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"When two people try to lead, nothing feels right.
The movement doesn't flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky. When one person realizes and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other." that was something i found in my inbox... kinda cool when you think abt it... it truly explains how just some relationships last... while others simply fail.. shant elaborate much on this topic today... been through too much of it in previous entries... judah's going to canada after his o's... haiz.. was reminded of that a couple of days ago when he msg-ed me... kinda sad... esp when i think back on how wonderful a fren he was... he was like the main life of the whole windsurfing team... bringing us fun and laughter... and considering he was eye candy too... kinda made him a good fren to go out with... muahahaah... still rem the crappy times we all shared... shufang...jud...WQ...shuzhen...we all had crazy ideas all the time... once at nooch...cant realy rem the name... the noodle house at wheelock lah... we put all sorts of chilli condiments in one of the soups... gross... but we still drank every drop of it... not coz it was yummy... but coz it was pricey... or even the times when we would shiver wet and cold at our base... stuck at shore with lightning and too strong a wind... we'll beach the equipment and hide behind one another... esp jud who was so skinny... it was kinda scary seeing him in that state coz of the dangers of hypothermia on someone with so little body fat... freaky... simply put... i'll really miss him... and guess most of us would too... which makes me wonder... if i was the one leaving would everyone miss me just as bad... din guess so... considering how thin i spread myself all the time... i had to juggle between the basketballers... my classmates...windsurfing team mates... alex/ben... its hard to strike a balance yet maintain a close and personal relationship with them all... sometimes i really wonder... would i be better of if i concentrated on a certain few friends... coz all i can salvage now is maybe oni rene, bernie, GY, jud and maybe SZ... =) but at least i still have them... and my 'new' pals at AJ... hmm... sometimes when i'm out with the peeps... and hear them gossiping abt others... though i admit i do join in... i cant deny that i feel bad also... very bad indeed... 'do onto others what you want others to do onto you...' applies in the negative way as well... 'dont do onto others....' do wonder how would i feel if others spoke abt me the same way... i'm not perfect... guess some might... but sometimes though i may be mean or something.. i'm not fully aware of it... kinda like the incident in my PW group... still feel bad... and feel strained in the grp... but it's just not me to sit back and not say anything when mr wee sits in at our table... i really dunnoe wat to do... what boundaries not to cross... that was the first time i broke down in AJ... i hate crying... can never stop... would just go on and on and on... the same theory with my laughter... 'once you pop you cant stop' like the pringles advert... i may look like someone who dont get emotionally affected easily... but i do... just that i'll bottle everything up and go home... wait until nitefall before i hide under my blankie and cry... lousy feeling... to be hiding from everyone else... but i cant affect everyone else just coz of my prbs alone... sometimes i do confide in pple... like ben when he was still my sandbag... chunyong when we were talking... rene of coz... stella when we go home together... on hindsight it looks like alot... muahaha... just me not to appreciate things when i have them... k better stop... need to do the stewpig design experiment... and write my script for PW tmr... it'll be a brand new week... and hope things will go fine... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 22:33 --Link to Post |
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