| 7.8.03 |
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kinda got an email last nite...
andrew's bringing us up to pattaya thailand for december... probably be spending like 3 weeks there... my first overseas training stint... though i competed in penang b4.. this will be my first training overseas... will join the siam cup at the end of it... actually am freaked out abit... coz its gonna be like... months without training... preparing for a levels... then suddenly go pattaya and chiong.... feel apprehensive... got lotsa reasons why i dont wanna go... but more reasons why i should go... its much of a dilemma actually... coz i really wanna stay... i wanna go for DnD... its like i missed the class chalet liaoz... coz of penang... i dun wanna miss something like dat again... somemore PC said they wanna get chalet.... i think most probably i'll be left out again... damn sad... sometimes i do wonder why i cant be just like any of my peers... have all the time in the world... to chill out...date...hang out...sleep...or just to have time for myself... i dont talk to myself enough... that i hardly even know myself... i know it sounds psychotic... i want time to daydream... thats all... typical day during the pattaya trip... Tuesday 021203 0600hrs Morning run 0630hrs Warm down and stretching 0700hrs Gym workout 0745hrs Warm down and shower 0800hrs Breakfast and rest 1000hrs Water training - drills 1200hrs Lunch break – rest 1430hrs Water training – sailing correction 1530hrs Course racing 1700hrs Tactics correction 1800hrs Warm down, stretching, wash up 1900hrs Dinner 2000hrs Briefing for the day’s training Course discussion 2100hrs Lights out thats oni the first day after we touched down on monday... gawd... dunnoe how i would survive it... 3 whole weeks! and i thot i could stay in sg and take up some martial arts after the a levels... was thinking i could use the time to slack... did cross my mind to drop out of the team... fear...reluctance...fatigue... i dunnoe... i havent lost the passion for the sport... nor the desire to succeed... but... i dunnoe wad either... this is a huge opportunity for us... after this... if we're keen... and good... they'll send us to hainan or zhejiang in future... to train with the chinese province teams... met them before... and thot they're great... seriously.... i dunnoe how... big decision... dont think i can decide on my own... ----Stef stopped rambling at 14:40 --Link to Post |
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