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23.5.08
i guess i can say i'm back...
and i'm finally done with this blog...
been an awesome six years here...
helped me through a great deal...
but i guess it's time to move on...

...to bigger, better things like wordpress.
(if you are still interested, you will find it easily.)

----Stef stopped rambling at 01:05
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14.5.08
i thought i'd have grown up over the years...
by default or something...
and i'll stop making stupid mistakes...
doing things i'll regret for a long time...
that's not even saying forever...

it has been maybe 5 weeks..
it still haunts me...
each moment replays and i ask myself why...
i cant say i'm young, ignorant or any other factors that alleviates my guilt...
coz i'm not...
at least no longer...

it eats me up from the inside...
the happier i am...
the angrier i get with myself...
i ask myself why...
it has been two consecutive sleepless nights so far...
this might be the third...

i should have known...
why should it ever be otherwise...
what was i thinking...
so now i'm stuck between the devil and the deep blue sea...
where the pursuit of happiness drags me into a grim, deep pit of remorse...
one that i probably would never be able to climb out of...

i guess when happiness != happiness...
you know your life is pretty much screwed.

----Stef stopped rambling at 01:59
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2.5.08
i'm starting to get myself acquainted with wordpress...
i havent made the move yet...
not officially, at least...
though i kinda wonder what does official mean here....
thing is...
i think it's kinda apt...
you know...
this little school-work transition...
and 2 separate blogs to document them...
it'll definitely be of a different tone...
i'm be writing in proper sentences...
still lotsa ranting...
but i kinda want to have a means of practising proper english...
my language, both written and verbal, is kinda going down the drain...

i really should be concentrating on my interview, presentation and exams...
but its hard...
when there are so many things on my mind...
during such times...
i like to drop everything and pick up the most mundane option...
like sudoku puzzles...
endless episodes of House/30rock/bigbangtheory/howimetyourmother...
facebook my life away...

the addiction to facebook aint waning..
at least not yet...
i cant decide whether i'm addicted coz i'm voyeuristic or exhibitionistic...
but i guess i cant rule out being both...
one thing for sure...
i'm insanely addicted to parking wars...
every 12 hours i log on...
just to move my cars just so i'll cash in on the car values...
and for what?
just to get more cars...
with which i get more money..
it's a vicious cycle...
and i'm trapped...

i'm not sure how i should filter out the next bunch of readers...
it's not like i'm some exclusive read...
so making you guys msn, sms, email me for the new address...
does seem like a pompous thing to do...
although there are some people who might be reading since like 5 years ago...
who i kinda want to weed out...
dont worry..
it's not you...

i kinda want to be able to write like no one's reading...
then write a diary, dumb ass...
but i want to be able to share some stuff with my closest friends as well...
without having to call every single one of them at a frequency of 1 call per day...
i'm still deciding...
so we'll see how it goes...

once i get a hang of how to work the wordpress thing...
i think it'll be pretty kick-ass awesome...
so i cant wait...
well...
life cant wait...
so why should i?

----Stef stopped rambling at 03:54
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25.4.08


loved the way he sang it...
kinda amazing when you know the original mariah carey version..
i love David Cook!

been feeling rather emo of late...
and it's making the decision very difficult...
but maybe i should make the difficult decision only if and when i get an offer...
might make this less painful...

----Stef stopped rambling at 12:16
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Ted's the protagonist in this sitcom...
How I Met Your Mother.
where the sitcom revolves around him telling his kids about the time when he was younger...
and still very much alive in the dating scene..
so it was woman after woman...
and of course, the bunch of very interesting friends...
very Definitely, Maybe...
but i think this sitcom came first...
unless Definitely, Maybe was a book...
we're guessing this woman is IT...
she's a doctor with a kid in tow...
so she refused to go out with him...
saying that she doesnt have time...
only two-minute lunches...
when she obviously likes him too...
so...
this is the date he planned...

loved the song in the background too...
its thirteen by big star...
which is so perfect...
perfect for this scene...

it made me cry...
coz it is oh-so-sweet...
and insanely beautiful...
something you dont quite expect from a comedy...

sometimes you dont have to lose things to realise how much they mean to you...


----Stef stopped rambling at 01:52
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24.4.08
considering how much time i spent on research for this job...
i really hope they, at least, give me a second interview...
pretty please?

----Stef stopped rambling at 02:06
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20.4.08
my selective mind is blocking out everything between now and the 15th of May.
hong kong, hong kong...
i think skipping the island is going to be therapeutic indeed...

job-wise, still no luck...
but considering how much of it isnt luck, but competency...
still not good enough for anybody...

but i might go back into production during the insanely slow jobhunt...
just climbed the mountain the other day and spoke to olivier about temp-ing again...
although i did mention i wanted to concentrate on the lessons i need to take...
driving, powerboating, ncap, first aid...
will see how things go when i get back from...
hong kong, hong kong...

i think it'll be awesome fun meeting up with cyrus, swire and violet..
and waikei's gonna be back in HK too...
so we'll all go yum cha...
how cool is that?

----Stef stopped rambling at 15:59
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13.4.08
i am contemplating a total shut down of this blog...
but i'm reluctant coz of the crappy archives i have here...
it's fun to read and cringe at the horrible language, (lack of) maturity, etc...
another option is to keep it...
and start a new wordpress...
have always been pretty drawn to the neatness and organized layout...
and wx wants a RSS feed...

i dont know.

much as i dont know why alot of things happen in life...
before you read that and start linking it up to what you might have seen on facebook...
things arent always what they seem they are...
crap..
i dont even know what i am talking about...

but to all the nice people...
who are voyeuristic like me...
thank you...
especially linc mah who was terribly sweet...

in other news...
i'll be taking up powerboat lessons soon...
so i might just get a boat license before i even get a driving license...
not sure how everything is going to work out...
but i'm hopeful...
at least i know if i'm gonna be unemployed for some time post-graduation...
i know i'll be suitably entertained and kept occupied with things like my first aid course...
or the ncap theory...
i like to be distracted like that...

but wth...
i hope what doesnt kill me, only makes me stronger...

same goes for the finance quiz that i didnt prepare for, coming up tomorrow...
its the last lap of school...
i need to do this well...


----Stef stopped rambling at 21:01
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