| 20.5.04 |
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this is getting crazier by the minute...
my third post of the day... only means one thing... depression... how severe? i dont know... only know that i receieved only 1 sms today... for a lunch date with my jc mates... which i had to decline... coz i was stuck in school for students who dont reciprocate... dying to get back to sch... as a student... and start torturing my tutors too... feeling terrible... cant decide whether it's just psychological or physical... pain is back... though not for the same reason... and it worries me... know how it feels to want to call someone but dont know who to call? horrible... in a total mess... a state of confusion... cant decide between heading to bed and sleeping with a troubled mind... or staying here to pour everything out and STILL sleep with a troubled mind... playing badminton with da teachers tmr... probably a chance to let it all out... SMACK those shuttles... just as long as i dont miss and have them hit me instead... mr lam gave me the sacred mission of asking mr lim to play... i think i forgot... ought to be shot... but oh well... he never seemed really enthusiastic abt such stuff anyway... but that wont happen if my students decide to look me up then... then i'll have to go back to pretending i'm the best teacher in the whole wide world... and be their free private tutor... mr cia's supposed to treat us again tomorrow... now he's telling me it's pronounced as cHia... damn... i gave up... i'm addressing him as xie lao shi... *waves white flag* just hope we wouldnt smell too bad after badminton... and spoil everyone's lunch... let's hope the weather will be more bearable tmr... that 208 will be the utterly sweet pple i thot them out to be... that i wont get smacked by shuttles... that i wont stink THAT badly after the game... that my mood will hopefully get better... that i will break out of this depression... that i remember to do/say/ask stuff i'm supposed to do/say/ask... that the weekend comes quickly... that everyone loves everyone and peace be with all of humanity... *applause* ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:18 --Link to Post |
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