| 28.12.04 |
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went out this afternoon to meet my sis...
thinking that i wanted to pop by the nearest Topshop and get the top i saw ytd... but like the usual me... the afternoon went by without me even stepping into a Topshop... or getting any tops for that matter... got 3 skirts instead... or varying lengths with the approach of CNY as the primary excuse... "Excuse me, do u think you'll save these clothes for the new year anyway??!!?" hell... i'll probably wear them tomorrow... thing is... i'm not spending my cash wisely... and how can i ever afford the trekking trip i so wanna go on during the next hols... or the trip to taiwan i so want... argh... bad... met renhao and adrian to go for the seletar speed crossing meeting... quite dumb really... damn confusing mess of logistics, organization... but it'll be so darn cool... wsfing at the reservoir... felt ultra uncomfy and weird at the meeting... oni female... probably the youngest there as well.. w nuthing substantial to contribute to the meeting... other than a truckload of doubts and uncertainties... and a stark reminder of the NUS championships that lu, justin and i have to embark on before its too late to do anything about... shitload of work to do... and things to settle... now i'm doubting whether everything can be settled in time... ahhhh!!! hopefully we can settle sponsors together with NTU and IVP... but everything else... shucks... super sweet daddy sent all of us home after the meeting... which ended at 2345hrs... freak... felt ultra bad... but dunnoe how else i would have got home... argh... think my dad totally rocks... but that makes me ultra spoilt and bratty... eeks... shall compensate my dad with my undying love and filial piety... *shivers* finally back in sg... finally saw him after so long... somehow everything feels different since i last met him before i left... hard to say how or why... we speak the same over MSN... crap truckloads and what not... but am alot more speechless in his presence now... and him, less outspoken too... maybe coz we werent alone... but still... it felt so different... on the other hand... i'm not sure whether i'm reading too much into things he says over the net... but he mentioned something about falling for him... or about why he has no appeal to me... when we used to skirt ard the topic of relationships precariously... cant tell wads in his mind... just know its not meant to be... regardless of how much i want it to happen... for now... i'll just go back to crushing on cute foreign windsurfers... with oka being crush #1... and the rest of the indon team in immediate succession... lalala.... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:52 --Link to Post |
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