| 30.11.02 |
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being among the large crowd along the streets kinda got me looking out again...
and got me thinking... about him... and hows he's doing... am i destined to be plagued forever by this habit? i dont know... i wanted to call but held back... he needs his space... and all i can ever do... is wish for his happiness... he was down with high blood pressure where we left off... kinda worried me... high blood at that age aint very common... but it seemed like a job thing... working for the MHA doesnt seem to easy to me... getting the job as senior officer... at the age of 25... kinda ruins the meaning of the post... yeah? getting the job seemed easy enough... but i guess the real challenge is keeping up with it... the 1.5 years needed to keep his resume pretty is kinda up... wonder whats his plans... to stay on... or go back to working for his dad... or maybe even take over the business... but thats not in his character... if i remembered right... it's been really 1.5 years... since the new job came up... and we lost touch... its kinda long... to think of it... considering its 1 of 12 parts of my life... brooding over this... moving on aint as easy as it seems... the further you fall... the longer you climb... we corresponded for more than 1.5years... i think putting it all down would take twice or maybe thrice as long... just to sit up... and walk away... never to look back... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:42 --Link to Post |
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watched treasure planet today...
woah.. its really cool... with fast machines... chio ships... and a good-looking main character... woohoo... liked it lots... but maybe its just me... with my addiction for animations like this... but this movie is both futuristic... yet heart-warming... one of the most intriuging part was where you see the soft side of big 'ole meanie, Long John Silver... the fatherly stuff he actually does for the guy... it's quite a struggle actually.... to be good yet bad both at the same time... but the movie played with it brilliantly... * * * * *-i give it 5 stars!!! ate long johns twice in one day... how cool can that get.... once with the council for lunch... and dinner with the guys... bleh... din really eat dinner in the end... had a nice sweet choco cream pie... actually council went to suntec to dance... haiz... wanted to go... but wanted dinner with the klassmates too... and ended up at long john's again... how wonderful... had a long and eventful day today... dad wants me to sleep early.... coz i have to pre-spring 'spring cleaning'... bleh... hope i get thru it... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:23 --Link to Post |
| 29.11.02 |
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was in bus....
this time awake... but quite uncomfy... couple rite in front of me engaged in some really =P PDA... bleh... dunnoe why they cant do it in private... seriously.... dunnoe where to put my eyes... couldnt sleep coz had to alight in a couple of stops... ended up staring into my bag... for what seemed like forever... =P msg to couples... Take your PDA some other where. *PDA is not personal digital assitant...i meant public display of affection...haha... hmm... think i sounded a little like sour grapes... but thing is... its kinda really... not nice... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:37 --Link to Post |
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had an interesting day today...
din start the day off that well... was late for sch... and caused alwin to be late for meeting with teacher... coz i had that prizd proposal in hand... worse thing was that it was incomplete... the new stuff abt the long banner and welcome banner was missing... missing being i din do them... argh... but alwin din blame me that much... heh... just threaten not to give me that i/c treat he was supposed to give all of us... went out for lunch with alwin and jerhsuan... quite a funnie combo i know... but it just so happened that we were the hungry pple... so went bugis to eat... food court... hah... amazed at how fast they eat... when they were done... i wasnt even halfway thru... but oh well... they are farnie pple... really... laughed until my head almost dropped off again... too bad alwin had to leave early... so me and JH went shopping for printer... had fun learning new stuff... like cool USB hubs can set you back by 118 bucks... while you can settle for the most basic (slow) ones for 15 bucks... and the cool 'new' xbox... which isnt really new... only that i've been a tortoise which just came down from the mountain... and din know abt it... bought one of the most basic printers... anyway... he only needs to print proposals... rain left us stuck at sim lim square... so we ran across to BK... and watched the world go by... managed to finish one issue of newsweek... and JH... managed to catch up on sleep... haha... he fell asleep reading that book of his... day ended pretty abruptly... bought the thread for frenship bands... then took the bus home from AMK... paiseh thing was... was sitting beside this JC2 from my sch... recognised him even in street wear... wah liew... fell asleep lor... ON HIS SHOULDER... piangz... *hides face* k lah k lah... better go bury my head... bOO! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:12 --Link to Post |
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think this story is damn cool...
found it in my mailbox... be inspired... A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the 20 pups. And set about nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard. As he was driving the last nail into the post, he felt a tug on his overalls. He looked down into the eyes of a little boy. "Mister," he said, "I want to buy one of your puppies." "Well," said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat off the back of his neck, "These puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money." The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket, he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer. "I've got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?" "Sure," said the farmer. And with that he let out a whistle "Here,Dolly!" he called. Out from the doghouse and down the ramp ran Dolly followed by four little balls of fur. The little boy pressed his face against the chain link fence. His eyes danced with delight. As the dogs made their way to the fence, the little boy noticed something else stirring inside the doghouse. slowly another little ball appeared, this one noticeably smaller. Down the ramp it slid. Then in a somewhat awkward manner, the little pup began hobbling toward the others, doing its best to catch up.... "I want that one," the little boy said, pointing to the runt. The farmer knelt down at the boy's side and said, "Son, you don't want that puppy. He will never be able to run and play with you like these other dogs would." With that the little boy stepped back from the fence, reached down, and began rolling up one leg of his trousers. In doing so he revealed a steel brace running down both sides of his leg attaching itself to a specially made shoe. Looking back up at the farmer, he said, "You see sir, I don't run too well myself, and he will need someone who understands." ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:29 --Link to Post |
| 28.11.02 |
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had loadsa fun shooting hoops with the rest of the councillors today...
bball skills kinda rusty... but still.. it was cool... jerhsuan was damn farnie lor... he plays a good game... but his antics can leave you in his dust... and in stitches... really... i actually COLLAPSED to the floor in laughter... i think i laughed more than i run... walked ard alot.. goes to show how lazy i actually am now... must run must run... 2.4 tmr??? haha... in my dreams... i think when you enjoy yourself... doing the things you like with the people you like... you tend to love life a little more... i think the coming weeks will see me in sch more often to pass time like this... the holidaes are finally kicking in... but dont think life will be that cool for long... need to start work soon on the orientation backdrop... and i'm the backdrop I/C... wad a post... quite yucky actually... means that i've to force every single one of the councillors back to sch... on alternate days... just to paint the banner for me... i hate being the bad guy to spoil their hols... but i dont think i have a choice... wad they mean by 'life's full of choices'??? i dont see them!!! kinda msg-ed CY up after the long silence... looks like he has to go into the army really soon... dec11... hahah... will meet up with him maybe to pig out... seoul garden? he can eat his fill before going in that scary sounding place... talking abt CY... *disclaimer* to councillors:we're not together or anything... some of them thot so... but the fact exists as that i never really spoke to him after that incident... or rather... series of incidents... i dunnoe why... but he kinda automatically distanced himself from me... i would rather that not happened... coz we could have been really good frenz.. if the possibility of going further than that never surfaced... and affected our frenship... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:06 --Link to Post |
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was at YC's house when i heard this song...
heard the S.H.E. one before this... but think the lyrics really cool... take a read... Destiny's Child_-_bRoWN EYeS Remember the first day when I saw your face remember the first day when you smiled at me you stepped to me and you said to me I was the woman you dreamed about remember the first day when you called my house remember the first day when you took me out we had butterflies although we tried to hide and we both had a beautiful night The way we held each others hand the way we talked the way we laughed it felt so good to find true love I knew right then and there you were the one I know that he loves me cause he told me so I know that he loves me cause his feelings show when he stares at me you know that he cares for me you see how he is so deep in love I know that he loves me cause its obvious I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts and he's missing me if he's not kissing me and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul Remember the first day, the first day we kissed remember the first day we had an argument we apologized and then we compromised and we haven't argued since remember the first day we stopped playing games remember the first day you fell in love with me it felt so good for you to say those words cause I felt the same way too The way we held each others hand the way we talked the way we laughed it felt so good to fall in love and I knew right then and there you were the one I know that he loves me cause he told me so I know that he loves me cause his feelings show when he stares at me you know that he cares for me you see how he is so deep in love I know that he loves me cause its obvious I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts and he's missing me if he's not kissing me and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life and baby now that you're a part of me you showed me showed me the meaning of true love and i know he loves me I know that he loves me cause he told me so I know that he loves me cause his feelings show when he stares at me you know that he cares for me you see how he is so deep in love I know that he loves me cause its obvious I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts and he's missing me if he's not kissing me and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:37 --Link to Post |
| 27.11.02 |
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think this song is really nice...
enjoy... Enrique Iglesias_-_Hero Let me be your hero Would you dance If I asked you to dance? Would you run And never look back? Would you cry If you saw me crying? And would you save my soul, tonight? Would you tremble If I touched your lips? Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this. Now would you die For the one you loved? Hold me in your arms, tonight. I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain. I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away. Would you swear That you'll always be mine? Or would you lie? would you run and hide? Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind? I don't care... You're here tonight. I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain. I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away. Oh, I just want to hold you. I just want to hold you. Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind? Well I don't care... You're here tonight. I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain. I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away. I can be your hero. I can kiss away the pain. And I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away. You can take my breath away. I can be your hero. ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:29 --Link to Post |
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went to sch for log meeting...
haha... had fun jisiao-ing alawin about his potential 'other-half'... i think i kinda over did it... but dont think he mind lah... =) recently have less to say on blogs... dunnoe whether is it becoz i'm starting to tire of blogs... or simply that i stopped thinking as much... but both ways its good... so that i wont take too much time outta my life to write crap like this... not that its purely crap also... important stuff in my life goes in here too... someday... i'll just like to sit down in my comfy chair... and read all that i've wrote... its darn possible that no one's reading wat i have been writing... but i'm not doing this for pple to read... frankly.. its quite scary when you think abt it... i'm like talking to myself here... hahah... i'm going bonkers... but oh well... life rolls on... whether we like it or not... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:11 --Link to Post |
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something from one of my favourite movies...
Patch Adams... blue skies smiling at me nuthing but blue skies do i see... blue birds singing a song nuthing but blue birds all day long... blue days all of them gone nuthing but blue skies from now on... pretty cool actually... love blue... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:58 --Link to Post |
| 26.11.02 |
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Sixpence None the Richer_-_kiSS ME
Kiss me out of the bearded barley Nightly, beside the green, green grass Swing, swing, swing the spinning step You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight Lead me out on the moonlit floor Lift up your open hand Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance Silver moon's sparkling So kiss me Kiss me down by the broken tree house Swing me upon it's hanging tire Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat We'll take the trail marked on your father's map Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight Lead me out on the moonlit floor Lift your open hand Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance Silver moon's sparkling So kiss me ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:36 --Link to Post |
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something that has alwaz baffled me...
when i am in a group... i tend to try to lead... not that i want to... but i do want to get things done... coz if no one stands out... i would... not for the limelight... or the leadership... but just to get things done... but its already a couple of times that i have been accused of taking it all... 'being insensitive to others'... i guess its true... coz i cant see myself and how i might appear to others... it gets me quite sad actually... coz its definitely not in my intention... i'm an introvert... a definite one at that... so as it is... it's already very difficult to get me talking... much less try to lead... and look as if i'm enjoying it all... cuz in actual fact... i'm feeling worse than any of them... but it just seems that i'm doing it all wrong... and thus i do get a little afriad when the occasion calls for it... bball team was easy to manage... everyone involve themselves in things... so i din have to lead... and try to make them work... they just work on their own... assisting me... or rather... we work together... everyone's a leader... TK was good... i dunnoe why i cant replicate that in aj... issit me thats changed? or that ajcians are really that unresponsive that i have to do things in a more authoratative way... to be frank.. i'm quite sick of it all... i dunnoe how to go abt it all anymore... help... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:05 --Link to Post |
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watched the bachelor yesterdae...
kinda surprised that he din choose shannon... coz i thot that she was the best among all of the 3... couldnt stand that trista... bleh... 'are you sicky???' with that animated voice... wanted to puke... kinda disappointed... coz kinda expected someone like that alex wouldnt go for looks only... not that he's handsome either... haiz.... why why why??? ------------------------------------- this holidays might be a good chance for me to do some reflections upon my life... there's really something i am doing wrong that i'm not getting the life i want... which is kinda sad actually... knowing wad you want... but are unable to get it... actually i feel kinda lost... dont really know wads going on in my life... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:55 --Link to Post |
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"When in doubt, make a fool of yourself.
There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative & acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth. So what the hell, leap!" - Cynthia Heimel - hey... there's a reason behind every little stupid thing i do okay??? ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:14 --Link to Post |
| 25.11.02 |
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had a good day today...
shopping's alwaz good yeah??? well not really... had trouble finding a cheap pair of shoes... so had to settle for a pair that i thot was nice... but others would beg to differ... u know the nikes that look like ketupat? hahha... i got one of those... grey one... not too bright... so it'll keep me outta cat ang's view until my next pair comes in... realised that i bought one pair every half year... but bo pian... alwaz go for shoes below 100... then council dancing... they kinda wear out real quick... bought nice pair of nike ankle socks... to make up for the pair i threw at obs... was kinda bleh by the mud and sand in it... dunnoe why but love their ankle socks... doesnt give me smelly feet! lalala~~~ got some other stuff... stuff that i'm pretty pleased with... so glad... actually been spending a lot of money... will try to save... try my best... saw my OBS campmate at queensway... hahah... she also went to buy new shoes... i think OBS really spoilt everything for us... i exchanged toothbrushes with someone... i din use it!!! coz it was already end of camp.... come back home change toothbrush... fork and spoon came back bigger... dont think those are mine... threw my yucky socks... =( those with a tick... donated my favourite shoes to OBS... water and mud-logged.... so sad... i think its time for some anti-itch... been itching away the whole day... sandflies!!!! @#$#@%@&&%^!!! mosquitoes!!! %#%^#*&^**^$!!! argh!!! they're driving me me insane!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:41 --Link to Post |
| 24.11.02 |
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wanted to go shopping with mum... in the end... maid tagged along... then sis came along... kinda got a little sianz... walked compass point on my own... got this pair of men's shorts... kinda big... but comfy... some hairbands... and had my fav caramel frappacino... kinda sinful... so walked my way home from compass point... aint very far actually... comfortable distance... and appreciated the serenity of the surroundings... dad's ride to hougang... got us passing by ave10... where he lives... kinda took a peek... same bike parked in the carpark... same lot... hmmm... no honda super4... singlehood is finally getting to me... guess the downside oni comes when you're bored to the core... and today's one of those rare days... i think its time i get back down to the beach... and get my mind occupied on something... something constructive... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:55 --Link to Post |
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bleh...
think me on the down side of my mood swings... aint good... maybe i'll feel better after tomorrow... shopping for new shoes... yeay... not getting those ex ones.. maybe sumthing decent enough to last one semester... a pair of nikes? that'll do fine... like nike... hmm.. that rhymed... today is kinda of a boring sunday... will see lotsa entries coming in... lalala... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:16 --Link to Post |
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was talking to my dad on the way home after giving lala and joe a ride home...
kinda about being attached now at this age and sorta thing... he kinda said its better not to be... tied down at such a young age... when the world's still waiting to be discovered... kinda ironic... coz he got together with my mum at abt 17 ya know... but i was saying... what happens if all the good guys in the whole wide world is taken by then? oh well.. i guess its all fate... my dad didnt really mind weefong... i told him that we were together... and that was in the middle of sec2... dad was fine... other than the fact that he was 4 years my senior... weefong came over a number of times... CNY... to fix my computer... and me to his place... just to watch south park... do homework... 21 mths went by blissfully like tat... till it came to a halt... family was supportive... they kinda understood the load of free time i suddenly had once again... and din really minded me using them as 'rebound'... thats wad family is for... i guess... to be there for you... that 21 mths made me grew up alot... not in behaviour... but rather... my thoughts... to be serious... my mind goes much deeper than my actions... trust me... but some people just dont see it... so wad they see... aint what i am... its not deceit... i'm just kinda protective abt my past... wad most pple see... is the kinda person i wanna be... real me? hmm... i'm not two headed!!! i'm just trying to find myself... ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:54 --Link to Post |
| 23.11.02 |
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bus to punggol jetty kinda drove past punggol 17th ave...
still remembered it was one of my favourite places... we rode into that road pretty often... he frequented it with his friends to do fishing... usually we'll go there after my training... to just sit at the breakwater and look at the sea... it wasnt facing the west... no sunset... but we could see the yellow and orange streaks across the sky... really pretty... we would talk abt lotsa stuff... sometimes even settled our mini quarrels there... many cars in that vincinity... probably there for a different reason... unlike us... tapow-ing octoballs to picnic in that place... =) one of the pretty memories... ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:21 --Link to Post |
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realised my OBS entry kinda short compared to the rest of my entries...
well i guess... i din enjoy it as much as i would like to... dunnoe why... maybe coz i din like it when pple start doing their personal stuff when the rest are busy with the group stuff... or when some just sleep in the tent that others built while others are still busy with it... or start walking really fast w/o consideration for pple who are struggling behind with lotsa bagz.. i would love to slack too... but kinda thot... if everyone did... nuthing would get done... so i worked... and worked hard with a few others... but i'll choose to remember the better stuff... the nite we just laid down on the grd... under the pretty stars... talking abt ourselves... the time we helped each other up the rock wall... where encouragement really helped made the difference between impossiblity and reality... the jokes and farnie stuff that came out from the camp mates... the nice quarry games that we played... the land exped... where we fed mosquitoes... had crappy talk with samson... made fun of him... kept irritating gerald... which was not that fun... coz kept getting suan-ed back... with his witty one-liners... talked alot one of the nites with lifang... kinda felt as if i knew her real long... she's kinda like rene... instructor jinella was quite nice too... kinda motherly... not that she's old... but she really helped us lots... camp was quite good actually... if you filter out the yucky stuff... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:11 --Link to Post |
| 22.11.02 |
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just back from OBS today...
itching away like crazy... never had so many mossy bites before... i mean 3 mosquitoes can bite you at the same time... damn eeky... like blood tranfusion centre... sleep also can hear the mosquitoes buzzing in your ear... group had familiar people... ms alice-lookalike... san thit woo, the runner... gerald...who i grouped with in 3 camps in total now... samson...our dear AVA vice prez... choon boon...haha...farnie guy... and of coz... 9 other NJC pple... kinda realised they had a totally different sch culture compared to AJ... kinda preferred AJ... some of the NJ pple... werent really my kinda pple... lotsa mosquito bites... been itching like siao... wah lau... they bite you like free one leh... really blood suckers... =P eh... cant really type alot about OBS... all the fun and wonderful moments... coz this kinda things is experienced on your own... so shall do a little summary... happy to know some people better... good or bad... had good food... even the ones we cooked ourselves... =) cool... most memorable experience... cold clothes... wet feet... holding in ur tent in the middle of the nite... falling asleep with your fren at your back... slapping each other damn hard to kill mosquitoes... belaying each other up the rock wall... =) OBS is good... i think we should all go at least once in our lifetime... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:35 --Link to Post |
| 17.11.02 |
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must confess...
play with ice at BK today... guilty that i started it... shooting ice at the guys... YC and laoda... heheeh... got one into YC's shirt... and lots at laoda neck... =P childish yes... but i laughed until i almost choked... sec2 was pretty fun... jess was the best ice-shooter.. every recess without fail... we would start shooting ice at one another... hahah.... was pretty gross lah... considering that we had to chew on them before putting them into the straw... kinda miss TK food.. not that its THAT good... but the feeling is kinda different... in short... i kinda miss TK as a whole... but things changed... teachers all leaving... mr yeo the funny guy... ms chuan the cool gal... mrs sin our favourite DM... ms liew the witty lit teacher... mr connor another funny guy... shen lao shi and her motherly acts... mr yip and his physics demos... mrs 'i-love-everyone' chia... our dearest form teacher mrs tan-lee... dunnoe whether they rem me or not... kinda low profile in school... even now in AJ... i must be the councillor with the lowest profile... but thats cool with me... i prefer to work in the dark... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:02 --Link to Post |
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read jielun's blog...
kinda moved to write something... i think one's future ultimately depends on the individual... i mean... no matter how their parents push them to study hard... at some prestigious sch... or something... even if they got a ph.D... they can alwaz choose to do something totally irrelevant to their area of study... like selling my favourite octoballs... no offence... octoballs vendors... just an example... admire ur trade... and how u make my favourite octoballs... my parents kinda give me the freedom of choice... my dad didnt mind when i said i might choose to go to a poly... to pursue aeronautical engineering... though my mum kinda wanted me to go to a better JC... she accepted the fact that i felt something for AJ... and left the choice to me... one incident that really showed me... i was mugging hard for my geography... couldnt finish my syllabus... went to my parents room... hugged my dad and cried... told him i might not be able to pass geog... that i might not get to a JC... coz alwaz thot thats where all parents wanted their children to go... and then to the U... but he actually said this to me... 'never mind if you cannot make it to JC... its okay even if you choose to go out to work now... as long as you know what you're doing...' that pushed me further... not to let my parents down... esp my dad... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:22 --Link to Post |
| 16.11.02 |
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walking along the streets today...
in the malls... the walkways... kinda had this tendency to stretch my neck out... looking... anticipating... something i cannot fathom... nor control... seen pple i know on the streets... ex-classmates... team mates... schmates... but just not him... dad drives home... head looks out... trying hard to spot that one green jimny... looking into every benz that passed by... but never got to see him... is sg that vast? or simply that fate doesnt permit? i'm not sure... and i dunnoe... i'm resigned to it... but somehow the hope of seeing him again doesnt seem to fade out... no it does not... but i guess i'm starting to move on... been having feelings i cannot explain nor understand... but really dunnoe... maybe i'll have to wait till a little later to find out... actually i get infatuated quite easily... harry potter... small anikin skywalker... haha... but seriously... i think a confirmation post wont come so soon eh? probably negative... we'll wait... ...and see. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:17 --Link to Post |
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council room had spring cleaning today!!!
aiyoh... lotsa dust everywhere... kinda allergic to dust... so eyes got a little itchy and red... kept sneezing... itchy nose.. hahha... but at least... we killed a couple of xiao qiangs (our resident cockroaches)... yeay... and some ants living in the boxes.. CR feels so much cleaner... at least for now... was out shopping abit today... saw jud's suunto watch... know wat?? that idiot lost his 300+ watch while out at sea... gosh... din know until SZ told me... *pengz* you know wad i can buy with 300 bucks??? going for OBS on the day after tomorrow... kinda eager... but also dunnoe wat to expect... hear both good and bad stuff abt oBS... but kinda looking forward to it... considering the fact i missed it in sec 3... stupid ms TNG... came out with policy tat all sports pple cannot go... scared we injure ourselves before competition... piangz... worst thing was that... at that point of time i was not in first team yet... *bleh* make me lose an opportunity to go OBS... promised to send us a few months later.. but din... stupid piggy TNG... enjoyed the bak kut teh dinner at cantoment with my family today... actually to me... it doesnt matter where we eat... what we eat... but it actually feels good that we make it a point to go out for dinner at least once a week... even last year when i had frequent Ws trainings... i would skip my team dinner to eat with my family... love my family lots... though been into lotsa conflicts with my parents... heated debates with my siblings... at the end of the day we just sit together and laugh at my dad's jokes at the dinner table... he's damn funny... once... we were talking abt my sis talking in her sleep... almost too engaged in drum major duties... he told us... 'tell her...sedeia! balik tidur...' which roughly means... 'attention! go back to sleep...' that was really farnie because of my sis' military band commands which she alwaz practises... piangz we ended up in stitches... couldnt eat no more... love them all... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:48 --Link to Post |
| 15.11.02 |
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long cold day today...
woke up with a slight fever... but had to drag myself to sch for games leadership course... bleh... it was fun... playing games that we designed ourselves... cracked our brains for... had to come in and out repeatedly from the reading room... piang it was freezing in there lor... then headache got worse... it was terrible... but had to ren till 5pm... bleh... but once again... i think we enjoyed ourselves... other than me and my headache... oh yes YZ... i asked my dad to return the library book for me... council guys going to japan... couldnt send them off... =( fever... dad wont let me go... haiz... but good that i'm home... so i can type my blog entry... and have an early nite's rest... damn tired... dunnoe whats to become of my windsurfing stint... WQ suggested changing the first week... which happenedto be the only days i could... but oh well... dunnoe whats shes thinking... kinad tough juggling council, WS and studies... think me better go finish some stuff for mr Lim Kim Thye... =( youth forum... then i can finally dive into bed.. and snore the nite away... so farnie... just now can even fall asleep while sms-ing... *shakes head* ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:37 --Link to Post |
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long day today...
enjoyed the day long games leadership course... coz it was pretty interactive... and therefore enjoyable... one more day tomorrow.. kanbate!!! played basketball with some of the councillors... pretty cool... starting to like basketball again... remembering how much i put into it for the past four years in sec sch... skill aint good... but still got the 'style'... or rather... the lack of it... maybe will play somemore tomorrow... bball rulez... watched harry potter with my family just now... was in same cinema as lenny, cass and some of the councillors.. but family comes first... but ended up jumping ard with cass after the movie... liked it lots... it was good... harry potter so shuai... he's my new ou xiang... jay chou now in second place... =P need sleep... damn tired... nitez~ ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:18 --Link to Post |
| 14.11.02 |
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hmm...
suddenly remember my craze over pokemon... it was like sec2/3... when pokemon first came out... still remember the 3 episodes that made me cry like shit... worse thing was that it wasnt anything sad... just how Ash managed to capture... bulbasaurus... charmander... and one more i forgot... it kinda personified alot of my beliefs in life... and most importantly... the ideals of frenships and relationships... one cannot forsake in our journey through time... loved watching south park too... he had broadband... and so downloaded episodes after episodes so that we can watch them together... din cry when kenny died after every show... kinda realised that he sorta re-appears after every episode... but enjoyed the times when we would just sit together... and watch our favourite cartoon... (my second favourite, after pokemon...) south park was kinda gross... but funny... it aint too much of the content or the cartoon itself... it was something we had in common... and the quality time we could spend together... he's in the army now... just done with poly... wonder whether he looks older... whether his hair changed... whether his family's doing okay... whether he managed to save up for the honda super 4 he alwaz wanted... still remember we were 'fighting'... i wanted a silver one... he liked blue... i was helping him save too... he had this big coke bottle... and we would put one dollar coins in it... i put in all the gold coins i could gather... and it got heavier by the day... was happy... i was... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:03 --Link to Post |
| 13.11.02 |
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was a wet and cold day today...
and thot of every single one of my surfers... two week camp in dec... dun really know how... coz council needs all the manpower it can get... but coach wants me back to train for singapore open... sing open... one of my favourite competitions... though alwaz lose... but get to spar with the region's best surfers... the power guys from thailand... the chilli padiS from hongkong... the strong bods from korea... and of coz the pretty ladies from japan... really cool... but before that... really have to train damn hard... but council doesnt really allow for that... i mean i cant just leave those pple with all the work... and go some other where... i campaigned to get into council... and i SHOULD do at least whats required... if not more... will try to juggle... and go for the large part of the camp... and hope it works as a crash course.... pray hard for me that the winds are in my favour... i'll need all the help i can get... *muack* the wind god... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:15 --Link to Post |
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hehe...
pretty fun day actually... alwin's stupid meeting ended pretty early... so alwin, graceH and i.... hmmm... went to coffee bean to drink kopi... realy had lotsa fun suaning him abt his 'split personality'... hmmm... check this out... 1. a BIG FLIRT all the girls know that.... 2. a HOMOSEXUAL... kinda contrasting... but found a picture of his gay pal in his wallet yesterday... 3. PAEDOPHILE... not sure about the spelling.. but you know? a person with a fetish for young kids... hehe... enjoyed suan-ing him thoroughly... it was cool... had my favourite caramel ice blended... and shared a tiramisu with gracie... it was really sweet... as in sugar sweet... think i better cut down on those... family got history of diabetes... though mild... there's still a threat... realised that actually they're quite open people... i mean even with things concerning sexuality... and stuff like dat... and we really enjoyed the small talk... the crappy stuff... met shuzhen... think she's really one of the bestest frenz i ever had... gave me a belated b-dae prezzie... really cool... handmade... i think i really appreciate such frenz... they just make your day really bright and cheery... all with a simple yet thotful act... she passed me some GP stuff... and maths... since both of these papers are done... wish her all the best for the rest of the papers... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:05 --Link to Post |
| 12.11.02 |
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this song's kinda old...
but its kinda cool... so if you'll kinda give it a read... it may just put kinda a smile on your face... =) Uncle Kracker-Follow Me You don't know how you met me You don't know why You can't turn around and say goodbye All you know is when I'm with you I make you free And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea I'm singin' Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me I'm not worried about the ring you wear Cuz as long as no one knows than nobody can care You're feelin' guilty and I'm well aware But you don't look ashamed and baby I'm not scared I'm singin' Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me Won't give you the money I can't give you the sky Your better off if you don't ask why I'm not the reason that you go astray and We'll be all right if you don't ask me to stay I'm singin' Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:39 --Link to Post |
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long SAT workshop today..
yucky thing that i dont like... kind of a dilemma... coz the guy's really boring.... so i dont listen to his lecture... but everyone's not listening... and its kinda mean to him... i wont like it if it were me... OKAY! i shall try my best to listen to him tomorrow... i promise... stayed back in school to do flag... log comm stuff.... skipped breakfast and lunch... bleah... dinner oni came at 8pm... but it was my favourite waffle... w/o my favourite ice cream though... met wynn... kinda cool that we still like the same ice cream... praline and cream... they din have it today... =( i think casey had a large waffle with cookies and cream... heh... it was another of our food outings... wanted blaz to try the ice cream at gelare's too... went to the outlet at suntec... i skipped lunch... he downed a whole packet of chicky rice... so we shared a large waffle with 2 scoops of ice cream... me and my extra sweet praline and cream... and he played it safe... with everyone's-favourite cookies and cream... we enjoyed it... just that he was kinda stuffed with the lunch and waffle... hmm... backtrack abit... met chun yen on the way out of school again... dunnoe why recently we so fated... walked with him to the MRT station... wanted to take 76 to tk... he was kinda down about maths... citing the 12 marks that he lost due to mental block... its kidna sad how practical this world is... alwaz see chun yen is school studying so damn hard... and just coz of a small mistake like dat... his whole life would be affected... it applies to everyone... the system sux... it really does... better go early tonite.. dad aint too glad about me staying online till late... tomorrow... SAT workshop... logistic meeting... long wednesday awaiting my arrival... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:31 --Link to Post |
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got this in my mail...
and if you noticed the pattern... i check my mail before i fix my blog... =) Pay attention to what you read. After you read this, you will know the reason it was sent to you! People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. When someone is in your life for a REASON. . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on. Then people come into your life for a SEASON. Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:35 --Link to Post |
| 11.11.02 |
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day today was pretty fun....
my nanny's daughter got the ROM done... kinda of a black-tie affair... got into my skirt and heels... gosh... it just wasnt me... but at least i din trip over myself... and the hems din burst... i am glad... ceremony went fine... except for a couple of kids who were kicking the chairs... and sighing periodically... my dad made a joke that they were protesting the marriage... got me into stitches... but oh well... they ARE kids after all... adjoured to century park royal hotel... or something like dat... aint that royal... but it was a pretty place with expensive lunches... had my fill of oysters... salmon sashimi... and all my favourite desserts.... haah... i think i sound like a pig... heh... it was good to hear xiao di kor kor jokes and crappy talk again after so long... shall explain the oxymoron there... xiao di korkor... which loosely translates to small boy elder brother... hah... coz everyone in his family calls him xiao di... so i called him that too... just that i add a kor kor behind... he's in NUS now... taking civil engineering... he likes to give me advice... and to him... dropping f maths seems like the wrongest thing to do... but oh well... wads done... is done... quite amazed with how easy it was for him to talk to everyone... cracking his lame jokes... his witty one-liners... he was really the life of the table... he's quite an attractive person... other than the fact that he's much skinnier than YZ... considering that YZ is already so skinny... kor must be even worse.... actually i really miss my nanny lots... her wonderful cooking... how she really took care of every single one of us... i mean my three siblings... for a measly sum per month... she's the best.... owe her lots... especially my little bit of hokkien... something that i would never have learnt if not for her... was really really close to them for the first twelve years of my life... i was like there everyday after sch... go there eat... sleep... play... it was fun... thats why i skipped SAT for today... coz it was jie's special day... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:37 --Link to Post |
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got this from my email...
it's pretty good... do give it a read... i guess we're all victims... =) A lecturer was giving a lecture on stress management. He raised a glass of water and asked the audience, "How heavy do you think this glass of water is?" The students answers ranged from 20g to 500gm. It does not matter on the absolute weight. It depends on how long you hold it. "If I hold it for a minute, it is Ok. If I hold it for an hour, I will have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you will have to call an ambulance." "It is the exact same weight but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becoming increasingly heavier, we will not be able to carry on. What you have to do is to put the glass down, rest for a while before holding it up again." We have to put down the burden periodically, so that we can be refreshed and are able to carry on. So before you return home from work tonite, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it back home. You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you are having now on your shoulders, let it down for a moment if you can. Pick it up again later when you have rested. Rest and relax. Life is short... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:30 --Link to Post |
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these quizes aint accurate...
but nevertheless... here it is...  What Type Of Anime Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:02 --Link to Post |
| 10.11.02 |
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day was pretty wet and cold today..
guess the monsoon's really blowing hard this time... and the council will probably have no problems trying to collect rainwater for the coming orientation... =) just in case you din know... we have to use rainwater for our games... yes... we do... yuzhong got sick after running into my dad's car today... i think the aircon was a tad too cold... and i din realise it... he was kinda drenched... so i guess he must have frozen his poor self... without daring to tell us... =) bought the same bag that he was carrying today... felt bad buying the same thing... but it was really a steal at 13 bucks... couldnt resist... probably pass it to my sis... and say it was 30 bucks... then i can save next years b-dae prezzie... day was kinda fun... walking everywhere in the rain... from beach road... take bus to hougang mall... hougang mall... take bus to heartland mall... heartland mall... take daddy's car to compass point... compass point... take daddy's car back home... sweet stella accompanied me everywhere... so nice of her... poor YZ left us earlier... bought the prezzies for jie's wedding tomorrow... kinda happy with the gifts... and the way i wrapped them... pretty pretty... red and purple with silver ribbons... thanks to our VA expert lala... will go for the wedding tmr... wearing a skirt... bleh... hate skirts... the last time i can remember wearing one was prom nite... a dress... but hey... that wasnt so bad... so i hope tmr will be okay too... that i wont burst the seams with my additional weight... going....... going.... gone. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:46 --Link to Post |
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day 23 of the month
my favourite number...yeay~ Your Personality You are an independent individual who loves challenges and excitement. You are ready to face the result of your own decision. You are a person whom your friends usually count on. i wanna laugh... Your Love Life Because you love excitements, you occasionally get involved in forbidden love affairs. If you fall in love with a married person, no one will be able to stop you. You are very charming, although you might not realise it. can imagine you guys puking blood... i understand... coz i almost did... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:29 --Link to Post |
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hehehe...
quite interesting to read something that i wrote almost a year ago... in rene's autograph book... remember that it was a rushy one... dunnoe why... felt bad... coz she was really nice to me... helped me with my studies... my work... she just made life prettier... for rene... "qing ai de hao peng you... si nian yi zhuan yan jiu guo le... shuo zhen de... zhe shi zai shi tai kuai le... (wo hai mei bei ni qi si jiu shi qi ji le...) but must add... though you can be quite a painful splinter in one's toe... you are a great pal too one that cannot be dispensed wor forgotten... maybe it's your 486ness or your S-L-O-W nature... that makes you different from everyone else... makes you less inhuman.. not that everyone else is not human... but we're just too caught up with everyday life... but you? just your xiao mian yangs... 'thai mode'... and ben and jerry's ice-cream... may have said or done things to hurt or suan you during the course of our frenship... sorry.. but deep down inside... i really appreciate having a fren like you... =) and no matter which JC we go... i still hope you can sms me stupid stuff and entertain me with ur stupid antics... aprreciate... jellibeans and eclairs... steff" ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:30 --Link to Post |
| 9.11.02 |
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had long day in sch today...
OGL workshop... coming as early as 9am to set up... leaving as late as 7pm to pack up... was pretty early already... since i had to leave for steamboat with the basketballers... was at ching's place... lotsa food... ate and ate... enjoyed suaning rene like alwaz... GY with her farnie jokes... stella and carrie's one-liners that make us burst with laughter... kitying's farnie pout... ching's 'you all must come and see my photo ya?' me and my one-worders... that suan rene... until she almost came after me with the ladle... oni tian cai wasnt around... she had to work... haiz... love the guys... i mean... really... rene gave me a belated b-dae prezzie... almost moved to tears... she took every single foto that we took together in our four years in TK... collated them onto a big cardboard... wrote funnie stuff... printed wat i wrote in her autograph book... together with wad GY drew... the pretty girl that doesnt look like me... serene really put alot of efffort into the gift... and i like collasped... thinking abt the amt of time she spent on it... i really missed them so much... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:58 --Link to Post |
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how do you know that someone is really tat someone?
i mean is there a fool-proof way of really finding out? i guess not... considering the considerable number of failed marriages... broken engagements and stuff like dat... but maybe there is... resulting in happy-ever-afters... and bai tou dao lao kinda stuff... so issit also possible that your very best fren now could just be the one? someone you have never expected... it is usually the case... who do you think could be the one? usually... the feeling is not reciprocated... you know wads worse? knowing that the feeling is mutual... but you are unable to take it further... after the mt faber incident... i knew i was in deep trouble with my dad... blaz knew... we drove ard town... ard serangoon gardens... shown me where he lived... drove back to my place soon after... i darent go up... afraid to face my dad... din know wad to do... just looked at him... my hand looked around for a comforting hand... found his... i thot he was the one... he told me not to worry... we could still contact each other... but i had to face my dad... and so i did... but it wasnt easy... got hell from him... my dad couldnt understand how i was able to find solace in someone i hardly met... but i did... we din do nothing... we just ate satay at mount faber... how wrong can that get? ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:32 --Link to Post |
| 8.11.02 |
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ao chinese today was horrible...
and just so that you dont have to read thru sad stuff.. i shall not go into that... just know that it's over... and i'm damn glad... just hope to pass... long day with CCA heads AGM... and OGL workshop... kinda noisy... but left halfway to go buy cloth with cherchin... hmm... realised that its not so difficult to talk to him after all... during the MRT ride to city hall... and the short walk to bras basah complex... spoke of life in sg... his home in malaysia... and even abit of the malaysia cup (soccer) that i used to watch faithfully in primary school... heehe... he asked me something... abt how i found life in singapore... i din really know how to answer... but said i din like it... not that i've lived in other places before... just that it's not my ideal way of life... i think i'm like GY... just gimme some sheeps and cows... abit of crops and put me in a nice mountain... i'll be happy for the rest of my life... an added bonus would be somebody i love... but i dont really know whether that person exists now or not... =) so i'll just take things as they are... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:36 --Link to Post |
 Anime Quiz - Which Escaflowne Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:20 --Link to Post |
| 7.11.02 |
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really loved this song at one point of time...
sounds abit different... but the words are kinda sad... sweet at the same time... enjoy... Pearl Jam_-_Last Kiss Oh where, oh where Can my baby be? The Lord took here away from me She's gone to Heaven So I got to be good So I can see my baby When I leave this world We were out on a date In my daddy's car We had'nt driven very far There in the road Straight ahead A car was stalled The engine was dead I could'nt stop So I sewerved to the right I'll never forget The sound that night The screamin' tires The bustin' glass The painful scream That I heard last Oh where, oh where Can my baby be? The Lord took her away from me She's gone to Heaven So I got to be good So I can see my baby When I leave this world When I woke up The rain was pouring down There were people Standing all around Something warm running Through my eyes But somehow I found my baby That night I lifted her head She looked at me and said "Hold me darling just a little while," I held her close I kissed her, our last kiss I found the love That I knew I had missed Well, now she's gone Even though I hold her tight I lost my love My life, that night Oh where, oh where Can my baby be? The Lord took her away from me She's gone to Heaven So I got to be good So I can see my baby When I leave this world ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:31 --Link to Post |
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day today was pretty short...
hung out with the girl gang at the library... tried to watch billy elliot... but couldnt get the player working... ended up reading blogs randomly... and watching flash MTVs with YZ... =P day ended with me asking leave from big boss... he said i look pale... not feeling well... which turned out to be true... reached home to get a bout of cramps... yucky thing.. got me stuck under the blankie for a long time... hurts like hell... wonder how i'm going to take the papers tomorrow... crouching at the table wrinching in pain??? argh hope not... got a very low threshold for pain... remember once i was at bugis with blaz... one of our food outings... hah! had cramps... so whole day was slouching in pain... but darent tell him... scared he'll send me home... so i ren! ate lotsa stuff... drank our respective favourite bubble tea... shared churros... had octoballs... had fun... all my favourite stuff... oh yah... tat was also the day he recommended me the magic pen that i used for the 'o's... he took his master's with it... and got into the dean's list... hah! superstition i must start to believe... and the impossible materialised... with my o's results... muahahhaaah... maybe i should use the pen for my 'a's too... heheh... then it shall be called the shen qi bi... kinda realised that i spoke alot about blaz the last couple of days... dunnoe why also... hahha... maybe the stress from the paper tmr got to me... and i'm like kinda freaking out... YC said something that felt like a knock on the head... not that it was offending... but just din feel good... he said he din understand why we were obsessed with writing blogs... diaries for the whole world to see... to flaunt our vocabulary? to gloat about our fortunes and success? to display our personal lives? i never thought that way... just thot blogs were a good way to keep my sanity in check... my entries now are exactly in the same format that i would email blaz when we were still corresponding... the same goes for him too... all the little insignificant stuff made up a very important part of our lives... and i believe same goes for most of those who made writing blogs a essential part of their daily routine... but as a disclaimer... i'm not speaking against YC... *stef raises white flag...and waves... just an attempt to justify my blog... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:17 --Link to Post |
| 6.11.02 |
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have you ever wanted time to turn back so badly that you wanted to cry?
i think i did... and still do... blaz was one of the best friends i could ever have... he was one of the few people i could tell everything to... and he confided alot in me too... i would tell him about my day in sch... and he would tell me things abt work... speaking to each other online... we would go into the wee hours of the morning... with me dozing off in class... and him locking himself in the office to sleep... we spoke about everything under the sun... whether almond milk tea was nice... why the fish flakes on the octoballs would move like they do... planned our picnic at changi beach... or basically crap... which i treasured... but had to give up... if i could turn back time... i would have not sent him mean sms-es... i would have been content with the already frequent correspondence that i thot was insufficient... maybe i just felt insecure... i din want to lose my best confidante to circumstance... but i guess my actions sorta catalysed the loss... a loss that cannot be reversed... feels like being left in the dark... unable to see where i'm headed... coz i dunnoe where to go... coz i really want to see his sms again... just to know he's okay... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:51 --Link to Post |
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it's pretty amazing how my mood can swing...
it's like... i was really cheerful and haha yesterdae... but today... things got a little down... PMS? maybe... =( ISTP... Introversion... yupz i agree..not many who are around me will... but i really am introverted... in a way more psychotic than not... wat most people see everyday... aint the real me... not that i act... just that i withdraw my feelings... and bottle things inside... Sensing... ya.... kinda true... that i can only do things when i am given detailed instructions... but i'm not an extreme case... i love the abstract too... Thinking... hmmm... true... to a certain extent... do alot of thinking on my own... (thats how you get stuff to read here...) i would just sit and brood... heheh... no lah... usually when people talk... i listen.. i think to myself... what a fool they are making of themselves... nalah... Perceiving... i guess so... i am the PILE system kinda person... really... dont believe??? ask CY...twig...lisar...xiuz.. any of those who've been to my place before... =) today wasnt pretty... couldnt go out with the guys... to eat seoul garden... had games trials until abt 3... called them... still eating... asked merser to call me if they going out... so that i can still join them... hmmm... no call... so stayed in school to dance... finally mastered bringin' da noise... to the extent of doing it blindfolded... shiokz... now must work on dat girl...rockefella...mortal kombat... woohoo! ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:57 --Link to Post |
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loved savage garden...
or rather... maybe its just darren hayes voice... i mean... its really nice... but they've since split... and i see hayes out on his own with the debut SPIN... got the album... but aint like savage garden no more... Savage Garden - Santa Monica In Santa Monica in the winter time The lazy streets so undemanding I walk into the crowd In Santa Monica you get your coffee from The coolest places on the promenade Where people dress just so Beauty so unavoidable everywhere you turn It's there I sit and wonder what am I doing here? But on the telephone line I am anyone I am anything I want to be I could be a supermodel or Norman Mailer And you wouldn't know the difference Or would you? In Santa Monica, all the people got modern names Like Jake or Mandy And modern bodies too In Santa Monica, on the boulevard, You'll have to dodge those in-line skaters Or they'll knock you down I never felt so lonely, Never felt so out of place I never wanted something more than this But on the telephone line I am anyone I am anything I want to be I could be a supermodel or Norman Mailer And you wouldn't know the difference On the telephone line, I am any height I am any age I want to be I could be a caped crusader, or space invader And you would know the difference Or would you? ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:41 --Link to Post |
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it was pretty farnie today...
seperated from the pack at taka square... (coz i had to go back to sch for log meeting...) grr... so walked back to orchard MRT with weiding... meet like 3 ex-schmates on the way lor... rae...screamed...ran to her...and hugged her real tight... everyone else stared at us like were siao liaoz... weiding was in shock... he pretend dunnoe me... zhenfang...'oh my gosh'... and gave her a high five as i walked by... weiding quickly walked away... jess...she was like one of my best pals in sec2 lor... heheh...talked to her abit...was jumping up and down... weiding RAN to the MRT control... hahha... its quite different how guys react when they see people they know... me for one... can contain my excitement... these were people i was oni quite close with... can u imagine if i met GY or rene??? hahha... i'll be screaming... will be meeting up with the bballers at ching's house for steamboat... woohoo! our favourite... we'll just get lotsa food... and eat... and eat... and gorge ourselves... diet??? wad diet??? not even in our dictionary... =) we would just sit under the shade of the elevated tennis court... it was warm... but yet in way cool as well... and just talk the afternoon away... we would have a couple of balls in our midst... and someone would just take them and shoot some hoops... in the court that was adjacent to the tech block... it just seemed so carefree... the area around the school (katong)... had a pretty good feel... maybe coz i'm peranakan... and the area is mainly populated with nonyas and babas... with lotsa delicious food all around the area... we loved the ice cream at gelare... the kaya toast at CMC (beside the church i grew up with)... laksa that katong was famous for... the dim sum at marine parade... and the confortable mos burgers at parkway... still remember 4 pillars... an exhitbition area in parkway... where we'll ta pow food to eat at... alwaz get chased away by the big burly security guard... but we never failed to return... all these made the east side of singapore... as attractive as it is now to me... the people...the food...the feel...the beach... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:00 --Link to Post |
| 5.11.02 |
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i really loved this song..
especially the words at the chorus... i mean its just so beautifully phrased... take a read... =) Plus One_-_When Your Spirit Gets Weak We beg to borrow We beg to steal We beg forgiveness We beg to feel We beg for love I guess we beg for hate We beg for everything And pray it's not too late What everybody's tryna' feel I guess we're tryna' heal Everybody's got to kneel No way to reinvent the wheel Everybody's got to Stand up on their feet Everybody needs a dream When the spirit gets too weak chorus So when your spirit gets too weak When the water seems too deep When you think there's just no way I'll be there for you night and day When the mountain seems too steep When your spirit gets too weak When you thinks there's just no way I'll be there for you night and day We beg for happiness We beg for tears We beg for courage Just to overcome our fears We beg to rise above And hope we never fall We beg for everything And pray he hears our call What everybody's tryna' feel I guess we're tryna' heal Everybody's got to kneel No way to reinvent the wheel Everybody's got to Stand up on their feet Gotta be there for your brother When the spirit gets too weak Repeat chorus Although the road is rough And sometimes you feel Like it ain't enough We'll be there for each other We'll find the way Repeat chorus ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:21 --Link to Post |
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hiaks!
had a preetty good day today lah... was kinda cool... freezing in taka square with my klassmates... brrr.... it was cold... din shiver as much as YZ ya??? coz i'm fatter than him.... muahahah.... stupid YZ so skinny... the guys like relished suaning me lor... grr... in TK... only i suan people... nobody dare suan me... hahah... coz i think they got better targets there... bball and klass got rene... i think her face really got the please-suan-me face... piangz... everyone just suan her nonstop... windsurfing leh... got WQ.. she also another one... jud alwaz attack her (size) one... but i think if he sees me now... he'll suan me too... =( ate too much in AJ liaoz... =) starting to really appreciate my klass lots... before i slept yesterdae... was talking to my siblings... (we sleep in the same room...) couldnt imagine how much i enjoyed telling them about 01/02 and the people... and all the crappy stuff we did... all the nicknames... the dynastys...revolution... though lame... it was farnie... heheheh... i love all of them!!! =) oh yar... a bird flew into my house today... it was a really pretty bird... got a bit of nice blue... but it kept banging into the walls... my maid caught it with her bare hards... (maybe she's superwoman in disguise...) and we let it go at the voideck... so that it can fly away to the pretty sky... so happy... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:57 --Link to Post |
| 4.11.02 |
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casey watches alot of anime...
and sumthing which he does which i really appreciated.. was that he wrote summaries from boys be for me... i mean... i thot it was really sweet of him to do it... even when he was not obliged to... i still keep them... until now... yeah casey? Episode 4--the solitary cross The starting phrases of this episode talk about being awake... late at night.... and unable to sleep. There's this sudden feeling that you have... a tight squeeze in your chest.. a pain... and at that moment you feel so alone and desperately want someone to hold on to so much. That's exactly what Kyoichi is feeling right now as he stares through the skylight... He does fall asleep but he has a strange dream... He stands before a wreckage of an American B-29 bomber (those that bombed Japan during WW2) and a shadow is being continuously cast over him... that's caused by this propeller blade that seems to rotate by itself despite the aircraft having been smashed into the ground... the aircraft lies in a strange position.. The rear fuselage stands upright... the tailplanes create this cross when the light casts a shadow over it. Another B-29 lies a distance away standing the same way. There are 3 shadows of crosses on the ground however, the 3rd cross being from the light shining on the 4 point handle of a water tap. A drop of water falls from this tap and splashes into a larger pool. that was oni the dream scene... the rest of the email was four times as long... thanx casey... i really appreciate it... =) "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in the sand... where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone... where no wind can ever erase it." ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:58 --Link to Post |
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this is pretty cool...
eminem used part of it for his song stan... i mean to have your song used by the most critical artist... (in his songs..i mean vocally...) its really an honour... really cool... give it a read if you havent seen it... dido_-_ thank you My tea's gone cold, I wondering why I got out of bed at all The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad I drank too much last night, got bills to pay, my head just feels in pain I missed the bus and there'll be hell today, I'm late for work again And even if I'm there, they'll all imply that I might not last the day And then you call me and it's not so bad, it's not so bad and CHORUS: I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life Push the door, I'm home at last and I'm soaking through and through Then you handed me a towel and all I see is you And even if my house falls down now, I wouldn't have a clue Because you're near me and CHORUS: I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life. =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:43 --Link to Post |
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Even if I knew who gave my genes to me,
especially the bad ones, what good will that achieve? In the end I am responsible for my own actions, blaming them on genes (or the person I inherited them from) is no excuse. read that in casey's 'blogspot'... its not an actual blog... but something of the same purpose... he's got one going for some time now... and his command of the english really impresses me... i feel so inferior... quoting from the physics/maths9233/f.maths whiz in my klass... sometimes i feel do feel that way... just like... why cant i be really good at something??? everyone seems to be better in every other aspect... and i'm left with nothing... kinda sound a little competitive... and bitchy at that... but oh well... i grew to take the better of it... i mean... it's more important to be happy... than succeed without having anyone there to share your happiness with... i did better when he was around... still remember how i managed the Good Progress Award... juggling the CCAs... he motivates me... inspires me... we used to study together... his serious demeanor kinda infects me... and i really have to study too... i guess if not for him... i'll be playing my head off... it helped really... he pushed me to work harder... today was pretty fun... watched jay chou's MTVs... woohoo! they were really cool... he fly here fly there... his hair fall here fall there... (i mean over the face...) he's my ou xiang!!! had a chicken whopper junior today... last time i had it was at the Changi Airport... i think when i was in Pri 6... thats donkey years ago... aiyoh... but liked it... it was nice.... yummy! finished with hannibal liaoz... quite gross how he cooked the guy's brain in front of the guy... yucks! but it sounded yummy... but won dare to eat it... can you imagine? i dont even eat the brains of animals... not to say a human... *bleh* ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:46 --Link to Post |
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just done with teh stopid welfare survey...
though it was only 57 pieces... it took me forever... or at least... it felt like forever... had to retype every single comment out... regardless of how trashy it was... really weird and ridiculous comments.. but somebody had to do this s**t... and usually... if not alwaz... it would be the council... brain a little dead... now at 427 outta 546 pages of the hannibal book.. hope to finish soon.. so that i can pass it to the others in line.. they seemed pretty interested in the guy who eats humans... will go to sleep now... daddy promised me my favourite breakfast tomorrow... porridge with raw fish... shiok! but have to wak up early... hope i do... yeay! ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:47 --Link to Post |
| 3.11.02 |
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rained again today...
and like i said yesterday... it brings back memories... that are still in the recycle bin... not wanting to clear out... i hated the umbrella... i really did... coz it blocked out the rain that i loved so much... but he made me bring it to sch every single day... i never did once opened it... coz i loved the feeling of the cool sensation of rain... even if it meant that i have to run from the bus stop to the sheltered confines of my flat... we squabbled abt this many times before... he couldnt understand why i liked the rain so much... and i couldnt understand why he feared it so much... but i just took to bringing it to sch... only that i dont use it... much to his despair... =P purple sky... kinda cool... though it does look a little fake... just sent YZ a msg to tell YC to look at the purple sky... on hindsight... that was weird... why din i send YC the msg directly? first part of my day ended today... went to kusu island to pray with my family... had a little bumboat ride to and back... it's pretty cool with big waves and the bumps... much more fun that the strict confines of the big air-conditioned ferry... one guy helped us get on the boat... i mean usually they just make sure you get into the boat safely and done... but he actually told me to watch my head... (a low beam...) i felt that was real sweet... been meeting alot of nice pple lately... i bumped into at least 3 pple in the past couple of days... and when i apologised... they smiled and insisted it was alrite... it really made my day... or should i say days... will probably go out later or something... inactivity at home is kinda torturous... maybe... i shall go play in the rain... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:36 --Link to Post |
| 2.11.02 |
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Song of the Day--
Smash Mouth_-_i'm a believer I thought love was only true in fairy tales Meant for someone else but not for me Love was out to get to me That's the way it seems Disappointment haunted all my dreams And then I saw her face Now I'm a believer Not a trace Of doubt in my mind I'm in love I'm a believer I couldn't leave her if I tried I thought love was more or less a given thing But the more I gave the less I got, oh yeah What's the use in trying All you get is pain When I wanted sunshine I got rain And then I saw her face Now I'm a believer Not a trace Of doubt in my mind I'm in love I'm a believer I couldn't leave her if I tried What's the use in trying All you get is pain When I wanted sunshine I got rain And then I saw her face Now I'm a believer Not a trace Of doubt in my mind I'm in love I'm a believer I couldn't leave her if I tried Then I saw her face Now I'm a believer Not a trace Of doubt in my mind Now I'm a believer Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm a believer I'm a believer I'm a believer ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:29 --Link to Post |
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went to sch to do my SAT...
hate it man... i mean staring at the PC for 3hrs... in the end i started to give up... any how click... and ended 2hrs later... muahaha... lady luck must be smiling over me... managed to scrap through with a 1300... actually asked YZ to go for lunch... he was the oni other person that i knew was in sch... other than the councillors... =( ended up reading Hannibal until abt 2 plus... until he called saying that he was opposite sch... took the assumption he's with AJE pple... declined and started to pack up to go home... rained... but chun yen was pretty nice... offered to walk me out of sch with the brolly... i mean i din really know him as a senior very much... but that offer made him seem all so sweet and nice... unlike wad many pple thot and spoke of him... =) was kinda weird to be under the same brolly with a senior you dont really know... but at least now i know that there are pple who will actually go the extra mile for you... (hmmm...okay...i made the mile part up...) but seriously, my impression of him changed totally... for the better... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:22 --Link to Post |
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98.7 was playing mary j. blige's rainy days...
pretty apt... since it was really a rainy day... was in the bus.... looked at everything outside... pple running for shelter... cars speeding away to its destination... motorbikes taking shelter under big grey bridges... usually i'll just fall asleep on his shoulder.. (not the safest thing to do on a bike...) but whenever it rained... the spherical drops became needle-like on ur legs... esp at the speed u go on a bike... still rem how i tried so hard to hide behind him whenever it rained real bad... shivering wet and cold under his black windbreaker... but to have the one u love in this with you... you feel fortunate... but also fearful of what'll happen on his way to sch... 'will he skid along the road? will he lose control of his bike?' you cant concentrate on the days activities... it was a dilemma... rain was pretty...and scary, both at the same time... the rain today was pretty hard... and painful... felt it even beneath my grey windbreaker... did i mention??? i love the rain... i mean the kind you can walk through... and not get totally drenched? but even if so... i wont mind... though its cold... but it gives me a special feeling i cant put in words... or simply... it just reminds me of him... in a way too much to contain... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:21 --Link to Post |
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morning now...
will go to sch soon... why i logged on in such earthly hours??? (unearthly by saturday standards...) dont know as well... but woke up in fear... dunnoe why also... maybe it just fear of being late... (stoopid SAT...) but dont think so... have you ever wondered what if one day you realised u've fallen in love with someone totally unexpected? would you still go for it??? or just leave it as another impossibility... considering the person also thinks its impossible... really... what if? ----Stef stopped rambling at 08:10 --Link to Post |
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=P
long long day today... just wanted to say... AJ's not sucky ya??? i mean there's sufficient opportunities for us to have fun... just a matter of whether you want to or not... toady for example was pretty cool... karaoke...(somebody started singing in dialect...) disco...(too dark...really can do practically anything....lose face??? no worries...cant even see ur face...) soccer....(should be cool for the guys...) lan-gaming....(Can you imagine??? in ur sch comp lab?!?!?) movies...(my event....MOVIE FEST!!! next year...do gimme ur support...) mass dance...(nice to see someone you taught get it right...) starting to be proud of council... its activities... oh well... at least the councillors who WORKED HARD... and not those who go home at 5 pm religiously everyday... =P kena hit of the face by BHF's tennis ball today... lala say got blue-black... sad.... sad until dare not look in the mirror...(i never liked to anyway...) well... he promised to treat me drink (40c one...) next week... yeay... okie doke... last comment of the day... wah lau eh... marcus hair damn pretty lor... he just brushed it back...(ala shampoo advertisement...) then it was like so black and shiny... maybe i can chat him up by asking wad shampoo he use... muahahahaa... joking ! joking ! i dont like marcus lah... he's someone's xin shang ren... i where got dare to like... oni that his hair and dimples VERY NICE!!! and i love cute dimples and pretty hair! =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:52 --Link to Post |
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Semptember 23 - - - > The Olive Tree
OLIVE TREE (the Wisdom) -loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people. wahhh...i so nice ah??? ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:03 --Link to Post |
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