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i am trying to cure myself of my addiction to the guy... i know it sounds juvenile... and we're way past that stage of waiting for one another to call... stifling the urge to make the first move... thing is... i just want to reassure myself that i'm not needy... okay that sounds bad... i just want to make sure that i am not being with him just because i need somebody beside me... just because i want a hand to hold when i'm feeling alone in the streets full of people... just because i want a shoulder to cry on... just because i want somebody to call whenever i need to bitch... i want to make sure that he is the reason i want to be with anybody... i want to take time to recall the times when i see his eyes disappear behind that smile of his... to recall how i feel so happy whenever i make him laugh... even if he is laughing at me... i want to know that he is the reason why i love walks along the Esplanade... "it's better to be loved more than you love..." saw another few episodes of SATC... lots of oneliners that leave you thinking... but is it really true? and i never really understood the usual lovers' banter of "i love you!", "no! i love you more!"... which we never do la... but my take on the statement above is that... to be able to love who you love with all your heart is one of the most blissful things by itself... to be loved in return is a bonus... but the real question is... who do you really love? how do you know if its love, or lust, or need, or desire, or merely an infatuation? i guess you have to be in love... or what you think is love... in order to find out... but then again... you might be wrong... ----Stef stopped rambling at 18:51 --Link to Post |
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