| 13.8.03 |
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slack day...
din do much chem with YC... waited till the rain subsided... then made our way to sk for dinner... poor guy... have to pei me like dat... but oh well... thats for being my fren... my frenz always kena qi fu by me one... =) battlefield was pretty not bad today... had fun... erm... was kinda enriching... really... learnt alot of things... the guide was great... very knowledgable... cheers! talked alot to YC today... its quite farnie actually... to think abt how much i detested working with him last year coz of a misunderstanding we had over work... but seriously... he aint that bad a person... hahah... not that he was bad to start off with... but that we had a bad start to our frenship lah... guess things worked out ok... told him my secret liaoz.... so he's the second guy to know... i know i din wanna more pple to find out... but somehow... i found it damn difficult to keep it from him... and really wanted to tell him... haha... dunno why either... =P but YC kinda agreed tat it was impossible... so i gave up all remaining hope i actually had... oh well... nevertheless... it has been a great thing liking ***... i cant comprehend what i feel... but its been making me work harder... which is in fact a good thing... =) i know where i stand... and tat i could never be on the same level as him... but i guess i'm happy simply being frens... and would rather writhe in silence than risk losing our frenship by some impulsively foolish declaration... life's not all abt work... nor love... nor relationships... nor studies... there's no imperative... being in relationships b4... am able to see the pros and cons of both... it is beautiful yeah... but like most beautiful things are... they're not a necessity... maybe i was too young then to fully understand it... to make it work for us... 21mths wasnt a long time for a relationship... though in comparision to my peers, it was... 21 mths was a long time to realise that it wasnt meant to be... i was sad... so was he... or so i hoped... but i guess both of us had to move on... and i'm glad we did... ----Stef stopped rambling at 23:03 --Link to Post |
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