really near the club... so when we were first starting out... the lousy us would often drift towards the jetty... which is scary with all the fishing rods hooks and pillars with barnacles... never got under the jetty... though others had before... woah... it'll be freaky man... back to physics... ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:44 --Link to Post |
| 23.6.03 |
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did abit of MCQ in the TYS...
then went to meet wx for lunch... it was pretty okay lah... thai express... i remember it was better the last time i had it... with the basketballers at the esplanade... but today was not bad too i guess... went orchard alone to look for a swimsuit... damn difficult to get one.. coz alot of them are really fancy... kinda dislike fancy designs... AND fancy prices... nuthing caught my eye really... maybe i should order one from rae again... at least i can mix my own cut and materials and she orders them from brazil... am really a no frills person... argh... just hope i'll find something nice soon... ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:49 --Link to Post |
| 22.6.03 |
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=P
dinner was okay lah... food was great... but had like 4 screw-ups within one dinner... kinda spoiled it abit.. 1. the dinner was served very late...some screw up in the kitchen i guess...but 1 whole hr??? 2. size of soup wasnt wad my mum ordered...a little too small for our family of 6...my granny was ard... 3. size of our favourite soft shell crab was a tad too small...every one oni had like a bite or something... 4. the crab was totally late...abt 45 mins after the first dish...what the... but i dunnoe why.. cant seem to control my emotions... got pretty frustrated and subsequently quite impatient... acting totally OUT of character... but cant understand.. cant control... =P i dont get angry THAT easily... and my friends think i have pretty good anger management... just that i cry very easily... i dont wail... just tear very easily... usually more coz i'm disappointed than anything else... with myself...with my work...with anything actually... =P spoke to eugene on the fone for pretty long today... parents were giving me THE look... coz i dont speak to pple on the fone very often.. ask lala... i NEVER speak to her on the fone for long one leh... even though we're pretty close... but no... eugene's not my whoever... but just enjoy talking to him on the fone leh... dunnoe why also.. just got this very comfy voice that i cant get enuff of... he just seems so worldly wise... and topics just come oh-so-naturally... oh well... but cant do it again lah... parents will definitely think there's something going on... yah... i know it's weird that they check on me like dat... but its something happened sometime ago... which betrayed their trust... dont blame them for their lack of trust now... just hoping they'll grow to trust me again... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:53 --Link to Post |
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okay...
me admit... never did much today.. just one essay outline... then went to town liaoz... met cy at abt 2pm... then got his harry potter book.. then watched the in-laws... not bad lah... quite farnie... dunnoe why can talk better to him today... maybe coz me in crappy mood... feel bad... pon training... but thing is we told andrew liaoz.. supposedly for study break... but seriously.. coz i cannot maximise time one... so i can oni utilise 20% of my free time to study... so must increase my free time as much as possible... went to mr tan's place after tat... bbq... its his family thingy actually... but he invited some of us... felt good... that they actually treat us like family like dat... like i mentioned... he's more than a coach to us.. more like a shifu... yi ri wei shi, zhong shen wei fu... hehhee... crapped alot with the rest.. it was good lah.. think i talked alot today... just acting out of character... dunnoe why also... bleah... oh ya... shi mu said i gained weight laioz leh!!! must be all the sakae i've been having... so me going on diet next week... maybe not... coz i can never stop eating... but since its my study week... maybe i'll go for jog every evening... good for my brains too... k k... promise myself... but confirm break one... well... for now... at least... it should stand lah... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:37 --Link to Post |
| 20.6.03 |
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woohoo!
met the councillors at somerset.. went for sakae again!!! okay.. OFFICIALLY... i'm sick and tired of sakae buffet... so i'm not going to eat it... at least not for the next two weeks... argh! went ard shopping... once again... never beared to spend anything on myself.. though i saw alot of nice stuff... but bought this DCP tee for CY... kinda coz i feel bad for missing his b-dae... i actually went out with him without knowing its his b-dae lor... piangz... how dumb can i be? feel ultra rotten... but hope he likes the shirt... coz in order to get the councillors opinion... i had to tell them who is was for... piangz.. i got it good man... then the whole day after that... they were doing the CY...CY... thing... buay ta han... took the NEL today... seats are really ultra cool.. and comfy of coz... but the douby gaut interchange was a little inconvenient though.. had to walk damn far to the NSL... =P but it was great... got me to town in less than 40 minutes... usually it'll take me at least an hour... good thing abt trains is that they're usually super punctual... but if they screw... the delay is huge... but oh well.. just glad i finally got my MRT... k k... will log off to start on my paper 2 of RJC... then i would have completed two JCs... wish me good! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:54 --Link to Post |
| 19.6.03 |
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brought my bro out to mac to have breakfast...
had the chicken porridge... absolutely hate it when i eat hot stuff like dat.. coz i'll start prespiring like nuthing... bo pian... it seemed like the healthiest thing on the menu... argh!!! no more fast food... i'm supposed to be on a diet!!! but wait... i'm supposed to go sakae tomorrow!!! argh!!! wad diet??? then came back home... did some work.. i stress... SOME... then went to tampines for a swim... piangz... and i learnt the hard way... when you put sun block... you EITHER put... or you DONT put... piangz... i put some play play.. then now... the tan abit farnie... what the heck... swam abit oni... 23 laps... weird number... but its my favourite number!!! went KATC abit late i guess... wearn how cutted his hair.. piangz... he looked so much better.. but he still as yucky... so i dont like him.. he and andrew straight away ciaoz when we're done... piangz... did even give us the chance to stretch down... ... wad kind??? so i'm pretty glad he's leaving for paris tomorrow... but only to come back abt 3 weeks later... darn! stay out of singapore!!! piangz... he supposed to be studying lor... aeronautical in london... but gave it a break.. saying wanna come back sg to train M1D... in the end??? jet to every where else... for every other competition except M1D... wah lau.. he's damn smart one lor... straight A's for 'A's... dont wanna see him throw his life away leh... i know he got more money than he can ever spend... money from SEA, ASIAN games... but thats not the point... love my daddy... he came out of the car today to help a lady to take out the wheel chair for her elderly parents.... sometimes when he does stuff like these i'll feel so ultra proud of him... coz he's da best... got once... he stopped his car... and gave these two strangers a lift to somewhere quite out of the way... coz the old lady was having trouble walking... he piggybacked the old lady lor... to his car.. then sent them... piangz... when i heard it i stoned... coz it was something i would never think of doing... but it inspired me.. so i might not be the nicest person ard... being sarcastic/insensitive/idiotic and all... but i'm trying... at least... to be like my daddy... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:08 --Link to Post |
| 18.6.03 |
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confession...
i know i'm supposed to study today... but in the end... just couldnt do it... woke up late for the online meeting with mr lim and WITS team... then meet till abt noon... slacked till abt 4... then brought my bro out to watch finding nemo... at least for now... nemo is found... and i dont have to complain that i havent watched it... it was pretty good lah... but as a teenager who is still pretty much of a kid... i found it a tad too draggy... i loved the witty jokes... cute anemones and stuff... but dory with the... P. Sherman 42, blah blah blah sydney... was abit too much for the popcorn-stuffed me... but loved it.. dived into my dad's car with his favourite MOS fries... telling him how much i love him... it's kinda difficult though... coz you cant really tell anyone how much you love them... and its not easy to do it with actions too... coz some pple... like my dad... are totally insensitive abt such stuff... mushies like dat... actually love is pretty difficult a thing.. sometimes... you yourself dont know how much you actually love a person... there is no yard stick for love... eg... my love for you is as deep as the deepest ocean... yeah rite... how would you know how deep the deepest ocean actually is??? no one knows... i'm not being cynical here... but love IS a B-E-A-U-TIFUL thing... like bruce almighty would say... and the prettiest things in life are immeasurable... they never are... coz if they do... they lose its beauty... the wonder of something infinite... the endless possibilities... like when i brought my brother out today... it didnt matter that we din talk much in the bus... it didnt feel uncomfortable at all... coz he is afterall... my brother... so why put on airs... we fight at home... verbally, of coz... but nah... it never haunt us... coz we're siblings man... and there's is nuthing as beautiful as family... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:11 --Link to Post |
| 17.6.03 |
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confession...
i know i'm supposed to study today... but in the end... went to meet serene, gy, bernie and wynn... hehehe... it was pretty good lah.. been some time sicne we last met like dat... did alot of bitching... abt pple and pple's boyfriends... ate our favourite gelare's... walked abit... but talked alot... well.. it was good.. miss them to bits... they changed abit... but i think we're the same old pple just enjoying each others' company... went window shopping with renez... kinda conscious of my expenditure liaoz... must be sensible... economy aint good.. dad might get pay cut... but i dunnoe lah... civil service lor... most probably will have... so wont spend on non-edible stuff unless i really really HAVE to have it... but been spending alot on food... ever since i started gym work... been eating much more crap... serene's the best lah... can talk abt anything with her... confessed something to her which i confessed to lala as well.. she ask me add oil... =P nah... i'd rather wait and see.. coz it might not be true after all... gym today was really crowded.... coz the cricket u-19s were having their introductory session.. piangz... and andrew brought his wearn how along... the cricket u-19s had this super shuai guy... wah liew... he looks mixed... and damn freaking good looking... we were practically stealing glances every 10 mins... wearn how just came back from london a couple of days ago.. piangz.. that guy damn filthy rich lah... fly to london like take train like dat... fly their for recreational racing lor... *b|az pengz... but starting to dont like him liaoz... me and qi thinks he makes less of a gentleman as we know him better and better... keep asking us to hurry lor... just coz he and andrew wanna eat dinner together... piangz.. think they damn gay lor... like dat time... when andrew paid for wearn how's race fee for the previous race... andrew said something like... 'what are friends for...' gawd... so mushy.. but its true lah... they're really good frenz... so cant fight their frenship and andrew's responsibility as a coach... =P just dont like the way he keep snatching andrew away from us... hmpf! k k... will go sleep liaoz... still havent got to watch finding nemo.. will do soon.. maybe bring my bro and his best fren out... the one with the cute elder brother... mauhahaha... see how... must start studying liaoz.. starting to worry abt CT... gawd... wish me best... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:05 --Link to Post |
| 16.6.03 |
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finally...
end of the final day of elects' camp... woohoo!!! not that i'm that against it... but finally... our hard work... all paid off... it wasnt great... but it was good... i hope... three cheers for councillors... lalaa... was pretty tired the whole day.. but k lah... it wasnt tat bad... ran ard quite abit.. slacked quite abit too... busy day... but finally... its all over... this marks the last event in my council term... kinda sad... but happie at the same time... dont know how to explain or express... but i guess we've been thru quite abit... and regardless of wad others think of us... i think we rock... now i understand why chunyong was so proud/defensive/protective of his council... coz they worked damn hard to build it up... and i dont think it should be pulled down by a mere comment or remark... we know wad we've done... and done good.. and we should be proud of it... met VA vice prez at the bus stop outside sch... hehhe... kinda on smiling terms with VA pple coz of lala... so it was pretty ackward yet supposedly 'only right' that we sit together to talk... boy... i think that was the most i ever crapped... he was pretty good at it too... when i ran out of things to bomb him with... he did break the silence... man... i was like asking funny questions out of the blue... bleah... i must be crazy... but oh well... spent some time on the 'council-is-good' defense... and think i did pretty okay... hopefully... no one likes council... at least not as much as i do!!! i love you guys to bits!!! oh ya... was walking by the library today.. smiled and waved at sentill.. not knowing that YXY was actually rite in front of me.. and i asked gerald b4 that to help me pass his prezzie to him... so gerald pointed him out to me... and after some charade... to tell him i needed to pass him something... went into library to give him his prezzie... ungrateful ass... =P but oh well.. hope he likes the shirt... we had a difficult time choosing it... we thot it was pretty nice... yeay! kk... i kinda stink after the whole day... ciaoz liaoz... going to get a good nite's rest.. chiong-ing homework and revision tomorrow... DAY 1 of studying... wish me best... that is if i dont decide at the last minute i need a tan more badly that i need revision... or else i'll go swimming... woohoo! ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:58 --Link to Post |
| 15.6.03 |
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races were horrible today...
kinda jialat in fact... things really not going my way... totally at the back of the team... losing out loads to wanqi and leeching... haiz... really dunnoe how... i've been pretty hardworking... but really cant commit as much as sam and wq does... not blaming council.. only myself... but the plus side of today is that got to have alot of fun with the peeps at the beach... realised i was the only girl in our bunch not going ard in a bikini... i was... but i had a top on... which they said wasnt of much use coz its white... so there they were flaunting their all while we were playing beach volley... but at least i felt myself... aint got enuff confidence to take of my shirt.. though they were cheering me on... =P maybe when i get abs... which means never... oh ya... beach volley was pretty much fun... coz played against the malaysians... then very farnie... lotsa stupid things came up.. but the best part was the cute guy who i have been eyeing was playing directly opposite... gawd... it was the longest time i got to look at him... oh ya... took pictures.. so am pretty happy... with seniors... juniors... malaysians... coaches... team... woohoo! sad thing is... the place where we party 4 newyears... learnt windsurfing from scratch... shivered in cold together... braved the storms... basked in the sun... ...is going to be torn down by the next week... haiz... coz they opening up the club area to public... so its damn sad... coz this was our place... everyone was family... everyone almost knew everyone else... even how distant... we would acknowledge each other presence... its not common to foster such a relationship with pple like twice or thrice your age... i'll miss the place like crazy... really.. sad that judah cant come back in time to see it for teh last time... he's only coming back in aug... =~( the place means alot to me... having our last party this friday... no more uncle robert to pass us flares on new years eve... no more uncle shawn to disturb us... no more uncle suddin to call me steffie... no more mr tan to dote on us... they might still be there... but we wont... sad... argh... forgot to take pix with them... darn! i should and i must.. i will... maybe one day soon... =) i'll miss them.. sch tmr... sleep early... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:39 --Link to Post |
| 14.6.03 |
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oh ya...
couldnt really sleep last nite... think it was the sushi... but suddenly thot of the pple ard me... and you know wad really makes me happie??? pple with sincere smiles... those who really dont hold back their smiles... esp so when i'm the one who made them smile... Top 10 Most Heartwarming Smiles... not that they look pretty/handsome when they smile... hmm... they already are... but coz of the fuzzy feeling i get when i see them smile... in no order of merit... 1. Samuel Chng... when he smile ah... his eyes sorta twinkle and its really pretty... even if he just completed his irritating-me stunt... his smile would save his ass... 2. Serene...486... she has this super small mouth... but has this super wide smile... nan de... 3. Alwin Lai... his eyes sorta become slit when he smiles... i think... then its quite ke ai... his was one of the first names i thot of last nite... coz i think his smiles are pretty sincere... 4. Xiyang... before lala thinks of anything... not that his smile very nice... but somehow it feels warm... 5. my Grandpa... one of my favs... esp when he watches comedies... his whole face simply lits up... i think my grandpa is one of the shuai-est pple i know... 6. Lala... she'll kill me for saying this... but her whole face will turn red... its like a happiness indicator... the redder she is.. the happier she is... 7. Zhou Silie... hmm... my first ever crush... that never worked out... hmm... coz of his teeth... he got this pair of hu ya... then he looks really cute when he laughs... 8. Mr Tan...my shifu... he's alwaz very humoured by me.. i dunnoe why... really when you have a coach who dotes on you so much you think of him as a father... you'll love his smile as well.. 9. Cass... my twin... i know we dont really look alike... but she's one of my closest pals in council... she's abit like wynn... frank...outspoken...charismatic... so her smiles are alwaz honest and sincere.... i simply love her to bits... 10. my Sis... how to say??? she's my sis... you should see our photos together... my smile pale in comparision to hers... but these are very dependent on how close pple are to me... so if your name's not here.. doesnt mean you dont have a nice smile... i'm sure you do... coz everyone does... just that in my pretty short memory span... these were pple whose smiles really touched my heart... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:21 --Link to Post |
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bleh...
today was da pasta fresca regatta... club race... did super badly lah... alwaz came in last among our team.. though beat those who dont train with us.. and the malaysians on raceboards... still morale bashed dirt low... lost to leeching also.. this ex national surfer... haiz... she hasnt been training for freaking long lor.. yesh she does gym.. and sails occasionally.. i feel terrible lah... beat SK for one race oni.. actually quite gek... almost wanted to protest qi... coz i had the right of way.. but she dropped her sail on my board... accidentally... but it threw me totally off course... got it pretty bad... she can come in first somemore.. gek gek gek... then got this stupid guy... play tactics... this guy not in my category block me.... even though i was in rite of way... then let his fren in my category go first.. piangz... maybe its not purposely.. but freak! i was pinching my way up lor... the least he could do was to tack further away.. freak! argh... but the plus side is... saw some of the malaysians who i used to think were cute... been racing with them almost every year liaoz.. but havent had the chance for a formal intro... maybe tomorrow nite??? during the dinner... and oh ya... there's this guy... with doe like eyes... so pretty... everytime the club comes down from johor... i'll be looking for him one... so happie he's here... oh yah.. today happy thing is that i met shufang after a long long time... caught up with shuzhen... and the like... been some time since i last saw them... so this reunion is like pretty rare... although my races suck... i think i'm pretty resigned to it... not in the sense that i'm giving tmr up... i'll work even harder... but i'll cease to be depressed coz of the results... racing is an enjoyable thing... so i should enjoy myself... maybe gawk somemore at the guys... esp those from malaysia... since they're going back tmr... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:13 --Link to Post |
| 13.6.03 |
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quite farnie today...
actually class outing... but even the organizer fell sick... then very little pple go.. lala...me....YC...weisong...merv...alvin... piangz.. so in the end.. the guys and gals split... gals go shopping ... guys go lan... wah piangz... shop like crazy today... was hugging this huge doggie the whole day... so paiseh... somemore we both so under dressed... in beach wear.. but bo pian lah... i've got her... she got me... we're fine... lala and me ate at taka first... then started our shopping spree.. stupidly... we bought the doggie first... then hugged it ard the whole of orchard... dumb us... but nvm.. it got us alot of attention... bought alot of things for other pple birthdaes... not for myself... effectively... i only got one top from adidas... and lotsa surf stuff for other pple.. din get wad i was looking for... so bo pian... things i saw nice were a tad too ex... and me abit short on finances... economy no good too... dad's pay might get cut... so better scrimp and save... but in the end... still end up at sakae.. eat and eat... ate nice things... gross things... piangz... but eat until damn full.. realise that i can actually eat more than some of the guys.. woohoo! after that went YC house to watch the SVA video... had a good time laughing... and then learnt abit of how to play majong.. heheh... learn bad things there.. muahhaa... so here i am back home... dead tired.. tmr got club race.. wish me best... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:52 --Link to Post |
| 12.6.03 |
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was talking to laoda on the bus today..
you know... his usual matter-of-factly fashion... things he said actually hit a nerve... not in the negative manner... but in the way that in invokes thought.... which sustained me in reflections throughtout the bus journey to ECP... seriously wat am i working so hard for??? my dad doesnt understand but he faithfully drives me home more often than not... my mom doesnt understand but she does my laundry everytime i come back from the beach... my siblings dont understand but they put up with my mood swings everytime i had a bad day at training... laoda was rite in a way... i put in effort for council... pple slam us... undermine us... insult us... criticise us... of coz they do praise us... and stuff... but seriously... do anyone appreciate our work? our sacrifices? i dunnoe... it sucks sometimes when i think abt it this way... but most of the time it is made good by the other councillors with me on this... at least i know i'm not alone... its a vicious cycle... windsurfing takes time away from my council work... council takes time away from my windsurfing... but ultimately... all these take time away from my family...studies...friends...myself... frankly... i feel distant from pple ard me... i have great friends in my klass... council and stuff... but i have no clique... not like it matters... but sometimes you just wished you were there when things happen... i dunnoe how to explain it... but i dont feel in... its not anyone's fault but my own... but i cant help it... i just cant find time for all the people, things, issues ard me... and ultimately... i dont haf time for myself... seriously i'm dead tired... which is ironic coz i'm here blogging... but i had to get this off my chest... supposed to be meet up with casey for lunch this week... wanted it on friday... but decided to give it up for the klass... changed it to thurs... but had to hold a meeting for EC... so its put off indefinitely.. i feel bad... coz i promised him... was supposed to meet the girl gang for ice cream last week... tuesday's half priced waffles... but they had to put it off coz of my gym training... i want a normal life... i want to go shopping... i want to sit home and play harvest moon... suddenly training seem pretty pointless to me... its like... we're training so hard... but we cant meet up to international standards... we cant even beat our seniors... we keep disappointing andrew... we are nowhere man... SK quitted... citing time constraints... wad abt me??? sometimes i do feel like throwing in the towel... but i dont wanna regret it in future... gosh... someone tell me wad to do... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:38 --Link to Post |
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pretty crazy today...
woke up to alwin lai's sms... lookig for pple to watch ju-on with him... so i act smart decided to go watch with him... met him after EC meeting in sch lor... at lido met the rest of the councillors by chance... but they all going to watch finding nemo.. with dean the soccer guy... stupid me had to watch the stupid show with my hands over my eyes... darn... wasted 7.50 just like tat... =P but alwin lai wasnt that mean lah... unlike the time the bunch of us watch final destination together... he was practically laughing at how we freaked out.. today he was like warning me abt the scary scenes... telling me to relax... when the coast is clear to open my eyes... hahah... stupid show really quite scary... think it'll be some time before i will dare to walk out to the living area in the dark again... freaky!!! after the show met the finding nemo pple... walked to pacific plaza... coz i wanted to shop abit... see whether can find nice board shorts... but dun haf leh... sadz... then to taka to makan.. dean's pretty farnie a person... though he was the oni non-council ard... i think he fitted in pretty well... usually i would clam up in front of 'strangers'... but nah... not today... but alwin lai was unusually quiet though... dunoe wats up... hope he's ok though... gym training today quite sian... my 'crush' oni came in when i finishing my routine... realised that he's actually working liaoz... no longer in sch... coz today he came in with a long sleeved shirt.. and leather shoes... super unlike his training attire... once he changed... he look like my age lor... but good thing abt gym today is got hunky newbie!!! we demo to him the warm up routine... wah lau.. that guy is damn freaking strong leh... biceps curls we were doing 4k each side... he was doing 16k!!!! piangz... he was huge... somemore he was wearing the ACSi sleeveless shirt... i think he EX student... coz he looks older... piangz... his muscles all one chunk one chunk one... *b|az faints... k k... i'll stop the crap... sleep early today... tmr going out with klass... woohoo! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:36 --Link to Post |
| 11.6.03 |
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4 hour maths lecture...
condensed into 3... piangz... then spent the break in between in the audi sleeping... was struggling during the lecture lor... piangz was falling asleep most of the time... worte rubbish lor... piangz... buay ta han... went to eat with YZ, laoda, angel and lala... mos burger!!! long time never eat liaoz.. had my favourite ebi rice burger, minestrone soup and milk tea... woohoo!!! then took 76 to ECP... laoda was nice enuff to accompany me... although he could have taken another bus at a nearer bus stop... was pretty late... couldnt keep the rest waiting for me... so spent 4 bucks on abit of the journey into seasports... wind was pretty okay today lah.. pretty gusty.. but nice wind to pump and all... disturbed some beginners than andrew was teaching... think they are teachers from MOE... darn! wad if one of them was to come into AJ... piangz... hahha... but still... had fun today... sam was his usual crappy self... but he was nice enuff to help me take out my equipment and rig up abit for me... qi was wearing her new roxy bikini... a big difference from her previous tube... so the tan line was terrible.. but think the bikini's pretty nice... quite a steal at 30bucks... will maybe drop by pacific plaza one day.. need to do some shopping... need new shoes... k k... super tired today.. will ciaoz first... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:26 --Link to Post |
| 10.6.03 |
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today's one eventful day...
erm... kinda missed the first half of maths lect... shsshh... coz finishing our SL proj.. then survived the next two hours... din go for water training... after much contemplation... reached home at abt 3 plus... had my lunch... then slacked abit... left house for national stadium at 5... gosh... met qi on the bus.. and we crapped our way to kallang... it was suay lah... missed the soccer team... coz i think they train earlier... or else will have more eye candy??? think they were the ones i saw outside the washrooms... =P think they have NDP preparations too.. saw lotsa guys in green waiting for the trucks as i was entering the stadium... this week is called recovery week... so instead of the 5 set/exercise workout... we oni need to do 3... but tried to max on my weights... if there's anything i need to do... its to build up my strength... am too weak to be a real windsurfer... ex-senior leeching was ard today... on attachment with the gym... wah lau... she was lifting 10k dumbells... i was even shivering with the 6k... crap... she is darn strong... and i'm darn weak... argh! when will i be able to sail 25 knots of wind??? c'mon... toh.. this sailor from VJ... i stress... 420 sailor... is now in germany competing with the top... she's kinda one of the best on the 420s... which is pretty power... but thing with windsurfing is so darn different... cant seem to get anywhere.. not even on the asian level... the thais...HKGers...chinese...japanese are just too darn strong... both in technique/experience... haiz... feel super inferior... but i'm still working hard... back to gym today... the TKD guy came in with a full faced helmet today.. i think he alwaz did... just that i din notice... kewl... he actually rides a bike... and his helmet looks alot like wf's... maybe all helmets look the same.. oh well... saw this yellow duckie on his bag... piangz... heart shattered lor... imagine biker guy with a yellow duckie on his bag... confirm attached laioz... mauahhaha... nvm... he'll do fine as eye candy... =P oh yah.. weighed myself at the gym... gosh... i am heavier than b4 lor.. damn sad lor.. dunnoe is whether i build muscle or gain fat... wat ever the case... it means i'm carrying more weight on my legs... darn! i'm too heavy!!! i think i'm heavier than sam lor... heavier than i look... almost as heavy as andrew... heavier than the weights i do... darn! k k... get down to work liaoz.. ciaoz... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:03 --Link to Post |
| 9.6.03 |
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yeah finally can blog liaoz...
couldnt for the past couple of days.... but finally when i can blog now... got nuthing much to say... except that i had a pretty boring day... went to my friend's place... which was damn cool... it was pretty near to weisong's place... coz i went over for GP proj once... the place damn cool lor... they can actually open the lift doors for you with the lift button pressed liaoz all from their apartment... call me mountain tortoise... but i'm freaking impressed... gosh... and its one of the very few private apartments ive been to that is really HUGE... usually they're really small with a couple of bedrooms and stuff... but this is relatively huge... man... i guess money does make the world go round... then met up with my bro and mom for sakae sushi... had the buffet... wolfed everything down... kinda enjoyed it... coz had unlimited helpings of the tofu that i simply adore... the veggie tempura that rox... my fav salmon... chawan mushi... and finally.. i din have to pay for it... man... the beauty of dining with your family... =) k k... i think am pretty fat after that liaoz... lucky got gym tmr... so hopefully i'll build more muscle than fat...=P oh yah... update from yesterdae... now we're back in pasta fresca seasports... using my laogong again... the SIN23... woohoo!!! miss it... but kinda tough to sail on it now.. not used to it... club race next weekend... SK quitting for good... haiz... so many changes... aint good... kinda sad... but oh well... kk... will ciaoz now... maybe do some ab exercises to make me feel less guilty... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:07 --Link to Post |
| 6.6.03 |
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woohoo!
prety late tonite... coz soccer support kinda ended pretty late at 7plus...almost 8... coz the council stayed back to cheer for the guys during the prize presentation... it was good... we won the 3rd/4th placing match... AJC soccer team got 3rd! tmr taking my SAT... so i better ciaoz early tonite... nitez! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:40 --Link to Post |
| 5.6.03 |
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okie..
i know i said i wouldnt blog tonite... but i buay ta han... today WQ din come.. so kinda trained with sam and andrew oni... wah sey... saw the TKD guys/girls... shooters... UK shyam.. weightlifters... point is... think me got a slight crush on one of the TKD guys lor.. he's not the good looker... but really... he's damn cool... super fit... was trying very hard to concentrate on my own routine... but couldnt... until sam snapped me out of my stare... just am really amazed at his fitness and strength... and though we dont talk... i can see he hold no airs... but today he was abit off form... the poles he was jumping over came crashing down after he hit one of them... even eddy, the gym trainer, said that it was the first time he din cross the height... then kinda tripped while doing resistance kicks... and he finished much later than we did... hmmm... maybe his routine longer... but he did look tired... speaking of tired... i am too... will ciaoz to sleep now... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:13 --Link to Post |
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today's PE was pretty cool...
played basketball with the klass.. guys, gals and all... its cool lah.. been some time since i really got down to playing it... captained the TK bball team when i was in sec sch yesh... but not for my skills... probably my ability to leave the impression on the teacher that i was working when i wasnt... my group actually not bad one... got YXY...cherchin..merser...yeesing...weiding...and yuzhong... hahaha damn farnie lah.. super noisy... hmm... i think i was the one making the most noise... but nevertheless it was a good show of class spirit... and i was happie... stunk the whole day after PE today... din go for chem pract coz i was simply too tired to do anything liaoz... need to go for gym this evening... so rather go home and sleep... i know its very bad of me to do that... mrs wong was in fact offering us a chance to do our pract ahead of the rest... but realli... it was a case of body over mind... fatigue rules the day... am leaving home for the national stadium soon i guess... wont be blogging tonite coz i would probably be chiong-ing homework... pretty much hoping that the national rugby team really going to be there today... would be way cool! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:06 --Link to Post |
| 4.6.03 |
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woohoo!
hot hot hot wednesday... had to wear tie... then it kinda like suffocated me... day was pretty much in a hurry... din really have time to stop and slack... until after sch anyway... first time in a long time that dont have to stay back for council stuff on a wednesday... then coz alot of pple in AB camp... alot of pple got Learning journey... so weirdly enuff... went to watch bruce almighty with alwin lai... haha... i know... its weird... woah... it was a good movie lor... read somewhere that its abit of blasphemy... din think so... somehow i find it quite inspiring... maybe becoz i do get bad days like dat... like bruce in the show... and kinda related to it... its abit lame... but somehow... i find logic in jim carrey's humour... that it aint as shallow as it looks... amazingly... i find a whole load of wit and intellect in his movies... except the super smelly ones like dumb and dumber...the mask...ace ventura... hmm... thats a whole awful lot... but look at liar liar... bruce... me, myself and irene... should see his NG's... usually there coz of the jokes he cracks out of the blue... dont know if i blogged of this b4... but betted with alwin over the previous chem test... who was to do better... kinda won chicken rice... but feel super bad abt hoping so hard i'll win... can really say why... but yeah... feel rotten... but received his sms just now after i apologised for being mean... he kinda said something like he betted with me so that i would work hard... and hopefully do well... i felt so immature and such an ass... was touched by that sms... and started to think whether all scholars are like dat... heard of YXY doing it as well... if thats so... i think they deserve admiration... not for their scholastic achievements... but for the maturity they actually possess... and the concern they have for their peers... like i said... i felt rotten... and like wat YXY would say one year ago... i felt anti-superior... i saved that sms... coz it touched me... made me grow up... made me realise that beneath all the suan-ing between us both... i have a friend in him... one who cares... ...and that was enough to keep me smiling all the way home... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:09 --Link to Post |
| 3.6.03 |
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day was pretty okay...
kinda boring but i guess thats like most days... training today seemed a little easier than before... even though i increased weights.. maybe coz we're getting used to it.. really lor.. cant concentrate on gym work one... my eyes would be straying off to the super-fit TKD guys... and saw someone wrote that the rugby guys are going to join this slot as well... piangz... more eye candy??? concentrate!!! andrew kinda crushed my little finger... he accidentally pushed me... then my finger got crushed between two dumb bells... wad a dumb way to get injured... pain lor... cant even bend it properly now... today's entry shall be short.. its already 1030pm and i'm still stinking the whole room up... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:25 --Link to Post |
| 2.6.03 |
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today AJ soccer team lost to VJ 0-4... we played okay lah... keeping the score tied at 0-0 until half-time... cheered my lungs out... proud of the soccer team... proud of my council... but seriously dunnoe what to say abt the supporters today... cant say they werent cheering coz i did see some enthu ones... but alot of the councillors realli down... seeing the response of the AJCians... its quite difficult... was pretty happy that my klass got to go... but it came crashing when a couple of my councillors tapped me on my shoulder to say that my klass aint cheering... seriously i dunnoe what to do... when i did turn back... i hoped to see they were wrong... i saw lala cheering...YZ...laoda...PC... sometimes the list ends there... it dampens my morale so much i rather not look at anyone at all... continued cheering... coz i thot thats what our soccer guys need the most right then... encouragement... it wasnt their best... but such things happen... the fact that they can play like tat out there is already commendable on its own... three cheers for soccer... YXY's b-dae today... me and lala chiong-ed down to AMK central to get his cake... din really eat it... but let him bring it home... damn bang lor... brought my week allowance out to sch today... not a single dollar left after today... paid lala for the AMI CD... bought YXY's cake... and lunch... gosh... took bus with cher chin, jiaen and gerald... dunnoe why i'm actually hanging out with the scholars so much... they're pretty crappy pple... so its pretty cool... somemore gerald became nicer nowadays... its definitely not what you think... but he'll like carry my file for me... like just now when we were shopping at J8 with jiaen.. i stress... he VOLUNTEERED... willingly treat me to BK... and stuff like tat.. dunnoe why also... maybe coz i got a secret of his with me... muahahaha... maybe collecting secrets is a good hobby... hahaha... can put to good use... k k... will get down to work liaoz... yucky stuff.. nitey nite... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:38 --Link to Post |
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siong ah...
today really couldnt wake up... macham sleeping for for the sleepless nites this week... woke up at 11am... when i'm supposed to be at ECP at 1230... with lunch in my stomach... and my equipment all rigged up... darn! so bo pian... late lor... stupid andrew finished his pumping machine liaoz... pure torture man... one minute on it... and you see samuel panting like siao... sweating as if he just got out of the shower... somemore he alwas never wear shirt... then bronze color... like somebody added varnish... i tried the machine... couldnt last 20secs... keep losing balance... its designed in such a way that if you do slack.. you'll fall back... that means nuthing to hold your weight back... siong ah... but did oni one set... coz by the time WQ finished her second set... the pulley was totally worn off liaoz... so andrew has to go get the heavy duty ones... thats how siong the machine is... water training today was quite jialat... totally cant perform lor... had andrew screaming beside me most if not all the time... gross... freaking tired.. but still have to push on... really cant pump the way sam taught me to pump... cant gybe the way andrew wants me to gybe... its like... difficult to teach an old dog new tricks.. not that i surfed very long liaoz.. but certain maneuvours... once you get used to them.. cant change liaoz... was pretty scary today... suddenly while we were resting out in open sea... deep waters... drinking water... andrew screamed... 'keep your legs on your board!' he saw a shark lor... but luckily it was a nurse shark... or so i was told... abt the length of my arm... scary... sailed past it.. and andrew could still joke whether anyone wanted shark's fin... phew... scary... k k... now its time to get some work done... last week of sch... hope i dont get into any trouble with teachers... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:57 --Link to Post |
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