| 30.6.05 |
 viv and i... before she and gang left for yunnan, china... my favourite gossip partner... wahhahaa... think i got the slitty-eyed disease from the guy... bleah...  justin, xinyi, viv and i... i have no idea why i was crouching... coz xinyi is like way taller than me... and my tee looks stretched... equals to "i look fat"... wait... i AM fat... *shakes head* ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:00 --Link to Post |
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yesterdae was the windsurfing component of the sports camp... so went to help out... pseudo-teach the freshies... had fun la... some of them quite interesting characters... but the day was quite sucky too.. also because of the campers... 1. someone stole my newly-bought sunblock... found it on the table... thought no one's... when i was out at sea... happily took it lor... someone told me when i was looking for it... freak... might have over reacted... but it was freaking new and cost 15 bucks... 2. left my puma cap on the table while i was clearing up the equipment... some freshies were eating fries at the tables... so my puma started bleeding... chilli sauce on my cap... wat the hell... 3. the campers use PA facilities for the BBQ.... apparently some people didnt clear the place up... and left it for PA staff to clear this morning... which sucked... coz they came knocking on our door... and we got the hostile email from them... what the crap... i might not have the full story behind the whole issue.. but i think the camp organizers should have been more responsible for their pple and activities... dropped by the guy's place after that... bought a cake for his parents... oni to be told by him that they dont exactly eat cake... oh well... but i caught a power nap... and a 2hr episode of CSI vegas! nick stokes got kidnapped!  evidence of ben buying breakfast and eating... never thot of us... the poor things who trudged down just for him... and he left us hungry... and cold... it was raining...  a trying-to-be-artistic shot... rather be behind the camera... anytime man... fat arms... really fat arms...  a seemingly normal pic... but circled in white... u see a cat attempting to drive the tractor... see! i told you those feline creatures had something up their claws... they've been stalking out PA... planning something big!  adrian and his first class of the day... the handsome guy is hidden behind the sail... female admirers dont be sad... you can still stalk him... i have photos in my archives...  wanqi and hers... our pretty bikini babe... too far for u guys to drool upon... so go stalk her urself... PA every weekend confirm+chop! weekdays there often too...  sz and hers... very pro instructor ok? dont play play... damn serious about her stuff... one course confirm+chop can windsurf to waterbreaker and back...  and of course... my comm... not all who went to help out today... kelvin was around... until he decided to join me in my Catfish Club... and kena stung by one... then went back... yijun was around... until she left to meet mo mo ren... whahaha... today was great... but not a good shopping day though... went out with stella... went to suntec... she needed flats... so we walked into all the freaking shoe shops along the way... URS citylink had a pretty black one with lime-green details... we thot we could walk back to get it... but haiz... no size... at one of the trolley shops... saw a chunky green necklace... quite pretty... but was contemplating it against the beige one... decided to walk suntec first before coming back to get it... green one was out of stock by the time we got back... got another 2 cheaper ones instead... lalalaa... bought a top from Mango as well... but i'll have to fix my ugly tan line before i get to wear it i guess... eeks! walked till my feet ached... owwww.... had thai express for lunch... with my 10buck voucher... our entire bill was oni $7.45... wahaha... cheap for a restaurant meal ya? oh well... i wanted to use the voucher before it expires mah... shoe shopping with lala was great... coz her feet aint the size that they usually put on the shelves... so i doubled up as her shoe model... trying out all the shoes that she wanted to try... maybe i should charge her for making me bend over and pull off my sandal straps... like 100 times... whahaha! great day once again... suddenly the tai tai lifestyle... shopping, eating, mahjong and etc, seems really attractive ya? i dun wan be engineer... can can can? ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:14 --Link to Post |
| 29.6.05 |
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** my baby's a dean's lister! ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:23 --Link to Post |
| 28.6.05 |
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havent updated for two days... freak out! be amazed! wahaha... weird huh... especially since i'm supposed to be cooped up at home with virtually nothing to do... the guy has been pointing out recruitment posters to me... at shoe shops, food shops, etc... AM I THAT MUCH OF A SLACKER? yes. sunday was dreadful... spent the entire day with him... which was great... not exactly... when the ediot woke up just to open the door for me... after i bought stuff to cook lunch with... was supposed to cook together... but he jumped back into bed... until it was 2plus in the afternoon... after i entertained myself with spider solitaire and netsurfing... (after i even spoke to his mom who was calling from the phone outside his room... to ask if her precious son got lunch to eat...) he finally woke up... and suggested takeaway instead... -_-" that wasnt the most dreadful part... had one of my worst bouts of cramps that day... spent most of the afternoon curled up in bed... cringeing away in pain... swallowing painkillers like there's no tomorrow... anyone has remedies? i think i seriously need help. watched a few episodes of Lost... had dinner... and got my parents to pick me up after theirs... monday was less exciting... dropped by UOB to be their last customer... and open a campus account... so that i can get a debit card to bring to Taiwan... in case i ever run out of cash... and the guy decides to abandon me or something... they have a really slow customer service system... which is dumb, really... deploying two, out of three, officers to investment banking... when no one really comes in for it anyway... oh well... if it works for them... met the guy for Initial D at night... Jay Chou was cool... but i totally dig the racing parts... just so edge-of-seat... Anthony Wong was fantastic... and Shawn Yue... why wasnt there more of Shawn Yue!!??? but it was hilarious... guy said it was better than he thought... especially the racing part... fans of Jay should not miss it man... the show practically puts him on a pedestral for all to worship... save for his mediocre acting skills though... happy.... -_- sad... -_- angry... -_- same expression... the kissing scene was... haiz... just watch the movie... ignore his lousy acting... the same expression thing reminds me of my guy... wahaha... well... he didnt pick me up for the movie today... but he drove so that he could send me home afterwards... talk about redeeming oneself almost immediately... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:35 --Link to Post |
| 26.6.05 |
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aunt treated us to high-tea at goodwood park hotel... not bad... but not as great as we thought it to be... was prepared to head out in my black, square-tip shoes... coz it looks okay with jeans... but mommy said my jeans was sweeping the floor coz the shoes werent high enough... made me change to a skirt... and oni when we headed out... did i realise that the shoes damn ugly... managed to survive the high-tea... but once i met the guy... the first thing he did was laugh at my shoes... wah lau... i dunnoe whether to be happy he vocalised his opinion... which wasnt wrong... or unhappy that he so tactless... wah lau... but oh well.. thats coming from a guy who has no qualms comparing his potbelly to mine... trudged to far east... and grabbed a pair of black flats for 29.90... not exactly the price i would pay for a pair of sandals... but i was DESPERATE... at least i liked those sandals... he found them too plain... our tastes differ to the max... in terms of clothes la... but weirdly enough... i think he has good taste... so i have bad taste? hiakz.... made our way to Topshop/Topman to use his vouchers... was tempted to get 16 buck earrings... but reckoned i would rather have more units of cheaper ones... i think i have more earrings than i have clothes... he got his 69 buck shirt... which cost him 29 after the vouchers... a Nautica tee... which was 20% off... and a fossil tee for his best friend... why am i not his best friend? oh ya... my birthday not here yet... talking about birthdays... he offered to buy tickets to stomp! for my birthday... and asked me to save up for a Bang and Olufsen sound system for his... in your dreams, baby. had dinner at billy bombers... shared a set meal... logical choice... in view of the high-tea... and guy gobbled on basket of cheese fries.... made our way back to his place for more Lost... ooohhh... things are getting more interesting on that island... stay tuned... to the show, i mean... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:59 --Link to Post |
| 25.6.05 |
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shopping with mommy dearest is darn good... she has so many credit cards we often get additional discounts with the rite ones... and she pays for everything!!! if i didnt drag myself out of charles and keith i would have gotten myself some black slip-ons... which i really need... coz my last black (non-beach) slipper is hanging on to dear life with scotch-tape... yesh... i'm that poor thing... and i want white flat shoes too... or any colour... something that matches everything when i go taiwan... so i wont have to pack so much footwear to fuel my colour-matching fetish... oh well... managed to get underwear as well... yeah! no more fudgy, colour-ruined by washing undies anymore! but have to wait till we put them to wash... woohoo! got myself two bottoms... slacks to last me next sem... long pants/jeans are dreadful in school... and a haircut... told the guy not to thin the hair too much... but they did the cheese-on-a-grater thing again... and it looks like i'm balding... bleah! went over to his place for dinner, an episode of Lost and Finding Neverland... dinner was stressful... was at the table with his mom and her mahjong kakis... self explanatory... never felt so stressed at dinner ever! clammed like an oyster... wah lau... Lost was good... though i was mean and turned up the volume while he was trying to take a power nap... after playing mahjong the entire day... Finding Neverland is a nice story... diana was right about me having to watch it... pretty stuff... lalala.... tmr is one eventful day too... high-tea with family... shopping and dinner with him... life is good... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:03 --Link to Post |
| 24.6.05 |
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took a quiz i found on dilun's blog... --Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. (ooh...) You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you (where? where?) and like to talk to you.--The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. (freaking accurate..) You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.--Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well (i sure do...) before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.--The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. (after i point a gun at them and force them to go out with me..)--Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (like real..)--The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.--How do you view success: Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working. (yuppiez..)--What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. (i'm a good person...REALLY.) This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.--Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. (ooh-la-la..) People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.pretty true i think... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:13 --Link to Post |
| 23.6.05 |
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havent met serene for some time... probably like at least a month ago... for xiao long baos at suntec... with jieying and her... but today... after days of shopping with other individuals... and being broke... we decided to rot at her place and bake cornflake cookies... wahhaha... it was enjoyable... just a day of suaning each other like we always do... and catching up... and updating one another about our mutual friends... here's the cookie fiasco... a pretty simple cookie... but a great activity to bond with ur closest pals with...  corny stuff... i never exactly liked cornflakes in milk... coz they're not sweet... and they taste normal... wahahha... i like them in cookies though... and in chocs... cookies i get to eat during CNY... and chocs... whenever i feel light enough to down an entire block... which equates to NEVER... but its the yellow packaging on... Richter Sport? dunnoe how to spell... but i'm sure you know...  flour... i remember how i needed one tablespoon for my lasagne back in PGP... and bought the entire pack... coz some lousy ediot forgot to bring some from home... dumped the entire pack when i moved out though... too much hassle for just a few cents... besides... the oven in my house is a goner...  butter... i think we used less butter than we should have... but oh well... butter is bad for you rite? cannot take too much of it... but i think it explains why we were having a bit of a problem trying to get the cookies to stick... maybe it's too much flour also... anyway... the cookies turned out edible... so phew!  vanilla essence... (obviously...) was fighting tooth and nail with rene abt whether vanilla essence is the same as vanilla flavour... whatever.  preserved cherries... bought a whole pack just to use 2.5 pieces... bleah... they really know how to cheat our money... i wasnt too keen about buying it to decor the cookies though... always thought they looked cheesy... but they did make the cookies look less boring... thank goodness for serene and her insistence...  rene's pink weighing scale! where we weighed... 300g of flour... 260g of sugar... 200g of cornflakes... 250g of butter... (it came in a block...) 6 teaspoons of vanilla essence... and 2 pinches of salt... okok... the last three wasnt by the weighing scale...  first... mix the butter and the sugar together... rene refused to get fine sugar... and made me stir and stir till the cows came home... moo! slavery i tell you... but she was smart to go shopping for groceries before we had lunch... then we can allow the butter to melt at the same time... the sugar was a handful i tell you... fine sugar works 10times better.... really...  a trying task... we decided to adjourn to the TV... actually it's just me... i made her take that photo... wanted to emphasize how mundane our day turned out to be... that i rather watch round, circular things on TV than talk to her... wahhaha... but wanted to show the huang lian po in us... you will see rene in her ugly handband later...  rene doing the mixing... this is where you throw in 2 egg yolks... ur vanilla essence... the cornflakes... and the flour... it takes kungfu to make sure you dont smash the cornflakes... rene just posing... only i have the exclusive knowledge of the kungfu... hoi-ya!  the cherry bits for deco... i really think you dont want to know how they became like that... think on the lines of being blown into bits... little pieces... not really... but how we had to grab the cherries using our unsanitised fingers... and scissoring them into bits... you really dont have to know...  scoop the refridgerated mixture into paper skirts... (dont look if you ate the cookies... might be nauseating...) in short... we actually grabbed like a biteful of cornflakes... put them in our palm... squeeze like there's no tomorrow... until it becomes one lump... and put it in the paper skirts... told you you wont want to know...  trayful of unbaked cookies... looks unappetising coz of bad lighting... i know my photography ok... somebody buy me a decent cam plz... bake the darn things for 15-20 mins in a 180degree oven...  rene and her pink gloves... damn auntie... but quite cute also la... the gloves... not her...  baked to golden-brown perfection! focused the wrong way... should be on the nearer cookie... oh well... but dont they look delectable!?!?!! the ONLY answer is YES... repeat after me: "Yes."  packed it in a lunchbox for the guy... wah lau... special delivery to PF somemore... take two buses... walk damn far... haiz... he'd better appreciate! good day... we're admist talks of chocolate cake next week too! stay tuned! wahahha... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:47 --Link to Post |
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** i was lying on his bed... wrapped in his thick comfy quilt... and he was rolling around on his swivel chair... fussing over his PC... suddenly... he turned ard and gave me one of those silly faces... and it just dawned on me how blissful life was... damn freaking so... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:54 --Link to Post |
| 22.6.05 |
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** i think cuddling up with a loved one is one of the nicest things you can do... especially with the pseudo-cold of the aircon... we can just lay curled up in bed... watching TV... movies... and feel so contented... at least i do... but it seriously doesnt just have to be your significant other... even at home... my family would just squeeze into the parents' bedroom... where we have a decent-sized TV... and watch crappy chn8 dramas all nite long... the 3 kids (including me) and my dad would be squashed together on the bed... while my mom takes the swivel chair... and does the finances during the commercials... stuff like that... i think it kinda bonds the whole family... making us closer than most families are... and i think that rocks... he tickles me until i struggle and bang my head on the wall... so he promised not to tickle me today... and i had a field day trying to find out where he feels ticklish... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:14 --Link to Post |
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met up with wanqi... had a great time... shopping... eating... crapping... getting our feet massaged at those iSqueeze stations... while giggling like mad schoolgirls... i think it was just me... but finally had my gelare waffles... and a new skirt... and some ear studs i kinda need to sleep in... lest the holes close up like SML's does... i still want new shoes... darn... like that where got money left to spend in Taiwan??? we spoke about going Bali too... but will have to see how that one goes... dont think my parents will be too keen about me going there... lalalalaaaa... dunnoe why these few days got a lot of inspiration to write stuff like... What i do not like abt the world? wahaha... seriously... dont post blush-inducing tags on the tagboard leh... i dont write well... really... dont want to associate myself with this bad grammar and terrible paragraphing... pui! was at bishan j8's shihlin outlet to takeaway the XXL chicken cutlet for him and his parents... lined up like freaking-twice... coz the guy couldnt decide whether i should get one or two packets... and i had to wait super long coz he din want it spicy... so they had to make it specially for me... okok... back to my complaint... Grouse of the Day: there was this tall, hunky guy in a black polo nike shirt... who was visibly unhappy abt his dan juan taking abit longer than usual... he requested for his omelette to be free of garnishings earlier... but the male cashier was tearing hair from head trying to handle all the orders... and accidentally put the green stuff into his box... he didnt hide that unhappiness... and demanded for another box... so the cashier did just that... and the black-polo-nike-tee guy walked away in a fury... i couldnt exactly swallow the fact that the guy treated the cashier like that... as if the latter were below him or something... he couldnt have at least told him nicely... and asked for another box... which is acceptable... considering some people ARE actually allergic to such stuff... but thats that... the girl after him... even though she saw the whole episode... a mere switching of boxes that came out at exactly the same time... demanded a new box.... saying that it was cold or something... and shot the cashier a cold stare when he reassured her that it was warm... it was merely the switch with the earlier guy... she didnt hide that she was unhappy either... stormed away after glaring at him... with boyfriend in tow... probably knowing that she was in the wrong... but too indignant to admit it... i was third in line... my second line... i had to wait out the next batch of chicken.... coz they gayly (pun not intended, although all the staff were male) sprinkled chilli on all ready... they kinda forgot me... but the guy was super sweet when he finally recalled that i was waiting for a non-spicy... and he apologised really profusely... even after the incident with the two earlier... it was enough to make my day... that he didnt act indignant... and pretend nuthing happened... i dont need service staff to be perfect... coz us, customers, arent too... treat salespeople how you want to be treated... with respect... it's all about karma man... i remember watching jennie chua from the raffles group of hotels in a CNA program once... name courtesy of vivien... coz i momentarily forgot... she was answering a question about the standard of service in singapore... in comparision to overseas... and she mentioned about how we actually DO have great service... but that service is a two-way business... u need great customers in order to have great service people... that sounds lame... but i hope i put the point acrosss... coz she did beautifully... stop acting like these people owe you a living... they are just doing their job.... plz be nice to them... return their greeting... thank them if they provided good service... acknowledge them... dont ignore them... even the pesky, irritating cling-to-ur-back ones... smile... especially if it's me... havent had a chance to do sales... not that i want to... in fact, i'm actively avoiding it... coz of people like those mentioned... i'm not saying i'm the perfect customer... but these pple deserve some decency ya? ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:18 --Link to Post |
| 21.6.05 |
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met the guy for dinner after a long day slacking at home... he was playing the role of a fillial kid.. helping his parents out at the office... so that's pretty sweet... picked me up around 8... which meant i was starving like nobody's business... saved by the shihlin chicken cutlet mom brought home... and some cabbage+tofu+pork soup... which was really yummy... dinner at the food court... had guo tie which i havent had for a long time... and suan la tang which had some huge mushroom slices in it... wasnt too bad... but wasnt fantastic either... watched A Lot Like Love... which i was dying to watch... after watching the trailers... i realised we never waited for movies to actually be released to watch them... we watched sneak previews of Mr and Mrs Smith, Batman Begins and A Lot Like Love... impatience ya? more like we were fast running out of movies to watch... was planning a quiet walk along Bedok Jetty for tonight or something... but oh well.. had a great nite nonetheless...  i think this is a really sweet piece of them... it just makes me feel the fuzzy warm feeling... when you see two pple in love... and enjoying the simplest things in life... like a minute in the photo booth... personally i enjoy our attacks on each other... like how i would attack his tummy... and he would retaliate by tickling me to death...  think amanda peet is darn pretty with her rocker chick getup... short funky hair was nicer than the mature good-girl long-haired thing... but she's pretty all the way man... even in her orange sweatshirt...  went totally crazy with the song he sang her... looked it up once i saw the trailer... din exactly find it... but heard it once at PA... and mingle identified it for me as Jon Bon Jovi's I'll be there for you... sweet... and it really brought out their relationship... being there for each other when they broke up with their spouses... awwwww.... he sent me back after the movie.. i kinda din want to go back so early... considering i havent seen him in 4 days... i know that sounds lame... yes... utterly... but the 4 days have been quite a handful... considering it was PMS-ey... wanted to go changi for the wind and the planes... but he refused... so we sat at the playground at the foot of my block... playing hei bai pei, tic-tac-toe and some lame game... which totally cracked me up... it's pretty good... so i'll blog it up... player 1 would ask... "yan jing/bi zi/er duo/zui ba zai na li?" - "where is your eyes/nose/ears/mouth?" player 2 would have to point at something that Player 1 din ask for... and intentionally identify the wrong body part... (cannot call the part u pointing to or something he asked for)... "yan jing zai zhe li..." - while pointing to her ears... if player 1 asked for the mouth... wah lau... seems easy... and i was ok... until he started to point to funny parts when he asked the question... or did funny things like pull down his lower eyelids while asking for the eye... wah lau... i just stalled there and started laughing... the 45 mins at the playground was great... so great... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:41 --Link to Post |
| 20.6.05 |
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actually this topic has been swimming in my mind for a long time... am quite brainless... so naturally got more space to swim... Slimming Products and Services... and even good-natured variety shows that claim to restore hope in girls who arent ideally slim... i think they only serve to make the vast majority... eg. ME... feel even worse about themselves... but the thing is... from what i heard from people who do try them... most of these do not work... wad special fat burning using special light technique? what carbohydrate exterminator in the form of pills? most slimming centres require you to starve before you see any results... and thats AFTER paying them like thousands of dollars upfront... ask me to starve myself? no way... that's if i had thousands of dollars to spend myself first... i know that i'm not of an ideal figure myself... every morning i wake and look into the mirror... darn! i need some work done... and tell myself i need to jog in the evening... which i never do... "it's dinnertime!" how convenient.. but my point is... these programs make looking slim (and skinny, in fact) as an ideal... as if to say, if we're not skinny and pretty... we ought to be shot and sent to the 18 levels of hell... ok... i made that one up... but you get the picture... it simply makes the not-so-perfect individuals self-conscious... and force them to resort to other not so expensive methods of slimming... aneroxia... bulimia... women spent thousands on slimming programs... to be put in plastic wrap... zipped under a foil covered sleeping bag... subjected to heat and pressure... wad? cooking sweet potato ah? all in a bid to lose that extra weight... freak... some of them even skinnier than me... not that i'm skinny to begin with... mom told me she saw a rather slim schoolgirl... hand 200 bucks over the counter at watson's for some slimming stuff... wah lau... i was super hesitant about paying 33 for a blouse i liked... and am still trying to convince myself i dont need a pair of levis at 139... wat is the world coming to? i admit i dont fit my jeans very well... coz my sis and him asked me if i felt uncomfortable in it... I DON'T! but i dont see myself losing weight any way other than exercising... which i havent been doing... at all... and maybe moderating my meals, cutting down on stuff... which is hard as well... when the bf craves for beef 24/7... and huge-portion meals at Billy Bombers... therefore my weight is as high as before... and i have ceased to be bothered by it... there is more to life than being slim and beautiful... how convenient... coming from someone who is neither... but they are nuthing but transient externalities... happiness is probably the key... you might be happy coz you're slim and beautiful... then good for you... but there's no point chasing beauty and a slim body... sacrificing money, time and other more impt things... only for them to slip away from you in time... heck those TV programs and celebrity endorsements... they are simply fueled by money... from the firms that want our money, that is... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:44 --Link to Post |
| 19.6.05 |
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had my CPR course today... met mingle for breakfast at compasspoint... then my parents sent us down... abit evil... but lavender to st john's HQ really wasnt my thing at 9am in the morning... however when we arrived there... early... was convinced to walk to the food centre for tangyuan... had a green tea though... not much of theory... so it wasnt that boring... lotsa time for practise on the dummies... but seriously not that easy... especially the one where they record every ventilation and compression... and measure them to see whether the timing and force is correct... pwah... can vomit blood ah... passed on my second or third try... the ambiguity due to a faulty dummy on my second try... but thanks alot to mingle... gave me lotsa tips... for the practical... and a timely sms to salvage my theory... phew... got a lady asked if he were my brother... maybe its coz of our colour... equally black... wahahah... but hello? he's skinny bambi... and i'm fat rat... ate with family today... actually been some time since we last ate together outside... these days we're mostly on our own during the weekends... though we do have the weekday meals together at home if we're not out or at work... boon tong kee at balestier... it tastes better when i go there with him though... maybe coz it's later at nite... and the weather is cooler? wahaha... but we enjoyed it... was at home the whole of yesterdae... mom was so uneasy about it... she kept asking if anything was wrong... almost as if she didnt appreciate the fact that i was home... and kinda demanding a reason why i'm not out with him... weirdo... she and my dad... tired... pump too much CPR... inhale too much disinfectant while ventilating the dummy... *faintz* ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:16 --Link to Post |
| 18.6.05 |
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** i think we might have settled accomodation for the 6+ days in taiwan! coz we've been whimpering abt the super high costs of the hotels... even a lao-pok one would cost 70+ a night... good money that we can spend on more worthy stuff like food and clothes... staying with his relatives doesnt sound very nice... especially since i'm just a girlfriend... gu1 nan2 gua2 nu3 like that... not very nice in front of relatives... regardless of how liberal we have all made ourselves to be... plus the paiseh factor... thing is... we might just live in one of his uncle's houses... apparently the uncle is living some other where... and the house is empty... down side is that it's a 5buck train ride away from the city... it hasnt got a lot of things in it... probably wont be as convenient and well stocked as a hotel... but i think we'll survive... especially since his uncle has a private hot spring in that house! can u freaking believe that??? (yes you, my amazing reader... especially amazing since this is a special edition entry... your presence here is testament of your loyalty....) lalaa.... to think i was sulking that i wont get to visit the hot springs... considering he wasnt too keen of leaving Taipei itself... oooo... happy happy happy... 5 more weeks to Taipei! woohoo! just that i'm getting cold feet about visiting his extended family... which is HUGE by the way... the last couple of days werent too good for us... and it's largely my fault... i truly wonder why i can never see that it's my fault during the course of it all... and only when i convinced myself to step back... do i finally realise how unreasonable and freaking idiotic i was... somehow i feel as if i'm slowly bringing myself back to the days with wf... where i'll kick up fusses over nuthing... and we quarrel a lot... but i guess that experience is a lesson to be learnt... though i might not have digested the moral yet... i really hope i would do soon... every bit of this is hurting us... i keep saying i treasure US so much... but i keep doing things to hurt it... it's really quite psychotic... and it's killing me... like i told him the other day... i hate the way i feel vulnerable with him... coz it would be child's play for him to hurt me... just by saying a long goodbye... even the thot of the possibility hurts like someone's reached in and grabbed ur heart... i love him... much as my actions don't show it... i really do... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:53 --Link to Post |
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i know it's pretty sick that i'm like drooling like mad here... but it's rare that i would do something like this... considering how everyone-is-pretty-or-handsome-all-the-same i am... hate to judge a person on looks... but this... is... *speechless* (small pics coz i'm lazy... wont click and save the big ones... i'm not THAT siao la...) da names Melissa Theuriau... for more drooling... visit this...  oooooo....
with da flu and tissues stuffed up my nose... think the nostrils grew wider by a couple mm... and i'm not turning les... pwahhaha... hope he doesnt visit the blog... he might just dump me into the drain outside his house and migrate to france... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:30 --Link to Post |
| 17.6.05 |
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have been reading up on blogs... and the recent SPG bare-it-all bared more than a pair of boobs... i wasnt concerned about her bare-it-all... man... every woman sees the same things in the mirror... and some men, have the resources to... save for the different dimensions... but i was disturbed by the stuff she wrote... by all means... she has the right to write what she wants... i'm not disputing that... but i find it very hard to swallow that people on various other blogs defend that... saying that she has 'maturity in thought' and can 'handle her sexuality'... and are "impressed"... i'm not saying thats wrong either... am just very perturbed... utterly confused... is this what we consider as ideal behaviour? being a belt-at-the-waist ex-convent girl... i find it hard to accept it all... not in any personal sense... just the entire issue as a whole... she has been likened to Samantha from Sex and the City... but once again... do we need western influence to penetrate our fragile culture? must we embrace Americanisation as if it were vital to our development? arent we simply just trying to follow it all blindly? as if it's something inevitable... "hey...SATC talks abt it all the time...why not we have sg's version...in text?" i'm not saying that we should not try to be more liberal in our thinking... but somehow i think that there should be a limit to things... she engaging in casual sex and blogging it... is one thing... people looking up to her and putting her on a pedestral is another... viv said her fame might be what is disturbing me... sour grapes? erm... i dont want grapes of this sort... over the years... i post pictures sometimes... and talk about all the things close to heart with no regard for the anonymity that this journal was meant to have... attention seeking? maybe. but ney... i think i know the limits... maybe i should just limit my blog surfing more... to people i actually know... and not be the ti-ko-peh... peeking into others' blogs just coz they have naked pics... *update: on hindsight, heck what i said. i do remember me advocating freedom of speech in blogs with no restrictions on content because what a person writes, is part of the person's life. And like the way i like keeping things whole, they choose to tell the whole world about it too. Fine by me, just that i choose to leave certain things out i guess, selective blogging. Which IS contradicting what i said about keeping things as a whole, oh well, i think i just want the whole to consist of Happy Stuff, and only if i'm comfortable, noteworthy Sad Stuff too. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:37 --Link to Post |
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totally enjoyed today's day out with stella... shopping... eating... drinking... poor girl had to tahan while i pondered over various shopping decisions... got 2 pairs of earrings and 2 tops... yummy! considering how difficult it is for me to buy clothes... need to hide those fat thighs...fat arms...bad tanline...thick waist... wanted to get pointy shoes as well... though i seriously doubt if i can pull it off... especially after Angelina Jolie practically immortalized black pointy heels... but couldnt decide on the colour i should get.... so was like... haiz... save money lor... the earrings i totally adore... but one of the hooks kinda came off.... and i was freaking out... they were cheap buys at 2+ bucks per pair... but i wasnt going to like have them broken the first day i got them... so i fixed them up... wahahhaa.... thanks SML for the wonderful time... we should do it more often... especially after you fire your company... but we could seriously do without the shopping and pigging out... thanks for the company and invaluable fashion advice... love ya! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:55 --Link to Post |
| 16.6.05 |
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was supposed to meet wq and rene today... rene couldnt make it... and wq... well... she owes me big... but oh well... one of the good parts abt having a ever-dependable spare tyre... not that HE was... but we salavged my evening... with Batman Begins... after CPR course payment and then dinner at BK... i headed home alone though... his group had a gathering some place else... Batman Begins was fantastic... very spiderman-ish... coz of Batman still being an amateur... but more gadgety... thats what i told him... and we voiced the reason together... " 'coz he's a billionaire..." Christian Bale mentioned in Life! that luckily there wasn't Robin... else it would have made the movie campy... a word i learnt from Cinema class... but it was pretty good... the philosophical part of the superhero game is addressed here... much like Spidey's 'With great power, comes great responsibility." special thanks to dilun for helping me recall... which is really good... putting a human side to the superheroes... which isnt hard... considering batman hasnt got no superpowers... just kick-butt kungfu and lotsa money to make gadgets... good movie... should catch... if i keep quiet... it's just that i dont want to let pple know i'm dumb... not that i'm shy... lalaaala.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:33 --Link to Post |
| 15.6.05 |
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** his parents picked us up from suntec on their way back from work... it was probably the first time the four of us are in the same space... they asked for my name... finally... and his mom finally asked me stuff non-food related... like what dialect my parents are... whether i windsurf too... ...therefore the highly confusing skin colour... whether we were from the same sec school... it's a good start... better than the usual "auntie...uncle..." and dart into his room... though i still think his dad still kinda cold... he speaks to tristan more... =( i know it's irritating that i'm still at it after so long... being with him is still so surreal... havent gotten used to the Dreams Come True notion... and the fact that he's been sending me home late at nite... all the way from Thomson to Sengkang... is like so utterly too-good-to-be-true... he has been nothing but a blessing... even after the day when i kicked the huge fuss abt promises and shyt... walking out on him and all... when i apologised... there was no indignant reprimanding.. just a simple, "no biggie..." and he treats me so well... at least better than most bfs i hear about... his little actions add up to a lot... man! how can i not love him to bits? his favourite phrase of the moment: "you want to be tickled?" (read Tik-curled.) whenever i mess up his hair... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:34 --Link to Post |
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i told him the day before that i wanted a quiet day in... so that i can finish Brave New World... so he suggested Pacific Coffee's big red armchairs... but the one at Citylink closed to become TCC... probably coz too many people sat there the whole day with a cup of coffee... stress: singular... especially having just stepped out of MPH... had lunch at crystal jade la mian xiao long bao... but the xiao long baos were holey... and the skin was way too thin... probably one of the worst i've had... we used to love the xiao long baos from there... venue of our first date... as buddies... but either the xlb master changed... or he went on strike... then we sat ourselves down at starbucks suntec... pretty nice decor... super high ceiling... i love high ceilings... i want a loft for my future home... spotted a few penthouses that would be great... the one opposite Laguna View... or the one beside CHIJ Katong Primary... or the one along Serangoon Road near Bartley Road... *wakes from dream* we grabbed nice green arm-chairs... and planted ourselves there until i finished my Brave New World... got his phone... traded in his e700a for a e720c... i think its uglier than my e700a... but he likes it... oh well... frigging 'lot of money spent again... i get scared when i spend too much money... it's just scary... dont you think? got potatoes, sour cream, bacon bits, mayo and salad dressing from Carrefour... coz Tristan, his aussie fren whom i've been calling 'his aussie fren' in the last few posts, was going to cook us steak the outdoor BBQ way... they ended up charring my share though... wahaha... but still good... save for being a tad crunchier than usual... it was a good dinner though... baked potatoes... steak... salad... iced tea... red wine... not exactly a wine person though... but i downed my share... i think i'm just not an alcohol person... lalaaala... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:56 --Link to Post |
| 14.6.05 |
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following are reasons for my terrible results this term... considering how much time i actually spent on these... i'm surprised i didnt exactly fail anything... *phew* so people aiming for dean's list... good grades... avoid the following AT ALL COSTS...  MSNing marathons... i think i was juggling 7 windows sometimes... mostly people not in uni... or smarty pants who didnt need to study... dammit... if oni i managed to drag them down with me... then i might have shaped the bell curve to my advantage....  endless Solitaire Showdowns... he was just impossible to beat... so i was addicted to TRYING to beat him... have been unsuccessful... save for a couple of times... i can never understand why... dilun and jon lose to me like super badly... although i shouldnt be disclosing that fact... considering they've been so sweet to play with me while he was away in China... am still trying... hard... to beat him... still... unsuccessful... dammit!  spider solitaire is addictive too... also becoz he's super good at it too... it's brainless shyt... just like solitaire showdown... but he alwaz seems to solve more than i do... which is terribly depressing... it's as if i cant do anything better than him... not even brainless shyt... trust me to be so competitive... actually no... it's just good to have something over him... so i can occasionally exclaim, "HAH! i'm better at you at THIS!" 'til now... i can only say so for windsurfing... but he's catching up quickly...  so is blog surfing... this is something i totally enjoy... wahahah... i have no idea why... just great to peep into other people's lives... without them really knowing it... the voyeur in all of us... i think i'm just one big peeping tom... it's a screen shot of my own blog... coz i dont wanna reveal what blogs i frequent... too incriminating... but i do read mine sometimes too... just nice to reminesce...  blogging... something that have stuck with me for almost 3 years now... woooo... it keeps me sane man... exhibitionistic? maybe... no? definitely! cant explain the addiction... just am...  and of course, friendster surfing... sometimes it's a convenient way to update urself on ur friends... especially the Marital Status part... so now i know that whoever's attached/married/gay... and so i can interrogate them about it when i see them on the streets... actually i enjoy the photos... nice to see how us, humans, evolve actually... girls becoming babelicious... guys turning just weird... kidding la... all you guys are looking good! and girls... oh watever! Moral of the Story: Do not engage yourself in such useless activities, especially during important periods likes Project Mania, Exam Fever or Tests Galore. If you can't help yourself, God bless. ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:15 --Link to Post |
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** another entry about him and time spent with him... *yawns* was pretty pissed with him actually... 1. not smsing me when he gets back home after sending me home... coz i constantly worry about him driving home late... especially with the way he drives... 2. promising me stuff but not delivering them... he promised to call me back... he promised to sms me when he gets home... he promised to cook for me... ...but he did none... 3. patronising me with repeated OKs.... even pisser when he din realise he pissed me off... 4. being so utterly irresistable that u cant stay angry with him... but the dark clouds soon blew over... we had lunch at novena square... he had his hair cut at united square... i got myself a subway cookie, mac's iced tea and some tidbits to fatten him up... hung out at his place... i think his aussie fren is sick of seeing me 3 days in a row too... lallaa... parents din scold me for coming back 1am on 2 nites in a row... and 11pm tonite... i think he's right when he jests that they deem him responsible enough to take care of me... glad so... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:03 --Link to Post |
| 13.6.05 |
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I think Howard of Eye for a Guy 2 fame is like freaking sweet... he's like super duper... but think Wolfgang wins it... they might let Howard win it... but not of choice yah? like what they allegedly did to Mark Zee and Rachel the last season... just to make the ending more audience-friendly... but it's proof of how nice guys finish last once again... I kinda totally support his Eye for a Friend ways... coz I never believed in a relationship blossoming out of nothing... and friendship... good, close friendship is a necessary prelude to a lasting relationship... holding hands.... hugs... kisses... arms 'round shoulders... are not for people meeting for the 5th freaking time ya? call me old-fashioned... or whatever... but as nothing-the-matter as they seem... they are pretty significant to me... therefore i feel utterly uncomfortable with shows like the Bachelor, Bachelorette, Eye4Guy... they just treat these so carelessly... esp when they act like they like/love each person... like every single one of them... kinda like promoting promiscuity... putting it on a platter for young impressionable minds... i totally adore Howard... but not to the extent of forsaking what treasure i already possess... let's just hope he doesnt read this entry... he doesnt really read my blog... ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:10 --Link to Post |
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i cant help but feel terribly sad when i see really old people working... it makes me feel useless... sinful even, that i'm like enjoying myself while they are struggling to make ends meet... even though they are weak and all... my grandparents (or at least my dad's parents) never worked for as long as i known them... and my maternal grandma worked for the first few years of my life... though probably not out of necessity... she has 7 children to support her... man... if this means anything... my (imaginary) readers be my witnesses... my parents wont have to work in their old age... i'll make sure they live in decent comfort... but now, let me do well in school first... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:06 --Link to Post |
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** went 'windsurfing'... inverted commas coz we kinda lazed by the beach... lamenting that the wind was too light... and when it did pick up... we whined that we were too lazy... picked up our stuff... i jumped at the chance of having the adjourning hawker centre's beef kway tiao... coz of the relatively short queue... went to look for his crispy prata in katong... it was closed though... so we went for his nasi lemak again... met up with his aussie fren at suntec... then made our way back to his place... watched a documentary while he slept... abit of channel surfing... then the jack the ripper show, From Hell... till late... wanted supper actually... but thought i didnt have my keys... and mommy was waiting up for me... felt bad... so he sent me back soon after... feel thoroughly bad for him having to send me back late at nite... my parents nag not at the fact that i came home late... but over the fact that he has to drive home alone on dangerous streets... with drunk/sleepy drivers... but i just love spending time with him so much... it pains me everytime we say goodbye... i dont appreciate him as much as i should... like how i dont treasure my dad enough... the first guy who drives me ard day after day... nagging at me coz he loves me... who would be the bad guy, if need be, and deny my requests for a stayover/late-night-out... coz he cares for me... i totally dont value enough the fact that he drives me back from thomson when he can... or picks me up from school just so we can watch soccer together... takes the bus with me all the way to sengkang... even though he lives in the central... i'm sorry i was a little pissed at you for making me cross six lanes of Upper Thomson Road... just to takeaway your prata... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:47 --Link to Post |
| 12.6.05 |
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was supposed to go attachment on course... but the pukey feeling and the bout of diahorrea before that was a little urgh... so stayed in for the morning... we had dinner at the hawker centre in marine parade... coz i was craving for xia jiao... went for Monster-In-Law in tampines mall... then met his aussie friend at coffee club for drinks... coz he was staying over at his place for a couple of nites... went his place to wait for the car... so that we could go for supper... and he sent me home after that... boring shite, i know... coz i am more concerned about the amount we spent today... cost of living in sg is really stupendously high... and i never really realised until i offered to pay for most of the stuff today... except supper... gawd... kinda feel terrible having him pay for most, if not all, of our dates thus far... Dinner: $8.30 (dim sum) + $3.00 (sugar cane) + (watever his nasi lemak cost) = abt $15.00 (for hawker centre thats like insane...) Movie: $9.50x2 (tickets) + $5.00 (popcorn and drink, really small popcorn) = $24.00 Drinks: $5.90x2 (smoothie and iced slush) ++ = about $14.00 Supper: $14.60 (boon tong kee) one simple night out... $67.60... imagine if we didnt hit the hawker centre instead... goodness... if we add his jeans from Fox and the top he bought me just so he could get 30% off his jeans... it's like another 80+bucks... i need a job... though i dont really think i wanna work... i think he realised the severity of the situation too... and we've decided we should just stay in on weekends... watching reruns of Everybody Loves Raymond... or ANYTHING on SCV... at least until our Taiwan trip... else we'll have to sleep on the streets... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:45 --Link to Post |
| 11.6.05 |
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okok... i take what i said in the previous post back... i am FREAKING happy he's back... thank goodness... would have probably gone crazy if he came back any later... booked our tickets for Taiwan already... funky stuff... gonna be there for like 6 nights... havent settled accomodation... coz 3star hotels are way too expensive... we're saving up for arty farty performances in july and when stomp! stops by in september... get real! more like he wants to splurge on another pair of levis and shoes... after spending like donkey loads on billabong jeans and a graphic card... but it'll be like backpacking... and thats cool... wats a holiday if you lived like u did everyday... the air tickets alone was 288... SIA promotion... but after adding taxes and all... it came up to 416... wah lau... although it's a steal for SIA flights... burn big hole liaoz... how to shop? maybe have to sleep in streets... haiz... met one of his good friends today... while i was having warm choc cake at bakerzin... and him staring at the utterly sinful act... i alwaz clam up in front of new people... especially his friends... oh well... i'm an anti-social introvert... wahhaha... but they're cool people... if only i dont have as much trouble making conversation... without worrying that it seems out of place... wah lau... all three paras has HIM in it... slap me.. the most amazing news is that USP camp and windsurf camp clashed... and i'm having a freak of a dilemma at hand... on one hand... the USP camp was something settled like donkey years ago... and the bunch seems shorthanded enough... esp with regards to Rag and all... on the other... i'm like gunning for president in the next windsurf comm... missing the previous camp was bad enough... missing the next two would be terrible... the peeps are most definitely shorthanded coz of the MIA-ers and oversea-ers... urgh... i hate choices, dilemmas and responsibility... if only there wasnt such stuff... time for bed... 2am bedtime not clever... esp when you have fullday course to pseudo-teach tmr... ahhh! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:51 --Link to Post |
| 7.6.05 |
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now that he's back... i din exactly feel the euphoria i was expecting... more often than not... i'm too hyped up about too many things... that i end up disappointing myself... it's not that i'm not happy having him back... just not feeling as happy as i would have liked to be... dunnoe why... maybe coz he didnt seem as excited to see me... but oh well... granted, he's sick... and he lost so much weight... goodness... that aside... was just surfing friendster as i waited for his reply to two of my smses... which never came... came across my sec1 crush... not exactly came across... he was already in my list of friends... the guy gained a freaking lot of weight since i last met him... like A LOT... ever since he injured his knee or something... funny how i used to think that he's pretty skinny and all.. and thought that he was pretty cute with the hu3 ya2... he just looks TOTALLY different... unlike the sporty basketball/soccer/tennis player that i knew him to be... amazing how people change so drastically... we kinda lost contact.. even though he only stays like a couple of blocks away... hate the way friends just slowly disappear from ur life like that... ok i admit... i wasnt making any effort to maintain the friendship either... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:23 --Link to Post |
| 5.6.05 |
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feel abit pukey... if there was such a word... am just hoping it doesnt have anything to do with watever stung me in the water yesterdae... that will be ultra freaky... ate a lot during dinner just now though... pukey feeling was there before AND after dinner... man... i think i'm just a pig... maybe i should just sleep earlier... then tomorrow's 9pm will come so much more easily... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:02 --Link to Post |
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actually quite touched... last nite... after the episode with the catfish... a few people followed up on my condition... mingle, saini and justin on sms... linc on MSN... wahaha... like it was a humongous deal like that... appreciated the concern though... sweet... when i went back to the club for Day 2 of the course... more asked about it... jason, uncle robert, boo, patrick, WQ... suddenly like so many people knew... kinda made me reflect on whether i was exagerrating the pain... making a big deal out of nothing... wahahah... patrick say i kena jackpot... yalah... windsurf so many years... never kena before... first day of attachment kena... wah lau... but course teaching quite fun la... learnt a lot... talk a lot.. really not easy to teach... 90 bucks like kinda underpaid... but oh well... just hope that klasses that i take... wont like 'starburst' and go in 6 different directions all at once... another course next week... woohoo! 2nd attachment... then CPR course... 2 more and i'll be a qualified instructor... wahhaha... dad finally gave the green light for Taiwan! woohoo! how great is that... finally he's coming back... and we can start planning for our week of street food, shopping, sightseeing etc! lalala.... trying to take advantage of the SIA's $288 Taipei flights... hope we get those... wooooohhhoooo! it'll be 5-7 days of him... and just him! okok... i'm starting to act ditzy... but seriously... how cool is that? soooooo happy... suddenly everything in my life turned back to normal... and is going as i please... hope nothing will change... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:53 --Link to Post |
| 4.6.05 |
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got stung by something in the water today... right when we started water practice... freak... then i had to crouch around in pain... ultra numbness in the feet... and PAIN... ...on my first attachment somemore!!! wah lau... tahan-ed until all the way after the course... then i went to ask saini for something to put on it... people told me it was probably a catfish... which i believed readily... coz i could feel the impact of the sting... so probably not a jellyfish... damn pain... wanna cry... called him while waiting for my parents... i know it's kinda chicken... and super backside to call him long-distance and whine to him... didn't quite occur to me that it was the wrong thing to do... making him worry... like thousands of miles away... as if he can do anything... but i called him again after i went to the doc's... and told him everything was fine... went to the doc in bedok... most of the docs i frequent are closed on saturdays... so argh... he didnt do anything... wanted to give me a tetanus shot... until i told him i had it already... so he piled me with 2 types of antibiotics... painkillers and antacids... and some ointment... urgh.. but it still hurts... pain pain pain... and he is REALLY coming back earlier! woohoo... days will be so much easier to go by... with him around! we can watch as many episodes of Everybody Loves Raymonds as we want... slack the entire day without feeling guilty... watch movies... windsurf together... but most importantly... he'll be back... so i wont have to call him everyday and spend 20 mins on the phone anymore! ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:04 --Link to Post |
| 3.6.05 |
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am a damn happy girl today... wahahaha... why over the moon? coz of a number of reasons... 1. i passed the first instructor assessment... although everyone says he passes everyone... "not possible to fail..." it's just abit worrying... and kinda too much money at stake... i mean... money spent on the course fees... 2. milk called and asked if i were free to work for them again... woohoo! i wasnt even LOOKING for a job... and job knocks on my door... coz pecilia wants to go visit bf in US... so called me up and see if i were free to stand in for a few weeks... but problem is... i have weird schedule all the way till sch reopens... pecilia wants to leave soon... but she cant be gone while olivier is gone... which happens to be within the 2nd week of july... confusing stuff... but hope it works out... and i squeeze in a few weeks of work... any amount of time spent staring at cute models/talents/hunks... ...is worth it! even if i dont get the stint... i think it's still super-duper that they'll call me up to temp for them again... i just feel so... so... appreciated... (i think they also bo pian... lazy to look for temps any other way...) 3. HE is coming back early! if he gets tickets... that is... the poor thing is down with fever... i havent seen him sick in all the months that we've been together... and now he tells me over the phone that he feels weak... super worrying... and i cant help but call him periodically... just to make sure he's fine... he's staying alone in the hotel... coz his roomie came back to sg liaoz... so had to ask the girls to check on him for me... just in case he passes out or something... hope he gets better soon... and gets back soon! first attachment tomorrow and sunday... probably under uncle robert... lalala... finally went to buy sunblock... wahahaa... set me back like 15 bucks... kinda heart pain... especially when you used to get sponsored ones that costs 40 bucks for a normal sized bottle... still have those... but they kinda expired liaoz... and i havent gotten down to dumping them... will do soon! bedtime... din sleep at all last nite... insomnia at its worst... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:32 --Link to Post |
| 2.6.05 |
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although i did pretty badly... the guy did pretty well... so i kinda redeemed myself in front of my parents by shifting the focus to his results... and they seemed pretty pleased with it... darn... they must be thinking what an idiot i am... so happy he did well... brought bro and eugene out for lunch and Madagascar... not bad the show... but alot of the jokes are already on the trailers... still a good laugh though... ate pizza hut for lunch... not bad la... just that most of the money came from my pocket... so am feeling the pinch... assessment tomorrow... for the instructor course... really hope i'll pass it... after that still got 4 assessments! *faints* hope to chop chop finish them all! then when he comes back... i can go back to being his full-time irritant! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:57 --Link to Post |
 am so not proud of it... just thought it had to come up here coz i've been whining about it for the past month... C for physics is BAD... with a capital B (and A and D)... but it isnt too bad considering i got the formula wrong for the ONLY question i could do... expected an A- for econs... but ney... think the rest of my class is too power already... not bad a grade for someone who didnt take JC econs... and had to jump into econs and analysis ya? evidently... my USP mods are better once again... any idea if i can major in USP instead of engin? freak! and DM is another miracle... evidence that you can smoke ur way through a module... even if your knowledge on the subject is less than half-baked... statics is HAHA... i only did 2 questions properly... and they turned out to be wrong as well... oh well... at least my CAP didnt drop as much as i thought it would... (though it IS pretty bad...) and i can still remain in USP... hurray! (before he manages to convince me that i'll be better off w/o it...) ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:08 --Link to Post |
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ok... now the red lobster is charcoal black... bad really... think he mightn't even recognize me when he gets back... which might be earlier than what i thought... woohoo! but the thing is... now i cant seem to be able to call him... the calling card thingy aint working... argh... i wanna talk to him! that aside... just spent the whole day slacking... TV... magazine... newspaper... websurfing... slacking... hey... time passes pretty fast when you're slacking ya know... bringing bro and his buddy, eugene, out for Madagascar tomorrow... woohoo! i mean the movie... not them... what to do... promised my bro already... results coming out tomorrow... i know i'm gonna do like super terribly... but oh well... wad's done, is done... cant do anything about it... at least i've got assurance from him... still... it'll be traumatic... knowing how terrible i'll do... AHHHHH! just to backtrack... dunnoe why i never got this down... ever... just occurred to me how different the kids in thailand were.. those we were working with on the YEP trip... amazing how they, at such a young age, would act on their initiative... and do things that benefit their community... something sg kids would never do... so who's to say we are the more civilised/developed one? sometimes i think we're too pampered and comfortable to truly understand the world... i dont deny that i am too.. for now... just let me enjoy Madagascar... before i unravel the sad truth about my results... but i do hope his results are better... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:59 --Link to Post |
 i just thought this photo looked rather comical... berwine clipping her nails in the tuk-tuk... way back in YEP Thailand... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:54 --Link to Post |
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