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still up at 2 am...
family's not home yet... and i dont usually sleep when they're not back yet... maybe i am 'fraid of solitude... or maybe it's worry... but oh well guess they're probably enjoying themselves at the bowling alley... the last time they disappeared on me was at a sale at ikea... four of them din come home till the wee hours of the morning.. best part... no one answered their phone... liew... thought i was the oni idiot who does that... they got me pretty worried alrite... but still... they came back... in one piece... each... tissue still stuffed in nose... now both nostrils... no fever... but its running like siao... wonder if i can go out tomorrow... supposed to meet yunnboon if he doesnt have NDP rehearsal... hope his number was in my SIM and not my old phone... i can be quite a blur nut sometimes... been having a terrible time remembering things lately... like when i was still in MJ... i kept forgetting to bring tutorials for mr sung... forgot to collect stuff... forgot to pass students things... kinda forgot to eat on the last day as well... forgot where i stopped for the last tutorial... lost track of appointments... of things to do... people to meet... stress or lack of sleep? i dunnoe... hope it improves... aint good that i go into uni with a lousy brain... it IS lousy in the first place... had a blast crapping on msn with 212 just now though... found out abt their mini zoo... offered to be their zoo keeper... esp the monkey enclosure where most of them are... kinda interesting to interact with them outside school... but considering how informal we already are in school... MSN aint much of a difference... they still call me miss lim though... unlike some teachers who insist on a first-name with their students... i thot it was the oni way i can establish an authority should i need to... but i guess so far there wasnt one... even if there was... they probably wont listen anyway... the oni serious goodbye i had with any colleague was probably mr cia... ya know... the handshake... the whats-up-for-you-in-the-future.. the all-the-best... the keep-in-touch... din have a chance to do that with the chem department though... coz jas and i gave the farewell dinner for ms ting a miss... most just did a see-you-later... most were at klass when i left anyway... oh well... the RTs were sweeter though... passed chocs ard... exchanged numbers... wrote something for everyone... coz the 8 weeks spent together was definitely something... an experience i probably wont forget... am feeling down... i dunnoe whether it was coz of things i chanced upon... or things i am thinking... sometimes i think i think too much... check out the irony man! maybe i put too much emphasis on things that shouldnt matter... i dunnoe... actually... i should be really happy with my life now... but i think i expect too much of the world ard me... and a little flaw is probably too much... i'll find out... i'll move on... i'll be back to being a happy person... ----Stef stopped rambling at 02:01 --Link to Post |
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