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shanshan gave me this photo yesterdae...
i think she looks sooOOOoooOOooo sweet! dont u think so? 
granny suddenly woke up... started talking really loudly... kinda got worried... went to her for a while... dad and i spoke to her for the longest time... its like having 3 generations ard talking... it felt homely... it felt good... time was spent calming granny down... but somehow... felt really close to her holding her hand... it wasnt just a surface hold... but fingers interlinked... and a tight grip... never felt so close to her before... but today i did... we think she might be getting senile soon... but quite frankly... dun want that to happen... i dun want to come back from pattaya and she asking me who i am... she really dotes on me alot... i want my song-singing... malay-vulgarities-sprouting...happy-go-lucky granny... and watching my dad comfort her the way he did today... almost made me cry... coz i realised i had the best of dads... and kinda regretted not being a better daughter... my dad alwaz had a way with children... i know he loves us and will go all out to protect us... quite frankly... i wanna do that for him too... when he grows old... remember i told my mom a couple of weeks ago... that she shouldnt be giving us the best parts of the chicken anymore... or the fish or the like... thing is... there comes a point in life where the parent no longer takes care of the child... a one way thing... i know i'm not old enough to say i'll take care of them... but i can say that we've come to a stage where we take care of each other... sometimes treating us all too good makes us take things for granted... lest that happens... i thought it'll be better that she starts treating me like an adult... and let me be good to her as well... sounds all too ideal? truth is... i'm not that good... but i try to be... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:55 --Link to Post |
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