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must relationships always be trade-offs? or one must always strive for the best... and not settle for less... i've been hearing stories about boyfriends who are so ridiculous... immature... bloody cheats... flirts... jerks... but where the women cannot stop defending their men... and dishes out their weak defences... being very conscious of it all... are flowers, jewellery, presents, reason enough to tolerate horrible treatment? or are these just excuses to hide the materialistic side in everyone of us? are these fireworks worth more than the perfect guy... ...the ever-elusive and probably extinct one? somehow i would love for the guy to treat me more like a girl... pamper me... fuss over me and all of the above... but he doesnt... and i have never received a present outside the usual birthday, valentines' or etc... there isnt fireworks... nor out-of-the-blue surprises... zero, zilch, NONE... sometimes i think to myself that it's the trade-off for finding the almost perfect him... someone who is more mature... ...therefore overlooking my flaws and frequent outbursts... someone who doesnt cheat... ...or at least, not that i know of... someone who doesnt scream at me or throw his temper around... ...other than telling me day after day that he is very tired after work... ...and therefore cannot send me home, only to tune in to the World Cup... i would love to say that i'm not jealous of the chocolates, gifts, flowers others receive... but, truth be told, i am... while practically useless... these prove to be psychologically powerful... i really dunnoe what i would rather have... a near-perfect relationship... ...with near-zero fireworks? or a fireworks and sparks relationship... ...spiced with lotsa of quarrels/breaks/patch-ups? maybe... ...i just need Royce chocolates, flowers by the dozen and a romantic stroll by the river... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:41 --Link to Post |
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