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i suck. i mean like seriously... i cant even take an ounce of stress... and direct it productively... sometimes i wonder if i'm up to the job... chairing the windsurf sub-club... i think the only qualification i have for the job is that i've been doing this for so freaking long... the sport i mean... then i look back and recall how my primary school prefect duty roster got ruined in my hands... me being vice head prefect and organizing the duties... and also upon secondary school bball... where the entire attendance record for the team was empty... coz i was the captain... and i didnt bother to take attendance... while i would like to think i'm into the leadership thing... i'm not... and it's worrying me to death... i've just been calling/smsing/emailing alot of people... who didnt return my calls... make payment on time... now i've to trudge to PA and get shyt from them again... suddenly i'm all into the i-hate-people mood... and it sucks.... seriously... and as much as i wanna be nice to people when i'm in such a mood... i cant... thursday morning was Fever Pitch and Chelsea vs. West Brom... slept at 5am... woke up at 10am... friday morning was a bout of insomnia... only reason i could think of was the cup of mocha frap i had over my catch-up session with WX... which went well i guess... been ages since we last met up... slept at 3plus... woke by 7plus... 3hr tutorial on friday afternoon... Solidworks... which is ultra cool... but ultra hard to grasp... India presentation coming up soon too... and i'm freaking out over the prof's expectations... and the readings i need to do... somehow... i'm having a sudden urge to just run back to Olivier and tell him i would work for him FOC... if only he would take me under his wing... teach me photography and digital imaging... that way i wont have to crack my miniscue brain over ME crap... fluid mechanics... thermodynamics... sensors and actuators... mechanics of materials... the grass is always greener on the other side... i vaguely remember how i swore i didnt want to ever put up with eccentric art directors... demanding advertising clients... and egocentric project co-ordinators... i need some direction in my life. ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:33 --Link to Post |
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