| 9.12.03 |
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final day of the races....
though it signifies the beginning of super siong training... and more scoldings from coach... wind was kinda stronger today than any other day... oni us thot it was strong i guess... arun helped me with my sail today actually... nice of him... coz he din have to... sail was ultra flat.... like prata... felt like coward... but i guess it was the oni way i could sail... tried to pump... but was having prbs even trying to bring the harness lines to my harness... what pump? results aint fantastic... they arent even good... but at least i know i tried beyond wad i think i can do... was constantly thinking of retiring from the race... but like in a marathon run... u just keep telling urself... 50 more metres... c'mon... you asshole... (directed at yourself...insults work...but oni sometimes...) i guess i survived... callouses beginning to form on my little palms.... damn... they hurt... but they'll stop hurting after awhile i guess... i await that day... patiently... been shopping quite abit actually.... quite unlike me... but i guess the x'mas mood is getting to me... good thing i guess... coz i've alwaz loved x'mas... its one holiday that is simply oh-so-special... rest day tmr... think we're going to some island off pattaya beach... supposed to be fun... but how to enjoy when the coach who is bringing you there keeps saying that we are spoilt and shouldnt to enjoying so much... quite contradictory... but i guess paradoxes are part and parcel of life... that one has to let go... let loose... if not... life would be rather miserable... that... i would really have to learn la... must say again... am enjoying the thai hospitality... but i guess the least i can do in return.. is chiong harder for trainings... am trying... but will try even harder ya??? at least some of them call me by name liaoz... and the waiter seems to acknowledge my presence every morning... and my usual little bows at the more senior sailors... get reciprocated... and i'm beginning to cultivate a little thai accent... oh ya... did i mention? pple keep thinking i'm thai... say i look like one of them... is it the colour??? and that WQ looks like japanese... haha... she loves hearing that... she's my bestest confidant over here la... so i'm glad... like last nite... we spoke till pretty late... regardless of the fact that we had a race today... actually i couldnt sleep... but.. somehow... we just got talking... and kinda couldnt stop... am wearing a top i bought yesterdae... qi says its revealing... man... but i thot its quite cool lor... anyway i'm wearing the race shirt over it later... who's to see anything? =P unless we're having a nite out... ciao first... have to shower some love on my poor little hands... ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:07 --Link to Post |
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