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have you ever wanted time to turn back so badly that you wanted to cry?
i think i did... and still do... blaz was one of the best friends i could ever have... he was one of the few people i could tell everything to... and he confided alot in me too... i would tell him about my day in sch... and he would tell me things abt work... speaking to each other online... we would go into the wee hours of the morning... with me dozing off in class... and him locking himself in the office to sleep... we spoke about everything under the sun... whether almond milk tea was nice... why the fish flakes on the octoballs would move like they do... planned our picnic at changi beach... or basically crap... which i treasured... but had to give up... if i could turn back time... i would have not sent him mean sms-es... i would have been content with the already frequent correspondence that i thot was insufficient... maybe i just felt insecure... i din want to lose my best confidante to circumstance... but i guess my actions sorta catalysed the loss... a loss that cannot be reversed... feels like being left in the dark... unable to see where i'm headed... coz i dunnoe where to go... coz i really want to see his sms again... just to know he's okay... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:51 --Link to Post |
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