| 31.8.05 |
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berwine is right... i smile/laugh/chuckle so much more these days... ...and the reason is you. ----Stef stopped rambling at 13:25 --Link to Post |
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today has pretty much been a day of ups and downs... early start... at 8am... interesting lecture on Buddhism in India... rushed over to engin... collected payment for courses... sat through Mechanics of Materials... final rush through for lab report... went queensway for the jersey... had a standing lunch of IKEA's hotdog... made my way back... bought food for comm meeting/steamboat... where only 7 turned up... crashed haojie's cluster kitchen... coz mine was too crowded... it was good fun.. ben was his usual crappy self... photos if i get them from lyna... who took loads of those... gave the guy his present... no occasion... just thought it would be nice... went back... stared at my tutorial... tried doing abit of Solidworks... gave up... new neighbour, sin yee, popped by... and we chatted for hours... which was really cool... coz i thought we had pretty much in common... when we finally beared to end the conversation... i went to bathe... and had another one with grace while in the shower... when i came back... packed my bags for tomorrow... today, if you are fussy... berwine came by to collect her CD from shaun... talked for ages... sin yee came to join us... and so we did... crapped, laughed, chatted... until 2am... thanks ah... i got 9am tutorial tomorrow... but it was so good i tell you... made up for the totally lousy day i was having... lousy day... actually not so much so... i know i'm not supposed to like think about this issue especially since the girl is so %&#*$!!! but thats what my blog is for... record of events... good or bad... thing was... there was a girl who enrolled for the course... for the whole of the last week... she has been telling me she would pay the course fees... even giving me a specific time she would transfer by... for like consecutive days... and in the end when i did check at those times... there was nuthing... it was frustrating coz i had to IB continually... clearing my cache repeatedly... over and over again... i told her i would pay for her first... before saturday... and she said it was ok... assuring me she wont run away... so i trusted her.. the final straw came like yesterdae... when she msged me saying that she cant make it on time on saturday... saying she has some exco meeting... something which PA cant allow because it's a certification course... so that was what i told her... she said she'll meet me at SRC at 6pm today... coz regardless of whether she will or will not make it for the course... she's obliged to pay me based on a verbal confirmation... heck what law... i just know it's only right... how can anyone misuse someone else's trust like that? then today when i called her at 6pm... she said something like she's making her way over... then said it's very far... from ARTS fac to SRC... NUS peeps... please judge... then said she wanna do a ATM transfer... i got pissed coz that is what she told me last week... and i seriously have no time to be played by her again... so i told her that.... and she started giving me shit abt how her friends say she is not obliged to pay the sum... saying that why she should believe i paid in advance for her... i couldnt take it anymore... i handed over the phone to the guy... asked him to settle it... i know its damn chicken coward... but the thing is... i was breaking down already... i couldnt understand why there can be a person as unreasonable as her... and so he spoke... with tact... with reason... until he blew up as well... it was the freaking first time i ever, ever seen him so angry... i think the rest of the comm got a little surprised as well.. i seriously never seen him so angry... not even the only time he got angry with me was any match for this... (i kinda refused to get out of the car to get the chicken rice i wanted... he was on the 2nd leftmost lane waiting... so him getting out was insane... but i just refused... just coz i wearing a mis-matched something... my bad...) but i got so scared i just started crying... i dunnoe why as well... it was kinda embarassing... i dunnoe if anyone saw... but i had go to the washroom to wait it out... and apparently he managed to get her to pay... note: APPARENTLY. so i msged her my acc number for the 100th time... and merrily took a drive back to PGP with him and kelv... to prepare the food... until i saw her number flashing on my phone... i passed it to him again... coz i dont feel strong enough to take her on anymore... and this time... she got her friend to call... and make noise about how it isnt her fault... about the payment... and that it's our fault... which is far from the truth because i gave her the option of getting a replacement... something i cannot do on such short notice... i tried... i really did... or whatever the crap... i just burst out crying in the backseat... although he was talking to her in the front... i could hear her every word... and the guy was damn pissed also... i think kelv also panicked... actually not bad to cry in front of guys... suddenly you feel very protected... like real la! damn embarassing can? i was really very frustrated at that point... but once again... the guy apparently settled it once more... the money was coming via IB... note: APPARENTLY. another call came in when we were in the pantry... was a friend again... and i wondered... so there's MORE of her around in NUS... *shrudders in fear* and they were threatening not to pay at all... saying that she even contemplated giving up the exco position just for the course... whatever... sob story... not... freak... i think the club will be quite thankful... (i'm not usually into personal attacks... but this time... it's a whole new game...) saying that they can complain about our club and what crap... the guy just calmly suggested that we all meet at OSA... though i dunnoe why OSA came up... do they really settle such stuff? but he damn power la... this conversation ended on a bad note... so there was no apparent conclusion... but at this point i was damn ready to just forfeit the money just so i wont need to tahan her... they called... again... plural now... coz there is more of them! this time she says she will go... but was asking whether we will condemn her after the episode... scared we purposely dont pass her... suddenly i wished i got my instructor assessment already... whether we'll be there to point fingers... and the guy had to freaking assure her that we wont be there... finally it came by via ATR... and i checked on IB... i smsed a very polite msg about the instructional email i sent her... with super-duper detailed instructions... no reply. i think i won... no doubt with the help of THE GUY... but at least i dont hold grudges and purposely let her go PA without the necessary forms... and make her trip there a wasted one... iRock. 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| 30.8.05 |
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Love is.... ...having Chelsea's latest soccer jersey in one hand and a $1.70 hotdog meal in the other. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:07 --Link to Post |
| 29.8.05 |
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am still coughing like a horse.. and thats an understatement... i feel with every barf... i'm like inching my internal organs through my throat... and sooner or later... i'll probably see my tiny heart on my laptop... or my poor shrivelled lungs on the floor... okok... thats being over dramatic... but truth is.. the coughing hurts... and i am still refusing to see the doctor... i dun like doctors... unless they're cute like Dr Goh, Dr Ma, or the quirky one that treated my sis in SGH... guy was supposed to call me when he gets back from sending his dad to the airport... it's 2am now and no call... while i would like to think he simply forgot... or lost his phone like how a certain mr chia fly my aeroplane 2 years ago... i cant help but worry as well... knowing how he drives... and how their car has slightly faulty brakes... choy! but hope he's ok... so that i can give him a tongue-lashing tomorrow when we meet for lunch... bleah! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:54 --Link to Post |
| 28.8.05 |
 NUS Windsurfing Sub-Club Committee 04/05... these are the people who have made my first year in NUS an utterly enjoyable one... i cant imagine not having joined the committee.. the outings... the surfing... the meetings... the MSN mass conversations... so glad that i met them in my first year... meaning we'll have more years to come... despite only having half the comm staying... it's still a heartening fact... it'll be our last meeting together on tuesday... but i hope it wouldnt be the last of us coming togteher... friends are not made to be lost... thank you guys... you rock. ----Stef stopped rambling at 12:19 --Link to Post |
| 27.8.05 |
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even with the onset of the English Premier League... it has been pretty okay between us... at least he's not like hibernating with his TV at home... leaving me all alone and all.. (maybe only because i leech onto him like really often... and i dont mind watching soccer... especially with cute pple playing, like Lampard and Park...) lalaalaa... although i do feel abandoned sometimes... it's probably only becoz i used to see him like EVERYDAY... and now, it has dwindled quite abit due to the fact that he doesnt stay on campus anymore... but it's been good... the fact that we have to make time to meet each other... between each others' tutorials or lectures... makes it so much sweeter... just had my 3rd attachment today... it was a public class... so most of my 'students' were of the working class... mid-thirties... late twenties... but pretty fun bunch... and they like me too... yeay! (at least thats what one mother-of-one told me..) wahhahaa... and the instructor i was attached to was really sweet... he got me to teach half the klass.. so i got to learn his style... and practise my own as well... that way... i would probably be more prepared for my assessment... that i hope to do two weeks later... 'coz i cant do it next week... have a field trip to Hindu temple with my class... so exciting... we're going to a number of places... my class... Hindu temple... Buddhist temple... rug shop in Tanglin Mall... Indian restaurant... having a yoga lesson... watching films... not Bollywood though... asked the swedish guy from the NUS course today to join me and the guy at dinner today... just casually asked him along coz he said he was going back to PGP... and i know how lonely eating alone can be... brought him to suntec... and even though we kinda swore off crystal jade xiao long bao and la mian there... we went back... and it really got better... cost us about 16 bucks per person... but, boy, were we full... it was good talking to him and all... though i might have scared him by talking sOOOooo much... just fun to ask all the funny questions... and learning things about someone from another country... without the language barrier... he picked up windsurfing REALLY fast... we like 'wow' when he started trying to do jibes at the end of today... great thing was... i kinda choped him to represent NUS for Novice already... he'll probably just eat the rest alive... NTU and SMU, watch out! and he says IKEA meatballs arent that authentic afterall... wahahhaa... (did i mention that we went IKEA on thursday evening? i tried the meatballs for the first time... and the guy had roast beef... not bad, not bad...) and he cooks! sven... pretty cool guy... have to start on homework and readings tomorrow though... the crunch-time has arrived... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:03 --Link to Post |
| 26.8.05 |
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i suck. i mean like seriously... i cant even take an ounce of stress... and direct it productively... sometimes i wonder if i'm up to the job... chairing the windsurf sub-club... i think the only qualification i have for the job is that i've been doing this for so freaking long... the sport i mean... then i look back and recall how my primary school prefect duty roster got ruined in my hands... me being vice head prefect and organizing the duties... and also upon secondary school bball... where the entire attendance record for the team was empty... coz i was the captain... and i didnt bother to take attendance... while i would like to think i'm into the leadership thing... i'm not... and it's worrying me to death... i've just been calling/smsing/emailing alot of people... who didnt return my calls... make payment on time... now i've to trudge to PA and get shyt from them again... suddenly i'm all into the i-hate-people mood... and it sucks.... seriously... and as much as i wanna be nice to people when i'm in such a mood... i cant... thursday morning was Fever Pitch and Chelsea vs. West Brom... slept at 5am... woke up at 10am... friday morning was a bout of insomnia... only reason i could think of was the cup of mocha frap i had over my catch-up session with WX... which went well i guess... been ages since we last met up... slept at 3plus... woke by 7plus... 3hr tutorial on friday afternoon... Solidworks... which is ultra cool... but ultra hard to grasp... India presentation coming up soon too... and i'm freaking out over the prof's expectations... and the readings i need to do... somehow... i'm having a sudden urge to just run back to Olivier and tell him i would work for him FOC... if only he would take me under his wing... teach me photography and digital imaging... that way i wont have to crack my miniscue brain over ME crap... fluid mechanics... thermodynamics... sensors and actuators... mechanics of materials... the grass is always greener on the other side... i vaguely remember how i swore i didnt want to ever put up with eccentric art directors... demanding advertising clients... and egocentric project co-ordinators... i need some direction in my life. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:33 --Link to Post |
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question of the day: find the length of the free-forming wire in the shape of a U.  real life engineering problem... if i cant solve it... i'll be forever condemned by him as a lousy engineer-to-be... and he wont be able to tell his dad that i, the future mech engineer, solved his problem... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:40 --Link to Post |
| 24.8.05 |
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feeling particularly sore at the fact that i just blew 90 bucks on ME textbooks... modules i have no particular interest in... and dont understand at all... i wonder why i am in ME... "oh the guy:girl ratio..." aeronautical specialisation had better be good... today is my first early day of the week... ended at 12 noon... lunch... photocopied my India readings... bought those darn books... worked on my lab report... stared into space... contemplated on whether to watch 36, the french movie... decided we're too broke... maybe go book browsing at borders and dine at far east... pass my mom the travel adaptors and digicam... she's going vietnam! so cool... her company always go overseas for R&R... i want... ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:42 --Link to Post |
just a few things i noticed throughout the day...
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| 23.8.05 |
 this is the astounding number of scenery shots I took in Taiwan... as you can see... we weren't very big fans of self pics or each other... Taipei is not the picturesque kinda place... but you get to see mountains/hills/rolling countryside by the urban areas... which is something you dont get at all in singapore... unless you count bukit timah or the works... nevertheless... a good mix of blue, grey, black... and of course... the unexpected colours of Taipei architecture... in no particular order...
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| 22.8.05 |
 a glimpse at my horrid timetable... would have been worse if i didnt double up my fortnightly modules... only have early days on wed and thurs... the former is good... he has a free day on wed... so it's our designated movie/dinner day... especially since thursday starts pretty late... fridays afternoons are a fortnightly thing... but i heard it's pretty taxing for a 3MC module... trust engin to bully us by giving us lots of work but only 3 MCs... i hope to survive... doesnt help that the first tutorial i embarked on... almost made me cry... wah lau... so hard! how to do!?!?!? ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:58 --Link to Post |
| 21.8.05 |
 my dinner... gluttony at it's best! melted cheese... scrambled eggs... back bacon... softmeal bread... all the 'goodness' in one bundle! i know this is bad for me... recovering from the flu and all... yes... i'm still snorting mucus out of my nose... but i needed to finish the 200g of back bacon that has been sitting in my fridge for ages... only managed 100g... anyone interested in the other 100? i can do a sandwich up for you too! ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:40 --Link to Post |
 another one of my pseudo artistic shots... taken while walking... with the camera by my stomach... else how to catch him like that? did a black and white on it... and shifted the focus off the face... to the lines on the building... those who know him... please say you cant recognize him... ----Stef stopped rambling at 16:59 --Link to Post |
| 19.8.05 |
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just when i managed to convince him that Dim Sum Dollies are worth a watch... even to the extent of forsaking the game tomorrow... the last few tickets of the most affordable category sold out... it's ok, we still have Stomp! India lecture this morning was tiresome at 8am... but it was pretty interesting... making Hinduism sound really fascinating with their 330 million deities to worship... if only the module wasnt 8am... was having lunch with him when i asked him something about chye... after like 2 minutes... chye appeared and joined us at the table... really shuo cao cao, cao cao jiu dao... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:09 --Link to Post |
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following is something i took on our last night in Taiwan... at a traffic junction waiting for the lights to change... it wasnt so blur... but just wanted to increase the artistic feel to the photo... and of course, mask our beloved anonymous character... else he come and complain again... someone dont want his ham-sum face on the internet...  i keep irritating him these days... so much so that i wonder if there would be a day when he cannot tahan... the monkey faces i made from the taxi today... (okok... i make monkey faces EVERYWHERE...) when i pout when i cant watch weird people cook weird stuff on Discovery: Travel and Living... when i run to hide under his quilt when he finishes his cracker 'n' cheese without me... when i keep staring at him while he drives me back to NUS from Thomson... and looking away, giggling like mad when he looks over... (i'm not lovesick or nuts... it's just fun to irritate people...) me messing his hair up after he gelled it down... singing out-of-tune loudly in front of him... slapping his forehead repeatedly while walking in very public places... (but he retaliates too!) hide my head in his t-shirt... my cold, COLD unfunny jokes... who else can i do all these to... without feeling like a total idiot? you tell me. ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:23 --Link to Post |
| 17.8.05 |
 my latest buy... better say they're pretty... i know it's not really ME... me as in me... not Mechanical Engineering... very ku niang rite? but it was just so pretty... the flowers on the bead... ahhhhhh!!! it's from Rachel, my sec school classmate... she has a pretty website that you guys can visit as well.. check it out! you know what? if can... tag on the tagboard how much you think it costs... i just love the feelin' of elation of a good buy... be honest k!? ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:33 --Link to Post |
| 16.8.05 |
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those of you who read Kenny Sia would have seen this... but THIS is ultra cool... survived the long day with very little sleep... 8am lect was not bad... didnt start nodding off... which was amazing... 10am lect i was blatantly snoozing once in a while... when suli wasnt looking... easier to sleep in a lect of 300 people than one with 30... the flu bug started to kick in then... was sneezing away... guy-whose-name-i-forgot said hi for the first time this sem... and asked if i were sick or something.... unlike the usual me... all i could mutter was "yeah" and give a sheepish look... went back to pgp... had lunch... popped by the bazaar... to hear a couple of songs... trudged my way to WS2... got lost... couldnt find my lab... called ronald... who gave me some directions... found it... did the lab with him and another guy i just met through him... i was the freaking only girl in the lab group la... boy, must the guys been hugely disappointed... no chio bu in class... experiment was fun... we even found fun in Stability of Floating Bodies... what the hell... but the guys are totally hilarious... looking forward to more lab sessions with them... left lab early... got call from ben... rushed back to pgp... printed the forms... rushed to photocopy them coz my printer out of ink... mad dash to SRC... comm interviews... not many people... but happy with our lot... results to be out in a couple of days... dinner at fong seng... not exactly the best place to eat while nursing a flu.. but bo pian means bo pian... made my way back... plopped on the rug on the floor with the huge cushion... power napped... my connection very bad... domain connection keeps disconnecting... played a few rounds of Solitaire with the guy when he got back... he's sick too... poor guy... was in bus a2 today.. was sitting in front these 2 guys... who punctuated every single sentence with the f-word... f-words sound ok when you speak fluently... but one guy doesnt even have his grammar and vocab right... and there he was speaking so loudly... i know it's kinda like eavesdropping... but to me... if you speak audibly enough for me to hear without straining myself... i'm NOT eavesdropping... in fact... you are actually disturbing my peace and quiet too... and so the guy went on... even pointing out people on the streets... saying how fat that girl is, yet driving such a nice car... that he would throw her in some river and take the car... and there i was... totally disgusted at how irritatingly disgusting he was... and i think he know i was irritated... the two guys gave me a weird look as i alighted... the why-the-hell-are-you-listening-to-us look... it's people like these that make me feel so lucky to have the guy... fluent english... impeccable mandarin... not bad taste in clothes... beri beri cleber... good sense of humour... willing to drive me home even after ~8months... can windsurf... plays Solitaire Showdown... got nice comfy quilt... wahaha... kidding la. but i really do appreciate the guy... although he can be wang ba dan sometimes... guy and i realised... everyone around is getting attached... a lot of his friends.... all of a sudden... i look around... and out of 10 people... 8 are... doesnt make for a very comforting environment for singles... kinda like the peer pressure thing... maybe only i would feel this way... but it seems as if it were only right not be be single... and if you were... something is wrong... which is far from the truth la... singles are always more fun... not a safe statement also... but maybe if you clone an attached person... and the clone is unattached... i'd bet my last dollar that the clone is a fun-ner person to be with... weird thing to think of... but this so-many-people-attached-i-must-jump-on-bandwagon thing... is kinda worrying... wont some people just jump on the wrong wagon? in a hurry to jump? but what the heck... i've heard of people who change partners like monthly disposable contact lenses... my notion of love and relationships is still very idealistic... and its especially difficult to find The One based on so many things that you have to consider... even after a couple of years together... you might realise that "hey...it's not what i want..." and you just go your seperate ways... dont get hitched (such an old-school word) for the sake of getting hitched... you might just end up hurting two very fragile hearts... eeeks... so cliche... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:58 --Link to Post |
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its almost 3am... and i cant sleep... i have a super long day tomorrow... India module at 8am... then thermodynamics at 10am... lab at 2pm... with a formal report to hand in too... windsurf comm interviews at 6pm... i think i'm headed for self-destruction... in 3....2.....1... it's not that i am not trying to sleep... have been tossing and turning in bed for almost 1.5 hrs... i hate not being able to sleep... not as if i get a lot of it in the first place... during the hols maybe... but with 6 modules on hand... i seriously doubt the future... insomnia just makes me realise how i cant control my own life... coz i totally cant sleep when i want to... then i end up sleeping in lects... in buses, trains... while watching movies on his 22" monitor... i know i need the sleep for tomorrow... but i just cant do it... and i dont understand why... everything for the day has been settled... and i have no unfinished business... i even sent out all the freaking sms/emails that i need to... urgh. i dont even feel freaking tired... though i yawned the whole morning... dunnoe how many cans of coffee i'll need to survive tomorrow... just hope not too many... ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:01 --Link to Post |
| 15.8.05 |
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watched The Machinist... Christian really-skinny Bale... wah lau... if you seen him in Batman... this movie like he aneroxic... like scarecrow... freaking movie... didnt quite get it... still trying to figure it out... cannot put my cinema module to waste... windsurfing today was not bad... waited the whole afternoon for the wind to come... it didnt... until very very late... then it blew so strong until i was scared... but was planning good... happy sia... like melvin who said, "i've gotten my 5 bucks worth liaoz..." i think the other windless Sundays were made up for by these runs today.... wooohooo! guy missed abit of soccer just so he could take the buses with me back to sengkang... soccer, you know?!??!! oh ya... bought new sandals... brown ones... coz my old brown ones broke in Taiwan.. quality aint fantastic... but love the design.... and how difficult it is to wear... but it flips and flops a certain bit... oh well... still pretty nice! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:05 --Link to Post |
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** "cannot la... my gf is here..." yeah rite... you're just too lazy to go out... but just in case u were REALLY declining your guys' nite out 'coz of me... .... ........ i adore you even though you have a paunch. (it IS bigger than mine!) actually i adore the paunch... makes for good boxing practice... =X ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:01 --Link to Post |
| 12.8.05 |
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okok... i'm gonna say something really gross here... and when i say gross... i mean GROSS... so those prim and proper ladies and gentlemen who take offence in gross stuff... can just go away... i simply HAD to blog this down... coz 50 years down the road when i'm old and grey... i'm gonna read my archives and see how gross/silly/stupid i was in 2005... was in the toilet crapping... when a realisation just came to me... i eat so much chilli... that even when i crap... it stings like shyt... (pun intended...) ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:57 --Link to Post |
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i find it weird... how yxy is so easy to get along with now... in jc he was just someone who seemed so aloof... hard nut to crack... but in uni... after one year of engin together... and more to come... considering he's in mech... he's totally NUTS... but he's been freaking good company... especially since he's in PGP now... when my wsfers all moved out... when i kinda lost my dinner group coz of my dwindling attendance... was kinda late for ME2143 lecture coz of him la... when i called him... he was supposed to rush out of his room to take bus with me... instead... he went to shave... toilet and whatever... wat the... it was freaking 12noon la! that bummer! #$^&*#!!! he was giving excuses about keeping up with appearances... must be late in order to seem pro... yaya... he's the two-time dean's lister... NOT ME!!! then he laughed at my hiccupping... saying that i would ruined the day's recording for webcast... with my constant headbobbing and intermitten burp-like sounds... but the great thing was that he cured me of my hiccups... "ni yao bi qi...he shui...zhan shi bu yao hu si..." then he proceeded to laugh at my inability to hold my breath... but it worked!!! dammit! dean's lister means dean's lister... no bluffing about it... yxy, yxy... please let me continue copy the weird equations that you always write in your notes... thats the lecturer never mentioned... and i dont understand... maybe it can save my core modules... pretty puh-leeaaseee! ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:59 --Link to Post |
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we just kept watching movies until its scary... wednesday was Wedding Crashers at j8... which was freaking funnie by the way... reviews for the movie is bad... but i think it serves the purpose of entertainment... a good laugh, no strings attached... (though i cried...) the trailer was good... thats why i dragged him to go watch... and the good thing is... not all the jokes are in the trailers! went back to his place for The Interpreter... started out pretty good... think Nicole Kidman was ultra-sexy.... which her ability to speak African dialects and all... and super duper English... think she looks really good in the movie... but the ending was kinda... wasn't as good as expected... maybe coz i simply spaced out due to the length of the movie... welcome tea yesterdae... prior to that i was head over heels in calls/emails for the course/tea stuff... wah lau... i really really dont like the CEC job... wonder how come the guy can tahan it for so long... got a few things settled... so i'm happy... welcome tea was not bad... number of people was not too many and not too little... just had loads of beehoon left over... but response was not bad la... already have 2 forms submitted for the comm... am happy... hope there will be more... that all 15 (yalah...oni 15 la!) forms that went out... WILL come back... *prays* i know i'm not very persuasive/attractive/convincing a Chairperson... but i'm trying ok? wahhahaa... must.... ...sleep.... .........8am........ ..seminar-style.. ...................lecture.... ...............tomorrow.... nono... today. ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:42 --Link to Post |
| 10.8.05 |
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think the previous post very sad-case... decided to put a picture to soften things a little... besides... i'm still sleepless at 0330hrs... damn sad-case... got lecture at 10am tomorrow... will update on whether i make it... was late... or simply missed it altogether...  something interesting while i was at taipei... very blur... coz extra long exposure... so i wont flash... it was like a huge bunch of dogs in the middle of two shopping malls... i used the word 'bunch' coz i dunnoe wads the collective term for dogs... 'bunch' works for everything... there was like this guy... who had like a dozen of golden retreivers running all around him... not sure about the breed... not a dog person... with many many green frisbee discs... and passerbys would just stop, stare and take pictures... and when the guy starts walking again.. the dogs would just follow him... and would oni stop when he did... the dogs were ultra guai and all... wont bark... din bite me even when i accidentally flashed them... i mean camera flash... not FLASH them... think they'll just run away if i did... they only barked at one lady in red raincoat... one bark, all bark... and it made her very very angry... wahhaha... something you would never see in singapore... ----Stef stopped rambling at 03:29 --Link to Post |
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while i like to think that i'm a modern female... who doesnt eat vinegar if her bf meets up with some other girl... who doesnt pout and whine and ask "do you really have to?" who doesnt feel a thing when he goes ahead and sincerely wish him a good lunch/dinner... ...i am not... i feel very very xiao qi... which is wrong la, i know... but you know how people smoke when they know it's bad for them? same thing... i pout even when i know it's wrong to feel this way... or when i know it's of no use pouting... today was more telling... i received an sms first... weixian asked if we could meet sometime soon... he is one of those male frens that i dont have mutual frens with... or at least, frenz that i'm equally good with... so i cant possibly meet him without meeting him alone... same goes for james, ben, yunnboon, dilun, etc... so i asked the guy if i could meet up with him someday... he was fine with it... though i vaguely remembered someone acting up while he was away in China... but guess what?!?!? the nerve! the guy wasn't jealous... that, i would be silently happy... he was feeling sour at the fact that i complained when he met up with a girl... and then, i was doing the exact same thing... while i always liked to rebutt... that the fuss i kicked up the last time was because he didnt inform me abt it beforehand... but truth is... i'm just freaking insecure... that he's meeting up with another girl... something i cant change la... regardless of how i want to... i keep putting up a brave front in front of my girlfriends... whenever such a subject comes up... i have that independent woman persona that i jump into whenever we have such conversations.. my mantra is that... if the guy were to stray... it just means that we're not meant to be... so just let go... better to know now than later... but deep inside i'm thinking that better NEVER than now... ya know? how i fear to lose him and stuff... losing image... image? what image? i'm so dependent on him now that it scares me... my dad keeps telling my mom to tell me... though one wonders why he doesnt tell me himself... that maybe i shouldnt meet him like everyday... give each other space... especially if i want a long-term relationship... you know? pace things a little... i totally agree with that... but its just too difficult to adhere to... every time i feel insecure... feel alone... i think of him... and wished he were by my side... having my hand in his... kinda injects me with a fresh dose of confidence... and i feel as if i can face the world again... this very feeling scares me to death... what if one day he were to walk away from me and my nonsense? what if.... so he receives an SMS of his own... about dinner with 2 girls tomorrow... he remembers our movie date, however... so it dwindled to a lunch date with ONE girl... HELLO??? is that supposed to be better?!?! and all i have been doing was to playfully pout and jokingly complain about it all... though you can take away the words 'playfully' and 'jokingly'... once again... it was the knowing-it-was-wrong, yet doing-it-all-the-same... haiz... feel very childish... very un-adult... well.. if it's meant to be... it's meant to be... like i'm ever gonna accept that... only managed a couple of glimpses of the fireworks... i have no idea why we stupidly made our way to Marina Square at 8plus... i think he like seriously wanted to eat Carl's Jr... i had the low carb Western Bacon... instead of bread... they wrapped the burger in lettuce... yummy! waited forever for the bus back to his place... daddy had to come pick us... send him home... then me to hostel... spoil me. ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:29 --Link to Post |
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although i realised that non-intelligent, mindless recollections of my day... doesnt make for a very engaging read... i cant help but want to do it... although i do attempt to add some of my pointless/lame/cold humour into it... making my blogging more interesting... MY blogging... ...to myself... coz this would be the first thing that has kept me engaged for the longest time... 3 freaking years and counting... wouldnt want to lose something that kept me sane for so long... helped me through singlehood, the A levels, the insane nature of work & the first year of Uni... sunday afternoon was spent at his place... watching more Taiwanese variety shows... slacking around... staring the the really really blue skies outside his window... his window is just by his bed... so lying along it gives one a great view of the blue blue sky... immediately thought of the song in Patch Adams... of blue birds and skies... dinner was with his dad at Spizza Harbourfront... we had the one-for-one coupon... so we had a seafood and a ham/mushroom... a serving of calamari... and drinks... it was really good... and i can tell his dad enjoyed it... though he has the habit of not eating too much at night... sent me back to PGP after that... today was the first day of school... had trouble sleeping last nite... and it started raining heavily mid morning... was constantly worried about my laptop getting flooded... 2 lectures today... and i'm already feeling despondent about the semester.. not sure how i'm gonna survive... 1 design, 1 mechatronics, 3 physics-ish modules and 1 artsy mod... how? at least there are loads of familiar faces in ME... and suli is forever with me! lalala... waiting for the guy to finish with guitar... stupid ediot told me he'll end 6plus... it's 7.30 now... dinner had better be on him... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:33 --Link to Post |
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NUS Centennial Rag Day 2005... didnt take any photos coz i didnt bring my camera along... would be a liability... having to keep track of where i put my stuff... only had my HP and PGP transponder with me... 1. to complain/whine to the guy while at the SRC... 2. coz the transponder and my HP are linked together... but i managed to steal some photos from yuanshuo's camera... so here's a brief look...  working hard... ys also said... he needed evidence that i ACTUALLY worked... else it would be hard to prove it... tell me my arms not fat... *points gun to your head*  acting cute beside sam cho... we finished pasting the numbers on... then thought the frame looks really like a photo frame... chased sam around with it.... forcing him to take a picture.... but narcisstic me decided to join in as well... talk about jumping into the picture...  the semi-finished backdrop... this was like super late in school... probably about 11plus... we only pushed (yes, you read right, PUSHED) the whole blardy thing to the SRC at 1plus... in the freaking morning... and the stoopid tower was too tall to pass under the bridge linking SRC and YIH... we had to pluck them out... imagine climbing on 2 layers of tables and a ladder... just to do that... we had to get a tall guy to do it somemore... one of the rare times i am actually glad that i am short... phew...  the amazing detail of the clock tower... cant really see clearly... but the black scary thing is actually a gargoyle... and i had a good part in shaping it... see those hands... i did them ok??? nice hor??? the whole backdrop survived a fall flat on its face... kinda scary... but very miraculous that no one was injured... and that the flimsy little windows survived the fall.... despite being the most protruding part of the tower... (might help to note that i pasted them...) the metal bars kinda bent really badly though... and by the end of the performance... the whole backdrop was falling apart... scary shyte... just glad we made it through...  the performance... everyone in ghastly make-up and costumes... wahaha... but good work... nice salsa... even the guys with 3 left feet that i know in the group did superbly well... hard work does pay off... i wonder why i cant say the same for my engin modules... all in all... it was a wonderful experience... USP is, by far, a tiny tiny community... being able to come up with something as spectacular... is amazing by itself... great job everyone! just that i totally sworn off all future Rag Days... no longer will i be swayed by Orientation I/Cs with their sob stories... no more, lalame! (if you're still reading...) ----Stef stopped rambling at 15:25 --Link to Post |
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yesterdae was the annual rag day... kinda got me to swear off all rag days ever... and i thought i said that last year... freaking hot weather... buay ta han... but good effort by everyone... the dancers, the engineers... hurray! when everything ended after 2pm... crawled my way to PGP... cold shower and knocked out... even without aircon... IN the hot weather... thats the power of not having slept the night before... urgh. ----Stef stopped rambling at 11:21 --Link to Post |
| 5.8.05 |
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just two sudden realizations for today... 1. never being on a guided tour... was just thinking although i've been overseas (read: over-the-sg-seas) a few times... i've never exactly been on a guided tour with tour guides and all... closest to a tour was probably with my primary school when we went perth... but there were no little flags and quirky tour guides... just lotsa little girls having fun... truthfully... i'm pretty happy that i've never really been on those commercial tours... somehow... nuthing beats being able to see a foreign country through the eyes of a local... not that tour guides arent... but in the i-am-not-making-money-by-bringing-you-here sense... other than my trips to malaysia with my family... i've only had one week in Perth... six weeks in Thailand... 3 for training and 3 for YEP... and one week in Taiwan so far... yes... i'm not well travelled... the first 3 weeks of Thailand was two decembers ago... where the local windsurfers would bring us around for meals... drive us around in their pick-ups... give us directions in their limited english... and we, just happily bumming around... the last december was at YEP... where we had no nothing in Chiang Mai and Bangkok to help us around... just our mediocre Thai and limited cash... BanTham wasnt too bad coz we had some translators and some kids spoke a little english... Taiwan was introduced to me by him of course... with help from his relatives... though he was no longer Taiwanese... it was great to have him go, "wanna bring you *here*, i've been *there*, my favourite *this*"... 2. Taiwanese variety shows are REALLY good... wahaha... although i've had cable TV for the longest time... i never really sat down and channel surfed at all... dont even have time to devour my favourite travel shows and cooking channels... love to see pretty places... and eating, no need to explain... but hanging around at his place so often... i've been watching alot of Taiwanese variety shows... other than the usual Guess!, SuperSunday, zhongyidageda, yulebaifenbai, etc that we get here... i've been addicted so badly to kang xi lai le... our marathon yesterdae consisted of quan ming da men guo, tao se dan bai zhi, etc... all freaking funny... and entirely educational... weird for me to say that... especially since education and entertainment seems so much of opposites... but its true... marvelled at the amazing intricities of the art of roadside bargaining... gaped at the scarily crazed nature of the HKG paparazzi... puked at a short lesson on how to act cute for your boyfriend... think along the lines of pouting, putting arms outstretched, waving and go, "wo bu yao"... *faints* sadly... my mandarin doesnt seem to be improving... despite the week in Taiwan and the countless variety shows... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:13 --Link to Post |
 just found this on renhao's multiply... aww.... he's gonna be away sooooooo loooonnnngggg.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:00 --Link to Post |
| 4.8.05 |
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watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.. sneaks... wahaha... typically Tim Burton... fantasy-like... just like the Dahl book... although i havent read it... it's good to watch a movie like this... once in a while... escapism to the fullest... brings you away from the world that sometimes gets on your nerves... "WOW!" ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:19 --Link to Post |
| 3.8.05 |
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rag again... but things are looking better now... the main back drop is up... and it looks good from far... stress: from far... but still... it's a lot of hard work... by sam cho the architect... yuanshuo, qingzhang, yuanye, yimin and me the engineers... victoria and junwen the artists... wahahhaa... took a crappy picture with sam just now... looks pretty good... will upload when i psycho yuanshuo to send it to me... finally got my room... parents went with me back to NUS to give it a good scrub... things are looking and smelling better... its the room directly oppsite mine... so i'm still in the same cluster... with the toilets and kitchen i hold so dear... so it's not going to be much different in PGP this year... save for the fact that he isnt staying on campus anymore... no more late night movies... or suppers at NUH... or homeworking together... haiz... so thankful for my parents being so into my stuff... not a lot of parents are like that... while it seems like i'm depending on them a whole lot... i.e. not being independent... i guess it's good sometimes to keep your family involved in your life... especially if it makes your life easier... and it makes them happy... rewarded ourselves with soya bean drinks and bean curd at selegie... where i bumped into ben tong... crazy guy... out singing karaoke... lallaa.... met jianxiong on the way to school today.. apparently, he was on his way to NTU to collect lappie from his fren... he was going SMU though... he would be the 7th or 8th JC senior i've seen in the last month so far... considering i havent seen them around for the last 2 years... suddenly bumping into all of them is really funnie... as if they've been locked up in some prison (aka Army) for the last 2 years... and have only been recently released... had a conversation that lasted outram to clementi... not long... but considering how un-close we actually were... it wasnt too bad... wahahhaa... would be seeing more of those NUS seniors in due time... saw elvin, colin, justin, malie, baolai, qing en, etc etc... school's starting soon! bring it on man! rag tomorrow again... more glue, paint on hands... lotsa jokes and laughter! ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:10 --Link to Post |
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yesterdae was spent with some of the surfers plus YUNners at PF... no wind... so the surfers decided to kayak... and the non-surfers decided to surf... wahhaa... kayak rental not cheap... 6 bucks per hour for single... and 15 bucks per hour for double... windsurf oni 10.50 for two hours at PF leh.. and 8 bucks for two hours at PA... wat the crap... i seriously think we are the cheapest seasports around man... it was a sunny and hot afternoon.... though i'm beginning to think that a 3.5m on a Start board kinda has a mind of its own... even i was having trouble trying to sail upwind... crappy shit... was reduced to taking a tow courtesy of the kayaking guy... had dinner at the hawker centre... our favourite duck rice... before making our way to toa payoh... where i abandoned a cup of MOS clam chowder... coz it just didnt taste right... and we tapowed MOS chicken and milk tea... and sang army marching songs all the way back to his place... "purple light...in the valley...that is where...i wanna be..." marching in sync... wahaha... watched crash... as recommended by guanyuan... good movie... talks about life... about people... about racism... uses a lot of f-words... to my disdain... but he was right saying that it was simply the way people talked... that was what made it real... cried... when the little girl leaped in front of her dad when the latter was about to be shot... believing her dad when he said he tied an invisible, impenetrable cloak on her... "i'll keep you safe, daddy..." *spoilers* the shooter didnt know he had blanks in his gun... he thot the girl was an angel... went to school today for Rag... hiaks! still a lot to do... running out of time... helped out with the backdrop... finished the windows... painted a couple of stuff... helped eugene with the gargoyle statue... though we didnt do much... not when he was flipping Human Anatomy for Artists like half the time... nuthing against perfectionism... just that we dont have the luxury of time on our hands... but i also realised i'm a very slipshod kinda person... whatever gets things done in the given time... whatever goes... met the guy at holland V... for a drink at subway... then decided we wanted to watch Stealth in the new seats at j8... made our way there... not before stepping in some serious mud... ate Shih Lin stuff again... ji pa and mian xian... cheesy dogs and iced tea... movie was not bad... wanted to watch wedding crashers and charlie and the chocolate factory... but those preview only on the 3rd... darn... seven swords the review pretty bad... so we're probably giving that a miss... trying hard to save money... but bo pian had to take cab back after the movie... back to his place... costing us $4.70... before having him send me back home... was so worried that i would have been fried alive by mommy and daddy dearest... i didnt... but they'll so nag tomorrow... haiz... looked at him as he drove me home... kinda realised that he wasnt obliged to do it... i mean... he could have asked me to take a cab home myself... but he didnt... (if he dared...he'd be dead...) and he drove me home all the way... at least halfway across the island... before making his own way home... isnt it my fault for staying so far away from town? why is he the one being punished for it? how can i ask for anything more? almost 7mths... and still sending me home... hopefully the supposed 'honeymoon period' lasts longer... tra-la-la... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:05 --Link to Post |
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