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i've had dinner with yxy twice this week... we probably see more of each other than we do our respective gf/bf... especially since he is in ME/PGP as well... it's crazy how i enjoy his company... testament to how platonic relationships really do exist... coz we chat about the crappiest of things... and half the time i am rolling my eyes to his egoistic one-liners... laced with his signature malaysian accent... not that it sounds bad... it's just so YXY... but truly... i enjoy dinners in which conversations simply flow... without the need for constant cues... or superficial questions... which is great really... he tells me things so out point i wonder why he ever brings it up... but at the same time... i am thoroughly amused... and kept entertained... i dont feel tired being around him... it's like i dont need to make noise like i usually do to prevent the scary silence... i hate silence... not exactly also... i can be alone... if i am totally alone... i cant stand being alone when it's all busy and rowdy around me... so when i'm with people... i feel an incessant need to keep the conversation going... there are some groups of friends in which i am super quiet... coz the groups have resident noise makers... but when i'm in a group without one... i am compelled to step in... i think silence in groups is awkward... much more than making a fool out of myself... laughing myself silly... but then again.. i relate better to people 1 on 1... i've had countless wonderful conversations in the bus, walking from place to place... with people i have never thought to clique with... i really walk away from these feeling very satisfied... thats the power of a good connection... it kinda reaffirms your very presence... i sound like i am making a mountain out of a molehill... but i really enjoy conversations... doesnt have to be really profound stuff... just the other day i met yb at the foyer of PGP... from the foyer to his block at r5... we talked about doing laundry and me spotting half naked cuties cooking in the kitchen... and i walked away very satisfied... its as if a connection has been made... and i've upped my quota of lives i've touched... doesnt have to be the emotional kinda "touch"... literal meaning works fine enough... chelsea playing liverpool soon... go for power nap... wanna watch lampard play... ----Stef stopped rambling at 01:25 --Link to Post |
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