| 4.10.04 |
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i am not doing my maths tutorial for tomorrow...
i kinda made myself not do any work this weekend... after my test on saturday... was pretty stressed out by then.... needed some lull... couldnt resist reading what i needed for tomorrow though... and still had the paper proposals at the back of my head.... argh... cant get work out of my mind... but at least this weekend... i managed to go out with wsfing comm.... meet sz, wq and lili at parkway while we all were there... meet sam at nsc on sun... he was nice enough to come down during his a levels to help me with the equipment i needed... at least i did some human things this weekend... for that i'm glad... cy's going to fly to aust for about a month... army stuff... training... or stuff... will probably try to pass him the keychain i got him... shrugs... it aint that nice... but i guess it serves well enough as a reason to meet up before he leaves... he hasnt been smsing or calling as much since a couple of weeks ago... i guess i dont blame him for that... but i dont think i wanna lose the fren in him... went for a jog late friday nite... was having a horrendous time with mugging for programming test... decided to go for midnite jog with berwine.... couldnt even finish the A1 route... feel quite lousy... but its kinda crazy.... met gary on the way.... and started talking about the errors in his program... hah... engin students just cant take their minds off work... esp programs.... they just eat into you.... berw and i talked for awhile at the amphitheatre... talked a lot just now too... about people ard us... and stuff... about uni... about usp... friends... we dont have the luxury of time for such chats... but i guess sometimes... we cant help coz it's one of the only things to keep us sane... i realised a distinct change in me after i started uni... i've begun to hate making decisions... i can never seem to tell my dad when i wanna go back pgp... nor tell him when i wanna eat with them... where i wanna go for dinner.... argh... i think i'm not very cut out for life ard here... friday i had a major bout of "what-the-hell-am-i-doing-with-my-life" issue.... after my EE and programming tutorial... i was really questioning my very existence... i couldnt understand a single thing in klass... and the guys ard are like super-duper... understand everything... as i walked out with jo anne... i almost broke down... but i din... i just wanted to get back to pgp asap... lets hope this week is better... even though i never attempted my maths tut... got the lonely planet book on thailand from lu laioz... i think its a super expensive book... must take care... and i think lu is a super nice guy too... glad to have met him... and i think i wont have time to read the book... what the heck... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:14 --Link to Post |
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