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sometimes...
the realisation, tat u're not as impt as u would like to be to someone, is heart-wrenching... but i guess it is somewhat inevitable... u cant expect every love/like/hate to be reciprocated... nor your feelings made known, right and clear, everytime... sometimes... when sms/icq.msges go unanswered... time and time again... it hurts coz it simply goes to show how impt you are to that friend... nuthing more than a flashing icon on the desktop... what if... you're one of the *shrug-i'll-answer-that-later-but-never-do* victims? do you slowly give up trying? forget abt the whole friendship... and maybe hope that one day... just maybe... the person would take the initiative for once? sometimes... you wonder why is all this happening... and why cant everyone deal u the same amt of attn/love/care/concern you had for them since day1... and whether it was worth your while trying so hard? what if... you realised that the person whose call you alwaz answered, whose sms you've alwaz replied... never really did the same for you? that you've been there for them... alwaz... but not the other way ard? is this wat my dad means when he advised not to contribute too much in a friendship... lest you be disappointed at the low returns? no expectation, no disappointment? tough... expectation is bound to be there... not giving it your all? i dont see the frenship going anywhere... i guess it should suffice that i'm trying... hard enough... if there was anyone i need to answer to... it'll be myself... ----Stef stopped rambling at 00:20 --Link to Post |
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