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went to work a little later yesterdae morning...
totally couldnt wake up... so called mr koh and told him i'll be late... by about one hour... argh... which i spent in the toilet... trying UN-constipate... amazingly... i alwaz had something to do... and even though i was actually supposed to be off yesterdae... i forgot all abt it... and reported for work anyway... anyways... mr koh is more than happy to pay me OT sia... been working for 9 days non-stop... abit no life i realised... would probably have to talk to him abt my split shift and all... its a tad too restricting... i really cant meet up with my frenz at all... like i told him... as much as i wanna earn money... i HAVE a life too ya know? worked till abt 1930 last nite... before going for dinner with mr koh and benny... oh ya... benny is 24... not 26 like i previously blogged.. its kinda queer a combo... they cant speak business... coz i'm ard... and trying to entertain me all the time is kinda weird as well... but like benny said... not alot of bosses bring their employees out to eat often ya? ate till ten plus... then went to marina south to play pool... then see all the young kids ard... i think our table the oldest in combined age lor... muahaha... but played abt one hour... and two games for me... before i had to be the wet blanket la... coz daddy called sounding kinda pissed... my dad la... reminds readers abt me being grounded till end of time? but at least the storm cleared by this morning... phew... to be frank... i CAN be the kind of person who will rebel against my parents wishes... and stay out as late as i want to... IF i want to... but was thinking... if by doing that.. i jeopardize my relationship with my parents... it aint worth it... coz i have a closeness in my family that i think is really rare... dont wanna compromise on that... so i'll willingly be the introverted homely person that most pple think i am... feel ultra bad for dousing the cold water on the outing last nite... 3 of us ate 80 bucks worth of food at No Sign Board... benny really could play pool... he wasnt fantastic... but i was shit... sam, loony, qi should know how badly i play pool... but oh well... i had fun... and i learnt alot eavesdropping on their conversations... its an interesting world out there... but dont think i'm ready for it... mr koh has been persuading me to work for him after futher education.... or if... and especially if i do badly for the 'A's... train me for the 2nd generation... but nah... i crave and yearn for the bigger picture... something that at least takes me out of sengkang... and finally have a taste of wat the real world is all about... flyer distribution starting tmr... would have to finalise everything today... mr koh asked me to stay in and finish the worksheet.. but i want to go out and do leh... i need variation and movement in my work... lest i get bored and find work a chore... office work aint my thing... then wad is? frankly i dunnoe... or maybe like benny said... its just that you have to find enjoyment in everything u do... i find that especially true... esp with things that HAVE to be done... coz frankly... you dont have a choice... and it all lies in the mind... i guess thats how my parents can stay in one job... for goodness knows how long... its really amazing... either that... or their threshold of frustration is freaking high... considering they have us to bring up and all... its a RESPONSIBILITY... a word i have to learnt and put to work... want to ask sam to call me... after his church and before his training... think i cant continue letting the wsfing issue hang in the air like dat... want to ask his opinion... abt leaving the squad... coz frankly... i feel bad for leaving him in the lurch like dat... quite frankly.. there is no one with him now... and andrew aint such a nice person to be with to begin with... not that sam's complaining... coz he hasnt been... but i kinda think it doesnt feel good... sam's probably one of my best buds on the team... if there's something in the squad i'll miss... it's that idiot actually... u know the relentless sarcasm we just dish at each other all the time... how i alwaz hit him in the abs and he exclaims, "stop hitting my muscular muscles!"... how he reprimands me for being significantly slower than the others... i miss windsurfing... but somehow... it aint worth coming to blows with andrew over it... i'd rather move to PFSSC and do recreational... i wanna like windsurfing again... ----Stef stopped rambling at 09:48 --Link to Post |
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