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maybe i shouldnt be asking questions with answers i already know... i kinda told the guy yesterday that maybe we need a little break from one another... not a break-up kinda break... but "have-a-kitkat" sorta break... i know i should talk about this here... but i had to... i thot maybe we need a little time alone to think about what we really want... it's been almost 15 months... in 3 months, it'll be longer than my longest relationship... and i dont want to wait that long to be heartbroken... finding out that, "hey, it isnt working." thing is... we spoke a while on the phone... and when it started to get to a point where i couldnt speak no more... we talked on MSN... i was peeved when he had to leave to work on some programming that was due... but i guess it was okay... i had to be understanding yeah? i was sleepless till 5am... with a class at 9am... succumbed to a kopi-O to keep me functioning... came back to room with a 5pm lunch... called the guy... and had a long conversation about me bullying my friends into buying me cream puffs... me getting him to promise me a Canon Ixus with his first internship paycheck... i think his clause about the 42" plasma TV still applies... me pouting that we couldnt squeeze in a short getaway before he starts work... me complaining that all he ever knew to say was "you dont anyhow anyhow!" me telling him i was watching Sex and the City... us fretting over what internship i could apply to... us deciding that we could go shop for his work clothes tomorrow... us thinking about the weekend even before it got here... us. i dont think i'll want to give up using that word anytime soon... or maybe ever. ----Stef stopped rambling at 20:59 --Link to Post |
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