| 29.5.06 |
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it was a Sunday well spent... at least in my opinion... surfing with the NUS peeps was cancelled due to the rain... so i met the guy for shopping... presumably to buy one more work shirt for him... so that it'll take at least one week before he has to repeat his mediocre working wardrobe... but i bought new brown Havainas too... another tanktop... the guy lamented that i keep buying tank tops... that i have so many of them already... should have variety or what not... but there is a limited number of things my bodyshape can carry... and knowing that i'm not the adventurous type... i tend to stick to things that i think makes me look okay... therefore the tank tops... coz i think i have nice shoulders... therefore the big tops with not so high necklines... to hide the flab and flaunt my collarbone... but after we parted... i walked around Compass Point and picked up some long tops... the kind that you have to belt up so as not to look like some pregnant woman... in stripes and purple! wahaha... will shock him with them soon... hopefully... he will be convinced about my lack of adventure and tank tops... went out alone with my parents for dinner... siblings dont usually eat out with us on Sundays anymore... sis' sick... but it was my daddy's bday... and my mom knows that he was craving for chilli crab to no end... so we had one of the bestest chilli crabs we've had in a long time... just the 3 of us... and it was so cheap it left us smiling all the way home... 39 bucks! coz we only had hor fun and mantous besides the crab... it was even cheaper than the 90 bucks spent at Boon Tong Kee with my bro... but then again.. we ordered so many things... 90 was still considered reasonable... especially since the food was good... i love being with family... watching my mom laugh wholeheartedly... my dad singing off-tone in the car... us doing silly, childish things... i think my parents gave us a wonderful life... despite not being born with a silver spoon... or living in one of those beautiful colonial bungalows near Stevens Road... or being able to afford the downpayment of my mom's much-desired Toyota Wish... we're living it good... very very good. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:14 --Link to Post |
| 27.5.06 |
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this was last Saturday... photos courtesy of Wilson's powderful camera... i resized them all... so they look a little bad... i am SO going to learn photoshop from my in-house retoucher... by the end of my working stint... i will be able to look like jessica alba... minus the cellulite... the horrible hair... the terrible complexion... the fat face... the stumpy legs... blah blah blah...  our Saturday at Sentosa... i refused to go out in the sun... read a significant part of my A Long Way Down by Nick Hornby... refused to go in the water... but did play some volleyball and dodgeball... and it was WAY fun... though i still hate going to the trouble of making our way into Sentosa... the guy was a pain to wake in the morning... dad dropped me at his place after i popped by PA... i rang the doorbell a couple of times... before his maid answered in a towel... "wait ah... i close the door... 1 minute then you open ok?" before running back into the toilet... then i surfed the net for 2 plus hours before my 23rd attempt at waking him bore fruit...  i miss our favourite Dutchman... i kinda cried when he left... teared, more like it... so i had to turn away a few times just so no one would see... but it was sad to see him go... he became such an integral part of the windsurf club... and one of my best buds in school...  and becoz the guy isnt in the Sentosa photo... wahahha... a picture at Wil's expense... in between all that was a seafood dinner courtesy of my uncle... chilli and pepper crabs... cereal lobster... herbal prawns... steamed fish... noodles and whatever not... before having my dad speed me to the airport for John... i love my dad... and it's his bday tomorrow... he doesnt read this... i'll be damned if he did... but... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! and... the guy got a perfect score this semester... CAP 5. A+ or As.... i dont think i'll ever manage to smell a 4... coz i never did... but he scored a 5... ............... and for one of the modules... he skipped lectures and only started studying seriously one day before the paper... why the world so unfair? but its not that bad on my side... my CAP improved by 0.02... even though i'm still a second-lower... *wails* and i found Justin's watch in my backpack... so scandal... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:07 --Link to Post |
| 26.5.06 |
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my dad likes to remind me how i shouldnt take the guy for granted... that i should act all demure and gentle... in case the guy decides that, "that girl is sweeter and more gentle, dont want you already." he says that young people these days are fickle and their minds change more easily... but then again... my mom and i agree that if the guy... or any guy for that matter... is such a person... then he isnt worth keeping as well... while i would love to exclaim that the guy isnt such a person... i really cant... although i trust him with all my heart... it's impossible to be able to pre-empt such things... while i would think that if he starts out with me in the first place... he would never be a person to bother about physicality nor demeanour... coz i am who i am... and this I consists of tantrums, jibes, teasing, punches, hype and callousness... to the extent of being insensitive at times... while it is true that he should be able to tahan all these and more.. even I cannot stand myself sometimes... much less someone else... i'm glad i met the guy... he was the man of my dreams... and yes, he still is... now... who said dreams never come true? ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:26 --Link to Post |
| 25.5.06 |
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its almost the end of the second week of working... getting busy... and getting fun... especially the last couple of days when there are shoots... big job coming in... more freelancers engaged... how exciting! tuesday night at alley bar was cool... glad how the windsurf comm is turing out... close-knit... and that rocks... too tired to blog... time to work on the post event report & windsurf clinic proposal that i've been procrastinating... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:01 --Link to Post |
| 23.5.06 |
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i was researching other photographers' websites... to decide on what info should go into ours... and also how they categorize their photos... when i chanced upon a rather sleazy site... some lame guy trying to pass off as arty farty... by using the words Fashion Photography... got caught by the boss la... kena teased till no end about surfing PORN... and later on another website... he announced to the whole office again that i was surfing PORN... how helpful... on my second week of work... but i love how lighthearted the industry is... though contradictingly... it's freaking stressful as well... was discussing with him which images should go into our portfolio and website... and he takes my comments and suggestions very seriously... am glad... but scary too that he puts so much trust in my taste... apparently he feels that an outsider will be better at deciding the mainstream's taste.. especially since i wasnt directly involved with these projects... dinner and drinks with the gang tomorrow... yippie yai yo. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:36 --Link to Post |
| 22.5.06 |
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a new work week ahead... and i now know better than to fill all my evening with activities... the past week was way too tiring... while fulfiling... nevertheless... tuesday and wednesday are booked already... any other takers? ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:48 --Link to Post |
| 20.5.06 |
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work has been draining... not so much the work itself... but the hours instead... just done with a presentation to my boss.... on a proposal that i have been working on for the past few days... an impossibly big project that seems like he wants me to kamikaze in... but he still seems so optimistic... and even mentioned that i will produce the shoot should he manage to convince the clients... i'll probably be starting work on the portfolio, website and some production work next week... hopefully thats where all the fun begins! da vinci last night was not bad... though i had to take a cab back from the guy's place... coz he seems too tired to drive... i'd rather spend 13 bucks on the cab ride than have something happen to him... movie is a little too condensed... but still interesting nonetheless... to see what you read coming alive on the big screen... fish and co before that was really good... free drinks at the outlet at bugis... coz of their reopening... woohoo! the date with the guy last night was great... one of the better dates of late... we talked... we laughed... every single minute we were together... prior to last night... i thot we gotten to a point too familiar with one another that we dont talk over meal anymore... now i know i am wrong... save for the fact that he was physically pushing me around Bugis last night... or shove for that matter... (dont ask me why...) flicking my arm with his finger... and my reciprocated punches and shoves... it was good.. ----Stef stopped rambling at 08:40 --Link to Post |
| 17.5.06 |
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i really appreciate the fact that i can go to work in tank tops and jeans... it's like so convenient... and i feel myself... at ease... and knowing it's not just because i'm temp-ing... but because most of the people in the creative industry do so too... taking the bus to work every morning... i see lots of parents dropping off their precious little kids off at childcares and kindergartens... it's such a warm sight... i think i havent been seeing little kids much... spending most of my past months in NUS and hiding away from massive crowds... i just rediscovered the paedophile in me... i love the innocence in kids... just takes a cute kid to point innocently at the sky with a quizzical look... and it'll send me melting... Justin is working in the same building with the guy... and he tells me that they can play pool together occasionally... Staff Welfare i think... WAH LAU... but i cant complain about my job la... the last couple of days have been uneventful... and despite not having things for me to do... my colleague still asked me to cab around the few deliveries i made to the clients... so far i met 3 nice cabbies and 1 utterly rude one... cabs are not my kinda thing... just too extravagant... only for emergencies... boss will REALLY be back tomorrow... i really want to get down to work... he has been nice enough to employ me despite having a full team... he even has an in-house retoucher and part-time accountant now... in addition to the other photographers, assistant and producer... i want to give back... and make the money i am getting worth every cent... i want to learn as much as i possibly can... so that i can truly consider this industry upon graduation... i wont even mind being his assistant... carry lights, equipment and what-not... i dun want to slack... =( no Da Vinci preview tomorrow.. and guy might have meeting till late... so i might just float around town till he's done... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:09 --Link to Post |
| 16.5.06 |
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first day of work... Olivier is still overseas... so i havent got much to do yet... colleague was trying her darnest to find stuff for me to do... so i kinda helped her by looking busy doing my own stuff... hopefully she wouldnt feel too guilty about not giving me stuff to do... weird logic... but its better than me constantly staring at her... or my cute colleague... guy called me mid-day... with his office phone... didnt realise it was him till long after... i was like, "hi, this is stephanie, i missed a call from this number..." then he yeah yeah... started talking and asking about my day... and i was like thinking, "what the hell is this guy talking?" i seriously dont see him enough anymore... at least, not in my opinion... coz i need to see him a lot! not really la... have been managing okay... i cant even recognize his voice anymore! woots! last SSC meeting tonight... turn-out wasnt too good... most of us working liaoz... but still Justin and i took cabs down from our workplace to end this properly... in the end only about 7-8 turned up including us... so frankly, i cant be bothered with the turn-outs anymore... it has become a matter of so-be-it... just glad it's over... and over on a good note... good job... by everyone... though i doubt it can be applied across the board so simply... i really think i'm addicted to the busy life... i cant stand being without responsibility... and my dad thinks i'm too soft and therefore easily susceptible to commitment... i kinda got impatient with the fact that my dad still treats me like a child... but somehow... i know deep down that he means well... and that i will always be his child... even when i'm old and grey... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:09 --Link to Post |
| 14.5.06 |
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i am blardy excited... it's my first day of work tomorrow! and i got a blardy big pimple below my nose and it doesnt seem to want to go away... *wails* i'm booked all throughout next week... and i dont know if thats good or bad... just that i'd kinda like a day or two with no plans... just to be able to fit MORE stuff in! monday evening will be my Sea Sports Camp AAR... tuesday evening will be with Weili and Melissa discussing our little 'business venture'... wednesday evening will be *hopefully* previewing Da Vinci's Code with the guy... thursday evening will be shopping and warm chocolate cakes with Sin Yee... friday evening will be Black Angus with his parents... and i havent decided on the weekend's plans... met the 0102ers briefly before my course in the afternoon just now... managed to do a quick lunch... before running away... at least i bought drinks... else would have felt even more guilty... SML! your mom's cooking's real great! thanks for having us over! organzing such gatherings is really a pain in the ass... i should really try to organize one and not let the usual suspects do all the work... time to pack my bag... and pick out something to wear tomorrow... woohoo! ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:31 --Link to Post |
| 13.5.06 |
 this was long ago at Hagen Daaz Siglap... after ITWC06... but thought it was funny as i was browsing through old photos... we tried to mime the HAPPY BIRTHDAY song for Wilson behind the glass windows... we looked scary... in addition to looking terribly dumb... and weiming betrayed us... he only smiled goofily... only Wilson, Lu and myself turned up for the session today... but it was a windless, rainy afternoon.... so we ended up clearing out the NUSwindsurf locker... and hanging popurri pouches on random lockers... in order to clear out the sponsorship items we had in our locker... it was fun... and it made me miss the windsurf club so very much... but then again... we had a fun dinner last Sunday at Bedok 85... where the bulk of them stayed back to wait out as i finished teaching my course... we had the famed bak chor mee... with no direct relation to the equally famed podcast involving Jeff Lopez... of Mr Brown fame... stingray, chicken wings, orh luak... it was utterly gratifying... but most importantly... it was with friends whose company you totally enjoy... seriously... dont know what uni life would be without them... and of course... it would have been insanely different without him... ----Stef stopped rambling at 21:43 --Link to Post |
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Sea Sports Camp is finally over... the weather was kind... no major cock-ups... none in fact... PA was ultra nice throughout the entire course of the event... dunnoe whether coz they really like me... or that they are going to bill me really mercilessly... the overall feedback has been great... so i'm feeling over the moon... but worked my ass off... part-timed as the cleaner... the mover... the instructor... the cook... the caretaker... very very jialat.. got to know some interesting people... joked, laughed, smiled, cried... only me la... cut my toe till it bled trails of blood as i walked... but i guess it was worth it... now for Post-Event Report and Statement of Accounts... think i'll be handling them as well... Olivier called on Wed... he's off to Shanghai for the week... so i'll be reporting straight to his new producer whom i have never met... still... it means i'm confirmed for the job... so i'm over the moon... the guy's working his ass off at GIC... but he says the people have been nice... mostly girls... OF COURSE HE'D SAY THAT LA! oh well... taking another course over the weekend... partly because i couldnt find a NUS replacement... but mainly because i need the money... after spending 40 bucks on a cropped jacket and 20 bucks on a bronze shoulder bag... the guy refused to let me hide my loot at his place... my dad's gonna kill me... am like totally tanned now... i dont know if it's a good thing or bad to start work like this... but oh well... the money's coming in! this totally shelves my driving license plans once again... and that... sucks... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:11 --Link to Post |
| 8.5.06 |
 Course of the Day: utterly fun people, very eager to learn and very nice too! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:30 --Link to Post |
| 6.5.06 |
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i turned down the USP office's arrangement for the internship interview.. i felt terrible... coz i was the one who applied for it in the first place... urgh... somehow this was the one that i was worried about when i wrote in to Olivier... now both semi-worked out at the same time... just praying very hard that Olivier doesnt go back on his word in the last minute... i will be calling him on Friday next week... where he'll have more information about my job scope... and about me reporting in on the 15th... it seems that their new full-time producer is male... and so are the other two in-house photographers... so... minus the contracted stylists and make-up artists... i will probably be the only female again... how very fun... and i mean it... things are actually looking up... Serene is really just working a couple of buildings away... so we can lunch togethere everyday... since my lunch is more or less flexible... parents have been stressing that i'm only a few bus stops away from Raffles Place... where the guy will be slogging out for his internship... so i can go disturb him after work ever so often... camp is coming... i'm going crazy... just hope everything works out fine... teaching course this sun... and maybe next weekend as well... i'm bent on recuscitating my bank account after my mad outburst of online/offline shopping... during the exam period itself... finally sat down to differentiate SSC money from Windsurf money from MY money... all in my bank account... since i'm handling the participant registrations for SSC... the course sign-ups for Windsurf... and i realised i'm very very broke... that's the terrible part about not being conscious of your spendings and balances... urgh... bad financial planning... let's hope my coming paychecks will survive the Great Singapore Sale... but before that... i want a shoulder bag... new flats... new jeans... new tops... blah blah blah.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:16 --Link to Post |
| 4.5.06 |
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just when Olivier called me and confirmed that i will be going back to MILK for the hols... USP called soon after regarding an internship interview... i know its just an interview... but what if i happen to impress them during the interview? i think my first cover letter ever did... since the resume put so many other people off... my problem now is whether i should go for the interview... since i already confirmed with Olivier.... hello to days of half-naked male models and drool-worthy babes... should i really get the internship means i have to cancel on Olivier which totally sucks... coz he has been nice... TEMP. $1200 cute, good-looking people... serene working 5mins walk away... MRT within walking distance... no need for formal work clothes... website experience... production of shoots and on-site, hands-on work.... INTERN. $1000 far far away... big company... data analysis... preparation of presentations... regional... need for work clothes... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:52 --Link to Post |
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was having lunch with Chunyong before MI:3... when i saw this old couple at the table behind him... the old lady was sitting patiently at the table when the old man came back with a tray of food... they slowly unloaded a plate of popiah, a korean grilled fish thingy and a bowl of rice... the old lady then proceeded to divide the bowl of rice into two separate bowls... before they started to eat their lunch... i dont think they were sharing because of financial woes... cause korean cuisine at food courts aint the cheapest alternative you can find... but more because at that age... you dont tend to eat so much... it was heartwarming to watch such a scene play out... the simple act of sharing food... an old couple on a good 'ole date... it was just so sweet... the guy never shares food with me... i dont know why... but unlike me... he never likes to exchange plates halfway just so we could try more things... something i'd always liked to do... he doesnt even share my desserts cause he doesnt like sweet stuff... but frankly... i think the sharing of stuff means much more than the act of splitting an item into two... it's an experience by itself... being able to enjoy something together... forking into the same plate... it's like sharing a joy... even if it means hundreds of calories over my warm chocolate cake... like passing a piece of the steak that i find yummy over to him... though he seldom reciprocates... and i help myself to his noodles or something... watching the old couple reminded me of my grandparents who live with me... how my grandad takes care of my grandma... how he brandishes his toothless grin when my granny tells me that she hasnt eaten when i ask her whether she has taken dinner and goes on to defend her own statement... the kind of smile that isnt patronising... the kind you see after 60 years of marriage... it just made me think about the little pink heart shaped balloon that he bought from my sis... who was raising money for charity... and gave the balloon to my granny... who did look happy... it made me think about my dad... about his love for my mom and us... he's not one to verbalise his love... with the many 'i love you's... or extravagant gifts... but the uncomplaining acts of driving across the island everyday to pick up my up from work... when he works in Serangoon... my mom in the West... and us living in the North-East... or when he picks me up from NUS... offers to pick me up for dinner outside... or to pick up my laundry and pack dinner for me... offer logistical support for my camp... that is love too... i dont think it's anything else coz i dont see anything that i can give him in return... not even in the future coz i dont think anything will ever be enough... though that doesnt mean that wont be doing anything... it's a nice thought... having someone to live out your life with... share ur food... ur pain... ur joy... and that someone can be family too... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:19 --Link to Post |
| 3.5.06 |
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the guy and i have been contemplating about where to go for a holiday... time is pretty tight cuz he only has one week between his internship and sem5 starting... money is a problem for me too... coz my bank account hasnt recovered since Taipei last year... but this time... the guy said we could use abit of the money from his stint... IF they dont decide to sack him before the 3 months is over... still... how can, how can? i really really want to get a job... i wrote to Olivier about the $$ expectations... but he no reply... i blardy saded... working there again will be so freaking cool... the job title... the experience... the fact that i dont have to buy formal work clothes... ARGH! will go all out with the other jobs soon... hopefully i will get a temp job or another... have been thinking about a lot of places... shopping places are probably out.. am saving up for driving... was thinking... Phuket? have been seeing so many great photo ops... pictureseque beaches... great food... but that means i need a good camera too... and that meant the Ixus 55... haiz... no $$... cruise? havent been much of a fan... but the idea of eat eat eat... quite appealing... though i think the guy will get bored of me pretty quickly... and i will get bored of him... Hong Kong? he has relatives there too... though i dont think they're very close... but thats where his cute (and rich) nephew lives! plus the fact that there is good shopping to be done there... and food! frankly i miss the little snack stalls of Taiwan... yan shu ji! Kuala Lumpur? quite cool actually... maybe spend a couple of days shopping in KL... one night at the casino up in Genting... dont think i can enter though... regardless... i'll probably be able to get nice shoes... Bintan? beach... windsurfing... yeay! Sydney? his friend Tristan is there... Charlene our ex-windsurfer-cum-vet-to-be is there too... but that will probably mean every cent of his internship allowance... so thats totally out... how how how? were at Pepper Lunch after my last paper yesterday night... guy was complaining about paying 33 bucks for 'fast food'... which is true to some extent... but i love their tow gay... haiz... supposed to be my treat... but he paid coz i paid for his books at Borders the other day... coz i wanted to earn UNI$ on my campus card... just that we always end up eating at places where we need to pay additional GST and service... which adds up to quite a lot... especially considering how much food in these places cost in the first place... think we ought to start making a conscious effort to save money... he isnt getting an allowance... i'm not getting much... neither of us do any part-time work too... maybe if we spend less on food... we'll have more money for other things... *whispers* like my Ixus 55... the camp is coming up... am going crazy... think i had a mini anxiety attack last night before i fell asleep... and it's freaking me out... school's out... the smell of freedom is alluring... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:34 --Link to Post |
| 2.5.06 |
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i was reading mr brown when he linked this guy's photo... and his blog... thought the following excerpt was particularly heartwrenching... it has jus dawned on me how callous i was to politics and its importance... ----Stef stopped rambling at 10:36 --Link to Post |
| 1.5.06 |
 mine!!! all mine!!! bought this off someone's blog... her stuff fly off the blog like hot cakes... especially the necklaces coz they're value-for-money... i only managed to grab this after chancing upon her site before she sent out to the mailing list... i didnt consult the guy about this... when i usually would with purchases above $20... coz i trust his taste... but he hates my peep-toe flats... which i totally love and received loads of compliments for... even though it's cak-cak now with the shoe falling apart... so... i guess i have to go against his opinions sometimes... nevertheless... we're celebrating my end-of-year2 tomorrow... even though he has the Bio final on thursday... and also... we're *almost* 16 months! ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:18 --Link to Post |
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