| 31.7.04 |
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finally...
my IE is not popping out with all the weird stuff and interupting my work proper... couldnt open the all-impt cors website yesterdae... was a traumatic experience... complained to daddy... was a wrong timing though... passed the stress to him... when he is already stressed and worried abt granny in hospital... was terrible of me... but i didnt realise it... dad, as alwayz, solved the problem... thank goodness... wonder what i'll do without him... went to visit granny today... aunt said she asked for me yesterdae... somehow... her behaviour kinda worries me... but am trying to push that to the back of my mind... fed her lunch... she din eat much... talked to me abt lots of stuff... things that none of us could really comprehend... hope she gets better... and that she can come home tomorrow... seeing dad this stressed and worried pains me... seeing granny insisting that she be discharged today... and being unable to do anything abt it... dad wasnt smiling at all the whole day... only forcefully when we were at the hospital... but i guess his mood did look better when the doc told him that granny was more or less ok... din drop by the studio today... vince called me at 12 plus... saying the guys wont be back in the studio till 3 plus... poor guy was stuck under the block... talked to him on the phone for awhile... complained to him abt CORS... dropped me a couple of tips on how to bid for modules... hah... i got the modules i bid for already... am just hoping the tutorials dont clash... am thinking of taking the 6 modules i got on hand rite now... a little crazy as it might sound... but its the average by USP standards... was looking at an example of a USP eng student sem 1 timetable... 1 writing module, 1 usp first tier, and 4 eng modules... same wad... not sure if i really wanna go on with it... but if this is the only way i'll hit the 160 MCs... so be it... not sure if i'm doing anything wrongly... i'm just bumping ard blindly... if anyone can help me along... would be entirely glad... din go for camps... usp's FOW doesnt seem entirely fantastic... havent got many friends in usp yet... nor eng... met a couple of my sec sch mates in usp... am glad... finally spotting familiar faces... did the turn-ard-and-"hi-i'm-stephanie" a couple of times... exchanged a couple of numbers... but somehow... i think i started uni on the wrong foot... would rather be more involved... more orientated... but i guess it cant be reversed... shall just take things as they come... hope that i'll get into the flow of things... and not end up in depression end this sem... but still... am glad i re-found berwine... had a great time crapping with her on friday... both of us bumping ard blindly together... a couple new friends... and a whole lot of confusion over CORS and the mass tear-hair-from-head session... hostel room is finally looking better... after dad chased stella and i out of the room and cleaned it ceiling to floor... yes... i'm spoilt and terrible/horrible... but i tried resisting... floor's not sticky anymore... the place (other than my wardrobe) smells better... thanks to the lavender room/linen spray from lala and merser... there is more colour in the room... i killed one bug... i met more pple in my level... but seriously... dont think that they are very friendly pple... but oh well... just hope i'm wrong... ahhh!!! need to go bathe.. meeting renez to get my bags back... ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:04 --Link to Post |
| 29.7.04 |
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visited pecilia and the cats...
talked abit abt work... whether i should go down on saturday with my pair of hands for a shot... met alwin lai for shopping... first shopping trip that i end the day empty handed... watched i, robot and brotherhood... movie marathon... fought with him who should treat what... in the end... it totals up to me treating fish and co," i, robot", 4pc McNuggets... and him treating familycombo popcorn and "brotherhood"... doesnt sound fair... but oh well... at least i watched 2 movies i really wanted to watch... and crapped truckloads with a good fren of mine... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:02 --Link to Post |
| 26.7.04 |
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i thot today was gonna be a easy day for me...
just dictate everything to pecilia... and the world shall have peace forever... it wasnt the case... things started getting crazy at abt 3pm... clients came calling for me... accused my colleagues for not handing over to me properly what they discussed previously... saying we din send a CD to them when the CD was sitting at their reception for god knows how long... playing the sacarsm game with me... 'hello dear? i'm talking about the XXX visual here, what has this got to do with YYY?' you dont dear me when i dont give a damn abt you ok? XXX has everything to do with YYY coz they are artistically linked... if you dont know your own work... dont turn around and bite me just becoz i do... such a b*tch... if she wasnt the client i would have given her a piece of my mind... considering i'm leaving anyway... she acted "yeah, great" when i told her pecilia was back... asked to be put to pecilia instead... in the end pecilia couldnt solve any of her problems coz p's still new with the project... in the end... have to still come back to me... dont keep blaming us when your co. is the disorganized and non-communicating one... since you like speaking to P so much... you can liase with her from tomorrow on for all i care... i'm just stepping in to send photos to your art director before i end all work with you... lets hope your project goes smoothly... *smile* and there i was thinking the the males from that co. were tough to work with... never knew the female was such a b*tch... was damn freaking pissed with her... was shivering in anger... i really never met anyone as overbearing and i-cant-see-how-stupid-i-make-myself-look... wonder if she actually thinks before she speaks... evidently... she's not giving my intellect enough credit... i know that you think i'm just a lowly paid, temp admin staff... incapable of handling whatever sh*t you throw at me... mind you... ive been doing that for the past weeks... and now... you undermined my effort... and my time spent in the project simply by asking to speak to someone else who just took up the project today... know what? i give up... if not for how Pecilia's been sweet and everything... and the hard work by boss and chian... i would have just walked away... was supposed to have met alwin at 630 for dinner and movie today... thought i could leave work on time and everything... have to push everything back to 8pm... offer to make amends by treating him fish and co... him and his coriander catch... felt bad for spending most of the evening complaining and complaining... just couldnt help it.. he was the first person i met after work today... i just had to let it go... it's like releasing gas... you just HAVE TO let it out... lest you feel uncomfortable all the way... had my seafood platter... but it was way too big... started throwing prawns, calamari, fries into his plate... it was great to see him again... after a few long months... thing is... he's gonna be here for another 7 whole years... muahhah... how cool is that? got more time to irritate and torture him... fish msged me today... was funnie... his msg read... "hi, this is feng hong, do you still remember me?" i'm like why not? asked if i knew abt cy's operation tmr... found out that cy's having a minor wrist operation... which i never knew about... was surprised really... both at why fish msged me... and why cy din tell me about it... cant decide whether it was he who din tell me... or me who din remember or take note... felt bad... called him during dinner... got alwin to speak to him as well... those 2 guys get along superbly even though they are such different pple... maybe both equally lame... that event and maybe a few has kinda shed light into how much of a failure i have become... failure to be a good fren... a good daughter... or even just more human... i'm not sure if the stress at work/sch and work itself has been diverting my attention from the more impt stuff... maybe its just an excuse... truth is... i'm just not that good a person afterall... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:52 --Link to Post |
| 25.7.04 |
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it was pretty sweet the other day...
sis came back home with 5 heart-shaped balloons from a school charity project... grandad bought one... and gave it to granny... how sweet is that? sometimes i feel old people dont like to show their feelings/emotions alot... when they do actually have loads of those... the i-pretend-i-dont-give-a-damn... but am-actually-very-concerned... its nice to get to see such things really... warms the heart a little... am going back to work tomorrow... loads of CDs to be sent out... a couple of cheques... a laptop to collect from a client's office... talents to be confirmed... people to bug... stuff to handover... glad pecilia's back... i can finally go in peace.. kinda excited i'm going to back to school... after working for a few months... 3 different jobs... 2 different industries... met countless kinds of people... worked with like loads of different people... handled catastrophic situations... muttered countless swear words... fun stuff... now headaching abt uni stuff... hope everything goes well... get to know nice pple... make good friends... do well in sch... make papa mama happy... it's gonna be 4 long years... lets hope i pull through... work work work tmr... kanbate! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:17 --Link to Post |
| 24.7.04 |
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yesterdae was supposedly my last day at work...
but i guess it wasnt really so... was expected to handover to pecilia when she comes back on monday... see through the large project on hand now... will be missing the interesting shoots coz i have to be in NUS... but i think i might drop by as much as i can... boss man and chian are going for an overseas shoot monday onwards... am kinda lost... trying to get them to handover what they've been handling on to me... so that they'll be ready to continue on this project once they get back... not sure if i posted about being in the cab with don and boss once... then asked boss abt shoot schedules and what not... told the cabby we're going ann siang road... then he asked if we're going to 28 ann siang rd... was surprised that he knew... but i guess he knows its a ad house there... cabby asked if we have any vacancies... i was the oni one who understood him... coz he spoke mandarin... remembered boss wanted a asisstant... coz chian's going full-time as photographer... turns out his daughter was at la selle... and is interested in photography... passed him a namecard... daughter came a couple of times for interview... she got the job! so fun ya? at least i did a good deed while in this job... vince's dropping by the studio on saturday next week... dunnoe whether i can drop by as well annot... would be fun... lotsa food shots... maybe we can dig in afterwards... if the food stylist does not come and do make-up for the food... lalala... got lotsa stuff to do next week... dont think i wanna work on tues... cant work on thurs... not on friday either! and i want a day to go shopping! i need clothes... t-shirts... big baggy t-shirts to hide how fat i've become... 2 months of NO exercise... this is bad... terrible to say the least... but i want a t-shirt in the deep green i kinda like rite now... it's a little bright... but i think it's nice... am starting to like puma stuff as well... esp those i see during shoots in the studio.. the fashion stylist has got amazing taste... wah liew... envy... i need shoes! t-shirts! and a crash diet! ahhhh! heard abt bed bugs in hostel beds.. scary thought... itchy itchy... will be staying in PGP's block 15... level 6... the higher the better for the fat people like me to lose weight...i maybe i should just forget abt the lift... hope i'll get nice neighbours... maybe even one who cooks well? maybe not... haiz... looking forward to the experience... let's hope its good... alwin lai ki-ming's back in sg... happy happy... guy msged me while i was fast asleep on the couch... yes.... i'm such a lazy pig.. will be great to see him again after so long... still not sure whether we can meet tomorrow... said he'll get back to me tonight... still am keeping tmr free... unless i can find myself a shopping buddy... though i hate shopping in crowds... was at uncle's place just now... he dug up a number of old photo albums... quite fun to see how everyone looked like when they were younger... cute cousins who are cute no more.... uncles who looked ultra handsome in their younger times... it was fun... brings back good memories... mom was so excited she was fighting with my 9 year old cousin over the albums... cant blame her... such are the stuff i miss whenever i choose to stay home over going over for such gatherings... it is not bad really... i have young cousins who would willingly give up their favourite cashew nut to me... who tell me abt the game on their PC so fun that they HAVE to show it to me... who bugs me to play chinese chess with them... and ask me who are all the weird looking people in the photos... utterly heartwarming.. i must do this more... sometimes you dont knoe what you miss till you have a taste of it once again... ciaoz.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:33 --Link to Post |
| 22.7.04 |
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was on location shoot today...
dunnoe why olivier insisted that i tag along... coz i'm practically useless there... and i've got more important things to do in the office... was so bored even one of my clients came up to me and "you look really bored"... c'mon... what do you expect? i am! assissted the fashion stylist most of the time... bought mrs fields cookies for hungry chian, don and xindi... stopped pple from walking by the shoot area... so fei4 rite? but oh well... at least i get paid... whole day everyone was jisiaoing chian abt his "great station!" ad... damn cute... looks cute when he give that kelian, "whole world against me" look... when he smiles too... i guess that's what the job entails... am trying to tidy up stuff nearing end week... tomorrow's not my last day... still need to hand over to pecilia... then try to finish up the major project on hand before i go... problem is... the biggest shoot is on the first day of school... dont think i can do it then... will have to see how... realised that of the 4 people from my co. on this project... i'm the oni female... and i'm the oni one who can speak chinese... power ah??? chian learnt malay... muahaha... so other than the stylist and makeup artist who are freelancers... oni me speak chinese... even though my mandarin quite jialat... had to lias with chinese opera artistes... rent stuff from them.... and everything... oh man... volunteered to go down with don tmr... chian and don wanted to go... but i reckon it will be useful if i went instead... even though my mandarin sucks... and have a look at that place... learnt alot over the past 7 weeks or so... met great people... great eye-opener... olivier was saying this has got to be my most stressful job thus far... if that is so... i wonder why am i gaining weight so fast... while it was almost true... i said my teaching stint was worse... try fighting 25 kids all at once... and pretending i know everything i'm talking abt... oh well... not easy to pretend i'm smart and everything on this job too... pretending that we like how the models look even though we dont plan to give them the job... told one of my agents that i was leaving soon... was surprised that it was actually a holiday job for me... she thought i was working for olivier for some time now... well... the pretend game is quite fun really... too bad its ending soon... need sleep... wan an... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:33 --Link to Post |
| 18.7.04 |
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simply love going out with renez...
dunnoe why... but she's one of the few pple i can really go crazy with... she makes me feel at ease... makes me feel impt to her... and we alwaz have fun... regardless of how little time we have together... we have our own little lives... our other best friends... but sometimes we act as if we cant live without each other... making great big plans to meet up and have a ball of a time... when we both kinda know we're too busy for each other... kinda glad i replied her sms yesterdae morning asking her out today... or mightnt have gone out... in a long long time... went to watch windstruck... nice show... kinda cried abit... was drooling alot over the guy as well... told serene... if he were my physics teacher... i would die die take S paper just to see him more... like you are capable of that... man... i'll work THAT hard... the story's kinda predictable... everything lovey dovey... mishy mashy... but it's still sweet... i love stories like dat... just soOOOOOoooo pretty... helps that the guy's cute too! went ard shopping... bought a tee... wasnt anything amazing... just basic black... the cut makes me look fat... but i thought... at this point of time... What doesnt?! bought a new sling bag as well... aint fantastic once again... but i liked it... will bring to work tomorrow... think they are rather sick of my black converse sling bag... i've been using it everyday coz i've been too lazy to clear it out... just throw everything inside... ate with renez at kenny rogers... girl gave me a treat coz i passed her some backpacks to use for her hike... anyways... she earned loads in her previous job... woohoo! rich girl... quite amazed at her capability... the rest of us were betting that she would quit within a few days... aint exactly what a best fren would do... look down on your pal... sorries... but she's been fantastic... top sales agent... lotsa commission... bonuses... woohoo... happy for her... at least she now knows her specialisation... something to fall back upon... went for dinner with parents just now... just the three of us... woohoo! had three crabs... one hor fun... and one mee goreng... amazing quantity? but seriously... my family eats like dat all the time... kinda obvious from my lack of control over my waistline... but who cares!? just that i better start a detox program... or read up on crash dieting... oh my hair... went to dye it last sunday... it's now a browner brown... and the lady who was supposed to "trim it"... like i requested... started slicing off hair like cheese on a grater... crazy stuff... after the whole ordeal... there was almost nuthing left except for a few strangly strands... even olivier commented my hair looks "wilder, what did you do to it?"... argh!!! i din ask her to do that... i oni wanted a TRIM... where you snip snip... and viola! you're done! no! she continued snip snip snipping... mom and i concluded that she wanted to save on hair dye for my hair... so she desperately tried to cut down on the volume... and in turn save on dye... argh!!! and this bad cut has to happen right before uni... oh well... just my luck... it's make or break tomorrow... regarding the big job on hand... the clients served their ultimatum... and if we couldnt deliver what they wanted... we're axed... all this after we've put it so much??? oh well... i guess this is business... survival of the fittest... if you cant deliver... it's just sayonara... oh well... at least i had the chance to experience something like dat... the stress... the anguish... the pressure... the we-dont-owe-you-a-living... oh well... i hope things will start looking up... last week at work already... will miss the kind of work here... would be sad leaving the interesting industry... but oh well... i have to go to school yeah? and when i'm done with that... hopefully no more $6.50 per hour... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:51 --Link to Post |
| 16.7.04 |
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am hiccupping like siao...
prbs at work still not solved... got worse in fact... i think everything's kinda screwed up... i'm tired... olivier's tired.. chian's tired... the guys have it worse i guess... they work 10 times harder... think the only major worry i have is uni stuff... had casting for a few interesting pple today... sometimes i feel terrible when these pple are really nice... yet i cant give them the job becoz the client doesnt like them... i know its not being professional.. but sometimes... you just cant help it... went down to NUS today... had the medical checkup... checked on the deadline i missed... and realised that they had a different deadline... kinda screwed up... got me worried like hell last nite... one of the weekends that i have practically nuthing planned... i did actually... but as usual... got cancelled on again... it sucks... i really needed the break... a good saturday out... but i'm just too resigned to try arrange anything... suddenly i feel sad... lost... and alone... maybe i should just lock myself up at home and outgrow my horrid hair... i need a break. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:21 --Link to Post |
| 15.7.04 |
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right eyelid's been twitching...
dunnoe what that means... just ended pre-pro with ad agency at 730pm... *dying* try taking minutes at a meeting where you dread picking out the serious points from the lame jokes... not going to camps next week... going for medical (cum mental) checkup tomorrow... lotsa stuff to do by next week... poor chian was so overworked he fell asleep at his laptop... shooting jewelry till 3am last nite... we worked together on the new estimate... big job... more than a quarter million changing hands... did alot of suaning each other... learnt stuff about him as well... oh well... more or less ok with my complaints yesterday already... am still being arrowed... but at least now when i get arrowed... i have someone on my side... need sleep... wont blog much... good nite. ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:17 --Link to Post |
| 14.7.04 |
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i think the most important lesson u learn in working life is that...
if pple stress you... taichi the stress to other pple... man... i think the person at the bottom of the hierachy damn ke lian... in this case... that person happens to be me... something that screws up... the poor, underpaid temp staff gets arrowed... i'm perfectly fine with that... maybe it'll ruin my chances of returning to that ad agency 4 years later for a perm job... but ultimately... it's his own rep he's ruining... i wasnt in charge of casting and sourcing for people for this project... but suddenly during the meeting with the client all the fingers point to me... when things start heading the wrong direction... c'mon man... i'm the secretary... i take notes... of coz i know who's in charge of wad as discussed in the previous pre-pro... i'd probably not come back to this industry... so arrowing me would hurt anything other than my ego... but it'll screw up your $60,000 job... i'm already trying my best to salvage the trash left behind by the previous individual... stop pushing me... and piling me with so much work... i understand you have other things to think about... but you're kinda forgetting i'm only 5 weeks into this job... how would i freaking know how to get around? and if you know a irritatingly simple way to reduce my file sizes... so that i can send my emails to the client with ease... would you freaking teach me earlier!?!? not only after i tore hair from head, put off rumbling stomach till 3pm... called in courier to send a CD over... i think i'm suffering a burnout... 10 days in a row... i think i need a break badly... maybe i should just quit and sayonara... "no, thats running away..." i wanna go matric camps... USP esp... i need to get a medical checkup... wad the... i think i'm starting to ramble nonsense... dad says i've been looking rather pale... oh well... i think it's the effect of no sports for 6 weeks... i dunnoe if my ankle's any better... but my hips are giving me prbs... i've gained lots of weight... muscle turned to fats... dark eye rings... hallucinations... i think i'm scarying myself... every morning i wake and contemplate calling in sick... but start to imagine how the guys probably wont manage... it's not that i'm indispensable... but we're really too short-handed... vince's on his new job today... hope it went well... i've got a client's putter cover on my desk to be returned... a credit note to prepare... more talents to cast... have to use the professional camera now... apparently my own camera's pictures are way too lousy... thats why the client rejected the people... it's kinda really heavy... kinda pulls you down when it hangs from the neck... quite scary when you call a new agent and the guy says he has heard about you... from another agent... must be one of those "you know that blah blah blah...what a b*tch! who does she think she is?!" i dont mean to be overly demanding really... i'm only acting under orders... boss even scolded me for apologising to my agent abt the tight deadline... saying that it gives them power... but the new agent's been nice... meeting his people tomorrow.. hope those would go well with the client's expectations... i'm already working hard... trying to progress to working smart... stop thinking i'm slacking away... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:53 --Link to Post |
| 12.7.04 |
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vince taught me how to use the steamer on saturday...
it was quite fun actually... burnt myself a number of times... pain... but i had to learn... i am the 'stylist', remember? but yeah... i feel kinda lousy... spoilt, to say the least... i was never the kind who would do her own ironing... much less steam someone else's outfit... i din see myself under the mercy of the models though... i could put them in reputation-slashing, fat-oozing tights if i choose to... thats the power i wield... until the clients go to their rescue about whether an alternative was viable... back to the steamer... vince was rather excited to show me how easy and effective it was... it was really... just that i dont do ironing enough to tell the difference... talking about wardrobe... had my share of wardrobe malfunctions as well... not on me... the talents in the shoot la... try white tights and black thongs... that was the ultimate... had to give her something else altogether... alot of the white stuff we borrowed were ruined by make-up and dirt, etc... jialat... money money money... protected the white nike polo with my life man... made the guy wearing it to wear make-up only when he had the shirt on... and to remove the make-up before he removes the shirt... should have seen what happened to our umbro singlet... it was a gone-case... called the NKF thingy last nite from my hp... sometimes i wonder whether i call to help the needy kids... or call to win prizes and get discount coupons... i think incentives kinda ruins the true meaning of charity... one wonders whether the 5 million collected came from the hearts... some of the stories last nite really tugged heartstrings... already quite painful listening to their ordeals... much less being the kids going thru all these... i salute their bravery, courage, strength... i've been a rather spoilt kid... all 19 years of my life... got lots to learn abt life... been meeting people who dont look their age of late... this indon chinese guy who looks 30ish but is 23... this mixed guy who looks 16 but is my age... and today, the ultimate... "are you sure you're 20? you look 30..." this indian guy had this air of maturity beyond his years... totally droolworthy... hopes he gets the job i'm pushing him for... and lots more... i'm learning stuff everyday man! client was impressed by how smooth the shoot over the weekend was... olivier looks extremely pleased... i'm just glad it's over... quite a nitemare really... have a pre production meeting tomorrow... not as prepared as i would like to be... hope i can be more ready by lunch tmr... desperately need sleep... 3pm today i was in dire need for coffee... but couldnt step out to get my fix... was expecting pple to come in for casting... and chian, who was the only one in, was asleep on the couch... dont dare wake him... oh well... poor guy's still recovering from flu... at least he has a reason to knock out... need sleep... need to stay awake at work tomorrow... esp at the meeting... it happens to coincide with my afternoon nap time... let's hope i'll manage to stay awake... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:22 --Link to Post |
| 11.7.04 |
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finally wrapped up the shoot today...
it was an enjoyable experience... though some people were quite difficult to work with... namely this guy we had to rent something from... he was the only guy in sg we could get it from... i guess that explains the high price and terrible attitude... maybe the model i was complaining to was rite... it is a high class sport... he probably had it IN him... i guess working in this field reminded me of council days... the busy rush rush... the chaos management... the murphy's law... the ad-hoc basis... the everybody-wants-a-hand-in-it... i miss my council... havent seen the bulk of them for a long time... that reminds me... alwin mailed me a week ago... lai ki-ming is coming back! yeay... no more under friendster's mercy... to get our messages to each other... clocked super many hours this week... producing this shoot... when it finally wrapped up with chian's shot... there is truly a sense of satisfaction... i din stay till the very end... coz i was trying to catch my parents who were in the area... but finally... a large scale project... in less than 1.5 weeks... *breaks into song and dance* of coz... chian was producing it with me as well... and the guys were the one who went shopping... but still... let me feel happy for awhile can? din get to watch movie on sat... left work that afternoon, sleepy, tired and cold... dad and i saw the fire station's fire... the black smoke was rather scary... we could see it all the way from lavender... traffic jams... everywhere... stuck in the cold car for wad seemed like ages... went home just ate and slept... no life huh? better than sick and really lifeless.. another long week at work... contemplating whether i should take leave... and enjoy a weekday off... wanna go shopping... enjoying a $6.50 movie with my other jobless pals.. have lunch out... no more takeaways vince gets for me... sing some lame karaoke with my buddies... havent been out to sea of late... miss the wind and waves... miss the sun... vince's starting work on wed... so cool yeah? guy's apprehensive... but i guess it happens to all of us... cool dude... saw him decked out in his biker gear when we left the studio the other day... him in his full-faced helmet kinda reminded me of wf... i think every one looks the same with a full-faced ya? i simply love having smiley people like vince around... a simple smile can brighten up the gloomiest days... vince is one of those kind of people... out of the blue... will just catch him grinning ear-to-ear at something he thot funny... and laugh at him too... will miss having him ard the studio... back to work tomorrow... embarking on a new, bigger project... picky clients... more production work... kanbate! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:31 --Link to Post |
| 9.7.04 |
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it's been some time since my last post...
something wrong with my home net connection... too busy at work to blog from work... been buried with work... chian's sick... first day of shoot today... think he's got me multi-tasking to save costs... i'm producer, stylist, baby sitter, admin, accounts, talent co-ordinator, all rolled into one... ok... i'm just giving what i do a name... but been running ard flustered, worried... chian went home sick... left little instructions... so i'm left bumping ard... with vincent... but vince's great... doing the guy stuff... i'm the run-around-studio-pulling-hair-from-head person... had a great schedule planned out actually... but lotsa last minute stuff... olivier realising that he shoots pretty quickly... difficulty in getting the right props for a certain day... got my agent pretty flustered as well... but bo pian... coz she has to lias with her talents... i cant talk to them direct... but it's been great... am meeting wonderful people... adorable kids... cute guys... *drools* sweet girls... forging a good working relationship with colleagues... and my clients in the advertising companies, design houses... model agents... even the models/talents themselves... i had great fun with the kids in the shoot today... got an sms from olivier that he is "very pleased" with my work so far... he has got to be... he's saving loads paying me, only $6.50 per hour... dunnoe why i alwaz feel shortchanged with all my jobs... coz after a while... i would realise i'm doing too much outside my job scope... and that the salary i was quoted was agreed upon another field of work altogether... dunnoe how to bring the subject up to olivier... but oh well... working over the weekend... aint got much of a choice... vince cant be in throughout the shoot... chian's sick... olivier cant manage alone... OT!!!!!!!!!! he better pay me... meeting cy for movie... i wanna watch windstruck... yb says its good... other than the predictable ending... adrian says it's good too... got a strong feeling i'll have to pay for it... if i rem correctly NS guys get their pay on the 12th... its only the 10th... haiz.. need to sleep... waking super early tmr... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:59 --Link to Post |
| 6.7.04 |
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another busy day at work today...
held a casting session of cute kids, musclemen, dainty ladies, ekin-cheng-lookalike, even a manhunt winner... man... i love my job... more to come tomorrow... but the wardrobe will be a huge headache... shopping for that will come tomorrow as well... don displaced me from my workstation for awhile today... felt utterly lost... after doing the necessary filing and tidying up... was reduced to sticking stickers to his name cards... and stickers on envelops... man.. a workstation is super impt when you need to look occupied and busy... oh well... at least chian has his laptop... if my PC were to die on me... i think i'll faint as well.. don's fun too... guys starting dancing to chian's ringtone... oh well... their idea of entertainment is kinda warped... amazing how making a dinner appt can end up in unanswered sms and sarcasm all thrown together... aint the first time we fell out over it already... if pple like mr sung and mr lam know i'm just kidding ard with my demands of treats back in MJ... cant understand why someone i treat as a fren doesnt... i cant really see what pple think of me... maybe i give pple the impression i'm mercenary... calculative, that i value a gift's monetary value more than anything else... but i dont think i do... do i? the treat you owe me because of the loan i gave you is secondary... it was more of an excuse to catch up with a fren i havent seen in weeks... it didnt matter where you suggested for dinner... doesnt matter how much that very dinner cost... even if it meant paying for my dinner and yours... i would happily do so... coz the treat is not impt... i just dont see why you cant differentiate statements i made in jest... and wad i really mean... it only goes to show how you dont know me... and that hurts... more than wad you said of me... i'm not mercenary/calculative... i'm hurt was having a great day... but not anymore... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:55 --Link to Post |
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met the bballers on sat...
had dinner at breeks... coffee at starbucks... met one of our students on the way home... small world... sun dinner was torturous... wanted to puke more than anything else... still sick... terrible... greece won... wow... like my anti-motto... "Impossibility is a Possibility..." busy day today... was supposed to get spidey tix for tonite... yb cant get them coz he's at camp... couldnt get away from work... busy day today... got sis to buy them from the AXS station for me... not bad... a N row... at bishan... watched a 2040 show... started at 2105... wow... show is good... spidey is amazing... love his vulnerability... yet superhuman abilities... good show.. catch it... freelance producer gonna join us for a major shoot... i'm demoted again... oh well.. he needs a experienced producer this time... cant live up to that... still got the other projects to think about... busy enough... had a 7 person meeting today... i think it's my largest so far... not including council adhoc ones... dont feel very useful there... but olivier insisted that i go... to make sure we dont get bullied? hah... i have no idea... reckon i'll be better off sleeping in the studio... had great laughs at work today... olivier was cracking huge jokes... chian was telling me he does it all the time... oh well... interesting fellow... sick... weird muscle pain that stretches from the butt to the calf... ouch... really... queasy in the stomach... ahhh... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:35 --Link to Post |
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actually had loads planned out for this weekend...
meeting the bballers on sat nite... then the councillors on sun afternoon... wanted to treat yb to movie... considering it's his 21st on sunday... but he's fully booked... wanted to drag cy to shopping... torture him abit... guy lost money over the course of the whole euro... considering how unpredictable the results have been... not surprised that a play-it-safe person like him would ironically get burnt instead... back to what i was saying... i had those planned... but been feeling more weak than ever... went to doc again... said maybe the gastric flu's only kicking in now... tuesday was just the prelude... doc was nice... din charge consultation fee... not that it helped much... after lunch today i was feeling nauseous all the way... lucky i could hitch a ride from my parents... if not... i might puke all over someone's shirt in the bus or something... lunch was a late 3pm... olivier, chian and i din realise we were missing lunch as well... me busy with paperwork... chian with his DI... olivier, everything else... offered to buy lunch... got some sweet dessert for myself... then went golden mile complex for their thai beef salad... piangz... i dunnoe why... 23 days in thailand... i had no problems with the smell of their spices and all... but 20 minutes in that place... i was abt to puke already... it wasnt my first time there... but i think being ill kinda taints the whole experience... hate it when there comes a point in time when i have nuthing to do... actually i did... but wasnt sure if the job was gonna go thru... so wasnt clear of how far to take my job thru... besides... olivier hasnt been very clear abt our responsibilities of late... so sometimes i do get confused when, say, chian gets some phone numbers from me... but oh well... would have to open my mouth and ask... monday will be one of the few shoots that i had a hand in... wonder how that will feel like... walking on the streets... seeing the ad... "hey! i helped produce that ad..." or something like... "see those strawberries and chocs in the background? i chose them..." so fun... passed renez the big backpacks... girl is going camp/hike/trek... gave me a slice of the cake she baked... she banned me from eating it though... saying i was sick.. told me to eat it one month later... and revert to her whether or not i got food poisoning.. oh well... but it looks ultra yummy though... lotsa chocolate, nuts... strawberries and icing... but like alwaz.... looks are deceiving... am starting to enjoy working chian and olivier... the former can just turn to me in a moment of silence during a discussion... flash me this huge toothy grin that makes me burst out laughing... just glad that he doesnt do that during our pre pro meetings with clients... they might just think i'm psycho... hmmm... i AM psycho... they might just KNOW i'm psycho... olivier and his unfunny jokes... he just farted in front of us the other day... and insisted it smells like air freshener... oh well... what can we say? he's da boss... keke... shall sleep early... i want to get better! i want to be on time for work! have been reporting at 9.15, 9.30 of late... ooops! lucky i'm not a perm staff... olivier might just fire me! oh ya... tmr saturday... i wanna go out!!! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:34 --Link to Post |
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finally...
the faces for the adverts are finally out... and done... ironically... only when i was on medical leave... shoot is confirmed... so i no longer wreck my brains over not knowing whether i get to live to see another day... vincent got the job he told me abt last week... happy for him... aint easy to find a job now... glad that it is one that makes full use of his qualifications... exchanged numbers... felt as if it were the last time see each other... well... not sure if he's assisting in the shoot on monday... he's been fun... great smile... nice personality... well... he did mention learning wsfing from lili... then i'll see him out at sea... if i do go back to the sport, that is... day today was quite ok... had some work to do from my absence yesterdae... a few quotations... some invoices... a couple of calls... and oh ya... casting for a new job... this time... casting guys topless... *slurps* okok... before you pple think what a perverted pervert i am... and how dangerous it might actually be for me to cast these pple... i must insist i'm just doing my job ok? i din even giggle... had one today... coz olivier threw in his fren for this job... low budget... but need good bod... oh well... i've got no fren to throw in... if job goes through... i'll have more to come... woohoo! need sleep... wanna wake to watch czech and greece... and bet with daddy that the match that opened the tournament shall be the one that closes it... that greece will meet portugal in the final... chances quite slim... i know... czech's unbeaten record is astounding... and its likely that they'll keep their winning streak... but it would be interesting to see the greeks play against the portugeese again... students have been sms-ing and msn-ing me that the exams were tough... haiz... exams have to be... if not everyone would pass with flying colours and forget abt studying altogether... after 12 years of the education system... if there's one thing i learnt... is that there is some truth in, "what doesnt break you, only makes you stronger..." after all... it is exams that show you what you dont know... what you must/should/have to know... and what you misunderstood all along... even rite down to my a level prelims... i was learning things i never caught during lectures/tutorials/tests/midyears... if only they can see that exams are never meant to discourage... nail complacency, yes... but not to make them feel stupid or inferior.. or like YXY would say... anti-superior... it's all in the mind... the mentality... if only the school wasnt emphasising so much on retaining students... or threatening to kick them out so much... maybe its essential to scare the sh*ts out of some of them... but still... not to an extent of panic... and incessant worry... anguish... ultimately... it's not the teacher/principal/parent/tutor you have to answer to... you only have to answer to yourself... that you did not let urself down... that you did everything to the best of your ability... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:05 --Link to Post |
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