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went surfing today... training on a 5m soft sail... with justin da man... darren and lumein cant make it... justin is super serious about getting better... hopefully in time for the competition this weekend... even coming out from work in the middle of the day... making his way to the beach... then rushing back to the office for meetings and such... if only i had that kinda conviction... hope he'll do well... as fruit of his efforts... it was queer training without buoys... without things to aim at... but still tried to impart to him everything that i deemed necessary and important for racing... upwinds... downwind pumping... start line-up... tacks... gybes... daggerboard techniques... and some tactical stuff... wahaha... luckily the lifevest tanline aint that obvious... now i just need to work on the tanktop tanline... i think i damn foolhardy... jolly well know got ugly tanline... still go and wear the tanktop... haiz... met yauhong at the airport... while waiting for bus 36... guy was meeting the rest of his med frenz at the beach... to surf also... find that, like Justin, quiet demeanour aside... they can hold a conversation really well if need be... and be as noisy as me... you just need the right topics... realised that both him and justin got really pretty eyes... cannot take it... i think my eyes damn cannot make it... no double eyelids... no long lashes.... eyebags... haiz... wad to do... stick eyelid stickers? mascara? concealer? wahhaah... i think i rather sleep more than spend time on any of these... was supposed to watch sneaks of Fantastic Four this evening... even though it doesnt seem to be that fantastic... judging from reviews in the papers... we kinda ran out of movies to watch already... but plans had to be changed... and i had to trudge home when dinner wasnt prepared for me at home... takeaway a BK student meal... munched on onion rings and sipped lemon tea... on my long walk back home from the interchange... seldom do this long walk... approximately a 4-bus-stops distance... but when i feel down and out... walks/jogs tend to clear my mind abit... but was feeling particularly bitter about being cancelled on... started shuffling dried leaves out of my path... damn childish... i know... but i reckoned it'd better taking it out on the leaves... than being moody at home... snapping at my siblings... and being questioned as to why i was feeling down... and interrogated... it was a long and slow walk... deliberately took my time... many people walked past me... running towards the traffic junctions when they saw the green man flashing... including an old woman... and a primary school kid with legs like 3/4 of mine... the click-click-clocking of work shoes... bicycle bells demanding that i clear the path for them... the usual buzz about the main junctions... and me... just kicking away the fallen leaves off my path... still sipping my lemon tea... sometimes i amaze myself at how bitter i feel about the most insignificant things... of course, appearing unreasonable to most... but seriously... i cant help how i feel... it's terrible to be torn between feeling a certain way... knowing it's wrong to feel that way... and being unable to do anything about it... i suck. ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:57 --Link to Post |
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