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taught a course this weekend... enjoyed it pretty much... coz the people were nice... spent the money that i earned... on stuff i dont exactly need... oh well... in dire need of retail therapy... i've been quite a pain-the-ass of late... especially with the guy... been so stressed out at work... been nuthing but nasty to him... and only to realise 3 mins later that i've been an ass... i've decided that it is impossible for me to try for NOC... despite the fact that i got pretty excited when he told me about it.. but it would be crazy to try map my timetable into the remaining sems... and survive the last sem without my friends and especially YXY... there's always the design project as well... and that will already mean 2 sems worth of work... the guy wants to go.. and judging by his results... he will probably get it... that will mean 1 year apart... like TOTALLY... and while i long to say i am the independent, non-sticky sort... i am not... but i need a "training" like that... to prevent me from becoming even more dependent on him than i already am... it's scary to say the least... both the fact that i am sticky... and the fact that he is leaving... unless i manage to be super busy... and super filled with activities... it will be very lonely... especially with the way PGP is... probably not stay in school when he is gone... so that i can bask in the love at home... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:26 --Link to Post |
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