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i thought i'd have grown up over the years... by default or something... and i'll stop making stupid mistakes... doing things i'll regret for a long time... that's not even saying forever... it has been maybe 5 weeks.. it still haunts me... each moment replays and i ask myself why... i cant say i'm young, ignorant or any other factors that alleviates my guilt... coz i'm not... at least no longer... it eats me up from the inside... the happier i am... the angrier i get with myself... i ask myself why... it has been two consecutive sleepless nights so far... this might be the third... i should have known... why should it ever be otherwise... what was i thinking... so now i'm stuck between the devil and the deep blue sea... where the pursuit of happiness drags me into a grim, deep pit of remorse... one that i probably would never be able to climb out of... i guess when happiness != happiness... you know your life is pretty much screwed. ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:59 --Link to Post |
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