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back from the sea expedition off the coast of sembawang... gosh...i swear i'll stick faithfully to windsurfing... and feel terrible for jisiao-ing abt the kayak-ers at ecp when i'm on my surfboard... bleh... its not easy lor...but maybe coz i was unfit... worse thing...i was heavier than YZ some more! so paiseh...must train must train... coach's gonna kill me when he sees me next week man... haiz...feel so weak and unfit... expedition was fun... just laughing mindless with YZ...or rather at him... coz even though i cant see him...(he was sitting behind...) he was so damn funny... boat kept rocking...haha! but noticed that most of the odacians are kinda weird... u bang them...they stare you down.. they bang you....and disorientate your kayak... they are no reaction... =( i said sorry whenever i banged them okie??? courtesy i learnt while sailing with thai and hkg sailors... especially when prize money of races even reach $1000 each... u ought to apologise for taking that away from them man... woo...but the max i've gotta from racing is $200 bucks i think... when i was super lucky...muahhahaa... but really tired...slept in my dad's car like a *oink*oink*... actually was supposed to go granny's b-dae celebrations... but kinda got into a mini-tiff with my mum... coz i was dead tired with PW due for meeting tmr... i wanted to stay home... =( she got sarcastic with me... so i got sarcastic back... haiz...come to think of it it was quite childish... but oh well.. hope everything's fine now... passed by serangoon gardens today... and like i alwaz do... kinda peered out of the car to look out for that one green jimny... hadnt got the luck... seriously wonder...when would i ever stop doing that??? for all i know...he might not be even driving that car anymore... or would it take someone else to pull me up from the depths of depression??? frankly its kinda tiring... hope can be both a good and bad thing.. often, both at the same time... it keeps you believing in the impossibility... but also gives you a false sense of assurance... of something that can never happen... so wat? do i keep hoping??? that one day i would see him again and get an answer that i've been waiting for... a reply that i've been hoping to get for more than a year... it was something that meant so much to me... yet i was denied of it... shucks... i think this blog makes me think of all these stuff... but its hard to remove urself from these thots when you're in deep thot of wad to include in ur blog... hmm... you tend to think more... therefore...higher the probability that you'll think of something unpleasant... =P but oh well... life must go on... despite how sad or depressed we are... and once again... i shall dump all my =( here... and go on to a happy person... until tmr... =) ----Stef stopped rambling at 19:04 --Link to Post |
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