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yummy looking???
tiramisu... ooo.... cake.JPG ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:07 --Link to Post |
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went work awhile...
luckily we ran out of A3 paper... if not... i'd be there printing and stapling... printing and stapling... on and on... did all the calling i had to.. mr koh finally gave in... and accepted my pleads to employ those whom i thought needed this income the most... however insignificant the amount is... phew... at least i know i did my part... and did one good thing at least... even if they dont turn up tomorrow... at least there was a vacancy for them... left early... declined lunching with him... when home... slacked abit... before heading out to meet my pals for bball... was at mpcc... piangz... played with this group of young guys... who we all know are much better than us... we lost... but its not that... one guy esp... was utterly arrogant... my fren gave up marking him... coz he kept making her jump ard for the ball... just coz he's taller... then every time he puts a shot in he'll just shout 'surprise!'... even the usually gracious GY got really pissed... i ended up marking him... and eeks... he really sweat alot... i swore some of those got onto me... i admit i sweat too.. but at least i think i smell good... at least he fumbled a number of times when i was marking him... been a long time since i played match... but made a couple of nice interceptions... a couple of woosh shots... and elbowed that idiot in the stomach... muahaha... that was the best man! din play alot... mpcc is really too popular liaoz... difficult to have a half to really play on our own... would love to play more often sia... i guess esp since i've been inactive from wsfing for so long... would love to get back abit of my hoop shooting skills... met meizhi there... looks like my mentee took after me after all... she became captain after jac C... lallaa... she's still as kawaii as ever... miss her alot... still rem how she used to send me sms-es all the time... but was just too busy to reply and all... feel entirely bad... i guess its always the case... when something's there for you... you tend to just treat it all for granted.. and regret oni later... oh well... this is human... i am, afterall, only human... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:21 --Link to Post |
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went to work a little later yesterdae morning...
totally couldnt wake up... so called mr koh and told him i'll be late... by about one hour... argh... which i spent in the toilet... trying UN-constipate... amazingly... i alwaz had something to do... and even though i was actually supposed to be off yesterdae... i forgot all abt it... and reported for work anyway... anyways... mr koh is more than happy to pay me OT sia... been working for 9 days non-stop... abit no life i realised... would probably have to talk to him abt my split shift and all... its a tad too restricting... i really cant meet up with my frenz at all... like i told him... as much as i wanna earn money... i HAVE a life too ya know? worked till abt 1930 last nite... before going for dinner with mr koh and benny... oh ya... benny is 24... not 26 like i previously blogged.. its kinda queer a combo... they cant speak business... coz i'm ard... and trying to entertain me all the time is kinda weird as well... but like benny said... not alot of bosses bring their employees out to eat often ya? ate till ten plus... then went to marina south to play pool... then see all the young kids ard... i think our table the oldest in combined age lor... muahaha... but played abt one hour... and two games for me... before i had to be the wet blanket la... coz daddy called sounding kinda pissed... my dad la... reminds readers abt me being grounded till end of time? but at least the storm cleared by this morning... phew... to be frank... i CAN be the kind of person who will rebel against my parents wishes... and stay out as late as i want to... IF i want to... but was thinking... if by doing that.. i jeopardize my relationship with my parents... it aint worth it... coz i have a closeness in my family that i think is really rare... dont wanna compromise on that... so i'll willingly be the introverted homely person that most pple think i am... feel ultra bad for dousing the cold water on the outing last nite... 3 of us ate 80 bucks worth of food at No Sign Board... benny really could play pool... he wasnt fantastic... but i was shit... sam, loony, qi should know how badly i play pool... but oh well... i had fun... and i learnt alot eavesdropping on their conversations... its an interesting world out there... but dont think i'm ready for it... mr koh has been persuading me to work for him after futher education.... or if... and especially if i do badly for the 'A's... train me for the 2nd generation... but nah... i crave and yearn for the bigger picture... something that at least takes me out of sengkang... and finally have a taste of wat the real world is all about... flyer distribution starting tmr... would have to finalise everything today... mr koh asked me to stay in and finish the worksheet.. but i want to go out and do leh... i need variation and movement in my work... lest i get bored and find work a chore... office work aint my thing... then wad is? frankly i dunnoe... or maybe like benny said... its just that you have to find enjoyment in everything u do... i find that especially true... esp with things that HAVE to be done... coz frankly... you dont have a choice... and it all lies in the mind... i guess thats how my parents can stay in one job... for goodness knows how long... its really amazing... either that... or their threshold of frustration is freaking high... considering they have us to bring up and all... its a RESPONSIBILITY... a word i have to learnt and put to work... want to ask sam to call me... after his church and before his training... think i cant continue letting the wsfing issue hang in the air like dat... want to ask his opinion... abt leaving the squad... coz frankly... i feel bad for leaving him in the lurch like dat... quite frankly.. there is no one with him now... and andrew aint such a nice person to be with to begin with... not that sam's complaining... coz he hasnt been... but i kinda think it doesnt feel good... sam's probably one of my best buds on the team... if there's something in the squad i'll miss... it's that idiot actually... u know the relentless sarcasm we just dish at each other all the time... how i alwaz hit him in the abs and he exclaims, "stop hitting my muscular muscles!"... how he reprimands me for being significantly slower than the others... i miss windsurfing... but somehow... it aint worth coming to blows with andrew over it... i'd rather move to PFSSC and do recreational... i wanna like windsurfing again... ----Stef stopped rambling at 09:48 --Link to Post |
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found this in my email...
rather interesting... A city boy, Kenny, moved to the country and bought a donkey from an old farmer for $100.00. The farmer agreed to deliver the donkey the next day. The next day the farmer drove up and said, "Sorry son, but I have some bad news, the donkey died last night." Kenny replied: "Well then, just give me my money back." The farmer said: "Can't do that. I went and spent it already." Kenny said: "OK then, just unload the donkey." The farmer asked: "What ya gonna do with him?" Kenny: "I'm going to raffle him off." (Note: To raffle is to sell thing by lottery - draw lot - to a group of people each paying the same amount for a ticket) Farmer: "You can't raffle off a dead donkey!" Kenny: "Sure I can. Watch me. I just won't tell anybody he's dead." A month later the farmer met up with Kenny and asked, Farmer: "What happened with that dead donkey?" Kenny: "I raffled him off. I sold 500 tickets at two dollars apiece and made a profit of $998.00." Farmer: "Didn't anyone complain?" Kenny: "Just the guy who won. So I gave him back his two dollars." Kenny grew up and eventually became the chairman of Enron ----Stef stopped rambling at 09:25 --Link to Post |
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busy day today...
worked all the way from 0835 to 2225... boss caught me late by 5 minutes... muahahaha... piangz... quite a crazy day really... coz boss advertised for flyer distributors... and put me in charge of the whole thingy... not the entire thing... but answering the calls... 'interviewing' them... fixing times to report... and all the crap... but i told him i'm not going to do the bad guy job... as if calling to reject... coz i insisted to him that even if we dont need/want them... we should call... just not me... i'll just cry... so if anyone realises the unbalanced sex ratio... and the age... oops... thats my work... learnt alot today la... how cold and heartless the business world actually is... i felt terrible having to turn down someone who calls us enthusiastically... u could even hear the sudden change in their tone of voice... damn! i felt terrible... but bo pian... boss say... i do... din complete alot of worksheets today... was preoccupied with the flyer thingy... and crapped ard alot with my boss... i really not ke qi with him liaoz... just scared that one day i might go overboard... so trying hard to keep my behaviour in check.... its kinda like when i get to know a person better and all... i tend to be less formal with them... and sometimes... it might just offend them... esp with someone 12 years my senior... i'll be conscious... i hope i will... spoke abit to my boss' best friend ya? mentioned before... a benny... well... i guess even at 26... he pretty much been through quite a lot as well... u know... dishing out the usual nuggets of advice... and stuff like dat? he reminds me of the guy who stars in the HKG serial on chn U these days... the one who plays Le-er's best friend from the island... in terms of looks la... but he makes good conversation as well... i guess when u meet and talk to pple... you get to learn little things that u never knew... regardless of how brief the conversation was... if i'm not mistaken... benny does advertising and dabbles in IT as well... pretty impressive for someone his age... he's probably the same age as ben k. and weijie... suddenly i'm having an influx of pple born in '78... mr koh and benny are noisy... but having these two best friends talking to each other rite in front of me is pretty much of an eye opener... its not that i wanna eavesdrop... i kinda get to see how cruel the business world really is... not that mr koh hasnt been stressing that to me the entire day.... kinda makes me realise that i'm not cut out for stuff like that... u know... the 'eat-or-be-eaten' mentality... quite frankly... i'd happily be eaten... coz my life is guided by a strict set of principles... and it would take a lot for me to actually put those aside... principles sound impressive... actually... its just that... do onto others what you want others to do onto you... and it applies in the negative sense as well... i've grown to expect less of Man... of pple ard me... but i guess no matter what... there is always a want to be treated good... or at the very least... in a civil manner... would that be too much to ask for? suddenly got quite a number of pple ask me go clubbing with them... let me remind all blog readers: stef is still bounded by Mt Faber conviction... so unless i decide to sour my wonderful relationship with my parents... i dont think i'd ever be able to agree to any of such requests... i'm a very onz person... anyway... i dont mind going to look see look see... but frankly my parents are horribly protective of me... though i alwaz wonder why... since i'm not that worthy of their effort... and its not that i mind.. coz i feel loved... awwww..... boss say wanna bring us out over weekend... i think i rather sleep... really... i want to sleep... been panda-eyed for a couple of days liaoz... wan an... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:46 --Link to Post |
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went jogging...
with mr koh... weird that we needed to actually drive somewhere else to jog... but oh well... jogged near anchorvale... where there is presumably less traffic and better air... think that guy has more work to do before reservist in april... was weird la... we counted the lamp posts to approximate the distance... but that equated to 3.5 km if it's 50m a lamp-post... but if i'm not wrong... my dad once mentioned that in urban areas and around bends... the distance is reduced to 30m... hmm... that works out to abt 2.1 km... oh well... i wanted to hit the overhead bridges... but seeing how he was trudging along... reckon we should go further another day... lest he faints and i panick not knowing wad to do... i think we have a rather weird employer-employee relationship... so i'll probably start listing a whole bunch of reasons 'not to go jogging' or 'not to go makan' with him liaoz... taught the p1 class again today... think they are so cute... they were really quick with their maths... so we ended up playing hangman... after i taught them how to do prb sums... its kinda abit act smart on my part... coz din know wat to do when they finished their paper so fast... then just grab some papers photo copy... and teach... *bleah* abit difficult to handle them when they get all over your head... but the way the smile at you... man! all the past crimes, sins, mistakes... all disappear man... i'm kinda hoping miss au doesnt come tmr... i love the p3 klass tmr... would love to take them... esp since i'll be teaching them my fav sub... maths... yummy! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:06 --Link to Post |
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thank the powers above!
i passed my basic theory! *stef breaks out into song and dance* liew... really really thought i was going to fail... but at least this means that i'm better at ben k. at something... regardless of how insignificant this ONE thing is... finished another set of p1 and p2 worksheets today... phew... boss commended my work... phew... at least he din make me re-do! i'll just die ah... but i modified alot of questions... added my own two-cents worth... in a bid to make it more... challenging... and to teach everything that i think a p1/p2 needs to know... i hope i did ok.... phew... am going jogging later... i dunnoe how serious mr koh is when he said he's joining me... but oh well... mr koh or no mr koh... i'm gonna have to shed some weight... the sudden hiatus on my physical training... and no change to my diet... will probably kill me... must run! must run! hair's sticking out like a duck today... must be the fact that i slept with my hair quite wet last nite... bo pian... really very tired... and i have no idea why either... results for AI3's grp 3 is gonna be out tonight... fantastic stuff... better dont miss it! *back to tuesdays with morrie* oh ya... realised something.... i'm really sensitive to grammatical errors in people's speech and blog these days... its not that my grammar or spelling is flawless ya... coz it is NOT... but ever since i had to go so deep into the fundamentals of the english language... minor grammar mistakes really hit me in the face... so i try to be more careful than ever... ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:09 --Link to Post |
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spent some time re-doing some of the worksheets i drafted some days ago...
to satisfy the little perfectionist in me... and also to prevent mr koh from blacklisting me... he is finally back today... from malaysia... bought all of us tau sa piah to bring home... never really liked those things... but i guess at least someone... among the other 8 pple at home with me... would like having those for breakfast or something... had trouble waking up today really... alarm rang at 7... coz i was thinking of going for a jog before work.... but i woke up realising that sleep was ten times more impt... and the fact that i had insomnia for most of the nite... i think i should sleep while i can... set alarm again to 8am... woke... laid ard in bed... before finally jumping out at 0810... pulling out my new giordano junior tee which i totally adore... my extra large pair of jeans... the size 31 one... which i have to desperately fasten using a belt... its way too big... but i love the cut and the feel... too bad! it was a tad weird... my dressing alternates between smart casual and sloppy everyday... heck... as long as i feel comfy... i get my work done... i dont think anyone should have any complaints... but i think i shouldn't start wearing skirts.. the way i sit cross legged on the chair while updating stuff in microsoft access... the way i knee/sit/squat on the floor with the books/wrkshts/files sprewed all over the place.... the way i kick/stab/punch/slam the xerox machine... i think i should stick to pants/jeans... now i double up as personal trainer for my boss as well... damn... his reservist coming up.. and he desperately needs to train up... oh well... i guess i need the exercise as well... and cant let him down ya??? he even went to get shoes... just as long he doesnt call me xiao3 niu2 again... i'd be glad... was walking home abt 2200... ben k. was still working... said he'll call me back... which he did.. when i was in the bath... talked a little when i got back to him... but guy was going clubbing... talk abt energizer batteries! was supposed to go zouk with my TK friends tonite... but ney... i guess my parents still cant let go... Mt Faber conviction still in effect... i better not try appeal my case... lest i get a harsher sentence... what can actually be worse than grounded till the end of time? i dunnoe... so i know not to tell them where we went in pattaya... i think they'll just flip... a few times over... there's just so many things my parents dont know abt me... in fact... things that no one actually knows... i guess i should let it stay that way... it's for the better... but its true that i really want to see wad nitelife in sg is really like? reckon its better i see/know now... when my friends, too, are feeling their way ard... than later.... *shrugs* i'm still the good kid who stays at home k??? luckily i have no compelling urge to savour the nitelife... nor get drunk... or dance the nite away... though i wanna take a peek for myself... all that eugene t. told me... and see what its all abt... AI3 was amazing today... the voices... the performances were spectacular.... probably the best round3 ever... i like the hobbit guy.. and my favourite guy from haWAii... with the WA said impactfully... but really... the girls were superb as well... if you din catch it... get cable... ben k. said they air it there too... went sakae with family in the afternoon... pre-birthday celebration for bro... ate alot... but man! i love salmon... thats also why i need to run tomorrow... glad u enjoyed the coffee, ben k... i'm halfway thru tuesdays with morrie liaoz... you'll probably get that soon as well... the book is entirely enchanting... wanna include some excerpts in the entry... but ney... my mind is threatening shut down... i'm drained... really... never knew writing worksheets is this tough... so is data entry... *kudos to all* just pray i wont be insomniac again... that vacuums as well... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:41 --Link to Post |
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just when i thought work was starting to get boring and monotonous...
i found new meaning in it again... taught a P3 klass today... coz miss au was still sick... it was utterly sweet... a class of 5... pretty noisy as well... but they were such endearing individuals... especially the boys... plz dont get the wrong idea... i'm NO paedophile... the way they struggled to get my surname right... the way they clamoured for my attention to a question they didnt know... the way they smiled when they finally understood a concept... the way they waved from the bus when i left the centre... MAN! it was the first time i felt so good about myself! i was quite worried that i joked ard too much... but even when i was not making an effort to make them laugh... they just did... but once again... at least i finished wad i needed to... explained to "MR. dunnoe"... which is wad i called one of the boys... the solution and answer to the sch work he had trouble with... yun de was especially cute... he reminds me of the spiky haired cartoon character... dragonball maybe??? really... and the girls... kept laughing... one of them asked if i were a lesbian... i wonder how that came about... was asked why at my age i was still watching cartoons... coz i referred them two times to cartoons during the lesson... which was true... i am still watching cartoons and am enjoying them very much indeed... but i'm happie to have taught them abt venn diagrams... useful knowledge even if they dont have to learn it... abt the platypus and anteaters.... that they lay eggs even though they are mammals... taught them how to derive information from from diagrams... special skills in answering certain types of questions... there's a quaint sense of satisfaction in that... a sorta feeling near the aorta... certainly addictive... coz it gives u a 'high'.... before going back to work at 7pm... went to library to return books... the testament which i din finish... will have to get back to that one another day... read a significant bit of tuesdays with morrie... incredibly enchanting... over some seafood spagetti... potato wedges... a cafe latte... and a brownie topped with ice cream... we pigged out... me and my bro... yummy! it was simply heavenly... esp the brownie.. its like the death sentence for dieters... but do i look as if i care??? actually i really do... borrowed Lord of the Flies... which was part of Stephen King's must-read-list... will get to that after my mitch albom's bestseller... if... i am still awake during my non-working hours... know this split shift thing really sucks... like my dad says... my life kinda bounded by this split shift... but bo pian... mr koh's away... for a few days... presumably bringing his malaysian relatives ard or otherwise... would just have to go on with it... until i can speak to him... i know my pay really sucks as well... but i guess it the monetary side can be offset with the satisfaction i get... i guess it's pretty fine... but the pay really vacuums... miss sim was really nice today... knowing that i'll be knocking off the morning shift at abt 1430... which was kinda late for lunch... she bought me buns... ate them while taking a short break with the straits times... printed lotsa stuff again today.. but at least... there was NO paper jam... THANK GOD! think miss siti is a tad too quiet for me though... feel quite uncomfy that she is my immediate colleague... coz i really DARE NOT speak to her... oh well... i guess it happens... but the best part abt work is that... i walked home smiling... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:55 --Link to Post |
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walked into my home at abt 10 plus...
laid down at the doorway of my home... really... simply just flat on the floor... freaking tired... and realised that i spent more than wat i actually earned today... damn... bought the two books by mitch albom while waiting for yollie at jubilee... cost me 40 whole bucks... maybe if she was early i wouldnt have spent that money... but oh well... day started at 0830... i was kinda locked out... coz key that my boss gave me was wrong... so his mom opened the door for me instead... was left alone for most of the time... amazing that he leaves his whole HOUSE in my hands... not knowing what i'll do... was fighting with the xerox... the paper jams and errors were driving me nuts... the problematic feeder kept 'not-scanning' my page 2 of tao nan's science p4 CA paper... cant find the names i needed to update in access... boss kept disappearing when i needed him most... miss neo wasnt utterly friendly even though i tried to be... she was new too... but she seemed utterly cold... miss sim and miss yeo are kinda the nicest... but dont get much time with them since they are teaching most of the time... left abt 1430... met yollie for lunch and movie... lunch was abt 1530... at mos burger... kinda crazy... but oh well... watched along came polly... it was funnie, sweet, sad... all at the same time... but i din enjoy THAT much... coz was yawning most of the time... i think both of us kinda bogged down by work... enjoyed going out with her alone though... its been a long time... went compass point after that... got a 12 bucks bag with a faulty zipper from pepper plus... last piece... so it was faulty zipper or nuthing at all... reckon that it din matter very much... as long as i got a bag which size i needed and design i liked... and not that pricey... i like m(phosis bags though... love my grey one to bits... but i need something bigger for work... and i found it... start work again at 1900... bought xian jian bing to work... reckon they all seemed like poor, overworked, starved staff... left it in the kitchen... they finished two.. i brought the rest home... taught a p1 klass today.. coz miss au was sick... made them do a english paper... they were all very enthusiastically sweet little girls... liked them very much... but felt utterly horrible when i needed to ask them to keep quiet... felt bad when one of the more talkative ones went utterly quiet... i feel as if i'm stunting their growth... refer to totto-chan: little girl by the window... but i had to... in order to finish wad i had to... she was entirely sweet... all saying sweet goodbyes when they got on the bus to go home... but i guess i wont get to teach them again... anyway... teaching's not for me... i'm pretty much an impatient person... but i do love kids... they're the sweetest things... did the locking up at 2200... amazing once again that i'm trusted with the keys... miss yeo said mr koh wont be back tonite... shucks... i just hope i wont be alone again in the morning tmr... even though mr koh is quite noisy when i'm trying to concentrate... his conversations make work fun... hiakz... just dont like him calling me xiao3 niu2 aka little cow... kinda gross me out abit... today in the bus on my way from AMK... was sleeping like a pig with my mouth wide open... it has been a long time since i was this tired... but somehow... it felt good... it reminded me of my TK days... shuttling between bball trainings and wsfing... reminded me of my AJ days... staying up late with council proposals and wsfing intensives... frankly... i feel useful again... and i guess when that happens... u find a whole new meaning to life again... stef... stop spending money... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:16 --Link to Post |
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went work today again...
boss brought me go eat bak kut teh at balestier... not fantastic really... but freaking ex... oh well... i'd rather he give me the money... worked abt 6 hours today... *faints* so i din make it to adrian's free lunch and goodie bag... nor did i get any sun... just working alone in the cold, hard office... boss went out... leaving me all alone... sad case... but at least i feel good being trusted with the keys... went home awhile... since its so near!!! then met rene, jas and carrie at kovan for dinner... they went carrie's place to swim... we had pizza... horrendous service... oh well.. and food aint fantastic... we swore to eat hawker fare the next time we meeting without a b-dae... next week's our next meeting... play basketball!!! i hope i wont have to work again... really... i'm no workaholic... i like being busy... but sore neck aint nice... i clocked 22 hours over a span of 2 and a half days... i think i power puff... but this cant last la... i still need my sun, sand, sea... talked alot to the boss while driving out for breakfast... got to know more abt the staff.... abit of his life... gawd... he's oni 12 years older than me... but he's been through alot.... wonder when i'm that old would i be like dat... but dun think so lah... not very possible... i die die wont take risk... and would rather work my butt off doing something i feel secure in... even though i'm paid peanuts... peanuts can be quite delicious ya know??? dont want to spend any more time on pc liaoz... *bleah* starting to get PC-phobic... oh ya... bought another giordano junior tee today... got my sail number 23 big big in front... and a cute little cow at the bottom... wanted to buy white... but carrie wanted it too... so i took the green one instead... yeay! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:14 --Link to Post |
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i thot i was heading for 4 hours of work...
but in the end... worked till 1730 hrs... without breakfast nor lunch.. by choice la... too many things to do... and i hate leaving things ard and getting back to them later... i have short term memory... boss has been extremely funnie... made me feel utterly at home... i even got a nickname already... talked to more pple today... 9 hours passed pretty quickly... abit no life, yes... but i guess things will cool off soon... its the CA period... we're busier now i think... and i love my workstation... just beside his office... so can hear stuff when parents go in to talk talk... not that i want to eavesdrop... but its just IN YOUR FACE... read: IN YOUR EAR... i think my boss also realised his lack of privacy liaoz... and has been bringing his pple away to talk liaoz... oops! learnt new program... and how to work that big fat xerox... phew... would love to start on the shredder though... that would be damn fun... got introduced to another ben today... now, a benny.... why so many!!!??? boss told me he's our graphic designer... but considering how often a tuition centre needs a designer... i reckon either they're really good pals... or that he's one of the evil minds in this masterplan to brainwash kids... *evil laughter* even though i am working for a tuition centre... never believed in tuition.. nothing managed to salvage my horrid chinese grades... nuthing... will either work tmr... or make my way to the beach tmr... adrian promised me free lunch and goodie bag if there were extra... i feel like such a loser... okok... i shall not be so tan xiao pian yi... either work, beach or cinema... i dont care... i wanna watch cold mountain... ...and mystic river... ...and big fish... ...and along came polly... aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:59 --Link to Post |
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mr koh, my new boss...
actually i called him andrew at first... until i realised the whole wide world calls him mr koh instead... =~( kinda made me realise the significance of my zodiac sign to my character... we're both born in the year of the ox... he being one cycle older than me... but gawd... even though oxen are supposed to be hardworking... he din mention that... but said instead that it was the reason that i was as stubborn as a mule... why din thay say stubborn as an ox? thats like within a couple of hours of me working... and i'm dead sure that i havent shown him any of my stubborn-ness yet... i'm kinda sick of typing liaoz... having typed worksheets for 7 hrs on end yesterdae... and heading for another 4 today... but if this is how i'm gonna earn my bread... this shall be it... i just thank god for a great boss... who said i was kinda slow... but kept talking to me abt my family, friends and etc... din get to know the colleagues yet... will do so soon... and of coz... the amazing fact that i can boycott the PTS and still get to work! *Public Transport System yeay! ----Stef stopped rambling at 07:53 --Link to Post |
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keke...
things took a turn pretty quickly here... shermeen mentioned a tuition centre in sengkang looking for english tutors... asked me to try it out... since i got distinction in english for the 'o's... even though i got C5 for GP prelims... called the guy up... realised that the centre was just across this little road... went for the interview... guy suggested drafting worksheets instead... i'm guessing my occasional stutter and lack of fluency is to be blamed... maybe he thinks i'll scare the students too badly with my face... oh well... behind-the-scenes is good enough for me... talked a little more... and BAAM! i'm starting work at 2.30 today... pay aint fantastic... but i least i wont get robbed by the public transport system everyday... nor do i have to spend a bomb reinventing my 'lack-of' wardrobe... didnt ask him abt dress code... but i think my present wardrobe will survive two weeks at least... best part... i get 2 hrs off in the afternoons... where i can continue my 'terrorise-ben-k-while-he-is-at-work' occupation... and save money by eating at home... how can it get better than this??? but its true i wont get as much experience compared to working in big firms in town... you win some, you lose some... at least i'm glad i'm finally employed... yummy... no more 'persuade-your-employed-frenz-to-pay-for-your-next-meal'... lest i be the next victim... no more 'sleep-till-12-noon-till-ur-butt-rots-away'... but most importantly... no more 'andrew-foo-the-evil-coach'... everyone asked why i didnt start work earlier... it's because i never realised andrew was THIS bad earlier... ben k. you'll get your coffee soon... trust me... ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:01 --Link to Post |
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so they did decide that i'm a psychotic psycho...
damn... the hiring manager over at the other company decided that they needed someone with at least 6mths experience... lest i experience culture shock in their fast-paced environment... oh well... so no coffee for u, ben k... she was suggesting a tuition centre like thingy... in united square... but said they'll call me up soon or something... i kinda had enough of the 'will-call-you-up's... 1. coz usually they never do... 2. i wont answer my hp... 3. my hp blacks out too often for pple to call me... heck... i'm in bad mood liaoz... hate to be promised something then be refused of it later... will get back to reading The Testament... argh... ----Stef stopped rambling at 11:22 --Link to Post |
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song lyrics from far away newcastle...
yujin recieved my vday gift liaoz... heheh... only this for my pricked fingers!?!?!? heheh... thanks anyway! I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in vain I dream of love as time runs through my hand I dream of fire Those dreams that tie two hearts that will never die And near the flames The shadows play in the shape of the man’s desire went out with dad in the late afternoon... cut my hair... aint much... just abit of fringe... mom says i'm balding... argh!!!! and a trim... went for his favourite car-wash at serangoon gardens... then picked my sis from sch... it was a crappy day out... i love crapping with my dad in the car... he's great fun... really... a felicia from adecco called... am going down to yishun tomorrow... no interview... but i think they need to meet me to make sure i'm no psychotic psycho... before throwing me to phillips for slavery... argh... would start work in march at toa payoh if all goes well... so readers... START praying for me... bet you guys cant wait for me to get started... so that i wont bug u guys in the afternoon or for treats when we go out anymore!!! but they need me to know excel... hmmm... i sucked with excel... really... maybe get my dad to give me a crash course or something... will try... for $6.50 an hour... i'll master microsoft excel! can someone tell me wads wrong with my present friendster pic??? i've been getting weird msges... and this most recent one asked if i was undressing when the pic was taken... *blank* <----*speechless* <----nuthing to say.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:51 --Link to Post |
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dont think i mentioned it...
but yesterdae i got abit carried away siao-ing with my frenz... almost got knocked down by this car at the slip road between maxwell market and the URA centre... to the driver of the car... sorry to have traumatised u... although u just whoosh-ed past me... i think u panicked too when i was kinda stepping out... failed to realise that it was a two way road... which reminds me... i'd probably fail my basic theory like that... ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:13 --Link to Post |
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Correction to previous post...
(it is left as i posted it... for all to laugh at my mistake...) ewan mcgregor said in moulin rouge... "all you need is love..." paiseh... din realise it until i tried singing it the way he did... and it sounded weird... also because my singing sucks... but thats besides the point... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:13 --Link to Post |
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was still struggling with myself abt whether or not to cut my hair...
i want something more funky la... but the money... gawd... thats why i'm contemplating just biting it off... but the down side is that i can only chew that small bit off... cant reach the rest... so forget it la... till the heat gets unbearable... i'll just bear with my hair for now... hopefully it'll behave... stayed at home much of today... talked to pple online... which reminds me... dont you pple have to work or something!??! i thot I'M the unemployed one... read a good part of stephen king's memoir... which got more interesting as he spoke of the books i read... like how he got the ideas for those... Misery and The Green Mile... its almost surreal really... like he's just like anyone of us... u know.. NORMAL? but was thoroughly amazed by the way he builds his characters with characteristics of everyday pple... little things pple do... that alwaz seem make his characters come alive... how he developed his protagonist and antagonist in The Dead Zone... by emphasising on the complexity of human nature... the memoir kinda made me wanna read all his books... but my book line-up is kinda too long for now... i need to return The Testament soon but i havent started on it... borrowed this interesting book abt death and the possibility of the after-life... i want to borrow from lala, tuesdays with morrie when she's done... *wink wink* and i want someone to buy me The Five People You Meet in Heaven... *wink wink* to ben k... went to meet the gang at tanjong pagar... yollie had me losing my way in international plaza coz i couldnt find delifrance... she asked me to look out for Durian Telecom... i had in my mind Durian Lorry... so i kinda walked around the building looking for a lorry with durians... hey.. it wouldnt occur to me that a handphone retailer would call themselves durian telecom ok??? it's quaint name... but at least they succeeded in having me remember a durian telecom in international plaza... had the seafood chowder with some of them while waiting for the later-comers... coz even though i was second to arrive... i was already late... by abt a couple of minutes... i'm a punctuality freak ok? just that lala alwaz gets to see the late side of me.. went maxwell market for ramen... bought oyster cake for my dad... i ate a good part of it anyways... girls thinking of pigging out at newton and hitting zouk next wednesday... recalls loud music, pumping bass, alcohol-influenced blur in Hollywood*.. (*club in pattaya, thailand) erm... thanks but no thanks... besides... i'm still grounded for life... ever since mt faber nite in sec4... my dad would probably disown me should i proceed... blogger reminds readers that blogger is still living on mediocre handouts from parents... unless blogger decides to make "persuade-ur-employed-fren-to-pay-for-ur-next-meal" her official occupation... dad has the 'threaten-to-lug-CPU-back-to-room' face again... will probably read my book.. cant help it that i'm insomniac... should that word exist... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:59 --Link to Post |
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went out pretty early today...
met the gang to celebrate PC's bdae... staked out at some karaoke thingy at delfi orchard... sang the afternoon away... i know i cant sing... but karaoke is made for pple like me ya??? cant-sing-but-like-to-sing kind? but lala and angel can really carry a tune.. when i start earning enough money... i'll send them to US to audition for AI man... and hopefully... salvage wads left of the reputation of us, asians, as prospective singers... realised that its totally different singing along to my winamp... when u cannnot hold the key... u would just mute automatically... then just carry on when u can... but karaoke... nay... many times i just burst out laughing when i go out of tune... better that i stop at what i can do... rather than attempt the impossible and pay for shattered glass windows later... i din give willian hung a run for his money though... oni because i din attempt a dance with my songs... but i really had fun... finding songs that i used to listen alot to... but dont anymore... cantonese songs that i dont understand but nevertheless, totally adore... songs that got me through long and lonely trainings out at sea... humming them to myself when i need something to take my mind off the pain... being totally interested in the hokkien songs... the nursery rhymes... and the lyrics that dont seem to be accurate... but i had great fun laughing with the gang... cracking lame jokes... getting lost in orchard with lala... now i knoe that i'm not such an orchard bai chi... lala's much worse... oh... and also the fact that i'm pretty good at giving pple directions... not including the time when tourists at park mall ask me where is orchard road... that REALLY baffled me... and i had pak thai today at nooch... u know the thai fried noodles with crushed nuts and raw beansprouts... used to eat that alot at surf kitchen... think it was sam's favourite carbo-loader... but it wasnt as yummy as the one in thailand... been talking quite abit to ben k. over icq and sms... abt love, relationships and wat not... and the question of an ideal partner came up... should one have an expectation that one's future spouse should fulfil? looks? height? level of education? fill the shoes of an ex? u know the works... personally i thought it shouldnt be the case... esp not penalising a potential spouse coz of certain stuff he/she has no control of... c'mon... i cant help it i'm born unattractive... or grossly unattractive for that matter... but shouldnt it be like... when you do meet the person you can spend the rest of your life with... it wouldnt matter that the person has oily hair, pimples and looks like mr bean... not that mr bean is not good looking... just that his look has been long associated with comic relief... dont u agree??? though i dont dispute that to some pple... how the person looks is directed related to whether he/she can spend the rest of his/her life with the person... but it doesnt mean that if u're good looking and well educated and all... ur spouse must be that or even better in order to match up ya??? is compatibility of this nature utterly necessary... or like ewan mcgregor said in moulin rouge... "Love is all you need...." i tend to fall in love over the net alot... erm... does 2 count as alot? its not that i'm online this often to look for love ya? i'm not actively, enthusiastically looking for THE ONE... but i find the virtual arena a pretty good place to get to know pple without having to really commit yourself... and with that... u tend to be less reserved... more 'yourself'... who cares abt how u look like... or whether 'your gluteus maximus looks big in these jeans'... but getting to know the raw person... without external influence... was totally in love with tom hanks and meg ryan in 'you've got mail!'... i thought it felt so real... so pretty... so beautiful a story... coz for once... no one cared what ur last name was... (firestone or otherwise...) *starts drooling* or whether u spoke with a stutter... u get to know the person... void of pretense... and who loved you for just, you... but of course... with every boon there's the bane... net (sex) predators lurking in every corner of the internet... the dangers of being too trusting in the virtual world cannot be overlooked... i guess humans just cant help destroying pretty things... okok... i confess to plucking flowers from my primary school garden... *shrugs* PS: concerned readers pls do not be alarmed and start worrying for me... i do not meet pple from the net everyday or something... oni pple who i already know... or pple i spoke to for months or years on end... sex predators usually get too tired and bored by my crap by then... so i'm safe from them... but its not as if i'm of any interest to them anyways... my ugly photo is a great pervert repellant... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:04 --Link to Post |
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met bernie...
went airport to send joyce off... quite an amazing number of my ex-classmates were there... happy to be able to see everyone again... i guess this is the age when ur frens start flying overseas... then u oni get to see them like ages later... met one of my primary sch klassmates at the airport as well... shu an... its really amazing actually... i couldnt put a name to her face but she actually remembered me... oh my gawd... i felt so happy... there's no feeling like that really... when a fren/aquaintance remembers ur name... esp after like 6 years?!?!? 2 major image changes later... no height change sadly... actually i do remember we were on pretty good terms in primary sch... we were both prefects... and she was this ultra sweet, demure and mature girl.. every teacher's favourite student... coz she was so well-behaved... i really miss my primary sch pals... really... trying to get them in friendster... trying very very hard... but aint very successful coz most of them din go to jc in the end... poly sites are usually WAY too crowded... darn... kbox tmr... sing song sing song... just hoping the building wont collapse with my off key singing... i can do a great will hung impersonation... but of course... he's 10 times better... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:18 --Link to Post |
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was re-reading some of ben w.'s emails...
those date back to at least 3 years ago... but man... we spoke abt all sorts of things back then... reviewed bubble tea flavours... worms on our windscreens... what colour jeep he should get to accentuate his personality... how not to make his female employees cry when he rebukes them for gross mistakes... how blind-to-his-flaws one lady was to have bought him a mont blanc pen and tried to win his heart... abt wad would probably come out should we decide to puke that nite... abt my prbs with my bf last time... abt him wooing some lady with picnics and dates... abt how he loved his suzuki jimny and called it his mistress... how we loved soccer and adored owen... below is an excerpt from one of the mails... its disturbing true... so i guess it makes for a good read... but damn... i do this 'reminise abt ben w.'s mails' so often... i might have blogged this before... but no harm refreshing ya??? whew...type so much liaoz ar...hope u din zzzz. so now wat do u look out 4 in guys?... is ur bf close to ur ideal man? btw, do u noe how do test ur luv for ur bf...well juz ask urself tis old-fashioned question..if one dae..both ur bf & one of ur gd buddy (anione..can be mi oso) fall into the sea. & if both of us dun noe how to swim...who would u save first? tink now & i'll interpret below...... most pple will say "of cse i'll save the 1 i luv 1st".....however tis is not entirely correct. in fact the 1st u save is usually not the 1 u luv.....y?? juz tink about this...if both romeo & juliet's dad fall into the sea, who u tink juliet will save 1st? save romeo & let her dad drown? nay....more likly she'll save her dad first den jump in again to save romeo...the reason is simple...do u tink juliet will live happily by saving romeo & letting her dad drown? or will she choose to save her dad first & die happily wif romeo if it's too late 2 save him?? conclusion: the 1st person u save will be out of gratitude / obligation or reasons other than true luv. the 2nd person u save will be the 1 u r prepared & comfortable to die wif. if it's too late to save him...u'll choose to drown wif him...willingly.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:20 --Link to Post |
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dunnoe wads with my sudden re-infatuation of jud...
muahhaa... but havent heard from him in canada for a long time... and the resurfacing of adrian's photo webby... here's jud and me... freaking 2 years ago... when i was 10 sizes smaller than wad i am now... i really look less fat then rite??? man! *motivated* lose weight! 5 km tmr! and who cares abt my timing!??!?! maybe i'll take an hour plus... muahhaa... jud.stef(bums!).jpg suddenly got this stupid idea abt me on something like the truman show... i must be too bored staying at home unwilling to spend any money outside... abt THE STEF SHOW... gawd... think the audience would be so bored the TV station would go out of business... then u'll see the CEO on the streets... now, THAT'S REALITY TV! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:02 --Link to Post |
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finally its vday liaoz... after so many days of pricking myself in the thumb and thigh while cross-stitching lazily on the sofa... my ankle fails and and cramps kick in... rendering me INCAPABLE OF TRAINING... which equates to "stef-cant-give-training-mates-their-vday-gift"... damn... i rush rush rush the bookmarks... then in the end... they're still late... damn... so... i'm officially dateless today... TV's been a good date... the remote control especially... watched a show on channel i... called 'that's life'... man... it was pretty funnie ya... simply love shows/movies with the i-love-my-family theme... maybe its that i can relate to it so easily... and it makes pple feel good... even if it makes you cry... it'll make u feel good in the end... think its really special with my family... how often do you have a family where five of you just squeeze into the bed... watching TV... wrestling... ok... usually my mom would be at the desk adjacent to the bed... but man... we would all just tuck ourselves comfortably into the queen sized bed... yesterdae i was trying to put my used tissue into my dad's shirt... din matter that i was supposed to be all grown up... and into the stereotype of spending late nites out... prowling the streets and wat not... my siblings are not young too... but we would alwaz fall asleep on our parents bed and get chased back into our room soon after... i love my family... and that wouldnt change anytime soon... or so i foresee... did i mention my brother farting into the comforter that we were all tucked into?? man! thats the only thing that drives us nuts... but other than that... =) *crampz* argh. let me go sink in my insignificance ya? before my peeps come home from work and school... and we all go for dinneR! ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:17 --Link to Post |
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met melissa tong at ssdc...
she got a call from the law firm... but not confirmed with the job... that roughly translates to 'stef din get the job'... haiz... too bad then... though i really wanted it... test was ok... but had some weird qns... which i wasnt too sure abt... nvm la... just hope i pass... just want to stop feeling like a failure for a moment... now i want to eat sweet potato balls... that reminds me of adrian... =P hehe... alwaz call him potato... and i'm the tomato... dun try asking how that started... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:38 --Link to Post |
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felt this this letter best describes my feelings...
........... gym training was kinda horrid...fitness level kinda jialat...totally not up to std...but thing is i've really been trying my best...when i'm not training with the team or out at sea...i even run around my estate...but just simply not good enough...sometimes i really wonder is being good that important??? wad abt all that talk that trying hard is more impt and wat not??? coach hasnt been very kind...i think our character clashes alot...me being the kind who cannot swallow ungrounded accusations...and would go all out to argue my stand and point of view...but he's one ego-maniac who would never admit to his mistakes...and totally dislikes pple trying to make their point clear...sometimes i really dunnoe how to talk to him...he's oni 10 years my senior...but all i see is this huge GAP that i cant bridge...cant decide wad kinda GAP it is...intellectual differences, generation gap, diverging goals...i dunnoe...all i know is that his method of coaching is definitely not working for me or the other gurl in the team...the guys can swallow his blatant use of the 'not-so-beautiful' language...whereas i'm the kind who would blacklist u for life if u used the f-word on me...almost...in the spur of the moment...i almost sealed my fate in an sms to quit...only to be stopped by my dad who told me to think it through carefully...lest i regret it in future...he was right...too many things is at stake here...training squad status, maybe even SEA games if i'm good enough...but somehow i feel that my growth is stunted under him...cant breathe...athletes usually have high self confidence...i have none of that... i used to be really happy windsurfing...running to the beach from the bus stop when i feel wind against my back...rigging up my equipment as quickly as i could...just so i could catch the wind in my sail...heck if no one's out with me to keep an eye on me...i used to run away from basketball training just so i could go to the beach to windsurf...heck that i was the captain...wsfing took a bigger part of me anyway...we used to sail together till the sun sets nicely behind the cbd....pretty streaks of orange-pink-yellow...now i look at my watch while sailing...head back by 6pm sharp...now i'd rather skip sailing and rot at home...now i fear wind when it blows against my back...they have a shirt that says 'i'd rather be sailing'...maybe not for me... i want to be happy windsurfing...not caring that my run timings are 4 mins into overtime...that i cant pump half the iron the guys are doing...that i cant do 100 push-ups at one go... i just want to windsurf. stef ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:50 --Link to Post |
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lousy day...
not gonna blog abt wad happened... cried my eyes out in the car liaoz... was simply wailing and wailing... garang windsurfers? we're oni human... jogged around NSC today... before the gym routine... the sunset was a lovely pink-orange... utterly pretty... if only i was there with a good book in hand... a nice cup of tea... and a shoulder to lean on... quite funny... ben k. called my hp again... i was in the bathroom... called my home... my mom answered and asked for his name... damn... havent i told him there are way too many bens in sg... ur surname!!! but he was probably the oni idiot who would call me at home... or call me in the first place... called him back... no answer... now my turn... really want him to call back though... want to complain to him everything that happened today... think its kinda cool that i find it easier to talk to him now... in fact... i like it pretty much as well... he's fun... and he reminds me of jud... i miss judah... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:34 --Link to Post |
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did a 'trumpet' sneeze in the LRT today...
ya know the kind where u pinch ur nose when u're abt to sneeze... and the resulting sound is near that of a horn/trumpet... lala knows it very well... she laughed the most when it happened to me during some lecture in sch... quite a number of pple turned towards the source of the 'trumpet'... that was utterly embarassing... the LRT today was quiet... and i tried to pretend nuthing happened... went for the interview today... am thinking i wont get the job... coz the lawyer who 'interviewed' me told me abt the large response... interviewed in inverted commas coz it was more like a conversation than an actual interview... he was utterly nice... talking to me abt illegal song downloads... school... how he wasnt expecting such a large response... abt the average salary of pple my kind... how data entry is such a boring job... how cool paralegal work would actually be... i got him laughing quite abit yeah... but like ryan said... 'he's looking for a clerk... not a comedian...' too bad then... i had fun during the interview... i know this kinda chance doesnt come often... getting to be a lawyer's assistant without any proper qualification... but oh well... if it isnt mine... it isnt... my itchy finger went to jisiao the blister i got wearing my 'good' shoes to the interview today... damn... now its hurting a great deal... 'i'm dying!!!' my threshold of pain is really quite lousy... damn, i'm lousy... To: Mr Lawyer-who-interviewed-me-but-name-i-din-ask please call me back and say you'll employ me please... i know chances of that happening aint very high... but its one of the very few jobs that caught my eye... and i dun wanna stay unemployed any longer... coz i really really hate training with coach andrew... and would really appreciate a proper full time job in order to ciao training... Yours truly, Girl-who-made-you-laugh-so-hard-during-the-interview ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:01 --Link to Post |
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stayed home whole day...
sent out one resume... called in for interview tmr... went gym... ran 19 mins... 3 rounds around NSC.. then rowing machine for 15 mins... siong... lotsa lotsa weights today... until my biceps wanna snap laioz... tired... just hope i can pass the interview tmr... sounds like an interesting job to me... yummy! ben k. called just now... talked awhile... but his HP abit nutcase... said he'll call when he gets home... lets see whether he does ya??? i'll probably sms him at 0100hrs and he'll say he's still out lor... =P ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:13 --Link to Post |
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did nuthing...
REALLY. whole day no sms/calls at all... not including the sms from ben k. asking me to look at the moon... was like... 'wow... am i cut off from the world or something?' compared to the usual 20-30 sms a day... today was strangely quiet... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:48 --Link to Post |
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water training today...
was on the 4th hole... thot it'll be a piece of cake... coz the wind seemed pretty light... proved otherwise at abt 4 plus... mr tan joined us... and we had good circuits of bedok, keta, padang buoys... was quite ok for the first few legs.... but lagged behind for the rest... maybe i was tired... the re-panelled sails were really extremely heavy... and feels weird on the boom end... yucky stuff... after the water break at PA... the wind picked up alot... a very patchy NE though... to think i mentioned i prefer NE winds... gross la... then mr tan's boom broke... went to get help from the speed boats coaching the 420/470 squads... uncle edwin went to mr tan's aid... hiaks! quite scary... lucky i was around... if not i dunnoe where he'll float until... was having trouble myself... coz the sail was really too heavy... and i kept uphauling until the abrasions on my palm were really too much... hurts... but i had to get him help... and get myself back thereafter... din help that the wind was patchy... and that i fell in every few hundred metres.... darn... ego/morale crashed as the sail touched water every single time man... was smack in the middle of the 420/470 course... cant tell the difference between their boats... then they were kinda speeding in my direction... panicked... but there was nuthing i could do coz my sail was in the water... argh! it was terrible... but once again.. there was nuthing i could do.... on a lighter... brighter note... met the bball gang... shot a couple of hoops at marine parade CC... then made our way down to parkway swensens' for dinner... cost me abt 20 bucks... not cheap for the jobless me... but cant possibly be a spoilsport... and i DID enjoy my meal... with them... happiness... just love being out with them... we just laugh... crap... gossip... and of course... SUAN 486!!! hehhe... ching's b-dae tmr... din bring cam... so no photos... but still am happie!!! revisited adrian's photo webby... with the photos prior to jud's departure to canada... it's linked under youths.. check it out ya... think we looked ultra different then... just spoke to ben k. on the phone... for abt 15 mins... yeay... longest conversation so far... he was walking to the MRT station... so i guess it's a space filler thing ya??? hehhe... joked with him that i needed to start issuing alphabets for all the ben.s i know... coz its such a common name... heheh... but i think his surname is pretty unique la... so it'll do fine... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:50 --Link to Post |
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din train in morning...
had a bout of diarrhoea... quite jialat.. packed everything reach NSC liaoz... but still sh*tting like nobody's business... not smart to start running and doing PT... so went back in dad's car... met class for BBQ after tat... quite crazy i know... after the morning scare... but was better then... had a good time... but too tired liaoz... will blog another day.. but it was great seeing them all again... though organising a BBQ without a car is horrid work... trying to co-ordinate my parents to send the frozen produce... trying to estimate the amount to buy... even right down to the choosing of pit... even had to justify every decision i made on my own... to some of the guys.. damn... just tough luck to be working with FM pple... hahha... but seriously... it was fantastic to see everyone again... 0102BBQ.jpg will train tomorrow... so it means i'll have to forfeit the bball team gathering at mpcc... darn! dinner with them!!! dont care... even if it means skating ard with my kick scooter... heck! i just need to meet them!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:59 --Link to Post |
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not a very eventful day today...
ran a few errands then met ben l. .. go see the mummified bodies at singapore expo... really cool actually... man! was entirely intrigued... think that guy got bored pretty early into the exhibition... i was not even halfway when he practically finished the whole thing... din help that i had this tom cruise lookalike looking at the same exhibits with me throughout my route... haha... alwaz positioned the exhibit between him and me... so that i can gawk at him... just joking... ben was pretty urgh that he din get to bring his camera in ya??? so sad... muahhaha... but its really cool how they preserved all the body parts... 2 things i learnt... 1. that the appendix is a really really small thing... 2. that the young of a horse is called a colt... think i saw this ex-AJCian working there... but din make an effort to acknowledge that... dont think he'll recognise me anyway... *low-profile* left the hall... then waited for bus 12... waited and waited... in the end.. gave up and took a cab instead... ate dinner at fish and co... really paiseh to say.. it was my first time there... had the seafood platter for 2... and think that the tabasco was the best part of the meal... you mean thats not part of the meal??? but seriously.. liked the rice and prawns... and of course... the fish... and the calamari... question i posed to ben l... 'wads the difference between sotong, squid, calamari and cuttlefish?' i know octopus is round... so thats not in the question... the tag board is free for answers! coz wasnt satisfied with ben's answers... but who hates fish??? i, for one, loves fish... man! just give me fish everyday... i'll survive man... then took the bus home... enough cab rides for the day... took 3 cabs today... i think its my record man... i hate taking cabs... think its a waste of money... but considering i'm paying adult fare liaoz... i think its a different case altogether man! thanks ben for today... though short... it still means alot... coz it's free for me!!! muahahha... but really... appreciated... sleep early today... training in the morning!!! argh!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:12 --Link to Post |
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wind today was even stronger than yesterdae...
was on 4 holes downhaul yesterdae... but today saw me on 5 holes... and an aching back and hands... what started as a strong southeasterly... ended up as a patchy northeasterly... tides still very low... and eeky... had to wade through a patch of murky water and black rubbish before i could launch my equipment... sailed to PFSSC... then with the help of uncle suddin... changed my eeky mast track... sailed ard... but the planning downwind was really shiok... damn fast... even though my sail was spilling wind like nobody's business... the speed my board was going was amazing... will try to fix my board properly over the weekend... super glue the flapping layer at the stern... check my mast track again... and adredite the daggerboard.. and sand paper it... damn.. but i guess it wont be long till we move back to the racing set for competitions... still... no harm in making the most out of wad you have rite??? so... anyone can sponsor me superglue...adredite...sandpaper...screwdrivers??? my idiotic coach took the whole toolbox with him to indon... for the annual amslam... OUR toolbox... gym after water today... forgot to bring shoes... tried to borrow from kelvin... but funny guy doesnt have shoes at NSC... realised that his feet same size as mine... oni a tad wider... and fatter... he's one funny guy la... and really nice at that too... in the end... borrowed a pair of ultra cool booties from uncle james... dun play play leh... one of those funky looking nikes okie??? he's damn nice lor... told me that i could bring them home and return to him another day no problem... chai joined us in the gym halfway... seriously... he's a pretty nice, funny guy too... suddenly all the ah cheks at NSC seem nice suddenly... unlike last time when he was teaching VJC sail team... the pple called him 'volcano'... really tired today... arms, legs all aching... owww... going to see mummified bodies tmr... yummy! singapore expo... here i come!!! wan an! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:06 --Link to Post |
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trained the whole afternoon yesterdae...
after rigging up a set of sail for moon... sam came with new shorts... too big... sliding off his butt liaoz... mast track still cannot move... starting to get pissed liaoz... tides very very low... eeky mud... and lotsa black stuff floating abt in the sea... water very sticky... yucky feeling... but still have to train... sis feeling stressed abt her debate on friday... was trying her hardest not to cry at the dinner table... one thing that differentiates me and her... is the fact that she wouldnt let anyone catch her crying... even though dad was taunting her.. he prefers tat we let our emotions show.. lest we explode... can see she was trying her hardest not to... my sis is one strong girl... she's made for great things i tell u... going for water and gym training today... too lazy to go in the morning... hope the wind's a northeasterly... kanbate! ----Stef stopped rambling at 11:04 --Link to Post |
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Train_-_When I Look To The Sky Lyrics
When it rains it pours and opens doors that flood the floors we thought would always keep us safe and dry And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love That have to say goodbye And as I float along this ocean I can feel you like a notion that won’t seem to let me go Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you’re here with me And you make everything alright And when I feel like I’m lost something tells me you’re here with me And I can always find my way when you are here And every word I didn’t say that caught up in some busy day And every dance on the kitchen floor we didn’t have before And every sunset that we’ll miss I’ll wrap them all up in a kiss And pick you up in all of this when I sail away And while I float upon this ocean I can feel you like a notion that I hope will never leave Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you’re here with me And you make everything alright And when I feel like I’m lost something tells me you’re here with me And I can always find my way Whether I am up or down or in or out or just plane overhead Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly But with you I can spread my wings to see me over everything that life may send me when I am hoping it won’t pass me by And when I feel like there is no one that will ever know me there you are to show me When I look to the sky something tells me you’re here with me And you make everything alright And when I feel like I’m lost something tells me you’re here with me And I can always find my way when you are here ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:17 --Link to Post |
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actually had lotsa stuff lined up for me today...
the nite before was planning on how to get ard the island... running my own errands... booking the BBQ pit i need on sat... visiting my nanny and boy-boy... getting the basic theory book from rene... borrowing books on the way of the bushido... buying mum a cake... and meeting silie for coffee... all the above din happen... except the booking of the pit... a small cake for mum... and a john grisham and a stephen king... dont seem to be very intellectual reads... but heck... i think they'll keep me occupied... and hopefully... entertained as well... silie din happen... coz i cancelled on him for someone else who cancelled on me... damn! talk abt retribution... and since i told home i'm not eating in... ended up at the library eating spaggetti over an outdated issue of Time... never liked eating alone... but i guess when i have to... prefer to have a book/magazine to plant my eyes on while digging in... am probably a third through stephen king on writing... looks and probably is.. a memoir of his life and stuff... pretty interesting actually... *shrugs* am kinda '....' today.. have no idea why... maybe i'm in the 'wat-the-hell-am-i-doing-with-my-freaking-life' mood... and i'm '...' ... coz i have no answer to that... ben k. said that he'll be bored out of his mind with my kinda life... 'am i that boring???' 'is my life that monotonous?' and the answer turns out to be a resounding 'yes'... damn... i need to inject some life and excitement to my dull, black-white life... colour! shall wear my pink shorts to the beach tmr... did i mention? received a cute Peanuts doll carrying a white blankie... from sam of all pple... who got it from SIA during the mumbai trip... coz jasmine's dad was some engineer there... so the whole sg entourage got one each... dustbin, i am... dustbin i will be.... so... anyone with cute plushies that you think are too girly for the manly, macho you... you can send it all to me... and if u REALLY dun mind... i know cute little kids who would love having these... waking early to be at beach in the morning... need to grab breakfast and pack lunch as well.. damn... need to sleep soon... ciaoz... oh ya... promise to be a better kid... din get you anything... except a small cake... love you to bits... hope u know that... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:59 --Link to Post |
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quite crazy a sunday yesterdae...
brought my siblings...cousin...and eugene... out to watch Stuck on You.. and have lunch at the jap ramen place... arcade...ice cream... it was ultimate fun sia... esp with not old yet not young kids... we had a great time... really... never knew we could clicked that well... then met up with parents after they checked into meritus mandarin... we booked a room there for the night... ate the famous chicken rice... which we thought wasnt that fantastic... watched a late Cheaper by the Dozen with my sibs... while parents went for the last samurai... since i already watched it... show wasnt that fantastic... but i really cried and cried... coz empatised with steve martin's character... stuck in the dilemma of going all out for his dreams... and staying grounded for all of practicality... was sad he couldnt work things out for the better... that his children would understand and support his dreams... kinda wondered to myself.... whether i still am the ambitious individual... dreaming the impossible... the spectacular... the bliss... or have i fallen back to earth... and accepted my fate... that i would never live that dream... nor even think of it again... watched TV till abt 3 am... in the hotel room... slept on the bed... while sibs were on the floor with the sleeping bag... hey! they offered! all the way till check out... stupid way to spend money, yesh... but it was fun la... been eating alot these few days... think i should stop bingeing on food... before i start putting on weight... coz i havent since my pattaya days... may its coz i lost muscle but gained fat... since fat lighter than muscle... weight should be ard the same.. will sleep again... tired sia... wan an! ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:07 --Link to Post |
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watched last samurai with rene on friday...
nice la... very touching... moving and utterly beautiful scenes... good show... even though yujin says its riddled with errors... its still worth watching and looking up on the way of the bushido thereafter... everybody should go and watch.. met up with lala... miss her sia... been some time since we ate delifrance together like that... like we said... 'only thing missing was merser...' so it seems working life aint that cool after all... nevertheless... still excited about looking for a job... only question is whether i'll get one or not... trained full day today.. ran 3.6 km from NSC to pasta fresca... peppered with 100 squats, 100 step-ups, 100 push-ups and 100 flex arm pulls... cant imagine the guys doing 100 pull-ups... but they did lor... esp sam... so freaking light... darn... its his birthday today... and i think the shirt i got is a tad too small... underestimate him liaoz... forgot that a small wsfer doesnt equate to a small person... wsfers are supposed to be larger than life... in more ways than one... then run the 3.6 km back after resting awhile and hydrating at PFSSC... *peng* but christina our trainer is really fit lor... was in front of me all the time... make me feel so inferior... haikz... did almost 4 hours of sailing today... wind was a southeasterly of abt 10-18 knots... not bad la... oni that my mast track really cant move... chaam man... i tell u... now my other ankle is dying... and my face is red... din put sunblock... =P darn! went to uncle swee lee's place for dinner... made my own popiah... yummy... but very fat... looked more like tortilla... hehhee... ate alot... but talked alot... to my cousins... my uncles... bringing some of the kids out for movie tmr... actually just my sibs...my cousin...and bro's best bud... hope we'll get tickets... parents got a room at meritus mandarin... so will be spending the nite there.. trying their famous chicken rice... so i guess will be unable to eat fish and co with lazy ant... paiseh leh... super tired... think i'll just pengz in bed... wan an! ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:23 --Link to Post |
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