| 29.12.04 |
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kelly chan marathon today...
din do much... and am getting paid for my time... told mr tan no need actually... coz i was helping him out of my own free will.. but oh well... free money... lu's coming down to check out the HKG babes tomorrow too... kinda pulled him into this... helping out for singapore open... feel bad actually... coz its not THAT enjoyable rotting on markboats... taking down numbers... if he, unlike me, have nuthing to drool over... over my many many ouxiangz... no japs or chinese this year... wat a pity... nvm... ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:47 --Link to Post |
| 28.12.04 |
 becky and i at yet-another magestic waterfall... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:40 --Link to Post |
 ultra adorable kids in the village... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:38 --Link to Post |
 joce and i with the kids at the back of the truck... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:37 --Link to Post |
 stuffed at the back of a tuk tuk...looking as if it's super cold... ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:35 --Link to Post |
 with my bicycle-chauffeur/fav-translator, the law-maak-maak Boredin Saengtuksin! ----Stef stopped rambling at 17:34 --Link to Post |
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went out this afternoon to meet my sis...
thinking that i wanted to pop by the nearest Topshop and get the top i saw ytd... but like the usual me... the afternoon went by without me even stepping into a Topshop... or getting any tops for that matter... got 3 skirts instead... or varying lengths with the approach of CNY as the primary excuse... "Excuse me, do u think you'll save these clothes for the new year anyway??!!?" hell... i'll probably wear them tomorrow... thing is... i'm not spending my cash wisely... and how can i ever afford the trekking trip i so wanna go on during the next hols... or the trip to taiwan i so want... argh... bad... met renhao and adrian to go for the seletar speed crossing meeting... quite dumb really... damn confusing mess of logistics, organization... but it'll be so darn cool... wsfing at the reservoir... felt ultra uncomfy and weird at the meeting... oni female... probably the youngest there as well.. w nuthing substantial to contribute to the meeting... other than a truckload of doubts and uncertainties... and a stark reminder of the NUS championships that lu, justin and i have to embark on before its too late to do anything about... shitload of work to do... and things to settle... now i'm doubting whether everything can be settled in time... ahhhh!!! hopefully we can settle sponsors together with NTU and IVP... but everything else... shucks... super sweet daddy sent all of us home after the meeting... which ended at 2345hrs... freak... felt ultra bad... but dunnoe how else i would have got home... argh... think my dad totally rocks... but that makes me ultra spoilt and bratty... eeks... shall compensate my dad with my undying love and filial piety... *shivers* finally back in sg... finally saw him after so long... somehow everything feels different since i last met him before i left... hard to say how or why... we speak the same over MSN... crap truckloads and what not... but am alot more speechless in his presence now... and him, less outspoken too... maybe coz we werent alone... but still... it felt so different... on the other hand... i'm not sure whether i'm reading too much into things he says over the net... but he mentioned something about falling for him... or about why he has no appeal to me... when we used to skirt ard the topic of relationships precariously... cant tell wads in his mind... just know its not meant to be... regardless of how much i want it to happen... for now... i'll just go back to crushing on cute foreign windsurfers... with oka being crush #1... and the rest of the indon team in immediate succession... lalala.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:52 --Link to Post |
| 26.12.04 |
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windsurfed twice since i got back from thailand on thursday...
kickass sia... winds are power packed... and the indon wsfers like Oka and the younger beach boys gave me weird looks when i told them i'm doing soft sail today... oh well... but am so happy that oka remembered me... and wished me a merry xmas... he's my ouxiang of the ouxiangs... and i think he's just so power.... but overheard some guys at the beach saying that oka became more faggoty since the last time we saw him... oh well... he's still the ultra nice guy who remembers the small fry like me... actually another younger indon waved to me first... but i dont really know him... coz cant really remember what soprandi looks like... argh... feel bad... but felt good... OKA WAVED TO ME!!! *faints* sailed with the wsf comm pple... and tried teaching a kid how to wsf... not that easy.... coz i was swimming and treading water all the time... soft sail is hard to get used to once again... after all the big talk... i think i'm doing quite badly and my peers are unimpressed... argh... will have to stop relying on harnesses soon... went for dinner at fish and co... yummy seafood platter... ate alot... what's new? and had my favourite yoghurt... checked my results... did super badly... worst of all my frenz i think... and the worse part is... i have no excuse for doing badly... and that sucks... *bad mood* ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:34 --Link to Post |
| 25.12.04 |
 dont ask me why i hiding behind nian and grabbing his shoulder like that... i think i was just trying to hide my fat body behind anyone/anything... xmas at raffles city... went to watch joyce, minyi and grace carole at raffles hotel... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:06 --Link to Post |
 measuring up... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:36 --Link to Post |
 sun beyond the harvested corn... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:36 --Link to Post |
 celebrating magnificence... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:35 --Link to Post |
 sunset at kwan phayao... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:32 --Link to Post |
 web of bamboo... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:30 --Link to Post |
 pool of light... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:29 --Link to Post |
 stairs of gold... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:28 --Link to Post |
 blend of water and wood... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:26 --Link to Post |
 ray of light... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:25 --Link to Post |
 wallpaper quality sunflower... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:23 --Link to Post |
 sunflower fields.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:22 --Link to Post |
 cycling to see the sunflower fields... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:21 --Link to Post |
 on the road... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:21 --Link to Post |
| 3.12.04 |
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leaving for thailand soon!
excited... but not so excited also... muahhaa... dunnoe why... will miss things in SG... coz it's gonna be 3 freaking long weeks... hoping that i'll enjoy my time there... most probably so... 3 weeks with ur good buds... the PGP cooks... the peeps from my mods... my fellow crappers... yeah! at least i got to see him today... wasnt easy... but at least i did... hopefully din make him suspect anything... oh well... though every time we meet i'm more convinced the feelings arent reciprocated... cant help that i wanted to see him... hell... would even take a picture of him if i could... but nah... not that psychotic... though i can be... hey peeps in SG... hope you guys enjoy your dec hols... and the weeks leading up to xmas... will miss you guys... do get together to chill sometime before school starts again... and the endless trudging to campus and late nites begin once again... till 23rd dec... unless i find myself a place to blog from... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:54 --Link to Post |
| 1.12.04 |
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time is really running short for me...
leaving for thailand on friday morning... so that effectively leaves me with a miserable two days to find the stuff i need to bring over to survive 3 freaking weeks in northern thailand... its not that i'm not looking forward to the trip... but after fighting (with the books/notes) for so long.... for a well deserved break.... i'm rushing for another reason now... would appreciate a couple of days just lazing ard... doing the usual teen stuff... movies...shop...coffee... but no... spent the day today moving out of my PGP cell... dinner with YEPpers and prof teo... who is so great a prof i dont know where to start telling you abt him... will leave that for later... tomorrow have to go check out... buy an ethnic costume coz i cant fit into my sis'... pack stuff.... go anne's 21st b-day chalet... get enough sleep... pack somemore... get stuff i dont have... and will need... things i so wanna do but am sure i have NO TIME for... meet up with frens from 01... mahjong...coffee....our crappy outings...watever! i just miss you guys so much... i wanna go windsurf... adrian has been blogging so much abt the wind... and i'm like... gawd... i SO wanna go feel the wind... dont even have time to get the pulleys from zhang... darn it... i wanna watch shutter and saw.... both of which will be over by the time i come back.... but at least i caught the incredibles... woohoo! i wanna meet my TKG bball pals... been so long since i last met up with them... darn... stupid serene never calls me anymore... has she forgotten abt this poor lonely pal of hers... i betcha she did... haiz... i'm just so insignificant... *fades into oblivion* i wanna just stay on MSN and crap all nite with other crazy pple... like crapping online at 5am... and getting nicknames like 'zhu tou'... or giving pple nicknames like 'wu gui ji dan gao'... (*blogger assures readers that the names i choose are usually more creative... *just that it was kinda late at 5am in the morning... *forgive her... *her fren had trouble trying to chase her to bed...) or watch movies all day long on VCDs or -eh hem- more VCDs... i really wanna go shopping... retail therapy... the exams have really been a depressing period... so bad that i din feel happy after the last paper... i know this sounds really crazy... as in... almost overboard or something... to a near psychotic extent... but another reason i want more time in SG is HIM... coz i think i'll miss the lame stuff we share sometimes... like even when he doesnt come online for a couple of days... i'll be like, "darn....why isnt HE here?" and wait... and ponder... like i mentioned... we're not that close... no phone calls... no romantic dates... but even so... he has become very much part of my life... involuntarily, i may add... i whine/mope/complain to HIM... one of the main reasons why i'm online so darn long and ALL THE FREAKING TIME... is coz i yearn to see him online too... and that he would msg me... everytime i leave my lappie on while in the shower... i would come back hoping that the task bar will flash orange... and the nick flashing would be his... not that i'm not looking forward to my other frens' msges... but i so wanna hear from him... even though we speak of the most insignificant things... like i mentioned in the previous blog... it's pretty obvious rite now that he doesnt feel the same way i do... even though i scruntinise every sign of a possibility... none seem to stand... but much as i would want to take myself out of it... he would make me laugh again... and that, trust me, is enough for me to fall head over heels once again... its gonna be 3 weeks w/o seeing or hearing him... that is like so long... way too long... 3 days is already eternity.... 3 weeks is eternity multipy seven... go figure... and i dont have a decent reason to call him from thousand of miles away... "allo... eh... this is abt work... can you do blah blah blah?" no... i cant... sometimes i think... what if i sms him THE NOT-SO-SECRET SECRET on friday morning... throw my phone away... and give him 3 weeks to react.. and allow me to pretend i forgot what i said 3 weeks later... might lose that fren i so treasure... better not... i'm a scaredy cat, rem? darn... when would i stop falling in love with pple who wont ever like me? and when would i stop blogging abt him? it's driving me nutz... wad should u conclude when you see your neighbour bringing back a different guy alone every other day and spot her holding hands with one today? ...so wad should he conclude if he knows that he is almost the only guy i invite to my kitchen to eat my (horrid, poisonous) cooking? does he not know? has he not concluded? or is he just pretending he didnt know and would never do? i need sleep... badly... ta! ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:06 --Link to Post |
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